A Very Special Christmas

by Jessica Matthews

  A VERY SPECIAL CHRISTMAS

  Jessica Matthews

  Practice nurse and single mom Claire Westin is more interested in treating her patients than celebrating Christmas -- it brings back memories too painful to remember. But her gorgeous boss, Alex Ridgeway, senior physician at the Pleasant Valley practice, is determined to remind her of the magic of Christmas. For Alex knows it is the only way Claire can move on, and the one thing she must do if he is to have any chance of convincing her that bringing their families together will make not only Christmas, but every day of their lives very, very special....

  CHAPTER ONE

  "What do you want first? The good news, or the bad?"

  "Tough decision." Claire Westin peered over her freshly poured morning cup of coffee to smile up at the physician who'd hired her two months ago. "Which would you rather give?"

  Alex Ridgeway shrugged shoulders that were too broad and too tempting to be ignored. At six-four, he towered over her by at least seven inches and the height difference made it effortlessly easy to gaze at the sexy hollow of his throat.

  "I asked you first," he reminded her with a grin that made him appear twenty-five instead of ten years older.

  Because their offices weren't officially open this early, he hadn't covered his street clothes with his usual white coat, so she could see the play of biceps under his tan sweater. His muscles and bone structure, not to mention skin that hadn't completely lost its summer tan, provided a prime reason to wish for hot weather when tank tops and shorts were in vogue. If he mowed his yard shirtless, she could sell tickets to women all over town. She'd make a small fortune, too, but she doubted if Alex would agree.

  What a tragedy to let such eye candy go to waste!

  His dark hair and well-defined features made him quite striking as far as looks were concerned, although the thin scar bisecting his right eyebrow was the only imperfection she could see. If she'd been brave enough to ask about it, she would have, but she'd decided that he'd probably earned it playing sports since he had the tall, lean body of a basketball player and large hands to match. Size notwithstanding, those long fingers were gentle enough to soothe a baby's cry, yet powerful enough to yank a dislocation into place.

  But he was waiting for an answer, not an assessment of his appearance. "I'd rather not ruin my day right away, so give me the good news first," she said.

  "Henry Grieg gave us a hundred dollars to spend."

  Claire knew better than to look a gift horse in the mouth, but if the money was intended for medical equipment, it wouldn't buy much. "And that's cause for a celebration?"

  "Yes and no."

  She chuckled. "Which is it? And why do I sense this is tied to the bad news?"

  Alex grinned. "It's not really bad news. It's an assignment." Then, like a little boy who couldn't hold his secret any longer, he added, "You and I, are in charge of decorating the Christmas tree in our group's waiting room."

  To Claire, this was Bad news, with a capital B. The last time she'd gotten caught up in the season had been three years ago, and it had turned into the worst holiday of her life. Since then, she'd done her best to ignore Christmas as much as anyone could who was surrounded by people who went overboard.

  To hide her dismay, she sipped her coffee without thinking and instant fire filled her mouth. She squealed.

  "What's wrong?" he asked, his dark brows drawn together in a straight line. "Too hot?"

  She nodded. "Burned my tongue."

  "Bummer."

  "Yeah. But back to decorating. Why us? We're the new kids on the block."

  Alex filled his mug, a ceramic cup that was emblazoned with World's Greatest Dad and stirred in the ice he'd chipped out of the freezer tray. "Exactly."

  "Ah. I get it now. No one else wants the job, so we're elected by default."

  He grinned. "Not quite."

  His jovial attitude was oddly suspicious. It was one thing for Dr Grieg to assign her to the task and another for Alex to speak for her. "Don't tell me you volunteered."

  He raised his drink to his mouth, drawing her gaze to full lips and a square jaw. "He caught me as I was leaving last night and asked if we'd be willing."

  She sank onto a chair, struggling to keep her voice even. "And you agreed."

  "What else could I do?"

  "Refuse," she said promptly.

  "He may have asked ever so politely, but I caught the distinct impression that I didn't have a choice. We have to take our turn, you know."

  Alex had moved to Pleasant Valley last summer, while she'd arrived six weeks ago, in the middle of October.

  "That may be, but I'm surprised he doesn't want people who are more familiar with how the clinic as a whole handles the holiday." She hated the desperate sound in her voice, but it matched the way she felt.

  "New blood brings new ideas, or so Henry believes."

  This new blood was fresh out of ideas and didn't want to think of any. "I thought the doctors and their wives- slash-girlfriends were responsible for decorating."

  "They are, but since I don't have either, I need you to stand in as my assistant. For the record, Henry mentioned you himself." Alex studied her with a gaze that was far more intent than she liked. "Is there a problem?"

  Yes, she wanted to shout. There is. Instead, she hesitated. So much for hoping she could talk someone else into helping Alex, someone like her friend Nora Laslow, who'd encouraged her to apply for this job in the first place. Should she explain her feelings about Christmas? How this season was more depressing than enjoyable? And what good would it do? Alex was counting on her. Henry had issued his directive and, unless one had a sound reason against it, his word was law.

  Of course, she could explain to Alex—he'd understand because that was the sort of man he was—but did she want to? She'd come to Pleasant Valley to start over, and holding back the nitty-gritty details of her history was part of it. She intended to move forward at a snail's pace, not at jet speed. But since she had no choice, she'd simply have to muddle through as best she could.

  "No," she finally said. "I just wish you'd cleared this with me beforehand."

  "I couldn't. You'd already left and, like I said, I didn't have much choice. If you're afraid of the amount of time it will take, don't," he assured her. "I talked it over with Jennie and she's willing to help us this afternoon."

  "Then you shouldn't need me." Relief swept through her. His eight-year-old daughter could handle hanging ornaments and flinging tinsel over the tree.

  He frowned, and for an instant she was afraid he'd ask questions about her blatantly obvious reluctance. "Actually, I do," he said. "First of all, each department holds a contest for everything from The Prettiest to The Most Unusual. According to Henry, we can choose any theme we'd like and we're not under any pressure to win anything. Although he did mention that our department has won one category or another for the last three years."

  Themes? Prizes? This didn't sound at all like slapping a few ornaments on a tree and calling it good. This sounded like serious business.

  It was also business that she didn't want to take on in any way, shape or form. She simply didn't have the heart for it.

  "Any suggestions?" he asked.

  "Sorry." Claire shook her head for emphasis. "You've thought about this longer than I have."

  "How do you feel about snowflakes and icicles?"

  Cold and ice. No one could have described how her heart felt during this time of year more perfectly.

  "Sounds good to me." At least he hadn't proposed angels. She didn't think she could bear that. "Where are you going to find what we need on such short notice?"

  "Last night we went to the store for ideas. We found glass icicles and Jennie vol
unteered to cut out snowflakes." He grinned. "She was so excited, she started on them as soon as we came home. She loves Christmas, you know."

  "So I assumed."

  Claire wondered if she'd ever see Joshua anticipate the season as eagerly as Jennie did, but to do that, she'd have to get caught up with holiday joy herself. For his sake, she should, but she had a few years before he'd question why they didn't observe Christmas like everyone else.

  "Anyway," he continued, "now that we've agreed on a theme, we're going back to the store during our lunch-break to buy the supplies. I'd hoped you'd ride along."

  "I can't today," she said, trying to sound disappointed when she wasn't. "I may get my hair cut if my hairstylist can work me in."

  Alex's gaze flitted over her hair, and she was tempted to run her hand over her short, straight locks. "Looks great to me."

  She smiled. "Thanks, but, believe me, I need to visit my hairdresser. Don't worry. I'm sure whatever you buy will be fine. Just let me know how much I owe you."

  "Nothing," he said. "Henry gave me a hundred dollars, remember?"

  "Ah, yes. Our good news,", she said dryly. "Will that be enough?"

  He looked horrified. "I hope so. Even if it isn't, we can't spend a penny more. To keep things fair, we're required to work within a budget." He switched gears. "Can you think of anything else we might need? I'd hate to forget the obvious."

  "Snowflakes and icicles. I'd say you've covered the main elements," she said.

  "Then it's settled." He rose. "Are you going to the staff meeting now?"

  Claire would rather have skipped it, but Henry was a stickler for attendance. "Yes, but I have to make a quick phone call first."

  "I'll see you there."

  He left, and instantly Claire was aware of how empty a room seemed without him. He had a presence that always engulfed her, which was disconcerting to say the least. Oddly enough, he was the. only man she'd been around since Ray's death who caused that sort of inexplicable reaction.

  Although he was Available, with a capital A—happily divorced, according to Nora—he seemed more interested in raising his eight-year-old daughter, Jennie, than in pursuing a love life.

  She felt the same way. Joshua demanded her attention and, being his only parent, she wanted to provide twice as much to compensate for her missing other half.

  After she called the beauty shop and heard the news that she'd have to wait until Wednesday, she hurried to the conference room and ran into Nora.

  Nora and Claire had been classmates at nursing school and their friendship had lasted for eleven years. She was a vivacious, petite blonde who worked for Dennis Rehman, the newlywed physician of the bunch. She was also on a perpetual diet to shed the thirty extra pounds her three pregnancies in five years had given her.

  "Don't sit at the table," Nora told Claire as she steered her toward the chairs against the wall.

  "Why not?"

  "Because someone brought crème-filled donuts and my willpower this morning is at an all-time low."

  "OK."

  Fortunately for Nora, the seats around the conference table—and the donuts—were taken. Alex was sitting beside his three colleagues—Dennis Rehman, Mike Chudzik and Eric Halverson—while Henry Grieg stood at the front of the room. He tapped his fountain pen against his cup and the gathering quieted.

  "I'll make this short and sweet, people," he said. "I'm sure you've received your notices from the hospital about delinquent charts. You also know how I feel about those, so if the letter applies to you, I suggest you do something about it."

  One of the things that impressed Claire was Alex's attention to detail. He was the last person she'd ever expect to fall too far behind in his paperwork.

  After discussing the status of this quarter's budget, Henry finished with, "This is a reminder that our group is responsible for the behind-the-scenes work for this year's clinic Christmas party."

  "Has it been five years since the last time we were the hosts?" Mike Chudzik asked. Mid-fortyish, he was a short, balding fellow with a schoolteacher wife and two elementary school children.

  Henry nodded. "Orthopedics was in charge last year and our turn in the rotation comes after theirs. As you can imagine, I'm expecting everyone to pitch in. Amy has the sign-up sheet and there are still plenty of open job slots.

  "And don't think you can get by with not helping," he warned as he peered over his reading glasses to survey those squeezed into the conference room like sardines. "There are twenty slots and twenty staff members, so I'll know if someone doesn't volunteer. I'm expecting one hundred per cent participation." , Claire mentally groaned. With more than thirty physicians, who represented nearly every major medical specialty in the Pleasant Valley Clinic, and nearly three hundred support staff members, including Lab, Pharmacy, Radiology and Maintenance, she'd hoped no one would notice her absence. Fat chance. She hadn't counted on the family practice group playing a key role. It was just her luck that she had to partake in the festivities her first year here.

  If only she'd applied for a job in Orthopedics...

  Surely there would be some way she could wiggle out of whatever responsibility Henry might have for her. It was bad enough she'd gotten roped into decorating, but she drew the line at attending a party, in any capacity. If nothing else, her son Joshua was two, and everyone knew that illness struck two-year-olds at a-moment's notice. She didn't want him sick, of course, but she was desperate enough to pretend that he was.

  The rustle of people rising off their chairs signaled the end of the meeting. By virtue of their late arrival and the seats they'd taken, Claire and Nora were some of the last to leave the conference room. Claire took advantage of those few, relatively private moments to discuss the subject that had tied her in knots.

  "Did you hear?" she asked in a tone meant for Nora's ears only. "I'm supposed to decorate the office Christmas tree with Alex."

  Nora winked at her. "You lucky dog, you. I know of several nurses in Oncology who would love to be in your shoes."

  "They can have them," Claire said fervently.

  "No can do. The tree has to be decorated by people in the department or we'll be disqualified."

  "Maybe Hattie will take my place." Hattie had come out of retirement to work as Eric's nurse while his regular assistant, Christina, was on maternity leave.

  "You'll be fine."

  "I can't do it. As for attending a party?" She shook her head. "It's out of the question."

  "I know it will be tough—"

  "Try impossible."

  "Some things are," Nora agreed, "but this isn't."

  Claire disagreed. "You have to think of someone who'll fill in for me."

  "No."

  "I'll beg if I have to."

  "I don't want you to beg. I want you to reconsider."

  "Why?"

  "You moved here to start over, which was long overdue, if you ask me."

  Nora had suggested a change eighteen months ago, but it had taken a while for Claire to consider the idea, then to make plans and finally to implement them. "I'll admit I didn't rash into uprooting Joshua and me, but we're here and we're adjusting."

  "So adjust a little more."

  "Easy for you to say."

  "You'd be finished if you'd been working instead of whining," Nora pointed out.

  Nora was right—Claire had spent a lot of time dreaming up ways to be excused from this particular task. "I just don't have the spirit."

  "Then find it." Nora's voice softened. "I don't mean to sound cruel and heartless. I'd feel the same way if I'd buried my husband the week before Christmas, but it's been three years. You have Joshua to think about. You don't want to deprive him of the excitement, do you?"

  "He's only two. He won't realize what it's all about until he starts kindergarten."

  Nora shook her head. "He watches television. This time next year he'll have marked every page in a Christmas catalog with what he wants from Santa. You might as well think of this as your firs
t step. You're only decorating the waiting room, not the entire clinic or the courthouse square."

  "Don't forget the party."

  "Then sign up to be a greeter. Once everyone has arrived, you can slip out and no one will be the wiser."

  Of course, greeting people meant she'd have to appear with a smile on her face and spout the usual holiday platitudes to everyone who entered. She couldn't do that. She wouldn't.

  Claire shook her head. "I don't think so."

  Nora shrugged. "You'd better volunteer for something or I can guarantee you'll be stuck guarding the eggnog. Believe me, that job lasts all night. There's always some jerk who wants to spike it."

  "A typical company party," Claire said, remembering those she'd attended with Ray.

  "Complete with people who get loaded. Why. do free drinks always bring out the closet alcoholics? Anyway, I'd better run. We have a busy morning ahead of us."

  Claire made one last attempt. "Are you sure I can't talk you into taking over for me on the decorating detail?"

  "Oh, you probably could," Nora began, but before Claire could feel relieved she added, "if I thought this wouldn't be a good thing for you to do. As far as I'm concerned, this is the perfect Christmas prescription for your holiday blues, so you can save your breath."

  "Gee, thanks."

  Nora grinned. "What are friends for? As an added bonus, you'll spend quality time with our delectable Dr Alex. Why, you might even have a conversation with him that doesn't revolve around patients or diseases."

  "We talk," Claire protested. Granted, their discussions usually centered around their children, but they did talk.

  "Then I've given you another opportunity."

  "I'm going to scratch you off my Christmas card list," Claire warned.

  "You don't send cards."

  "I could start."

  Nora giggled. "Trust me. This will be good for you. See you later."

  Frustrated by Nora's logic, Claire rubbed the back of her neck and considered her choices. As far as she could tell, and much to her annoyance, she didn't have any.

  "I'm going to write a list just so I can scratch Nora off," she mumbled aloud.