Where Souls Spoil

by Jc Emery

  The door on the far side of the room swings open. An imposing body, too large to be a woman, stands in the doorway, blocking the light hanging overhead behind him. His shadow casts into the room, disappearing in the darkness, and a brief spark of recognition ignites somewhere in me. A huge bulking frame leans over me with his hand on my lower abdomen, above my hip.

  Grady.

  I move back toward the headboard, but dull pains emanate from just above my right hip and I let my arms fall to my sides as I sink back into the mattress. It reminds me of everything that happened, and I groan. The last person I want to rely on is Sterling Grady.

  He lifts his arm and flicks the light on, temporarily blinding me. When my vision returns I see that my surroundings are sparsely decorated, with only the basics present. This space is clearly impersonal.

  Grady stares at me from his position in the doorway. He looks so cold and calculating. Something feels different about him now, not that he’s ever been particularly friendly in the past. He strides into the room, and it’s like he’s brought an arctic blast with him. He’s all hulking muscle and wide strides and penetrating gaze.

  “How are you feeling?” he asks. He clears his throat and eyes my belly. It’s likely the first kind thing he’s said to me.

  “I’m sore,” I say. “Shouldn’t I be at the hospital?”

  “What do you remember?” he asks, totally ignoring my question. Just like always, he redirects the conversation to where he wants it to go. Control freak.

  “Pardon?” I say, trying to stall. My women’s intuition is on high alert, telling me that something isn’t right here. I’ve spent most of my life with the club at arms’ length, and have gone to school with a few of the members of the club—and some of their wives and girlfriends. I’m not naïve enough to think that the club doesn’t run this town. Uncle Harry is always complaining about how the club members can get away with murder—and he’s quite convinced they have—as long as they continue to fund new playgrounds and keep the drug deals beyond the town’s border.

  “You’re bruised up pretty good. It wasn’t much more than a flesh wound, but you are one dramatic bitch. You’re going to be sore for a little while, but you’re fine. Now, tell me—what do you remember?”

  “I,” I say and then shut it down. Calling me a bitch time and time again is a cheap way to throw his weight around. I only wish it didn’t bother me. His demeanor is off-putting and makes me think twice about telling him the truth. I remember everything, I think, but he doesn’t need to know that. I want to yell at him that I’ve never been shot before and that I don’t do well with the sight of blood. Even the suggestion of dripping blood freaks me out, but I suppose a man in his position is used to seeing bullet wounds and he wouldn’t understand.

  “I don’t know.”

  Three long strides and two frustrated breaths later, he’s in my space, looming over me. His eyes narrow and he places his hands on his hips. “You lying to me?” he asks.

  Even though I lived in the Bay Area for years, there are some things I never could forget. Like the rumbling of the engines as the Forsaken Motorcycle Club makes its way through town. So loud and powerful that the bikes shake the earth beneath them. And the men—mostly young, and all built like brick houses—all have these badass “I can do what I want” attitudes. Even the memories of the sticky sweet air when you’re even within a few blocks of the ocean faded in time, but the few club memories I have never did. The mugginess of the air and the Pacific, and even the people here—it’s nothing compared to the club and all that it means.

  My Uncle Harry would have everyone believe that the club is the epitome of evil—that they’re good for nothing—and he tells everyone who stands to listen how he wishes to rid the town of the club for once and for all. So even admiring the deep roar of the engines and the chaotic presence of the club, I never ventured to even so much as smile at any of them. Sure, when they did things to help the community, like putting a new roof on the library, the town gathered ’round the ribbon cutting ceremony and thanked the club—most especially the president, Jim Stone, and his wife, Ruby—but beyond attending those events in the back and without personally thanking them for anything, I’ve done well to stay away from them.

  And now…

  Oh, Uncle Harry would be so angry right now. And my father—he would have a fit and demand that Uncle Harry swoop in with his boys and the captain of the force to get me out of here before Grady does something awful. Because Uncle Harry has Dad convinced that the club is full of a bunch of rapists and drug dealers who pride themselves on being cruel to those around them. I can’t say much for Grady, but the club president never struck me as particularly awful. I’ve seen Jim Stone with his wife and their sons, Ryan and Ian. The way Ruby looks and talks about Jim—according to Mindy—she absolutely adores him and doesn’t take crap from anybody. So I’m thinking that maybe Uncle Harry is a bit misguided and that he just doesn’t like the fact that the club has more control and influence over his town than he and his fellow officers do—even if Grady is no better than road kill in my opinion.

  “No,” I say. I really do hate to lie, but I don’t know what kind of situation I’m in here. There’s no telling what he’s going to do with me. I’m an injured witness to a shooting incident in town. I’m also the bitch who has the audacity to be concerned about his daughter’s future. If he knows that I remember everything, I could be in a whole mess of trouble.

  He leans over me, his large frame blocking out all light, and all I can see and sense is him. Tilting his face toward me, and catching my eyes, he shakes his head. “I don’t believe you,” he says.

  I shouldn’t lie. It’s not so much a morality thing as it is a “I’m bad at it” thing. I really am absolutely horrid at lying to just about anyone regarding anything. Even to save my own skin, apparently.

  “I’m not asking you to believe me,” I say.

  “Are you scared of me?” he asks in a dry tone. His lips twitch upward and his eyes practically dance with amusement.

  “You wish,” I say, and force myself not to purse my lips. It’s my tell—or the one that everyone close to me says always gives me away. Grady doesn’t need, nor does he deserve, to know this about me.

  “You’re awful mouthy for someone who’s laid up in my house,” he seethes.

  “You should have taken me to a hospital,” I say, and drag myself up onto the stack of pillows behind me, ignoring my discomfort.

  “What do you remember?” he says, irritation evident in his voice.

  “Nothing really,” I say and try to think how to word what I’m going to say to him. “I was going for lunch. I wanted a burger.”

  “That’s it?”

  “That’s it,” I say. My lips purse against my will, but when I catch it, I stop myself.

  “Listen, I can’t help you if you don’t let me. Bad shit went down, and you got hurt. I’m sorry for that.”

  “I don’t remember anything else, but this has to go two ways. I just remember really wanting a burger. Now, answer my question—why am I not in a hospital?” Even though I know the words come out of my mouth, I’m still surprised to hear them aloud. In the back of my head I can hear my conscious screaming at me to shut up. The more I keep asking questions, the more obvious it’s going to be that I remember something.

  “Holly Mercer, age twenty-six, cousin Mindy Mercer, Uncle Harry is a sergeant for the Fort Bragg P.D. Dad is an electrician, mom stays home, and older brother, Theo just got married. Pretty wife,” he says with a slight smile on his face. It’s not a kind smile—it’s more like he’s happy to have the upper-hand. I gulp and steel my jaw to keep my fear from showing too much. He already knew who I was, but him knowing my family as well as he does is disconcerting.

  “How do you know all of that?” I ask, stumbling over my own words.

  “It’s my job to know,” he says. “Now, I’m going to ask you a few questions, and do keep in mind that I already know some of the answe
rs, so it’s in your best interest to be honest.”

  “Why do you need to ask me anything if you already know the answers?” I can only explain my attitude by saying that I’m in pain. Because any other explanation involves admitting my own stupidity. Pissing him off when I’m mobile and we’re in public is one thing, but alone in his house when I’m unsure how quick I can actually move is quite another.

  “Do you know what this cut means?” he asks and points at his leather vest.

  “Yes,” I say, barely able to hold back the comment that’s on the tip of my tongue. My stomach aches, and my back is practically throbbing from the soreness of lying in bed for what I assume to be hours on end. It’s unwise, but more than almost anything, I want to tell him it makes him look like a member of the village people.

  “Then you know what I am,” he says. It’s not a question; it’s confirmation. I nod.

  “I figured out what you are a long time ago,” I say and let the insults fly in my head. Asshole. Jerk. Idiot. Criminal. ”I want to go home.”

  “That can be accomplished a few different ways. It’s up to you.”

  “Okay,” I mutter. “Lay it out for me.”

  “Now we’re talking.” His stoic face relaxes some. “You saw something you shouldn’t have, and you're smart enough to know that I can't let you leave here and run your mouth about it. I can’t keep this town clean if you won’t let me.”

  “The club helps the town, and the town helps the club. I get it.” I say the words, but I don’t buy them. Towns across the globe survive just fine without this kind of extortion ring working.

  “Good girl,” he says with a nod. I shouldn’t find the slick way the words fall off his tongue to be attractive, but I do.

  “You came back to town a few months ago—broke off your ass. Lived with mom until this past week. You don’t make shit, and you got some debt. Bet you could use some cash.”

  It’s true, I do have debts that are long overdue to be paid. I hate that I can’t pay them, but I don’t think taking money from this man is the right answer.

  “I don’t want your money. I won’t say anything.”

  He doesn’t say a word. He just straightens his back and walks across the room then leans against the wall. Everything about the way he moves and talks exudes a sort of confidence I don’t think I’ve seen in anyone else. He’s definitely been here before. I wonder how many people he’s been able to intimidate into doing his bidding.

  “That’s generous, but that’s not how this works. You’re giving us your silence, and we need to give you something in return—and 25k is nothing to turn your pretty little nose up at. Anything else means we owe you, and make no mistake about it, babe—Forsaken don’t owe anybody any favors.”

  Grady crosses his arms over his chest and stares at me thoughtfully. I give it a moment to think the situation over. I don’t have any options, really. I’ve heard enough from Uncle Harry how this works. People don’t say no to the club—not drug dealers, or addicts, not the police, and certainly not the rest of us. Uncle Harry won’t give details, but he’s said enough. The people who do say no to the club end up paying for it in some way they don’t like. I don’t want to be one of those people, but maybe there’s another option.

  “I’d rather get your signature,” I say. “On Cheyenne’s counseling form.”

  “This again?”

  “Yeah,” I say. “Either she enters mandatory counseling and attends Saturday School or she’s expelled. Mr. Beck would prefer the latter, but I’m trying to stop that from happening. The district will allow her to make up some of her missed classes on Saturdays. It’s win-win for you. She doesn’t get expelled and you don’t have to spend a dime.”

  “Look, lady, you need to stop telling me how to parent my kid.”

  “I just don’t understand why you don’t care that your daughter is facing expulsion.”

  “I care. Trust me, I do. But I got a whole mess of shit to deal with right now that’s beyond your comprehension. My kid is smart enough to know when Dad’s distracted and she’s taking advantage of it, and we’re working on that. I won’t trade your silence for my signature, because my kid is not part of club business, but if you can stop fucking nagging me about this counseling shit, I’ll consider it.”

  “Stop by the office any time in the upcoming week to sign the form,” I say, feeling a little victorious.

  “The money?” he says.

  “You’re going to pay me to keep silent?”

  “It’s better than the alternative,” he says. I nod my head, but don’t ask for clarification. I’m trying really hard to think of this like a business transaction, and I can’t do that if I let myself dwell on what he’s saying. This situation is bad enough without going down that road.

  “Okay,” I say.

  “Okay?” he asks. “That’s it? You don’t have any questions?” His eyes narrow, and he stares at me skeptically. It’s like he’s expecting some kind of fight or something.

  “Yeah,” I say and nod. “I don’t even want to know what the alternative is, so yeah, my mouth is shut.” I’d rather not have this conversation with him, much less to discuss the details.

  “No talking to your pig uncle, no talking to your roommate, no talking to anybody. Someone asks where you were yesterday, you tell them you took a drive out of town. Someone wants to know why you didn’t show at work, you tell them you were sick. I don’t give a fuck what you say, but you do not—under any circumstances—tell them you were at The 101 Club. You feel me?”

  “Yes,” I say and grit my teeth to fight back the look of irritation that I’m sure has crossed my face. Yesterday. That’s just freaking awesome. I’ve only been working at the high school for a few months now, and no matter how cool Margot is, I don’t think she’ll be down for me skipping out without phoning in. Even if I do get to keep my job, I’m still going to have to deal with Mindy. She’s got to be freaking out right now. Oh, God. Oh no, I’ll bet Mindy’s contacted Dad and Uncle Harry. If she’s really freaking out then she’s probably called grandma, and the last thing I need is for grandma to be driving around town at ten miles an hour, with her car window down, shouting my name like I’m a lost poodle. This really freaking sucks.

  “You got something to say?” he barks out.

  “I have a boss who has to be wondering where I am. I have family who must be scared because they can’t find me. So pardon me, but I’m a little upset right now.” The venom in my words is fiercer than I expect it to be. Money or no money, I have no idea how I’m going to recoup from this crap.

  “You think you’re the only one who’s been inconvenienced here? The twenty-five grand I have to spend to keep your mouth closed pisses me off. Normally when I give a bitch money it’s for her to open her mouth, not close it.”

  “I’m in this situation because of your bullshit, so don’t push this off on me. Also, I don’t know why you’re so obsessed with getting your dick sucked, but maybe if you spent more time being a decent human being and less time calling women bitches, you’d have better luck.” On the outside, I’m trying really hard to keep a straight face, but on the inside I’m totally screaming for help. Nobody in my life has ever pissed me off this badly before, and it would be just my luck that I can’t seem to get rid of him.

  “Bitch, please. I get my dick sucked plenty.”

  Somewhere in the distance, I swear I can hear sirens going off. I can hear screaming, and I can sense danger. But none of that is actually happening. It takes me a moment to realize that I’m barely holding in a scream. My face heats, my pulse races, and my entire body locks up so tense I think I might explode.

  “Did you just call me a bitch again?” I shout as loud as I can. My voice is screechy and on the edge of breaking into a full-on wail. If I thought I could take him, I think I’d slap him right here and now. Thin as the grasp on reality might be, I can still see clearly enough to stop myself from trying to hobble from the bed and show him exactly how much I detest
his use of that word.

  Grady’s jaw ticks, and, in an instant, he’s pushed himself off of the wall. Several long strides and he’s got one knee on the edge of the bed and the other is thrown over my hips. His broad torso blocks the light from the hallway, and he rests his left forearm on the pillows beside me. He reaches out with his right arm and grasps me by my neck and jerks my head in close to his face. He breathes heavily on my skin, dampening my face in his scent.

  “I’m being nice. Do not think that means I’m going to put up with your mouth. My brothers and I are going to count on you to keep quiet about the shit that went down. You cannot go off half-cocked like you just did. If you don’t keep your mouth shut, I’m going to let one of my brothers enjoy the pleasure of your company.”

  “Are you threatening me?” I ask. My voice is so steady and cold that I don’t even know how I’m doing it. Inside I’m freaking the hell out. Maybe it’s the trauma of the situation that’s driving me, or maybe I’m just stupid.

  “I don’t make threats. I make promises.”

  We continue to stare at each other with neither of us moving a single muscle. His eyes are hard and unwavering as he glares at me. His full lips and strong jaw invade my space and demand attention. I know I shouldn’t be thinking these things, but I can’t help it. I’ve always secretly loved bad boys with their “devil may care” attitudes. Even when I was younger and Uncle Harry made sure I knew damn well that the club was off limits, I still looked. And now, here I am, with one of them hovering over me. And while he’s gorgeous and built, and dangerous in a thousand sexy ways, all I really want to do is to knee him in the balls. Repeatedly.

  How dare he…

  “Oh God,” a perky young voice shouts from the other side of the room. “What the hell? Gross!”

  Grady jumps back and stands awkwardly, like he’s just been caught doing something he shouldn’t have by his mom. Only, it’s worse. He’s been caught by his teenage daughter. I freeze for a moment and then pull the blankets up further over me just as my cheeks redden. I don’t know why I’m embarrassed. I should be asking her to call the cops to get me out of here. I’m fully clothed but, somehow, it’s my first reaction and likely one that only solidifies the image that Cheyenne thinks she’s seen.