“There’s no furniture in the other bedroom,” Mandy said, bouncing into the kitchen. “Am I going to sleep on the floor?” She sounded slightly intrigued by the idea.
“No.” Elizabeth brushed her bangs out of her eyes. “I’m going to buy you a new bedroom set.”
“Golly!” Mandy’s eyes got round. “Can I have a desk, too? So I can do my homework in my room like a big girl?”
“Sure.” Elizabeth opened the back door. “Why don’t you go see if you can find the bunnies?”
“Okay.” Mandy raced outside. The screen door slammed shut behind her.
So far, Travis hadn’t said a word about the house. She turned toward him. “What do you think?”
He stood in the doorway to the kitchen. With his arms folded over his chest, and his khaki shirt pulling across his broad shoulders, he looked like some kind of conquering warrior.
“It’s very nice. I’m sure you’ll be happy here.”
There was something in his voice, something dark and broken. She wanted to ask what, but she was afraid. Instead, she dug in her purse and pulled out a small notebook. “I need tons of things. Do you have the time to wait while I make a quick list?”
“Sure.” He stepped back to allow her to pass him.
But he hadn’t moved back far enough, or the floor was uneven, or her feet unsteady because she managed to brush her arm against his chest as she went into the hallway. The heat from the brief contact sent a tremor up her arm and into her breasts. It was dark in the small house. Dark enough to make her forget it was still daytime outside and that her daughter was just a few feet away. Dark enough to give her the courage to look up at his face and meet his gaze. Dark enough to wonder if the fire would return to his irises and flicker there, matching the flames she felt burning inside.
The house smelled musty and unused. The furniture wasn’t to her taste. After being in Travis’s beautiful home, this place was a rude awakening. It could all be fixed, she told herself. A few throw pillows, some lacy curtains, a good scrubbing and airing out—then everything would be fine. But it wasn’t the house at all. It was the man.
He tempted her. Even though she knew it was foolish and wrong and this time more than her pride would be at stake, she couldn’t resist him. He made her care about him, even when she didn’t want to. Even when it made her a fool twice in the same lifetime. Even when she knew they were doomed to heartbreak. Which is why she had to leave him as quickly as possible.
He reached out to hold her at the exact moment she stepped away. His arms hung there a moment, giving her time to step back into his embrace. He would kiss her. She could see the promise in his eyes. He would hold her and tonight he would make love to her. She turned her back on him and started down the hall.
Within twenty minutes she’d completed her list. Travis had followed her from room to room, offering suggestions. It was as if that moment in the hall had never happened. But it had. Her fingers trembled as she wrote out the items she would need. Her heart raced in her chest and her eyes burned with more than regret.
“I think that’s it,” she said. “The miniblinds will make a big difference at letting in light. Thanks for the suggestion.”
“You’re welcome.”
She pocketed the small notebook and led the way back to the kitchen. “Is there some kind of mall around here? I need to buy Mandy furniture, as well as some other supplies for the house.”
“There’s a furniture warehouse store about forty miles away,” he said as he followed her. “I have tomorrow off. I could drive you there if you’d like.”
The screen door slammed open and Mandy ran into the kitchen. She glared at her mother. “I looked everywhere and I couldn’t find even one bunny.”
“I’m sorry, honey. Maybe they’re hiding.”
“But I looked!” Mandy’s lower lip thrust out. “I don’t care about any stupid bunnies. I want to stay with Travis and get a puppy.”
Elizabeth drew in a deep breath. Of course, she thought, wondering why it hadn’t occurred to her sooner. She wasn’t the only one who was going to miss their host and his wonderful house. Mandy would, as well. She shook her head. She should have thought of that already.
“You’ll like it here,” Travis said, squatting down to the child’s level. “There are lots of kids for you to play with right here on this street. You’ll forget all about me, but no matter what, I’ll still be around.”
He paused, as if waiting for Elizabeth to disagree. She wasn’t going to; she was pleased he wanted to stay in touch with Mandy. The little girl needed some continuity in her life.
“This house is dumb.”
“It’s not dumb,” Elizabeth said, touching her daughter’s hair. “I’m going to buy you a beautiful bedroom set and a real big-girl desk.” She tried to ignore the flash of guilt. She didn’t usually try to buy Mandy’s cooperation, but desperate times called for desperate measures.
Despite the bribe, Mandy didn’t look convinced. It was only after Travis tickled her into a giggling pile on the floor that her good humor returned.
While Mandy raced ahead to the car, Travis locked the front door.
“You should be able to get everything you need at the furniture store,” he said. “The entire first floor is filled with household items. Linens, miniblinds…that sort of thing.”
“Do you know if they deliver?” she asked, taking one last look at her new home.
“I think so. Are you thinking for the bedroom furniture?”
“Yes.” She squared her shoulders. “Mandy is becoming too attached to you. I need to get us into our own place as quickly as possible.”
Travis didn’t answer. She wasn’t sure if she was sorry or glad. Maybe a little of both. If he’d responded at all, she would have been forced to admit that Mandy wasn’t the only one becoming too attached.
Chapter Thirteen
They took the elevator to the top of the giant furniture warehouse, then started the circular descent to the ground floor. Sample rooms had been set up, followed by rows of couches, entertainment centers and end tables.
“Oh, good. They do deliver,” Elizabeth said, pulling her list out of her jeans pocket.
“Yeah, within forty-eight hours,” Travis replied, pointing to a sign posted on the wall.
“Great. If we buy Mandy’s bedroom set today, it can be delivered Saturday when we move in.”
She’d been reading the sign, but she felt Travis stiffen at her side. She risked glancing at him. He stared down at her, his normally readable face expressionless.
“That’s quick. When did you make that decision?”
Yesterday, when I figured out how much Mandy and I were going to miss you, she thought. “It makes sense, Travis. I’m completely back on my feet. I’ve arranged for Mandy’s afternoon daycare, although I’ll be getting off work at three-thirty, so she’ll need it for less than an hour. My car’s clutch is still a little too stiff for me, but Rebecca is going to give me a ride to and from work for a couple of days.”
“I see.” He turned toward a fabric-covered sofa next to them. “You’ve got everything figured out.”
“I guess I do. I’m sure you’ll be pleased to see the last of us.”
“Sure.” He looked back at her and smiled. “We both need our lives to get back to normal.”
If his smile didn’t reach his eyes, she wasn’t going to comment on the fact. If he noticed that she couldn’t stop looking at him or brushing against him as they walked through the store, he didn’t say anything, either.
The tension between them stretched until she could physically feel it tugging on her insides. She didn’t want it to be like this. She wanted Travis to be her friend. She needed him to be there, to be strong. Was that wrong?
Before she could figure out the answer to the question, he darted across the aisle to a selection of leather furniture. There were three different rooms displayed, all in the same soft, buttery leather. He dropped down onto a black sofa and leaned back h
is head.
“This is wonderful,” he said, closing his eyes. “I may do my entire house in leather.”
“Even the bathrooms?” She bit back a giggle.
He opened one eye. “Laugh all you want, but this is man furniture.”
“Oh, I see. So you’ll want a gun rack right next to the TV. And what about your famous knife collection? You know, the ones you used to hunt the woolly mammoth.”
She’d made the mistake of moving too close to him. He growled out a warning, but before she could jump back, he reached forward and tackled her legs, pulling her toward him. She landed in a heap on his lap. Their faces were inches apart; his breath fanned her cheek. It could have been a dangerous moment, but they were both laughing too hard.
His thighs were hard beneath her legs. Their jeans—hers blue, his black—rubbed together, generating an erotic heat. Low in her belly, wanting grew. She acknowledged the feeling, acknowledged that Travis’s hands became less teasing and more caressing on her arms. But he didn’t try to kiss her. In that moment of laughter, their friendship had been restored. Apparently neither of them wanted that threatened again.
The sound of someone clearing his throat broke through her musing. She looked up, then blushed like a high-schooler caught necking in the back seat of her father’s car.
“May I help you?” the small, gray-haired man asked, his bushy white eyebrows raised above his wire-rimmed glasses.
Elizabeth tried to slide off Travis’s lap, but his large hands held her in place.
“No, thanks,” Travis drawled. “We were just testing the sofa.”
“I see. Does it work to your satisfaction?” the man asked, glaring down at them.
“We’re not sure yet.” Travis winked. “I think it needs a little more testing.”
The man turned on his heel and marched away. Elizabeth struggled to break free. “He’s probably gone to get the manager.”
“So what?” Travis leaned forward and kissed the tip of her nose. “The store is practically empty and we weren’t doing anything wrong.”
She couldn’t help herself. She sagged against him and giggled. “Maybe you should have worn your uniform. At least then you could have threatened to arrest him.”
“You just miss seeing me in my cowboy hat. If I’d known you were so attached, I would have worn it today.”
“Oh, stop.” She gave one last, hard push on his chest and broke free. She scrambled to her feet and smoothed the front of her shirt. Her fingers caught on an open button right above her bra. “I was flashing him,” she said, horrified.
Travis chuckled. “He was getting a bit of an eyeful, but I doubt it’s anything he hasn’t seen before.” He stood up and stretched. “Need some help?” he asked, approaching her.
“Don’t even think about it.” She slapped his hands away. “No more pit stops. We have a list.” She waved the piece of paper in front of him. “I want you to behave for the rest of the day. Do you promise?”
He put his arm around her shoulders and pulled her close. She knew she should resist, but it was just for one day, she told herself. They were in a public store. What’s the worst that could happen?
“I’ll behave,” he said, whispering in her ear. “But I just might want to test-drive a mattress or two.”
She managed to steer him clear of the adult bedroom section, but they spent almost an hour picking out Mandy’s furniture. She stood between a bedroom done in white, with a canopy bed and delicate furniture, and one done in light pine. That bed was a four-poster design with a raised mattress.
“She’d practically need a step stool to get on it,” Elizabeth said, gauging the distance.
“But it comes in a double. The canopy doesn’t. If you get the bigger bed, she can have a friend over to sleep with her. Even if they use sleeping bags on top of the covers it’ll be more fun than one of them on the floor.”
She eyed him warily. “How do you know what little girls want?”
“Mandy tells me things.”
“What kind of things?”
“Things like how she’d enjoy having a friend spend the night occasionally, and how much she wants a puppy.”
“A puppy?” Elizabeth looked at the bed. “It would be a lot less messy to get the larger mattress. What do you think of the desk?”
It matched the pine dresser. There were two small and one large drawer on either side. A bookcase sat next to it.
Travis knelt down and ran his hands over all the edges of the desk. He checked the workmanship, then tested the drawers and the sturdiness of the shelves.
“I like it,” he said. He glanced up at her. “If it’s about money—”
“It’s not,” she said, cutting him off. She perched on the edge of the four-poster bed. “You might not understand my logic, but running off and leaving everything Sam had bought us wasn’t something I did lightly. I know it wasn’t the most sensible thing I’ve ever done, but it was a symbolic act for me. One that really proved to me I wasn’t kidding about completely cutting him out of our lives. I think doing that is what has allowed me to heal as much as I have.” She held up her hand. “I know what you’re going to say. I haven’t healed completely. I know there are a few things I’m working through, but I’ll get there.” She paused and drew in a breath. “Why are you grinning at me?”
He stood up and pulled out the desk chair. After turning it around, he sat down, straddling it, resting his arms along the slatted back. “You seem to know everything, so you figure out why I’m grinning.”
“Travis!”
“I was just thinking about how strong you are. I believe that you will put this behind you and get on with your life. I admire that.”
She ducked her head. “Thanks,” she said softly. “Your support means a lot to me.”
A different sales clerk approached. This one was a young woman in a navy suit. “May I write up an order for you?” she asked, her gaze locking on Travis’s.
Elizabeth was too contented to care. “Yes, for me.”
The young woman forced her eyes away from Travis. “What can I do for you?”
Elizabeth hesitated, then pointed at the pine set. “I’d like this bedroom set. All the pieces, please. Can you have it delivered on Saturday?”
* * *
They made the rest of her purchases quickly. They had one argument in the linen section, picking out sheets for Mandy. Elizabeth wanted something floral while Travis voted for the redheaded cartoon mermaid. In the end she bought them both.
“You’re worse than Mandy,” Elizabeth grumbled as she tossed the sheets into her cart.
“You love it,” he said, coming up behind her and planting a quick kiss just below her left ear. Instantly a shiver raced through her body. She did love it. That was the problem.
They went through the kitchen accessories. She picked out some dinnerware and glasses. She started to hold up the box for his approval, then stared at him.
“What?” he asked, standing at the end of her cart. “Have I grown horns?”
“I don’t care if you like these,” she said.
“Thanks so much.”
“No.” She smiled. “I didn’t mean it in a bad way. I meant, I don’t have to get your approval on anything. I don’t have to get anyone’s approval ever again.”
Travis frowned and planted his hands on his hips. “I have a lot of flaws, Elizabeth, but I’m not an ogre.”
“Oh, I know.” She put the dinnerware in her cart. “I suddenly realized that I don’t have to get Sam’s approval. Even though he was gone so much, I thought he should be a part of the decision making. I waited to get his opinion on drapes, dishes, what time Mandy should go to bed. I don’t have to anymore. I can do what I want.”
“It sounds like you’re over him.”
She glanced up at him. He held himself stiffly, as if regretting making the observation. Around them, shoppers chattered about their purchases. She could hear the faint electronic beeping of the cash registers. They stood
alone in the middle of housewares discussing the state of her heart. Why did she feel her answer was so important? It couldn’t be. Not now, not after she was just getting over what had happened.
“I am. The relationship had been in trouble for a long time. I was ready to ask for a divorce, and then it turned out I didn’t need one. I know what he did to me has made me wary of trusting anyone again. But that’s about pride, not about my heart. I’ve been over Sam Proctor for years.”
“Soon you’ll be over me, too,” he said, his voice teasing.
But she didn’t smile back. “Travis, I’ll never get over what you did for me and Mandy. You came to my rescue when I was in dire straits, and I’ll never forget that. You gave me more than a roof over my head. You were good to Mandy and a great friend to me.”
You showed me how it’s supposed to be between a man and a woman.
But she didn’t say her last thought aloud. Better for both of them if they simply put it out of their minds. If only it were that easy. If it had just been sex, she would have been able to forget. Being with him had been more than that. It had been warm and tender, loving and caring. He’d made love to her slowly and easily as if he’d been waiting for her all his life, as if he’d had all the time in the world.
He’d made her feel cherished.
“I’ll never forget what you did,” she repeated. “I’m going to miss you when I move out.”
She waited, but he didn’t answer in kind. And suddenly the warmth in her belly turned very, very cold.
* * *
Travis checked the rearview mirror for traffic, but the main highway was empty on a weekday afternoon. He looked in the mirror again, this time glancing at the boxes and bags stuffed in the back of his Bronco. They’d managed to fit everything in except for Mandy’s bedroom set. That would be delivered to Elizabeth’s new house in time for her to move in on Saturday. She was really leaving.
He didn’t want to think about that, or how it made him feel. He tried to come up with some topic of conversation. The cab had been quiet for too long. Elizabeth sat in her seat, with her hands folded on her lap. She never once glanced at him.
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