Pushing Up Bluebonnets

by Leann Sweeney

  Now I wanted to slither under the floor tiles. Or shake some sense into you-know-who.

  But Judith, bless her heart, didn't miss a beat. ''You may not be happy about coming here today, but we're happy to have you. At some point I hope you will appreciate what you learn. Now, introductions, please?''

  There were seven other people, and all but Aunt Caroline and a woman named Esther were carrying around way too many pounds. I'm bad with names, especially when they're dumped on me all at once, and I didn't remember anybody but Esther. One of the men was sitting in a store electric cart and checked his blood sugar at least twice since we'd arrived. I guessed his weight had to be more than three hundred pounds. This must be so hard for him, I thought. Harder than for Aunt Caroline. I'm very familiar with the comfort that food can offer and felt fortunate to be blessed with an overactive metabolism. My guess was that this man and I probably shared the same love of white bread and junk food.

  Judith said, ''We'll begin in the bakery to our right. We'll be reading a lot of labels today, so I hope you've all brought your bifocals.''

  Hmmm. Actually Judith was pretty condescending, but I decided to let Aunt Caroline bring that up again. Once the group started moving toward the bakery, that left only a lone man sitting and reading a newspaper near the deli display case. As the group moved out, he looked over the top of his paper at their retreating backsides. I hadn't noticed him when we first sat down and since I could see nothing but his eyes, I wondered if he was amused or interested or just plain confused by this meeting.

  The diabetic group's first task involved searching for whole-grain and low-fat breads. Anything white and with a butter split top was apparently a no-no. Sorry, but a PBJ on nine-grain bread wasn't the same, but maybe I could learn, set an example for my aunt and for Doris, who was still trying to understand her new diet—the healthy one Loreen was teaching her about.

  Judith led us up one aisle and down the other, stopping at the pickles and olives to remind everyone that most diabetics are at higher risk for heart attacks and should watch their salt intake. I felt myself blush, recalling my recent olive binge. Aunt Caroline, meanwhile, was offering dramatic sighs and, when those were ignored, kept interrupting Judith's spiel to ask how much longer this would take.

  We were headed to frozen foods, where I was sure I'd hear about a ban on pizza, when we passed the wine and beer aisle. ''Wait a moment, young woman,'' Aunt Caroline commanded.

  Sheesh. Could I pretend I wasn't with her?

  ''What about the diabetic wine?'' she asked. ''They do make that, right?''

  While everyone giggled, I turned my back on my aunt, probably an unconscious attempt to find a hiding place. That's when I noticed the man who'd been reading the paper. He'd been watching me . . . or us, but quickly grabbed for the nearest end-of-the-aisle object when our eyes met. It happened to be toilet paper.

  Something about him made my antennae go up. Maybe the fact that the only thing in his basket was a travel-size bottle of shampoo. He kept staring at the toilet paper as if it bore one of those healthy-lifestyle bread labels that were about as long as War and Peace.

  What the hell was this? Could he be related to or be a friend of one of the diabetics? Was he following me? Or was he just a plain old creepy shopper? His blondmixed-with-gray hair was chin-length and stringy; his pale eyes were frosty. The three-day growth of beard and less-than-clean clothes pushed me toward creepy shopper rather than follower. Maybe he wanted to hit on one of the diabetic ladies for a handout.

  I refocused on Judith, who was lecturing on the danger of alcohol consumption for diabetics. ''Alcohol translates to pure sugar, ladies and gentlemen. It can use up all your medication. See, your medication doesn't differ entiate between the alcohol sugar and the rest of the digested food feeding your cells. Your medicine will attack that alcohol and eat up everything with it, and perhaps leave you dangerously hypoglycemic. We do all remember what hypoglycemic means, right?''

  Aunt Caroline rolled her eyes and waved her hand in the air. ''Oh, for crying out loud, let's get this over with. Move on, young woman.''

  I heard murmurs of agreement and thought, Oh my God. If Judith doesn't wrap this up soon, Aunt Caroline might just lead a diabetic rebellion.

  Kate owed me. Owed me big-time.

  After we left the store, the torture continued in the car and ended only when I dropped Aunt Caroline off. I breathed a sigh of relief as I headed for home. My aunt had told me in no uncertain terms never to arrange anything like that grocery tour again without her approval—an approval that would never come, of course. I didn't even bother to remind her that Kate set this up. Aunt Caroline wanted a scapegoat and I allowed her the privilege just to cut her diatribe short. I was lucky I didn't get pulled over for speeding in a residential neighborhood, but I couldn't get away from her fast enough.

  My paranoia about the strange shopper hadn't gone away and I watched my rearview and side mirrors plenty during the drive. Houston traffic, unfortunately, makes it very difficult to pick up a tail. But in West University Place, where I live, it would be a lot harder for someone following me to remain anonymous. But I never saw any suspicious-looking vehicles and pulled into my driveway extremely glad to be home.

  I called Kate as soon as I got in the door, and her receptionist, April, said she was in session, but she'd give her the message to call me. After sampling cheese, nectarines and chips and salsa at the store, I wasn't hungry. I decided to check my e-mail while I waited for Kate's call. I was hoping she and I could do dinner and I could bring her up to speed on my interesting, if flawed, day, maybe get her take on Kent Dugan's behavior.

  Diva appeared from some hiding place as I went to my office. She stretched, blinked away sleep and then followed me to the computer. When I connected to my server and my e-mail box came up, I saw Penny's message with the attachments. The foster-kid pictures. Damn, I'd forgotten all about them.

  After I downloaded the photos, I viewed them in a slide show. I examined face after beautiful face, black, brown, white in equal numbers, the kids' first names and case numbers beneath their pictures and alongside little biographies. Sometimes brothers and sisters appeared together and their bio stated they wanted to be adopted to the same home. I felt so sad, even though most of these kids were smiling for the camera. What had they gone through? What had they seen or experienced that children shouldn't have to endure? Did these kids ever find permanent homes or had they aged out of foster care?

  And then, when I got to the 2003 pictures, there she was. Elizabeth. Case number 48932.

  I stopped the slide show and stared at a teenage JoLynn . . . or rather Elizabeth. No smile on her young face. Her bio was brief. She was fifteen, loved books and wanted to be a librarian. She liked Brad Pitt and the beach and wouldn't mind a home where there were small children. She was a good babysitter.

  I sat back in my chair. Another piece of the puzzle? Or another mystery to solve? I picked up the phone and called Penny.

  Lucky for me, she was in her office. ''Hi, Abby. Did the pictures help?''

  ''Yes indeed.'' I gave Penny the name and case number. ''Is there any way you can get me a last name? If she was adopted, that means she has a family who would want to know about her medical condition.''

  ''Hmmm. What year was that file from?''

  ''It was 2003,'' I answered.

  ''She could sign a release—but that won't work, will it? She's in a damn coma, poor thing.''

  ''Isn't this a special circumstance?'' My tone was pleading, a little pathetic sounding, to be honest. ''We need to know everything we can about this girl. Her past might have something to do with how she ended up nearly dead. Maybe she had a parent or guardian who abused her and that person didn't want her to ever talk about it to anyone.''

  ''Or didn't want her revealing why she ended up in the system,'' Penny said. ''Okay, I've now made this a special circumstance. I'll get back to you as soon as I can.''

  I thanked her and hung up, then returne
d to reading other e-mail so I wouldn't have to look at that heartbreaking picture of the girl we knew as JoLynn.

  When the phone rang a half hour later, Kate was on the other end, not Penny.

  I said, ''I wanted to fill you in on the case and my absolutely wonderful experience with Aunt Caroline today. Are you free for dinner?''

  ''I do have a break from seven to eight—I know that's late, but everyone in Houston seems to be having meltdowns today. Then I have group therapy from eight to nine. We can order in something, maybe from the vegetarian place I love?''

  ''Can we compromise on the comfort of pizza? It's been that kind of a day.'' She agreed and I hung up, already thinking about parking in the Medical Center again. Might as well end the day on another frustrating note.

  We compromised on two medium pizzas, since Kate didn't want pepperoni ''leaking'' over to her vegetarian side of the pie. I enjoyed every slice and talked as we sat on one of the couches in Kate's family therapy room.

  ''So you've figured out that Kent Dugan is not a nice man.'' Kate closed her pizza box and wiped her mouth with a napkin. I noticed she'd eaten only one small slice. ''I hope you'll take the chief's advice and steer clear, Abby. Let Boyd handle him.''

  ''Even though Dugan knows more about JoLynn than he's telling, I'm definitely keeping my distance. I've already screwed up enough trying to investigate him.''

  ''You found out about the copy machine and laminator,'' Kate said. ''That's important.''

  ''True. I'll bet he made the fake inspection and registration stickers as well as the driver's license for JoLynn.''

  ''Why would he make her a fake ID?'' she asked.

  ''That's what we need to find out,'' I said. ''I only know it can't be a coincidence that she lived with someone who could have made those forgeries for her.''

  ''What if she really is Dugan's sister?'' Kate checked her watch. We had only an hour together and our time was almost up.

  ''Then why introduce herself as his wife?'' I said. ''And I'm not only taking Dugan's word on that. Roberta Messing believed they were married.''

  ''Could all this be part of some bigger fraud?'' she said.

  I considered this. ''You mean Dugan has known all along where she was, that he sent her to bilk Richter out of his money?''

  ''I hadn't thought it through that far, but yes, that could be the answer,'' she said.

  I sighed. ''Why do I not want to believe the girl in that hospital bed would move into a stranger's house so she could take him for as much as possible?''

  ''You saw a comatose young woman, a helpless, battered girl. Our only knowledge of her before her car wreck comes from the Richter relatives and the veterinarian. Some of those folks thought she was a sweet, gentle book lover. Some thought she was a manipulator. If we conclude who she is and what she's like without firsthand information, that's not really fair to her, is it?''

  I smiled. That was it. ''Thank you, Doc. You're absolutely right. I always trust my instincts on whether a new client is sincere, but JoLynn and I have never actually met. I only know her through everyone else's perception.''

  Kate stood. ''People are never one-dimensional and they do love to keep secrets. JoLynn is probably no different. It's a fascinating aspect of human nature, one that has kept me very busy today. Now, could you help me clean up before my clients start arriving for therapy?''

  ''Sure. But you didn't eat much.'' I picked up my empty pizza box and Diet Coke can.

  ''I wasn't all that hungry.'' She walked over to the open kitchenette door and dumped her box in the garbage can. Then she held out a sponge in exchange for my trash. ''Wipe the crumbs off the table, would you?''

  In this tiny interaction, I could see her physically withdrawing from me—this after I mentioned her appetite.

  I gripped her arm. ''Look at me, Kate.''

  ''What?'' She tried for a clueless expression and failed miserably.

  ''It's time you let me in.''

  ''What are you talking about?''

  ''You're thinner than ever, you say you have no appetite and you don't share your feelings anymore. I want you to talk about how that man shattered your belief in yourself.''

  She blinked away the sheen of tears. ''Okay, but not tonight. I have work to do.''

  The walk to where I'd parked in a garage several blocks from Kate's office did nothing to rid me of the worry I felt seeing my sister still hurting after so long. She'd been duped into believing a man cared for her, fell hard and then was forced to face the truth.

  And then it dawned on me. Why should I be surprised she went straight to the con angle with JoLynn? Duh. Sometimes I think I'm about three-fourths of a half-wit.

  It was eight o'clock and the sun was about to give up for the day, but the heat and the traffic left the air thick with exhaust and humidity. Just breathing made me tired, but then this had been a long, difficult day.

  I reached the garage, took the elevator up—way, way up—then walked toward my car. The Camry looked lonely in its far-off corner. I'd had to crowd into that spot when I arrived, but now most people had left. My hollow footsteps on the concrete were joined by another sound.

  I looked back, saw no one.

  But I was certain I wasn't alone.

  I picked up my pace, fumbling in my bag for my remote and car keys.

  Too late. When I turned this time, I saw him coming at me fast. The man was quick and efficient. He restrained me from behind with a damp, gloved hand over my mouth and a muscular arm around my chest and shoulders. He pulled me against him and whispered, ''You need to quit digging around in her past. You don't know what you're getting into. Stay away.''

  Over the noise of blood pounding in my temples, I thought, Dugan? But then the man's hand pressed harder against my nose and mouth. Sweet and wet. So sweet . . . and then . . . nothing.

  20

  My alarm was going off, and I thought, I sure as hell need a new mattress. This one is as hard as bricks. But then I realized I wasn't in bed and the muffled alarm was my ringing phone.

  I managed to sit and press my back against something as equally hard as the floor. Either I was as drunk as a waltzing pissant or something bad had happened. My vision was so blurred I couldn't see much but blended gray and black. I blinked several times, trying to focus.

  The smell of mildew, car fumes and garbage surrounded me. The parking garage. That's it. Kate and I had dinner, I walked here and then . . . what?

  Since the world remained fuzzy and dim, I felt around to my right like the blind woman I'd become, and touched a car bumper.

  That's when the real alarm started up—the extra-fancy and very loud car alarm I just had to have. You're a little late in the help department, dear Camry, I thought. I reached in the direction of where my phone had been ringing . . . wasn't ringing now, thank goodness, because I couldn't handle any more noise. I found my bag and pulled my remote and car keys out. I jabbed at what I thought was the alarm silencer. Nothing. Bad aim.

  Damn it, I was about to become deaf as well as blind if I didn't shut that stupid thing off. Another button poke and this time I got it. Blessed silence.

  I sat there, and thank God, my sight slowly returned. I realized through the haze of my thoughts that I was near the passenger side of my car up against the parking garage wall. How in hell had I ended up here?

  I didn't remember being hit on the head—but then, would I remember? I reached up and felt around for bumps or cuts. Nothing hurt . . . no swelling or blood. Same head you've had for years, Abby, I thought. Yup. Same old head. Then I laughed—the sound echoing around me like I was in a carnival fun house. I felt groggy as all get-out, but laughing felt good.

  ''Maybe you should get your little old self out of here, Abby Rose,'' I said out loud. But the words didn't come out right. They slid together and I laughed again. You need a nice long nap, I thought. Then everything will be fine.

  But when I tried to stand, I discovered that even if you haven't been bashed senseless, your brain can be
as screwed up as if someone had removed it and put it in backward. My legs reacted like I'd tried to stand on teddy bear legs. Well, hell's bells, I sure can't drive, at least not yet. My phone rang again. ''Why can't I have some peace and quiet?'' I said as I dug around in my bag. Again, the words came out like one big slurred word.

  ''Hi there,'' I said after I opened it and put it to my ear. Yup. I even sounded as drunk as that pissant. What is a pissant anyway?

  ''Where are you, hon?'' he said. ''I've called, like, six times.''

  I smiled. Jeff. God, how I love Jeff. I took a deep breath and tried to pronounce each word carefully. ''I am sitting on the very nasty parking garage floor in the Medical Center and I have no clue how I got here. But you're a fabulous investigator, so I'm sure if I—''