Mammoth Book of Best New SF 19

by Gardner Dozois

  V. Baikonur Cosmodrome, 12 April 1961

  Frustrated with merely adjusting and rearranging his stubborn pillow, Aksyonov began, shortly past one a.m., to give it a sound thrashing. He pummelled it with his fists, butted it with his head, and slung it into the corner. Aksyonov sat up, sighed, and amused himself for a few minutes by twisting locks of his hair into intricate braids with his left thumb and forefinger, then yanking them free with his right hand. “I am insane,” he said aloud. He threw back the bedcovers and swung his bare feet onto the never-warm wooden floor of the cottage.

  The snores droning through the hallway suggested Aksyonov was alone in his sleeplessness. Trousers, shoes, jacket, cap; he imagined they were the bright orange flight suit, the asphalt spreader’s boots, the leaden bubble of the helmet. He made final adjustments to this fancy (to be sure of the oxygen-nitrogen mix) before he stepped boldly onto the back porch, arms raised in triumph, to claim the concrete walkway and the dusty shrubbery in the name of World Socialism.

  Shaking his head at his foolishness — an option young Gagarin, suited up, alas would not have — Aksyonov strolled into the yard. He briefly mistook, for the thousandth time, the horizonal glow of the launch pad for the dawn of a new day. Aksyonov felt his internal compass corkscrew wildly. He closed his eyes and gulped the chill air, hoped to flood himself with calm, but instead thought of a rocket sucking subzero broth from a hose.

  Across the garden, a light burned in the kitchen window of the Chief’s equally nondescript cottage. Aksyonov walked toward it, since he had nowhere else to walk, and as he neared he became absurdly furtive, stepping with great care, raising his knees high like a prancing colt in zero gravity. He crept into the bushes alongside the house and peered over the sill. As a child, Aksyonov had longed to be a spy; he enjoyed, for example, covertly watching his secretly Orthodox grandfather in prayer. One day he gave himself away with a loud borscht-fed belch, infuriated his grandfather, and launched a family crisis…but the Chief, he saw, was just reading.

  The harsh fluorescent light accented the frostbite scars on the Chief’s face — a sign, too, of his weariness. As usual, his right hand supported his chin; his left index finger guided his eyes across and down the page of his notebook. At his elbow were a plate of cheese curds and a full glass of tea from which no steam rose. The Chief turned the page, read, turned another. Nothing worth watching; why, then, was Aksyonov so fascinated? Why did he feel such comfort, knowing the Chief Designer sat up late in a lighted kitchen, reading? The Chief’s finger moved as methodically as his pen, line after line after — he looked up, not toward the window but toward the back door, and Aksyonov ducked beneath the sill. He heard the scrape of a chair, and heavy footsteps. A wedge of light sliced across the grass.

  The Chief whispered: “Gagarin? Hsst! Hello?”

  After a pause, as Aksyonov held his breath, the Chief peered around the corner of the house at his assistant crouched in the shrubbery.

  “Ah, it’s you,” the Chief said. “Good. Now perhaps I can get some work done, in this winter resort for narcoleptics.”

  Aksyonov was brushing leaves and twigs from his sleeves, trying to formulate an explanation to himself that also would pass muster with the Chief, when his superior reappeared. He strode from the house with the notebook under his right arm as his left arm fought for position inside his bulky jacket, which he wore outdoors in all weathers; Aksyonov figured it weighed at least as much as a flight suit. “Now then,” the Chief said, and shepherded Aksyonov across the yard by the elbow. “Let us suppose, for the sake of argument and for our sanity, that all goes well in the morning. Gagarin goes up, he orbits, he comes down, he talks to Khrushchev, he talks to his mama, he is the good Russian boy, yes? Yes. Fine. All well and good. Still he is just Spam in a can.”

  “Spam, Chief?”

  The Chief waved his hand. “An American delicacy packed in cans, like caviar. I have read too much Life, perhaps. Stop interrupting. I mean that if good Russian boys like Gagarin are ever to orbit anything other than the Earth, they will need a craft better than that hollowed-out Fellow Traveler over there. They will need to be able to maneuver, to rendezvous with each other, to dock, and so on. Now interrupt me. What modular structure for this new craft, this Union craft, best would combine the strengths of our current craft with the terrible necessities of…”

  For more than an hour the two men tromped across the yard, sometimes talked simultaneously and sometimes not at all, sometimes walked shoulder to shoulder and sometimes stalked each other like duelists, and they snatched diagrams from the air, and chopped them in the grass, and bickered and fought and hated one another and reconciled and embraced and bickered again, all beneath a brilliant starry sky at which they did not even glance; and when they tired, having solved nothing and having discovered about a dozen fresh impossibilities to be somehow faced and broken, they collapsed onto the back porch steps in giddy triumph and elation, and then Aksyonov said, “This is not my cottage.”

  The Chief looked around. “Nor mine,” he said.

  Heaped about the porch were bouquets, mostly frugal carnations, brought the previous day, in wave after wave, by dimpled envoys of the Young Communists League.

  “This is Gagarin’s cottage,” Aksyonov whispered. The windows were dark. In the absolute silence: a faint snore.

  “At seven last evening I marched over here and ordered him to go to bed and get a good night’s sleep,” the Chief murmured, eyes wide, “and he has the nerve to do exactly that.” He heaved himself off the steps, rubbed the small of his back, stooped and raked the dirt with his hands. “Help me,” he whispered, and began to load his pockets with pebbles.

  Aksyonov dropped to hands and knees. “You’re right, Chief. Why should we stay up all night, and do all his worrying for him?” He added, under his breath: “The bastard.”

  Incredibly, there was Gagarin, out cold, his outline visible in the darkened room thanks to the radium dial of the bedside clock. The two engineers danced back a few paces from the cosmonaut’s window and began peppering the pane with handfuls of shot. Was the man deaf, or made of stone — a peasant boy already gone to monument? Ah, there’s the light. Crouched behind Gagarin’s complementary black government sedan, which he could drive from the middle of nowhere to the edge of nowhere and back again, his tormentors watched the young hero of the Motherland raise the sash, poke out his head, look around.

  Gagarin whispered: “Chief?”

  No reply, and so the sash came down, and the light went off. The two ruffians stood up, turned solemnly to each other, and began to sputter and fizz with suppressed laughter. Aksyonov drew in a deep breath, and the Chief said, with quiet gravity: “As I prepared to leave the cottage, Gagarin said he had two last questions for me. One, was it not true that he could take a couple of personal items aboard, up to about two hundred grams? Yes, I told him, of course, perhaps a photograph or the like. Then, he made a request. Do you know what that boy wanted to carry into orbit tomorrow? Can you imagine? One of my writing pens.”

  “Did you give him one?”

  The Chief’s face spasmed. “Go to bed, Aksyonov,” he said.

  Aksyonov did, and behind him the Chief Designer leaned on the government-issue sedan and gazed at Yuri Gagarin’s darkened bedroom window.

  VI. Sunrise One, 12 October 1964

  A planet rolled aside to reveal a star, and was itself revealed, lighted as if from within: storm systems roiled; mountain snowfields sparkled; a checkerboard of collective farms wheeled past the window, proof from space that Communism had changed the Earth. Orbital sunrise was the spectacle of a lifetime, yet Cosmonaut Aksyonov was distracted throughout. Cosmonaut Aksyonov was upside down.

  Should he say something? He knew that at four hundred kilometers above the earth’s surface the term “upside down” was meaningless, but the sensation persisted. Even with his eyes closed he felt inverted, as if all the blood was rushing to his head. Surely Yegorov’s countless sensors, which studded eve
ry crevice and cranny of Aksyonov’s body, would detect such a thing? For a moment, Aksyonov fancied that the doctor was aware of his upside-downness and just hadn’t said anything, to spare Aksyonov’s feelings. After all, reorienting himself, swapping ends, would be impossible for any of the three crewmen in this cramped space. Here there was even less room to maneuver than in the back seat of that ridiculous Italian car in which Aksyonov had ridden three abreast with these very men a month before, on a futile midnight jaunt to Tyuratam for vodka. Even with the ability to unstrap himself and float, could the middle person suddenly cry, “Switch!” and reverse himself at will? No, if Aksyonov was upside down, he would have to stay that way until re-entry. And if he was not upside down, but merely insane, then he might stay that way a lot longer, but he tried not to think about that.

  “Looks like a slight anomaly in the saline balance,” Yegorov said, as he peered at his hand-sized lab kit. The doctor sounded very proud of his salty blood. He had poked and prodded himself with sensors and needles and probes ever since reaching orbit, but found himself lamentably normal — until this final pinprick of blood, which Yegorov had flipped from his finger like a tiny red berry, finally yielded something unearthly, if tedious. Well, fine, Comrade Doctor, Aksyonov wanted to say, why do all your little tests not tell you that we’ve been upside down for the past two hours? Because if Aksyonov was upside down, then Yegorov and Novikov must be upside down as well. The thought did not console him.

  “How do you feel, Comrade Aksyonov?” Novikov asked.

  “I am fine,” Aksyonov replied.

  The pilot smiled in reply and returned his attention to the sealed tube of black currant juice that drifted between his outstretched hands. In space as on Earth, Novikov thrilled at small things. Back at the cosmodrome, he had been aghast at Aksyonov’s ignorance of Kazakh food. He had prepared for the reluctant engineer lamb strips and noodles, which he called besh barmak, and poured him a foamy mug of fermented kumiss. “You will enjoy space more,” the pilot had said, “if you experience more of Earth beforehand. Drink up. It’s mare’s milk, but what do you care? We are young yet. Drink.” Now Novikov was engrossed with the plastic tube, which he batted first with his right hand, then his left, as if he were playing tennis with himself, and the tube tumbled first one way, then another. Aksyonov was fairly certain of the tube’s movements to left and right, but what of “up” and “down”? Was the tube, end over end over end, ever truly upside down? Or was it right side up the whole time, as the rest of the capsule revolved around it? Aksyonov wanted to throw up.

  “If you aren’t going to drink that, how about passing it over?” asked the jolly doctor, who probably wanted to test the effects of black currant juice on his saline levels. “Here you go,” replied the equally jolly pilot. He lifted his right hand to let the tube pass beneath it on its way across Aksyonov’s chest. The doctor caught it and said, “Thanks.” He popped the lid with his thumb and squeezed it to release a shivering blob of juice. The doctor let go of the tube (which began a slow drift back across the cabin in response to the slight push of his hand upon release), and brought both hands together to clasp the juice at its middle, mashing the blob until it divided, cell-like, into two separate jellies. The doctor raised his head from his couch and allowed one of them to float into his mouth. He licked his lips and said, “Mmm,” and nudged the other blob toward Novikov. It drifted across Aksyonov’s chest like a dark cloud above a picnic, and was gobbled in its turn; the pilot flicked out his tongue like a frog to catch it.

  And these were grown men!

  “Would you like some currant juice, Comrade Aksyonov?”

  “No, thank you.” His mouth tasted like kumiss.

  “Water?”

  “Coffee?”

  “Orange juice?”

  “Apple, perhaps?”

  “Thank you, I’m not thirsty. Thanks all the same.” He envisioned a headsized glob of vomit bouncing about the cabin as its three captives flinched and moaned beneath, like schoolchildren trapped in a room with a bat. Aksyonov took deep breaths of the canned air and tried to focus on the fireflies outside the window.

  “Comrade Aksyonov has the spacesickness,” Yegorov murmured, as if he and Novikov were exchanging confidences.

  “I do not!” Aksyonov cried.

  “You have lain there like a fish for an hour,” the doctor continued. “Pulse rate normal, respiration normal, eye movements slightly accelerated but otherwise normal, you check out normal on all my readouts, and frankly you look like hell.”

  “Everybody gets it,” Novikov said. “Titov, Nikolayev, Popovich, Bykovsky, Tereshkova — all had it, in some degree or other.”

  “Gagarin, too?” Aksyonov asked.

  “No, Gagarin didn’t get it.”

  “Do you have it?”

  “Ah, no, actually I don’t. But I’ve been a pilot for years, you know. Fighter training and so on.”

  “I have it a little, I think,” Yegorov said. “Just some giddiness. The Americans have reported it, too. We think it may have something to do with the effect of weightlessness on the inner ear.” The doctor had published a number of important papers on the inner ear, and Aksyonov was surprised he had waited so long to bring up that remarkable organ. “Do you feel disoriented, spatially confused in any way?”

  “Yes,” Aksyonov sighed. “I feel as if I’m upside down. I have trouble focusing my eyes. The instruments swim around a little when I try to read them. And I’m a bit queasy as well.”

  “Are you going to throw up?” Novikov asked.

  “No!” Aksyonov retorted, and began to feel better.

  “This is very interesting,” Yegorov said, making notes. “You must report all your symptoms as they occur.”

  “I am not reporting, I am complaining,” Aksyonov said. “And yet I am a crew member aboard the world’s first three-man spacecraft, on the highest manned orbit in history. Forgive me, comrades.”

  Even as he said it, he winced to call the Sunrise a “three-man spacecraft.” It was the same old East capsule minus reserve parachute and ejection system, a risky modification that left just enough room to wedge in a third narrow couch. No room for pressure suits, either, so they all wore grey coveralls, paper-thin jackets, and sneakers. “A shirtsleeve flight,” Khrushchev had called it, when he presented his demands to the Chief at the Chairman’s Black Sea villa the summer before.

  The Chief’s rage had percolated all the way back to Baikonur; by the time he relayed his orders to Aksyonov, he was in a near-frenzy, stomping about the design lab and slamming his fist on the work tables to punctuate his denunciations. “So now we must suspend work on the Union, delay all our progress toward the moon, so that Khrushchev can taunt the Americans, ‘Ha ha! Your Gemini sends up two men, but our Sunrise sends up three! We win again!’” Pencils and rulers rattled as the great fist came down.

  Aksyonov shook his head over the sketches. “It will be three brave cosmonauts who will board this craft,” he said.

  “Not three cosmonauts at all,” the Chief replied. “I have not yet told you the worst part. The Sunrise will carry aloft one trained cosmonaut and two untrained ‘civilians’ — one a doctor, one a scientist or engineer. This way Khrushchev can brag of the first scientific laboratory in space. He said, ‘If you cannot build this for me, if you cannot continue to advance our glorious space program, then I assure you that Comrade Shandarin can.’” The Chief paced back down the table to brood over the diagrams. “But what engineer, I ask you, would be noble and courageous and foolish and short enough to climb into such a bucket without a rifle at his back?”

  At that moment, Aksyonov knew his answer. He had seen the Chief shudder at the mention of Shandarin’s name. But Aksyonov spent a week working up the nerve to pass his answer on to the Chief, and then another couple of weeks persuading him.

  The same evening the Chief finally relented, Aksyonov helped him write a long and detailed letter to be sent by special courier to the Politburo member most fam
iliar with the Baikonur program — the former Kazakhstan party secretary, Comrade Brezhnev. The report detailed Comrade Khrushchev’s increasing interference with the Soviet space program, and implied (without quite saying so) that ignominious disaster loomed if more rational and far-sighted leaders did not intervene. While the Chief laboriously pecked away at the final draft, for even his two-fingered typing was superior to Aksyonov’s, the Motherland’s newest cosmonaut sketched a cartoon called “How To Send A Bureaucrat Into Orbit.” It showed Khrushchev being shoe-horned into a cannon with a crowbar.

  “Look out there,” Novikov said.

  The Sunrise’s porthole twinkled with hundreds of tiny lights, each lasting less than a second. A shimmering envelope of ice crystals surrounded the hurtling spacecraft.

  “I heard and read descriptions of the fireflies,” Aksyonov said, “but I never dreamed how beautiful they are.”

  “Are you still upside down, Comrade?” the doctor asked him.

  Aksyonov laughed. “Yes, but if you can stand it so can I. If I were not as upside down as you two, I would not be here, would I?”

  “Well, the Chief will turn us all upside down,” Novikov said, “if we don’t get some more chores done before we fly back into radio range. We have transitional spectra to photograph, ion fluxes and background radiation to measure, and of course spontaneous greetings to prepare for our Olympic team in Tokyo. Yegorov, perhaps you and our topsy-turvy friend could rehearse the script while I see to these instruments.”

  “Right away, Comrade. Let me just finish these medical notes….”

  Aksyonov squinted at Yegorov’s writing hand. “Comrade Doctor,” he said. “Is that the pen you typically use for note-taking? In zero gravity, it seems prone to skip.”

  Yegorov stopped writing, opened his mouth, closed it again, and cast Aksyonov a sheepish glance. “This is not my usual pen, Comrade. I borrowed it for the flight. It is one of the Chief’s pens.”

  His crewmates regarded the doctor for a few seconds. Then Novikov chuckled and reached into a pocket. “Don’t be ashamed, Comrade Doctor. Look. I myself asked for one of the great man’s handkerchiefs.”