Starseed

by Gruder, Liz

  “Can I do it?” Lucius asked.

  Mrs. Bourg sighed. “Sometimes it is hard, all of you constantly reading my mind. I so wish I had your gifts. But no, Lucius you may not. Jordyn, come to her while she sleeps. Begin the awakening. Give it to her in a dream. She trusts you. And you have a soft spot for the girl. As I have warned you, do not give in to the soft spots. To be human is to feel emotion. And to feel emotion is to create war and die. If you get too close to these humans, they will infect you. You will suffer their emotions. Remember always: we are one group unit and we serve not ourselves. We serve a greater purpose than ourselves. Humans serve only themselves! Do we understand?”

  Mrs. Bourg leaned over Jordyn’s desk. “Do we understand?” she asked in a low tone.

  “Yes, ma’am,” Jordyn replied.

  “You needn’t call me ma’am while the others are unaware,” Mrs. Bourg said, caressing Jordyn’s cheek. “After all, I am your mother.”

  “Stop, Bourg!” Echidna cried, clutching her head. “No motherly feelings.”

  “I can’t help them, dear,” Mrs. Bourg replied. “As an earth human, I will always have emotion for my children.”

  “To your credit, you turned away from humans,” Echidna conceded. “You, at least, had the intelligence to understand the importance of being selected as our breeder.”

  “I am indubitably grateful that I was allowed remembrance and am now allowed to play a part in socializing you to Earth. There are so many women who don’t even know that they have star children …” Mrs. Bourg’s eyes turned milky.

  “It doesn’t matter if they remember,” Echidna snapped. “They create an embryo and we take it to grow on the ships. If these animals,” she motioned to the stuporous human classmates, “were raised in proper hive consciousness, they wouldn’t be so worried about clothing and music and sex. Deep down, they are scared, unsure of themselves. They are a primitive species.”

  “You are right,” Mrs. Bourg said. She reached up to stroke Echidna’s cheek.

  “Don’t touch me,” Echidna said, stepping back. “You made my embryo. That is all. Emotion is wasted thought. Think of the mission!”

  Mrs. Bourg sighed as she gazed reverently at Echidna. “I am incredibly proud of you, Echidna. If I’d had your verve and drive as a young woman …”

  Echidna stared at Mrs. Bourg. Her eyes had again widened and turned solid black.

  “Don’t you dare mind-stare me, young lady!” Mrs. Bourg shrieked. “If you mess with me, I will inform your Master.”

  Echidna’s pupils instantly contracted to show the iris and whites. She looked away, her pale skin going even paler.

  “Now,” Mrs. Bourg said, regaining her composure, “back to the mission. My children, before we create a screen memory for the class, please focus on Kaila’s language. Access the language in her brain. Download it. Learn to talk as she does. She has a lovely way of speaking mostly proper English with a southern lilt. She does not use many foul words and does not utter “like” and “you know” in every sentence, so hers is a good basis to pattern your language. This way you will not seem as strange and foreign to the other students and you may more easily gain their trust.”

  The six hive stood in their silver overalls and clustered around Kaila. They leaned close, staring and absorbing. After a few moments, the hive relaxed.

  “Did you download her language?” Mrs. Bourg asked.

  “Yeah man, you retard,” Lucius said with a straight face.

  “Stop playing games, young man,” Mrs. Bourg chided. “Now Lucius, Antonia, Toby, Jordyn, Echidna, Viktor—please create a screen memory of Introduction to Gravity and Rotation in the students’ minds and create notes in their own handwriting. When they wake, they will have surface quantum physics installed in their brains and memory of me teaching the class but no memory of the rest. After you’ve installed the artificial screen memories, in the remaining time we will explore as many students as we can. Give them the superficial memories of their classmates and yourselves so that they feel they know and like their classmates but not at the deep level. They’re too self-absorbed to care about anything deep anyway. Oh, and let’s put Kaila’s plastic wrap and wig back on her head.”

  Kaila looked at the clock. Two-fifteen. She felt woozy, like a vampire had fed from her. But, still, she’d gotten to know her classmates, remembering as they introduced themselves. How these six strange people all had the same last name, Stryker, because they’d been raised in that cult in New Mexico and didn’t really know their last name as they hadn’t had parents. It was so sad.

  She learned that Phyllis Joiner liked to write poetry and loved her cat named Millificent. Douglas Lafarge liked playing sword and sorcery games, adored Star Trek, and read everything he could on quantum physics. Brandy Powell never wore the same outfit twice, coveted a new Coach purse for her birthday, and wanted to make straight As. Tara Melancon’s father might run for mayor, and he wanted her to be a dermatologist when she grew up—but what she really liked was to read romance ebooks on her iPad.

  Kaila read her notes. She’d never considered that the Earth, the planets, the universe itself, down to every atom in her body, moved in constant rotation. She chilled to realize that if there was a shift in gravity and the Earth stopped spinning, or if there was a polar shift, the world could come to an end.

  She glanced at Jordyn.

  “You feel a little better about this class?” he asked.

  “Definitely,” Kaila said, not knowing why. She had an uneasy feeling, but still, when she looked at Jordyn she grew energized, like when riding horses at full gallop in the wind.

  “Maybe we could hang out one day,” he said.

  Kaila pondered why his language had changed. He sounded more natural. What on earth was going on here?

  “Maybe we could hang out?” Jordyn repeated.

  He looked at her so earnestly that her heart turned over in compassion, knowing he had not been raised normally.

  “Give me your phone number,” he said.

  “Do you have a phone?” Kaila asked. For some reason, she could not picture Jordyn using a phone.

  “No,” Jordyn replied cryptically. “But I can call you anytime I like.”

  Kaila nearly knocked her mother over as she blazed into the kitchen. “You people have kept me locked up in this centuries-old house, and I am getting into this century right now. Everyone has a cell phone and clothes and I am a complete loser. I have got to get a phone—like today!”

  “I take it you met a boy you liked?” Mike asked.

  “No,” Kaila said, reddening. “I made two friends, Melissa and Pia, and they both want to come over, but I have no phone.” She would die before she told her parents about Jordyn.

  “Why do you need a phone?” her mother asked. “Why can’t you call on the home phone like we did when we were kids?”

  “Because home phones are dinosaurs,” Kaila said. “You can stay in this cave, but I am moving ahead.” She folded her arms and jutted out her chin. Her mother rolled her eyes.

  Paw Paw trudged into the kitchen. He was painfully thin from the chemotherapy. Kaila ached to see him so frail. She recalled him strong and riding horses. He’d lost all his hair and his dark eyes were sunken in a shriveled face. But when he looked at her she could still see his love.

  Paw Paw always had to have something sweet to eat. Even in the morning. He never chastised her for eating a Twinkie for breakfast.

  “Goosy,” he called her by his pet name. “I’m glad you’re in school and away from this death trap. Come on. We’re goin’ to the store.”

  “No, Dad,” her mother said. “You can’t drive.”

  “Like hell I can’t.”

  “Oh,” Nan said, nervously fiddling her reading glasses.

  “Get out of our way,” Paw Paw said. “I’m takin’ my granddaughter to the store. She’s gettin’ a phone.”

  They went to AT&T and bought Kaila an iPhone. In the minutes it took to ge
t to the mall, she had the phone figured out. Kaila could dissect anything electronic. She had gotten her computer and printer working in less than five minutes. She was the one her family relied on to program the TV or work the DVD; she could program any device with focused concentration.

  Someday, people won’t need these phones. They will communicate with their minds, Kaila thought. Now where had that thought come from? Forget it—iPhone. She began downloading apps.

  When they entered the mall food court, Kaila smelled fresh baked pretzels and her mouth watered. But when Paw Paw said, “Now I might be an old man, but you have till this mall closes to buy whatever you need to make yourself feel as pretty as you are,” she forgot her hunger.

  “Oh Paw Paw, thank you,” Kaila said, hugging him, feeling his bony thinness.

  “Don’t thank me,” Paw Paw said. “I’ve been living for this. I want to see you happy. You’re the apple of my eye.”

  “Paw Paw, why are you so corny?” Kaila asked, dying to get into the mall and find some cute outfits.

  “Come on,” Paw Paw said, linking arms. “Let’s get you decked out and get them boys shoutin’ yee-haw and whistling at you.”

  “Stop!” Kaila said, pleased.

  Paw Paw turned onto the long, clamshell driveway leading to home in the dark, the truck tires crunching on the shells. In the distance, gas lanterns glowed in front of the house. Crickets and tree frogs chirped in the humid night air. Paw Paw carried bag after bag into the kitchen, then leaned against the wooden kitchen table, panting.

  “I can help you, old man,” Mike said. The kitchen was cozy and redolent with the odor of gumbo, garlic, and deep-fat frying.

  “Don’t need any help,” Paw Paw said. He sank into a chair. He turned to Kaila. “Show ’em what you got.”

  Kaila opened the bags of skirts, tops, and jeans. She hadn’t known what to get. Finally, she had bought anything that hit her fancy, borrowing from all the groups she’d seen at school; and then she hit the makeup counter at Dillard’s.

  “Oh my,” Nan said. “You spent a king’s ransom.”

  “Yes, oh my,” Kaila’s mom echoed, dressed in baseball cap and yoga pants. Her mom taught a yoga class in the converted dining room several times a week.

  The Guidry family, historically, were thrifty where money was concerned. “Money doesn’t grow on trees,” Nan often said, whose parents struggled during the Depression. This was why many of the furnishings in the house were antiques. Nan saw no sense in replacing things as long as they worked.

  “We’re going to have the prettiest girl in school,” Paw Paw said.

  “That we are,” Mike agreed, palming his thinning brown hair.

  “In fact, she’ll be seventeen soon and I propose we have a party,” Paw Paw said. “You can invite all your new friends from school to come and go riding. Have a barbecue. Would you like that?”

  “Oh, yes,” Kaila said. She could invite Jordyn. And Melissa and Pia. Have real friends to her home!

  “Look at this,” her mother marveled at the iPhone. “How do you figure out this fancy equipment?”

  Kaila sighed, wondering why old people were so technologically inept.

  “Enough,” Nan said. “I made a big pot of gumbo, some fried chicken, and cornbread. Let’s eat and get this girl to bed. It’s a school night.”

  Kaila gulped the gumbo and nearly inhaled the chicken and cornbread. Everyone chattered about her new phone and clothes while she daydreamed about Jordyn.

  “Hey,” she asked, her mouth tingling with the gumbo’s cayenne pepper and filé. “You heard about that cult in New Mexico where they brought in some students to our high school?”

  “Sure,” Mike said. “It was all over the news.”

  “I remember,” Paw Paw said.

  “I have no idea what you’re talking about,” her mother said. “And stop feeding the dog under the table.” Lucy gobbled up a hunk of cornbread. Woofy nuzzled her knee for more.

  “Me neither,” Nan said, chomping on a chicken wing.

  “How could you not remember that cult?” Paw Paw asked. “I clearly remember us sitting together watching the news. We all watched and said how sorry we felt for those kids.”

  “Well, I don’t remember it,” Nan said.

  “Alzheimer’s, old woman,” Paw Paw said, shaking his head and pushing back his plate. He’d barely eaten a thing.

  “I don’t remember it either,” Kaila’s mother said.

  Kaila looked at her mother and grandmother, one wearing a navy baseball cap, the other an old pink Easter bonnet—with the black Velostat plastic hidden inside. She had this creeping feeling that everything was not what it seemed. She scratched the skin above her ear under the black plastic. She too, had never heard one word of this cult before today. Goosebumps lifted the hairs on her arms, her intuition prodding chills. She determined to remain watchful. She could figure out anything if she set her mind to the task.

  Kaila trudged upstairs. Her bedroom was in the front of the house on the second floor. Her room was spacious with wood floors, worn rugs, and floor-to-ceiling windows that led out to a balcony spanning the width of the house. The damask curtains, once royal maroon, had faded from too many years’ sun. A white wicker rocking chair sat outside on the gallery. In cooler weather, she could rock and look out over the wrought-iron railing to the pond, the fields, the barn, and the forest beyond. Now, it was too hot, the air sticky with humidity.

  Kaila neatly laid her new outfit for the next day on the antique velvet chair next to her canopied bed. Tomorrow she’d wear a new skirt and blouse. She yanked off the crappy hick jeans and t-shirt and hurled them into the closet. She tore off the wig and the plastic wrapped around her head and scratched her scalp. She often sat alone in her room without the plastic; it just felt so good. She changed into a comfy nightshirt.

  At the far wall opposite her bed was an old-fashioned roll-top secretary desk with many drawers and cubbyholes. On each side of the desk stood a heavy wooden bookcase filled with dusty books. Above the desk hung a gilded oil painting of some long-dead relative. She wore a floor-length gray dress and held a fan in her hands, staring demurely with gloomy eyes from another century.

  That painting has got to go, Kaila thought. She would replace it with a Star Trek poster of Dr. Spock in his powder blue Starship Enterprise crew shirt and red glasses (Spocktacles) with the slogan “Party like a Vulcan.” Not this old stuff. It was as if she had lived in one of those old black-and-white movies and now stepped into a new Technicolor life. She switched on her MacBook, the screen lighting an electric blue.

  Lucy and Woofy stared up at her, panting.

  “You’re right,” Kaila said to the dogs. “I have been ignoring you. I still love you though.”

  She gazed at Woofy, who would forever have one eye shut, having been in a dog fight and lost his left eye. She had cried when it happened and held him in her arms for days, soothing him.

  But animals and humans were different creatures. He had acted on instinct. Or maybe animals and humans weren’t so different: she thought of Douglas Lafarge thrown in the dumpster and everyone teasing that fat guy, Albert Jackson, for eating three lunches.

  Woofy had one tooth that stuck out above his lower lip. Despite his comically tragic appearance, he was a wise dog. Lucy, the black Labrador, licked her hand; Woofy tried to hop up on her lap.

  “No, sit. Be good.” Kaila communicated well with her animals. Talking to them was like listening to music. She just had to listen with an open mind to hear their true message.

  Lucy and Woofy sat on the butter-colored threadbare needlework rug and gazed up at her adoringly. Kaila reached into a plastic container decorated with dog bones and gave them a treat.

  Lucy gobbled the Milk-Bone then barked.

  “No,” Kaila said. “I’m not making popcorn tonight.”

  Lucy’s favorite treat was popcorn, and her eyes rolled back showing the whites in abject pleasure when she got lucky en
ough to eat popcorn.

  Lucy barked again.

  “No,” Kaila said. “I told you I am not making popcorn.”

  Lucy barked three times.

  “Don’t you take that tone with me, young lady,” Kaila said. “I will not be ordered around.”

  Lucy looked at Kaila, panting, her pink tongue sticking out.

  “All right,” Kaila said. “Yes, I agree. That’s fair. I will make popcorn for you this weekend when I’m not at school.”

  Lucy lay down, resting her head on Kaila’s foot.

  Facebook beckoned. Soon as she logged on, Kaila was astonished to see the navy people icon beaming red with friend requests. Those two prep boys in her English class, Derek Mendoza and Wade Stoops. That beautiful prep girl, Priscilla Snowden. The dork from the trash can, Douglas Lafarge. And friend requests from Melissa and Pia.

  Almost everyone she had contact with wanted to be friends. Tears pricked her eyes. Not unreal friends from halfway across the world that she’d never meet, but real, flesh and blood people.

  Through blurred eyes, Kaila studied a friend request from someone named Valdyr Lawless whom she didn’t remember meeting. She confirmed the request nonetheless. Valdyr Lawless. Such a strange name. She clicked on the profile, but it didn’t say much other than he attended Bush High.

  After confirming the friend requests, she searched for “Jordyn Stryker” but no luck. He probably didn’t know about Facebook because he had been secluded in that cult. She tried to deny her disappointment. Or maybe, she pondered, he was Valdyr Lawless. People sometimes used phony names on Facebook. Valdyr would be a name someone like Jordyn Stryker might use as an alias.

  She brushed her teeth, took a shower, and blow-dried her hair. Reluctantly, she wrapped the plastic on her head like a shiny black turban. Recalling her mother’s terror and the subsequent visions upon removal of the plastic, she decided to keep it on. Still, there had to be a freer solution.

  She climbed in bed. Homework. Ugh. She focused intently and scanned the books, turning the pages, absorbing the information. She scribbled on loose leaf. She finished her homework in minutes. Class work was a breeze—and boring. It was the people and cliques that were difficult to understand.