Cedar Woman
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“Wambli has chosen our child,” Roma solemnly stated to her husband, “and we should have no fears for her future.” Upon hearing of the incident, and after long meditation, Mary’s grandmother gave the name of One Feather to the young girl.
Mary One Feather Fools Bull prepared for the journey with increasing trepidation. While washing and ironing the few pieces of clothing she possessed, she would find herself trembling. As she packed her clothes in an old cardboard suitcase, which had been her mother’s, she gently placed wild sage within the folds of each garment. She loved the smell of the sage, which always calmed her when she was troubled or under stress.
Mary held up the last item to go into the small suitcase. It was her mother’s ribbon dress. Made of plain, white cotton, the A-line garment fell to her ankles, the bell sleeves and a boat neckline cunningly trimmed
in blue and red ribbons. Cut four-times longer than the circumference of
the sleeve’s hem, and crossing at the back, the ribbons were sewn to the fabric, the remaining two feet floating freely, giving the garment an airy, elegant feel. The center of the bodice was decorated with chevrons represented in the same satiny trim.
Beginning at the knee, four couplings of red and blue bands encircled the skirt to the hem. It was a beautiful dress, and Mary was moved when her mother insisted that she take it.
“A woman has to have a wedding dress, and there is no time to make one. It would make me proud if you wore this on your wedding day. I cannot go with you, yet I will be there just the same.”
“Ina!” Mary wept, throwing her arms about her mother’s frail frame. Roma, patting her daughter’s heaving shoulders, and gently breaking the embrace, left the room to begin the evening meal. There were other children to care for, and her duties must not be neglected.
11 Woe-pee-lah – Thank you
Mary reverently placed the lovely garment into the suitcase. She started to close the lid, hesitated, and returned to the small chest of drawers where she kept her clothes.
“I can’t believe that I almost forgot you,” she whispered reverently. Stroking the eagle feather, caught in her infant hand years before, which her mother had been careful to save, she reverently placed it in among her clothes, and snapped the metal catches closed. Turning, and walking slowly, Mary left the small, sparsely furnished room to help her mother in the preparation of the foods for the evening supper, her farewell feast, the last meal she would take with her family.
The bus ride was interminable, swift, endless. Gazing at the passing landscape, her pleas to Creator flying out of the open, smudged window, Mary fought off a feeling of panic, a desire to flee. Clutching her dilapidated luggage, its battered form resting upon her knees, she found herself mesmerized by the sound of the vehicle’s motor, the rhythm of the bump, bump, bump of the wheels on ill-repaired roads. She felt as if she were leaving her body, perhaps leaving her present predicament behind.
Without warning, Mary found herself leaping from her seat, her small, cardboard receptacle hitting the sticky, dirty floor of the bus with a muted thud. Racing to the driver, and clutching the steering wheel in her
two, small hands, she began screaming, “Let me off! Stop the bus! I
can’t do this!”
Waking with a start, and gazing around the bus with confusion, Mary soon realized that she had been dreaming.
The bus was late. Scuffing the dirt on the dusty wooden porch of the bus depot, Peter tried to quiet his jangling nerves. What will she look like? Will she at least be presentable? Will she be of a sweet nature, or will she be deceitful like Spider Woman?12 he wondered, thinking of the Lakota legend of Spider and his devious, conniving wife.
Dressed in a denim jacket, white tee shirt and jeans, Peter was a handsome man of the Lakota Sioux tribe. Approximately 5’10”, slender, with deep brown eyes and flowing, dark hair, he epitomized the romantic figure of a handsome, young, Native American male.
Anxious, excited, filled with trepidation, Peter continually glanced down the dusty road as if the intensity of his longing would cause the bus to materialize.
12 Lakota legend of Spider Woman and Coyote
Removing his black cowboy hat, pulling his red bandana out of his right hip pocket, and mopping his brow, Peter heaved a heavy sigh filled with impatience. It was June 15, 1955, and at least to Peter, getting warmer by the minute.
Startled by the sound of a loud engine, he glanced down the road, and spotted the dust-covered bus. Fists clenched in nervous anticipation, he instinctively stepped back a few paces from the edge of the splintered porch, and took a deep breath.
Brakes squealing, the bus slowed to a stop, and the metal door screeched open. Silhouetted in a rectangle of dim light was a small, winsome figure. Peter felt his heart skip a beat as his soul recognized its
mate.
Mary One Feather Fools Bull stood exactly 4’10” in height and weighed 80 pounds. Large, luminous eyes, gazing just above his head, filled a face, which appeared to be too small to hold the twin, shimmering orbs.
Pointed of chin, snub of nose, Mary appeared to Peter to resemble Theda Bara, the raven-haired silent star of the “silver screen” from 1914 to 1926. Peter remembered Theda’s picture from the cover of several
copies of old movie magazines, purchased by his mother when she was
still a child. Mary was 16-years-old.
Taking a deep breath and attempting a trembling smile, suitcase in hand, Mary descended the metal stairs to the wooden porch upon which her groom stood.
Cha! he thought to himself, she doesn’t look like she could lift a spoon – somehow, I don’t care. I will do all of the work if she will just have me.
Mary, on her part, could not bring herself to meet his eyes. She was terrified! What have I gotten myself into? She panicked. What have I done? I don’t know this man! Have I lost my mind? Ina was so sure that I should do this – could she have been wrong? Trembling, Mary stared at her groom’s dusty boots. She was prepared to move back for each step he took forward. Overwhelming fear pressed upon her. Swaying slightly, she felt Peter’s protective hand upon her arm. Somehow, this calmed her instead of making her more afraid.
Peter sensed her distress. He felt in tune with her emotions, almost as if he were feeling them himself. His heart ached for her, and yet, he was determined that she would be his wife.
“Come,” Peter begged, “let us go now to my mother’s house. Everyone is there, and there will be fry bread and corn, rabbit pie, berry pudding, and….” Peter’s voice faltered. Afraid of scaring her off, he bit his tongue. Be quiet! he admonished himself.
Peter bent to take her suitcase from her tiny hand. As he did so, he caught the slight, evocative scent of wild sage. Straightening, he again tried to catch her eye, but Mary kept her shining head bent.
“Come,” he repeated, and again taking her elbow in his hand, lead her to his 1939 Ford pickup, inherited from his father, and now badly rusted and dented.
Helping her into the truck, its upholstery torn and smelling of dust, and running around to the driver’s side, Peter hopped in and started the engine. Very soon, this woman would be his. His body gave an involuntary shudder as he placed the truck in gear and drove away from the station. Peter Spotted Eagle Catcher was already deeply in love.
Reva walked to the truck as it came to a creaking stop, dust billowing around the cab and bed as the tires dug into the loose dirt of the reservation. She smiled at Mary, gazing deeply into her soon-to-be daughter-in-law’s glistening, brown eyes. Opening the car door, Reva offered to help Mary out of the truck.
Mary accepted the older woman’s hand and grasped it firmly. She is as frightened as a bird who sees the shadow of the hawk, Reva thought to herself.
“Come, Cuwitku,13 I have a place for you to change, and then you will be wed.” Reva nodded, as if to reaffirm to herself the verity of what
she was about to say, and smiled.
“Come. It will be all right.”
Fac
e freshly scrubbed, her dark, shining hair newly brushed and hanging loose to her waist, a sage wreath, wrapped with red trade cloth, graced her shapely head. Her mother’s ribbon dress replaced the skirt and cotton shirt she had worn on the bus, and hung gracefully to her ankles. Beaded moccasins, a gift from her mother for her sixteenth birthday, encased her small, graceful feet.
Standing in Reva’s tiny bedroom and clutching the footboard of the rusted, tin, bed frame, Mary resolved to run if she had to. She would walk up to her groom. She would finally look into his eyes, and if she didn’t like what she saw, she would run. She would run and run and run as fast as she could. I don’t care if I have to wash dishes and sleep in the back room of a diner. If I don’t like him, I’m going to run! Mary thought frantically to herself. She had barely completed her thought when the door squeaked open, causing her heart to give a frantic jump. Spinning
13 Chew-weed-koo – Daughter
toward the sound, her beautiful hair fanning out around her slight body, Mary discovered Reva, arms once again held out to her for comfort.
“Come, Mary. It is time,” Reva announced, enfolding Mary in a warm embrace, and placing a small bundle of wild flowers in her trembling hands.
Slowly, slowly, Mary walked to where a tight knot of people were
grouped together in what would be the living room, but, in fact, was merely part of one room which served as kitchen, dining room and parlor.
She felt as if in a dream – as if she were walking in slow motion, or wading through deep water. Her heart was pounding against her rib cage as she slowly advanced toward a single man standing apart from the others, a wild flower tucked in the button-hole of his plaid shirt, his pony tail neat and freshly groomed, and a sage wreath, identical to hers, adorning his head as well.
She did not hear the words spoken, or her own replies. The Medicine Man/Justice of the Peace performing the ceremony, raised the Pipe and murmured some words. Peter turned and tied an eagle plume to Mary’s hair, and still avoiding his eyes, Mary tied one to his. The medicine man picked up a star quilt, and wrapped it about the couple. Slowly, the newly weds turned to face their guests, and the reality of what had just occurred hit Mary with full force. She had obeyed her mother and married. Now was the time, now she must look into the face of her husband.
Hesitantly, oh so hesitantly, she turned toward him, and at last gazed into his eyes.
Time froze. All sound, all movement ceased. Within her ears was the single sound of her heart’s beat, and as her hands touched his, the sound of his beating heart as well. As heartbeat fused with heartbeat, as soul merged with soul, and recognized its eternal partner, time seemed to stand still. Time no longer held any relevance; time was subjective; time held no meaning.
The wedding of Peter Spotted Eagle Catcher and Mary One Feather Fools Bull would reach legendary proportions in the minds of those who witnessed it, and later in those to whom the story was told.
Witnesses would report a shock of electricity, a wave of emotion flooding the room, as Mary’s small bouquet fell, tumbling as if in slow motion, slowly, slowly to the floor. Mary reaching for Peter’s hands, her hair seeming to float upon the air, Peter appearing to expand, to shimmer,
a silver light enveloping the couple, the bride looking deeply into the eyes of her groom, and he, wonderingly, into hers.
The small group was mesmerized. Somehow, they knew that an amazing thing was happening, and that they would remember this day for the rest of their lives.
Something had indeed happened to Mary. She had fallen irrevocably in love with Peter. She felt a new strength surge throughout her body, her very being, and realized, deep within her soul, that he was her destiny, her cuwihpiya okise,14 her half side, her soul mate.
Mary, the timid, was now filled with courage. She knew that she had made the right choice, and that she could go forward without fear.
14 Choo-weeh-pee-yah oh-kee-shay – one who makes you whole
Chapter Three
When you were born, you cried, and the world rejoiced.
Live your life
so that when you die,
the world cries, and you rejoice.
White Elk
Born in Southern Ohio in Adams County, in a small village called May Hill, Evalena “Lena” Mary Catcher, soon named Long Awaited by her grandmother, finally arrived on December 2, 1975.
Married in 1955, her parents despaired of ever having a child until their daughter’s birth twenty years later.
Evalena was barely seven-years-old when she electrified friends, family and neighbors with a single act so poignant, it soon became
legend within the entire county. Walking home from the small general store, where she had gone to fetch a sack of cornmeal for her mother, the
corner of her eye was caught by a splash of vivid color within the
shadows of the single, white, steeple church situated in the center of the small village. There, in a crevice where the portico of the church joined with the main building, a hummingbird lay struggling within a spider’s web, its bill pressed to its crop, and its wings glued to its body, imprisoned by the tough fibers of the web. Floundering, fighting for its life, its frantic heartbeat visible beneath its jeweled breast, the tiny animal’s struggle became evident to the young child. Bending over, she gently released the small creature from its death trap, ripping the web from the foundation of the church. Imprisoned still within the deadly embrace of the web, the bird thrashed, panic-stricken, within her tiny palm.
Cupping the small bird gently within the protective shelter of her hands, Evalena, called Lena for short, walked to a large boulder, which
lay close by. Squatting upon the ground, and leaning against the stone
for support, she slowly ripped away the gooey strands that held the hummingbird captive. Working quickly, she gently removed the sticky threads until he was free. Opening her hands to release him, she rejoiced as he soared into the air, wings beating in a blur of motion, fascinating the child who remained crouched beside the massive rock.
This, in and of itself, would have stirred the imagination of the villagers, but what impressed them further was the continued presence of the tiny bird. Whenever Lena ventured along the dusty streets of the
village, a brilliant jeweled flash of color would be seen, darting about her
head, her shoulders, and occasionally, lighting in the palm of her hand, as if to say, “Here is my protector; here is my mother.”
Reading an account of this spectacular event in a letter sent to her by her devoted daughter-in-law, Reva Two Strikes decided that a new name be given to Lena, to signify the importance of what had just
happened. After long meditation, and consultation with the medicine
man on the Rosebud reservation, a new name was selected. Henceforth, Lena Long Awaited would be Lena Cedar Woman, the nurturer, the quintessential mother, her soul strong, rising from bedrock, its roots firmly planted into Mother Earth, embracing its core in reverence and wisdom. Instinctively she knew Lena was close to The Mother. She was a turtle woman, or medicine woman, and as such, her name should be a reflection of her spirit. And so, her feet were set upon her path of destiny as a holy woman.
The incident with the hummingbird was merely a revelation to the community, for no one could have guessed that, within this seven-year- old child’s breast, dwelt a love for Creator and Mother Earth way beyond her years. With every endeavor, she would ask The Grandfathers to guide her feet, as she believed no incident, no task, no duty, which she performed, was trivial or mundane. Constant in her mind was a parable her father had told her upon the occasion of one of her infrequent transgressions.
“Within each of us, Little Bird, are two wolves fighting,” he said, using her infant nickname.
Eyes stretched in amazement, she looked down at her own diminutive chest, as if she would see the two canines struggling within its
cage. “There are?” she gasped.
“Yes. One wolf i
s filled with those things which are evil within humankind: jealousy, hate, greed, lies, fear, anger. In the other are those qualities which are pure: trust, love, generosity, truth, courage, forgiveness.”
Mesmerized, Lena sat gazing into her father’s eyes, struggling to comprehend the lesson. Moments passed. She could hear the crackle of
the fire, and her mother’s humming from across the single room, which