Screwed: A Motorcycle Club Romance (Death Angels MC) (Scars and Sins Collection Book 3)

by Vivian Gray

  “Sex clubs?”

  He laughed.

  “Noah, you are nothing like I expected the first night I met you.”

  “You aren’t either, sweetheart. I thought I could love you and leave you, but all I wanted was more and more of you. So, tell me you love me, and tell me you’ll marry me.” He gripped my hands harder.

  Could he really be afraid I would say no?

  “Does this mean that you won’t have to spank me anymore?” I asked, teasing him.

  He huffed. “If the day comes that I don’t want to spank that ass of yours, take me out back and use my gun to shoot me.”

  I couldn’t help but laugh.

  “Grandma is going to be happy having us closer,” I said. She never wanted me to move away in the first place, so she would really have herself a good cry when I told her I was coming home.

  “You have to say yes, first,” he pointed out.

  “You didn’t even ask. You just told me we were getting married.”

  That devilish grin of his appeared. “Are you raising your voice to me?”

  I huffed. “Maybe.”

  He shook his head. “Just say you’re marrying me so we can go in the bedroom.”

  “Hmmm.” I stood up, gave him the best seductive grin I could muster, and ran to the bedroom.

  “That’s going to cost you,” I heard him say, but he wasn’t mad.

  I knew what it was going to cost. A spanking and at least two orgasms.

  Definitely worth it.

  Epilogue

  Noah

  Several months later

  Shannon sat on the back porch with our baby boy bouncing on her knee. I still didn’t understand how I’d gotten so lucky, but I stopped trying to figure it out. The summer heat wasn’t too unbearable, and we’d decided to grill. Jude and Tracy had come up for a visit, and with Tracy being six months pregnant, she had plenty of cravings. One being steak. We’d had it every night she’d arrived.

  “Think my baby will be this cute?” Tracy asked, holding onto Jason’s pudgy hand.

  “No, but he’ll be almost as cute,” Shannon teased.

  It was good to hear her so comfortable and happy.

  “Oh, don’t tease her,” Grandma Tina chastised with a grin. “No one will be as cute as this baby boy, not even close.”

  “Thanks, ‘Grandma’,” Tracy said, moving in her seat again. Poor woman couldn’t get comfortable.

  Tina laughed and gave Tracy a kiss on the cheek. “I’m teasing, sweetie.”

  “You think you’ll survive being up here in suburbia?” Jude asked me when I handed him another beer.

  “I have my bike shop and my family. What else could I want?”

  “The thrill?”

  I shook my head. “The risk? No way. I’m not doing anything that could jeopardize what I have right here,” I said, pointing at Shannon. She was too busy playing with Jason to realize I was staring at her.

  “I think I get that.” Jude looked at his own woman. “She’s… I don’t know, like everything, you know? Like no matter what drama is going on at the club, I just want to get home to her.”

  I nodded. “Yeah, that happens. You think you’ll ever leave it?”

  He shook his head. “No, but I’m getting out of the courier shit. With Tommy being president now, I have more choices. I think I’m going to get work outside the club – not be so involved – but no, I don’t want to leave. And Tracy has a solid group of friends there.”

  I could understand that. Maybe if Shannon had melded into my world better, I wouldn’t have wanted to leave either. But as it stood, my world was her world, and she belonged here.

  Jude turned the steaks on the grill. “Man, when do the cravings at least change?”

  I laughed. “Cravings aren’t anything. Just wait until the baby comes and you’re up every two hours helping with diapers and getting that kid to latch on to her tit.”

  Jude looked at me like I’d grown a second head. “You do that?”

  I smacked his shoulder. “A real man does that. Besides…” I took a pull of my beer. “I think her grandma would skin me alive if she found out I didn’t.”

  Jude laughed.

  It probably did look funny – a guy as big as me, as scary looking as me, confessing to getting up for diaper changes. But I wouldn’t have it any other way. Shannon completely submitted to me in every way, and I was there for her in every way she needed.

  Any other way would have been wrong.

  THE END

  Sneak Preview of SILAS

  Read on for a sneak preview of my first book, Silas!

  Silas: A Bad Boy Motorcycle Club Romance (Death Knells MC)

  Biker. Outlaw. Bad boy. Killer?

  On his deathbed, my MC president made me swear to keep his daughter safe.

  But marrying the girl is a dangerous mistake.

  She’s in my house now – and I can’t keep my hands off of her.

  Which is how she ended up pregnant with my baby.

  JESSA

  Silas has always done what he needed to do to survive.

  But I could never be with a man whose hands are covered in innocent blood.

  It doesn’t matter that he’d do anything to keep me safe.

  I don’t need to be protected – I need to be free.

  Free from pain.

  Free from violence.

  Free from my past.

  But I’m trapped in a contradiction.

  Because the only place I truly feel alive is on the back of Silas’s bike.

  I can’t submit to this life.

  I’ve got a bright future, far away from here.

  At least, that’s what I used to think.

  But now, every time Silas lays his hands on me…

  Every time he takes me to his bed and shows me what my body craves…

  I’m forced to admit:

  I belong to him.

  SILAS

  Jessa tried to run away from the biker world.

  But I jumped into the deep end.

  I’ve done bad things in my time down here.

  Robbed. Hurt. Killed.

  All for the club. For my brothers.

  But my sins have changed me. Marked me.

  I can’t be near a woman anymore.

  Especially not one as pure and innocent as Jessa.

  If she gets too close…

  There’s no telling what I might do to her.

  Which is why this fake marriage is a huge mistake.

  I swore to her father – my dying president – that I’d protect his only daughter.

  But I never expected it to come to this:

  Her walking through my house.

  Sleeping in my bed.

  And – God help us both – having my baby.

  Chapter One

  341 B. 341 B.

  Jessa swallowed a sick knot in her throat as the room number ran through her mind. The hospital had too many damn hallways. She skidded to a stop in front of a plaque with room numbers pointing in opposite directions. The anxiety made it impossible to digest what she was seeing. She pressed a hand to her forehead.

  341 B.

  She hung a left, her legs feeling wooden as she remembered the phone call. One of the motorcycle club brothers. A guy she hadn’t seen in years – telling her she needed to come to the hospital ASAP. Her father had been shot.

  Most times when a brother got shot, it didn’t even warrant a second glance.

  If they had been instructed to call her, the estranged daughter of the Death Knells’ president, then it could only be bad.

  Bad bad bad. 341 Bad.

  The breath whooshed out of her when she finally found the room. Hands shaking, she turned the door handle. She hadn’t seen her father face-to-face in two years. Even then, it had been fleeting and perfunctory. A sort of “let’s try to make this relationship better” meetup that had ultimately led to nothing changing.

  Because how could it? Her father, Stone, was committed
to his MC. Jessa’s little brother had died at the helm of it, too, so Jessa never wanted a part of their fake trappings of security and brotherhood.

  Better to just go their separate ways.

  And now look where the MC got you, Dad.

  The door creaked as it swung open. A dimly lit room greeted her. And six Death Knells members turned to look at her.

  The room seemed to shrink under the quiet protectiveness of the club brothers. There was barely a sound as she stepped in, save for the weak beeping of a machine hooked up to her father. His grizzled features looked even more war-torn than she remembered under the dim light of the room.

  He gestured for her to approach, an IV stuck in his hand.

  Jessa looked at the brothers as she headed for the bed. There wasn’t animosity necessarily, but rather a feeling of two species of different worlds acknowledging each other. A rabbit nodding at a dinosaur. A scientist stepping into the world of a porn star.

  “Jessa.” Her father’s rasp was weak – almost sounded like a different person entirely. “You came.” The surprise registered in his voice despite the breathing tube. After all, he had good reason to think she might not come.

  But Jessa had debated, then realized, at the end of the day, that she at least needed to see the old man off.

  “What happened?” She slid her hand into his rough outstretched fingers. His familiar warmth brought back tender memories of childhood – the way he used to lead her to her favorite ice cream shop on Sundays, the effortless way he could throw her up, high into the sky, while she shrieked with joy, and the overall sense that her daddy would always be her protector. No matter what life threw their way.

  Except he couldn’t protect your brother. And he couldn’t protect himself. So you had to protect yourself through distance.

  “I don’t think you want to know.” He managed a weak laugh. Jessa was acutely aware of the brick wall of brothers surrounding her and her father. The men were motionless, stoic – always there to do the president’s bidding. “It was tense. We lost a brother.”

  She sniffed. “And now you.” Her gaze traveled over the bandages wrapped around his bicep. He shifted in bed, wincing. “Where were you shot?”

  He let out a rattling sigh. “My gut and my chest.”

  “So why aren’t they just sewing you up?” She glanced around the hospital room. A few pairs of eyes were on her. Who could tell what these guys knew about her, much less what they thought of her? Two she recognized from her childhood; longtime pals and brothers of the club. The rest were strangers; probably recruited sometime in the past six years that she’d distanced herself fully from her father and the club.

  Her baby brother, Jake, had died at age eighteen as a recruit for the Death Knells. It had destroyed her, and their father, too. But the fact that the old man didn’t give up the MC lifestyle immediately hadn’t sat well with her. It just didn’t make sense for him to support the lifestyle that had killed his only son.

  Not that this crowd would be sympathetic.

  “The way the bullet entered…” He paused, wheezing. “I’ve got some internal bleeding. It’s real bad, Gem.”

  He’d always called her his ‘Jessa Gem’ growing up – pretty like a gemstone. She rolled her lips inward, studying the seam of his hospital-issued blanket. She wouldn’t cry here, not in front of all these men she didn’t know.

  Jessa squeezed his hand as she tamped down the emotions threatening to spill out of her. After a few moments of painful silence, she found her voice. Turning to the brothers gathered around them, she said, “Can we have a few minutes?”

  The brothers regarded her in stony silence. Maybe her father had instructed them to be invisible, or maybe this was the byproduct of her truly awful reputation. Stone nodded, flicking his fingers toward the door. She watched as they filed out like a bizarre version of a schoolroom line; these grown boys in their matching uniforms, black leather cuts with the same gnarled bell sewn onto the back.

  The last man out of the room caught her eye – a guy who looked about her age, hair pulled into a bun at the top of his head with a freshly shorn undercut underneath. Bright blue eyes zapped her to attention. The biker Jared Leto. He looked like he was about to say something, but her father held up his hand.

  “It’s fine, Silas. You can go.”

  Silas sent her a disapproving look and then retreated from the room. When it was just the two of them, Jessa arched a brow.

  “They all but barked at me,” she noted.

  “They’re protective.” Her father winced as he shifted on the bed. “They’re good guys.”

  Jessa bit back a snarky response. It wasn’t a good idea to aggravate old wounds, not now. Not when this very well might be the last time she ever spoke to her father.

  But what else was there to say? The truth was so glaringly obvious; he wouldn’t be dying if it weren’t for the MC. However good those guys were, their every waking moment reinforced a sad truth: Jessa’s brother, and soon her father, didn’t value their lives enough to save themselves.

  “I don’t know what to say,” she said feebly, her own voice sounding foreign to her. “I wasn’t prepared for this.”

  “Me neither, Gem.”

  “But how could you let it happen?” Her brows furrowed, emotion bubbling up and over the top. Tamping it down wasn’t working. It would come out one way or another. “You’ve lived your life on the edge for so long. Wasn’t Jake’s death the proof you needed to take a back seat?”

  The sigh that slithered out of her father contained all the exhaustion and annoyance built up over his lifetime. “Gem, I don’t have the words to explain this to you. Not again. Not here.”

  “But… you could have chosen life.” Tears welled in her eyes. She thought she had reconciled the loss of her father years ago – back when she decided to act as though he were already dead. But apparently, she was wrong. “You could have chosen a relationship with me.”

  “Gem, you think I didn’t choose you?” His hand squeezed hers. “I always chose you. You just didn’t see it.”

  “Oh yeah?” She let a sarcastic laugh at the same time tears spilled out of her eyes. She wiped them away hastily. “Sure, looked a lot like choosing the MC.”

  He shook his head, the pulse monitor spiking. “It was never about choosing the MC. I am the MC. Don’t you get that?”

  A heavy silence settled between them while Jessa focused on the bed. Just let it go. These wounds will heal someday. She had to believe it. And she didn’t want to spend the rest of her life lamenting the fact that she fought with her dad on his deathbed.

  “I’ve always loved you, Dad.” She sniffed hard, bringing the back of his hand up to her lips. “You need to know that. I just couldn’t stay close after what happened with Jake. But I’ve always loved you.”

  “I know, baby.” The pulse monitor went back to a normal rate. He mustered a small smile. “You’ve always been my baby girl. My beautiful Gem.”

  Jessa pinched her eyes shut as the tears flowed. There was no holding them back.

  “Daddy, I’m gonna miss you.” Her voice broke as she spoke, and tears were shining in his eyes, too. “I’m gonna make you proud. I’m sorry I wasted our time together.”

  Jessa pressed her head to his chest, and he wrapped a big arm around her. She cried into his chest until she couldn’t cry anymore. When she finally pulled herself off him, he wiped away a few tears from his face.

  “There’s something I need to tell you before I go,” he began. “But before I do, go grab Silas from outside.”

  ***

  Silas had been staring at the hospital room door for what felt like hours. Every second away from his president stretched on like an hour. These final moments were precious, and hell if that bitch daughter of his deserved them.

  A couple brothers spoke quietly down the hall, glancing at their phones. Tiny had gone to grab a round of shitty hospital coffee, while Silas was left wondering if that girl was gonna strangle her dad
to say she finally got her revenge.

  The door creaked open, and he straightened. The daughter peeked out, her gaze landing on him. Bright green eyes sent a shiver through him, but he wasn’t sure if it was a shiver that would lead to fucking or slapping. Maybe both, with this girl.

  “You Silas?” Her words landed like a whip on him. He jerked his head into a nod. “Stone wants you.”

  He pushed off the wall and followed her into the room, sizing her up from behind. On looks alone, she was the type of girl he’d hunt down in a bar full of women. Slender and tightly packed, she looked like a biker chick who liked to have a good time. But there was no way he’d ever hunt down Stone’s estranged daughter. He and the rest of the club knew that she’d given a big middle finger to the MC and everything they stood for. Silas couldn’t get down with that, not even for a good lay.