I Need You Now: Standalone HEA Billionaire Alpha Male BDSM Erotica Contemporary Suspense Romance (Need Series #2)

by Cynthia P. O'Neill

  Her answer was immediate. “Yes!”

  That’s all I needed to hear. My hands grabbed her ass and lifted her onto the desk. “Hold out your hands.”

  It was no surprise that her eyes were half dazed, but she held her hands out to me as I removed my tie and began to wrap it around her wrists. “I want you to lay back, hands over your head, and spread your legs so I can taste your sweet arousal.”

  I noticed her body relax even further when she was bound and laid back against the hardness of the desk. Her legs fell open instantly as I moved her ass to the edge of the desk. She was dripping wet and I couldn’t wait to get a taste. But first, I wanted to surprise her with a little treat. I’d always been addicted to popping candy. I loved how it fizzed in my mouth and made it hard for the woman I was with not to come all over my tongue.

  I reached into my back pocket—yes, that’s just how much I loved the stuff—and grabbed my favorite strawberry flavor. I also grabbed a condom from my wallet and put it out on the desk for later. I wasn’t going to let her out of this office until I had tasted and pleasured every inch of her body.

  “Do you know what a stop light system of communication is?” I didn’t want to go any further until I knew she understood how to get my attention if necessary. “I want a verbal answer, not a nod. I won’t be looking at you when my mouth is between your legs.”

  I watched as her ass squirmed on the desk, reacting to my statement. “Yes. I’m familiar.” Just as I’d thought. I wonder if she ever went to any of the clubs in the area?

  I stood just above her, my hands caressing her thighs and occasionally dipping into her folds. I loved watching her body move and her mouth hang open. I could imagine her lips wrapped around my cock later. You’re getting ahead of yourself.

  “I don’t want you coming until I tell you to. I want to own all the orgasms I’m going to give you. Do you understand?” My mind kept telling me not to get ahead of myself, but I had several months of pent-up sexual frustration to unleash and I couldn’t stop thinking of all the different ways I’d bring her to climax.

  “Yes. I’m not to come unless you tell me, sir.”

  God, I loved how she was already calling me sir. It made me wonder how the word Master would sound on her lips. It was odd, I hadn’t even made it inside of her yet, but I was already planning to have her more than once. Why did Gianna appeal to me so?

  I knelt down on the floor, which put me at perfect level with her pussy. I held her folds open and took one tentative swipe at her clit with my tongue. She nearly came off the table.

  “Whoa, little one, I need you still.” I held her hips down with one hand as I poured some of the candy in my mouth, getting ready to lick her again. The bubbling and fizzing sensation was arousing on my tongue, but would be even more so on her clit.

  The moment my tongue hit her sensitive nub, she cried out, “Aah!” and began to writhe on the table.

  Her taste, combined with the candy, was out of this world and oddly familiar. I could spend an eternity between her thighs sucking up her arousal with my tongue.

  She began trying to shift against me, wanting to ride my face with her crotch. “Keep still, little filly. I’ll be the only one riding you tonight.” The words I’d spoken to Vixen seemed to flow smoothly out of my mouth to Gianna.

  Her body went still, making me wonder if something was wrong. I looked up from her center and saw her face looking both lascivious and questionable.

  “Is there a problem, Gianna?”

  She looked at me in surprise. Her mouth finally opened to ask, “Cowboy?”

  Oh my freaking God! It couldn’t be. Is this why I felt strangely connected to her from the beginning? My Vixen had been right in front of my eyes the whole time?

  I stood up, swooping my hands underneath her arms and lifting her slightly, so I could look at her face a little closer. I squinted my eyes and imagined the blonde platinum wig and the black lace mask that hindered my view of those sparkling brown beauties. “Vixen?”

  She nodded. “Destino ci ha portato ad ogni altro.” She slipped her tied up arms over my head to hold me closer.

  I couldn’t believe this. After all this time, I was holding her in my arms again. I couldn’t contain my smile as I kissed the end of her nose. “I agree, little filly, fate has led us back to each other.”

  I shook my head, still trying to take it all in. “Why did I not see it before?”

  “Probably for the same reason I didn’t. Neither one of us knew what the other looked like. I knew you traveled for work, but had no idea you were back in town . . . to stay?”

  I nodded. “Yes. I’m here to stay this time. I decided to quit my job and move back to the city so I could get to know my future niece or nephew.” Did I dare tell her the other reason? Why not? “Plus, I’ve been looking for you.”

  Her eyes lit up. “You have?”

  “Yes. I’ve been back to that club every chance I could to try to find you. I’ve talked with Kenny and Carol to see if they had any clues to who you were. They knew, but wouldn’t tell me.”

  I kept rambling on and on about things, feeling exposed for my admissions and needing to reclaim a bit of my manliness. “Wait a minute. The guy you were dreaming about at the pool, the one who seemed to occupy all your dreams, and the one you love . . . is me?”

  It was fascinating watching her skin turn a brilliant shade of red. It reminded me of how pink I’d turned her ass that night with my hand. Later!

  She tried to turn away from me, why I didn’t know. I grabbed hold of her chin and forced her to look at me. “I’m waiting for that answer. Remember, you will not lie to your Dom. If you do, I’ll bend you over this desk like I did that spanking bench and whip your little ass until you can’t sit down.”

  Gianna took in a deep breath. “It was you. First it was you as the cowboy, but later my dreams started merging and you became the focus of every one of them.”

  “So when you were downstairs climaxing, who was giving it to you?” I remember hearing her scream out in ecstasy and had been jealous, even then, of anyone touching her.

  I didn’t think she could turn any redder, but she did. This must be some admission. “I was fanaticizing about you while using my vibrator. It was the only way I could get off for a while. But lately nothing works.”

  I digested all the information. “You never did admit to loving me.”

  Gianna bit her lower lip. “Stop biting your lip. That’s reserved for me.” I reached up and pulled it loose from her top teeth.

  “I don’t want to answer, afraid you’ll run.” She paused for a moment, choosing her words carefully. “I fell for you the night we were together, but I could tell you’d been hurt before, holding me at arm’s length most of the night. You ran from me then and you’ll leave me now.”

  I’d hurt her, badly. My heart felt the blow and I needed to rectify it. I placed my cheek against hers so I could whisper in her ear. “You’re right. I’d been burned badly and lost any hope or desire of ever finding someone. I slept around to quell my carnal thirst. But with you it was different. I’m probably throwing out my man card admitting this, but what the hell, you can’t move forward to the present, or even the future by staying in the past. I’ve been there too long and it’s time I focused on something else—on you!”

  This emotional shit was hard, but I didn’t want to risk losing the person I’d been seeking for the past several months. “I felt a connection with you that night. It was the first time I’d allowed myself to open my heart in years. The walls and scars were there, but somehow you managed to navigate your way in. You saved me that night, showing me there was more to life than just a quick fuck. The last time we came together, I wasn’t fucking you, I was making love to you. I didn’t want to believe it at first, but it was true.”

  Her legs wrapped around me and pulled me closer.

  I reached up, pushing some strands of her hair back behind her ear as I started nibbling on the spot just below it, t
he one I knew made her crazy. “I was a fool to let you walk out of my life that night. I just didn’t realize it until you were gone. I’ve done everything within my power to work my way back to Orlando to find you and I’m not going to let you go, unless it’s what you desire.”

  Her feet started pushing at my pants, indicating she wanted them off. I was happy to oblige, since her hands were still tied up. I had taken a condom out, but I really wanted to be buried deep inside her, feeling our flesh meet as one. “Please tell me you’re on the pill or something. I want to feel myself buried deep inside that sweet little pussy with nothing between us.”

  “Yes. I take shots and I’m safe.” Her face was filled with desire and want.

  “I’m safe, too.” I shoved my pants down to my knees, grabbed hold of her hips, and shoved balls deep into her tight little cunt. My god, she was tight. She truly hadn’t been with anyone after me.

  Her eyes shot open and she moaned in ecstasy, sending a shiver coursing through my body. I had to still myself, waiting for her to acclimate to my size and to prevent myself from blowing my load. Her body was as tight as a glove and it felt amazing. I was finally living my dreams.

  Gianna’s hips began to move. I took it as a sign that she was ready for the ride of her life. I reared back, bringing my cock out to the tip and then thrusting back in. She took all of me easily. The walls of her vagina kept squeezing my cock, trying to pull it in deeper.

  The feel of thrusting in and out of her was intoxicating, but I needed to feel deeper. I reached up, pulling her arms from around my neck and laying her down on the desk. “I need to be deeper, hon.”

  A smile spread across her face. “Yes!” she screamed out as I pulled her legs over my shoulders and pushed deeper into her moist center.

  I wanted to be gentle, but the feel of her was driving me crazy. Her walls began to quiver, making me want to come. I refused to let this be over yet, not after the time we’d been apart. “Don’t come yet. Hold on for me, my Vixen.”

  I could see her mind focusing on holding her orgasm. I loved her need to please me. She was the only one who ever gave herself to me fully.

  I didn’t want to give up the moment, but I could see her teeth biting hard into her lower lip. Her legs and body were shaking, barely containing her climax. I placed my thumb over the hard nubbin of her clit, circling it a couple times, as her whimpers reached high pitched levels.

  I reared back and thrust in hard a couple times as I told her, “Come for me, love. Let me hear you scream my name.” By the second thrust, her tight channel locked onto my cock, milking it, and forcing my own release. I ground into her a couple times, loving the feel of her body, enjoying the knowledge that my seed now filled her, marking her as mine. It might be considered a bit ancient, like a caveman, but I didn’t care. She was my woman. Mine!

  She yelled out, “Oh. God. Yes. Nate!” at the top of her lungs. I was thankful that most of the building was deserted. We might get a few stares from security or the cleaning crew, but at least we could keep this private and between us. But did I want to keep things hidden? We’d have a lot to discuss.

  I collapsed on her chest and listened to her heart beat frantically as we both tried to come down from our high. I’d intended to spank her, show her my dominance, and see if she’d submit to me. I’d had a whole scene I wanted to play out, but once I knew it was her, the woman I’d been searching for, I couldn’t wait to get inside her.

  I looked up and saw the satiated look on her face. Gianna’s eyelids were half hooded and she was beautiful and mine! Boy, was I feeling possessive today. To my surprise, I liked it.

  I leaned over her and caressed her face, giving her a kiss on the lips. “Are you okay?”

  She nodded.

  I had to joke with her. “Cat got your tongue?”

  She laughed. “No. I just can’t believe it’s you.”

  I WAS LOST IN thought and high on the euphoric feel of my climax. He caught me off guard, asking me if I was all right. I was, just kind of speechless and trying to think back on all our encounters to see if I’d ignored any clues indicating who he was.

  “Are you surprised it’s me?” Nate asked with a look of contentment on his face.

  “Yes and no.”

  I don’t think he liked my answer. “Explain yourself.”

  “I’m trying to look back over our interactions lately. Neither one of us knew what the other looked like, other than what our bodies felt like, but as you can see, both of us changed.” I reached up and squeezed the hard muscles of his arm to emphasize a point. “You’re bigger, more filled out than you were that night. I was looking for the old you.”

  He laughed. “And you are losing entirely too much weight. I love your body as it is, but I really loved getting my hands on your curves, now they’re almost gone.” His lips brushed against my breasts, giving them tender kisses. “I either need to feed you or get you pregnant to put some weight back on.”

  I jumped at the comment and raised my hand to him. “Hold on a minute. We just found one another after all this time. We don’t need to rush into anything. I’d like to get to know a bit more about who you are and why you ran from me that night.”

  Nate nodded. “I agree. I’d like to take you on a proper date, get to know more about what makes you tick, including why you keep men at a distance.”

  I shook my head, but he was quick to pin me down. “Don’t go shaking that head on me, little filly. I’ll tie you to my bed and tickle you until I get the truth out of you.”

  He was right. I did keep men at a distance, much the same way he’d kept women. “It’s an easy answer. I was betrayed and hurt in a past relationship. I thought he was my one and only, but I was just a fling for a few weeks before he got married. I wasn’t good enough for him.”

  I tried turning my head away from him so I wouldn’t have to see the judgment in Nate’s eyes, but he wouldn’t let me. “He wasn’t good enough for you, love. I’m actually glad, because that left you to me.”

  I couldn’t argue that. “So what’s your story?”

  He lifted up and began moving himself inside me. I couldn’t believe his dick was starting to harden already. “Same general story. I was engaged to a woman I thought I’d gotten pregnant, but the real father came back and offered to marry her and she left me cold and hurt.”

  His lips began moving down my neck as his speed started increasing, igniting a fire deep within my belly, signaling another climax was beginning. “I’m sorry,” I whispered.

  “It’s not your problem, hon. I was hurt. I dealt with it the only way I could, through sex and not committing to anyone. I couldn’t talk to my sister, for fear of judgment. Here I was supposed to be someone she looked up to and I fell into the pregnancy trap with the bitch.” His words were cold and filled with anger and resentment.

  “How did it happen?”

  He paused for a moment and looked down at me. “I’d been going out with Erin for a few months. She told me she had broken up with someone and was ready to date again. I later found out that she’d been sleeping with him while she dated me. When he left her, she’d just found out she was pregnant and ended up bedding me. A month later I learned of her pregnancy and thought it was mine. I offered to marry her and she accepted.”

  I could feel his pain. “Why would someone do such a thing?”

  Nate shrugged his shoulders. “I don’t know. Maybe she just needed someone to support her, maybe she didn’t want to be a single mom. I’m not sure why she did it. All I know is that I fell for her and her plan. But her lover came back, offered to marry her, and all I got was a “Dear John” email. She didn’t have the decency to tell me in person or over the phone, only through an email.”

  He looked to the side for a moment before bringing his gaze around to me. “You know the funny thing is, I began to fall in love with her and the idea of having a child. I was only a few months away from finishing school. I was ready to pass up the job I’d been offered by the co
mpany I worked for to search for one that would keep me local instead of traveling around the country. I’d even begun to check out family style apartments and home rentals in the area.”

  I reached up to cradle his face with my hand. “She didn’t love you if she could leave you so easily. I’m sorry for the pain she caused.”

  “I think it hurt most because I was invested in the idea. Now that I look back on it, I can see that I never really loved her. I didn’t have any special bond to her. We just were, that was all. Unlike you. You’re the first person I’ve felt a soul deep connection with.”

  I smiled up at him, loving the words coming from his mouth. I thought back on the first time our hands touched, after getting out of the pool. “Did the battery of the music player really spark you that day, or did you feel it, too?”

  He started moving inside me again as his lips began sucking at my neck. “I felt it too, love. I just didn’t want to admit it. I’ve been feeling it this entire time, but your dominant act threw me for a loop. I didn’t know whether to beat your ass for the way you talked to me or to bend you over your desk and take you hard.”

  His eyebrows lifted with amusement. “Can you tell which one I favored?”

  I could feel my body giving in to his needs as his pace picked up, building higher toward another orgasm. “I’d say the latter choice, but you probably wanted both.” My words were but a whisper as moans of pleasure started taking me over, forcing my mind and body to surrender to him.

  “You’re right, love.” He bit me lightly on the earlobe, making my insides clench around his cock.

  His movements were slower this time, allowing the sensations of our lovemaking to build slowly. We didn’t say anything further, only gazing into one another’s eyes as we continued toward the same destination.

  “Come,” he said, as he pushed forward and released into me once more.

  Afterwards, he finally released my hands from his tie and rubbed my wrists and arms to get the circulation back into them. I was surprised when he asked, “Don’t you have something you want to tell me?”