Outlaw

by Angus Donald

  When I next awoke, Robin was there. ‘Brigid says you are healing well,’ he said with a grin.

  I stared at him. ‘Who?’

  ‘Brigid, the priestess; the one who healed you. The Irish woman who has no doubt been feeding you eye of newt and dried bat’s penis for the past week.’ He was smiling. ‘Though I must say you look well on it.’ And I did feel well. There was yet another clean white bandage on my arm and it gave a little twinge when I flexed the muscles but apart from that I felt fine. A little weak perhaps, but fine. Actually, I felt rather good.

  ‘Well, you’ve spent long enough as a slug-a-bed. What you need is some fresh air, exercise.’ Robin grinned at me. ‘I know you like to steal so let’s go and take a few of the King’s deer.’

  That afternoon and for many days afterwards I hunted deer with Robin. Though I was weak at first, my full strength returned after a day or so and I found I was happy. In fact, I had never been happier. We would ride into the forest to a place where the huntsmen had seen small herds of red deer and then we would proceed on foot; stalking the animals through the dense woodland, armed with war bows. These man-killers made from yew had a much greater range than the light ash hunting bows most people used, but I could not draw one to even half its full extent with my wounded arm - to be honest, I never really mastered the great bow, even after spending years with some of the finest archers in the world. But I could stalk like a born forester, moving silently through the wood, watching every step to avoid treading on a stick that might snap under my feet and scare the game. We would approach the deer, moving painfully slowly with the wind in our faces to prevent the animals from scenting us, pausing for a few heartbeats between each step and remaining still as statues to check we were undetected. When we had worked our way close enough to the hart or hind, say, a distance of fifty yards, or even closer if the trees were dense enough, then Robin, or occasionally one of his men, would loose an arrow, aiming a hand’s breadth below the shoulder to rake the heart and lungs. Robin was a magnificent shot, but there was always a helter-skelter chase after the animal had been hit and had begun its death run. We crashed through the undergrowth following the trail of bright red blood splashes until we would come across the heaving, exhausted, dying beast. Then the huntsmen would dispatch it with their spears.

  If the animal was a stag, with a set of impressive antlers, the men would cut the horns free from the body and pack them up with special care, while the carcass, belly contents removed, was heaved on to the back of a horse for the journey home. I noticed that the death of each deer seemed to affect Robin strangely. Each time we killed, he would bow his head and offer a silent prayer over the animal before the huntsmen could gralloch the beast. And more often than not, Robin almost seemed to have a tear in his eye after the kill. It was strange behaviour, knowing as I did what he was capable of doing to his fellow man. But his sadness over a dead animal never seemed to dampen his enthusiasm for the chase.

  My time was my own at Robin’s Caves; I had no formal lessons, and few chores. When I wasn’t hunting with Robin, I enjoyed a few practice sword bouts with Little John. He had returned after his mission to Southwell with a heavy, dripping sack, which he had dumped at Robin’s feet. I excused myself and left the cave while they examined the contents, but I heard that Robin had a severed head delivered to Murdac during one of his feasts with a parchment note stuffed in the mouth.

  Little John seemed impressed with my sword skill, though when we fenced - both of us with borrowed blades, as mine, I presumed, had melted in the fire at Thangbrand’s and John always used an enormous double-bladed axe in battle - I knew he was going easy on me and, try as I might, I could never penetrate his guard. I was a little scared of him, truth be told; he had held himself apart from me in our previous encounters but our fencing sessions at the Caves brought us together and I sensed that he wanted to be friendly. And, despite his huge size, his toughness and his appallingly blasphemous oaths, I liked him.

  One day, as we sat at the big table, caring for our weapons after a muddy practice session in the forest, with the wind moaning outside the main cave and the rain dripping from the entrance, John told me the story of how he had come to join Robin as an outlaw.

  ‘I was in the service of his father, you know, old Baron Edwinstowe,’ he told me as he scrubbed at a rusty patch on his chain-mail armour. ‘I was master-at-arms at the castle, as my father was before me, God rest his soul, and it was my duty to teach young Robin to fight. He was about your age, maybe a little younger, and full of sin and impudence in those days.’ He chuckled at the memory. ‘But he was a good-looking boy and there was fire in him - and courage, too. I like a brave man, always have, always will.’ He paused in his tale and used a small fruit knife to scrape away at an obstinate patch of red rust on his massive hauberk. Then he continued: ‘We started our training the right way, with the quarterstaff. The Baron objected, saying it was a peasant’s weapon. A mere piece of wood. But I insisted - there is great skill in wielding a staff; it doesn’t cost anything to make, and, when you are desperate, a solid piece of wood can save your life.’ I thought of Ralph’s club and the night of the wolves and silently agreed.

  ‘He was quick, and strong and he learnt fast. And he had grit. We used to practise on the castle drawbridge. The two of us on the drawbridge above the moat with half the castle servants hanging over the battlements and watching. I’d knock him in the water nine times out of ten, but he always crawled out of the mud and filth and picked up his staff again. Like I said, he was a gutsy boy. After a month or so, he could sometimes knock me in the drink - and then I felt he was ready to move on to cold steel.

  ‘The thing is, though we knocked each other about something fierce with the quarterstaves, he always had more bruises than he should when we stripped off to wash after a bout, and he sometimes had bruises on the face, too. I asked him about it once and he just shook his head and pretended that I had given them to him at our last session. ‘You are a cruel and brutal man, John Nailor,’ he would say, in jest. ‘You don’t know your own strength.’ He was lying, of course, and I knew it. But if he didn’t want to tell me, there wasn’t much I could do . . .’

  John stopped, took a huge pull on his tankard of ale, and dropped the hauberk in a wooden bucket. He added a double handful of sand and some water and vinegar and began to stir the mixture vigorously with a thick stick. ‘The thing was, I liked the boy,’ he said, speaking loudly over the grinding of the sand against the chain-mail. ‘You could put him down but he always got up again. And he never complained. Never. But I was curious about who could be knocking him about. Who would dare? He was the youngest son of a Norman baron, descended from the great Bishop Odo, who came over with the Conquerer. His eldest brother William was away with his father attending the King for most of the year. Hugh, who was only a year or two younger than William, held the post of chamberlain for the de Brewister family in Lincolnshire. It couldn’t be either of his big brothers who were beating him. It couldn’t be any of the servants or men-at arms. In fact, when I thought about it, I knew it could only be one man, but I couldn’t believe him capable of giving Robin such vicious punishment. He was Father Walter, a priest, a man of God, who had been sent by the Archbishop of York to serve as a tutor to young Robin.’ He stopped grinding the chain mail against the slop of sand, pulled the sopping hauberk out, peered at it, noticed a remaining patch of rust and dropped it back into the bucket. He took another pull from his tankard, and then went back to stirring the noisy bucket in regular grinding circles.

  ‘One day, when Robin came out to battle practice with me, he was in obvious pain from his ribs. He kept insisting it was nothing but I forced him to lift his shirt and show me his side. His whole torso was a mass of bruises, and at least three ribs were cracked. So I went to have a word with Father Walter.

  ‘He was a tall, lean man with a long curved nose that looked like a beak, and a mournful, pious expression. I pushed open the door of his room at the top of the
castle and found him at prayer, kneeling on the cold stone flags of the floor before a large open window and clasping a large wooden crucifix in front of his body. He had been praying out loud and I caught the end of it: “ . . . forgive this miserable sinner his weakness; remove the snares of temptation from his path and make his will to resist strong. Keep me from the fires of everlasting damnation. I ask in the name of Our Lord Jesus Christ, the one and only Son of God, Amen.”

  ‘He rose stiffly from his knees and turned to me: “How may I help you, my son?” he asked calmly. I stood uncertain, in the doorway. “It’s about the boy Robert,” I said and I told him that in my opinion he was being too hard on him. I mentioned the bruises and the broken ribs and I suggested, in a polite and friendly way, that he should go a little easier on him in future.

  ‘Father Walter drew himself up to his full height, and he was not much shorter than me, though very thin. “You insolent ox, you dare to speak to me about the chastisement of a sinner?” He was shouting at me, bellowing like the wrath of God, and I admit I was taken aback. “Calm yourself, Father, I’m only suggesting that—” But he overrode me. “You lumpen dolt, you think a few marks on the body are important. He is a fiend of Hell sent to tempt good men from the path of righteousness and I will beat him bloody, if I choose, to remove the foul stain of pride from his soul.” He ranted on and I could feel my temper beginning to rise. His noise had summoned a couple of serving maids who watched our debate, mouths agape, through the open door. “Christ’s crusty drawers, Father, there’s chastisement and there is beating blood out of a young boy on a daily basis and—” He interrupted me again, shouting: “You dare to question my actions? Get on your knees before me and beg my forgiveness or I will consign your soul to the furthermost pit and your flesh will be seared for eternity by rivers of fire!”

  ‘Then I lost possession of myself,’ John said, with a wry sideways smile at me, and he finally stopped grinding away at his bucket. ‘I’ve never had much admiration for priests and I don’t care to be threatened by anyone. So I grabbed that ranting bully, hustled him bodily across the room and held him out of the window upside down, by one ankle. That shut him up. He just dangled there, me holding him by one skinny leg, the skirts of his robe flapping around his head and fifty foot of air between his tonsure and the stone of the castle courtyard. A crowd formed below, though none of them thought to fetch a blanket to catch him in. Perhaps they hated him, too.

  ‘I said, as calmly as I could, “If you ever lay a finger on the boy again, I will end your miserable life. And to Hell with my eternal soul. Do you understand me?” He nodded furiously; his face was red, engorged with blood, but I swear I have never seen a man look more frightened. So I hauled him inside and set him down on his cot. He was speechless with terror. I don’t think anyone had ever stood up to him in his life. So I took my leave, and he sat on his cot shaking with fear and staring at me with outraged eyes. It was the last sight I had of him alive.

  ‘The next morning, I waited for Robin in the courtyard - we were supposed to be working on sword and dagger combinations, if I remember right. It was just after dawn but there was no sign of him. So I went looking for him, thinking he must have overslept. His chamber was at the top of the castle as well. As I walked past the priest’s room, I glanced inside. It was bad - Christ’s bulging haemorrhoids - it’s a sight I’ll never forget. And I’ve seen a few things, lad. Done them, too.

  ‘The priest was naked and tied to the bed. A gag was stuffed into his mouth. His entire body was covered with burns - red-raw oozing burns with blackened flesh around the edges. Around the bed were the stubs of a dozen candles and the burnt-out remains of two wooden torches that would usually have been stuck in a becket to light a dark passageway. The air was filled with a smell like that of burning pork. It looked as if every inch of skin had felt the touch of a naked flame, over what must have been several hours. I shudder even now to think about the agony that man must have endured before he was finally given release by having his throat cut from ear to ear. And, as a final insult, his own wooden crucifix had been crudely shoved up his arse, right up to the cross bar.

  ‘I stared at the dead man; and I knew who had done this. But, just to confirm, I looked quickly into Robin’s chamber. There was no sign of the boy, his bed had not been slept in and his clothes and weapons were gone. Then it struck me. I would be blamed for this. Yesterday, I had publicly argued with the priest and threatened to kill him - and today he was found dead. It wouldn’t be long before they came looking for me.

  ‘I gathered a few belongings, saddled a horse and was riding out of the main gate by the time the screaming had started in the upper floors of the castle. I ran into Robin about noon. He was sitting by the side of the southern road, calmly eating bread and cheese. As I looked at him sitting there, as innocent as a spring lamb, I found it hard to believe that he had spent the greater part of the night torturing a priest. He hailed me as I approached and I dismounted and sat down next to him. There was a faint smell of burnt pork about him, but otherwise he seemed unchanged. We ate for a while in silence, then I said: “Well, you’ve killed a man of God, for which they will hang you if you are caught. And if they don’t blame you, they’ll blame me. So what are we going to do now?”

  ‘“Don’t worry, John,’ said Robin, ‘I’ve got it all worked out. I think . . . I think I’m going to have to get myself an earldom.”

  ‘I laughed in disbelief, thinking he must be mad. After all, the boy was penniless, friendless and on the run from the law for murdering a priest. But Robin calmly went on, as if he were talking about what tunic he would like to wear that day: “And, for what I want to achieve, I need to become much feared, and then very powerful, and then extremely rich.’ He looked at me with those weird grey eyes, and I realised he was perfectly serious. Then he said: “I’m going to need your help, John.”’

  Chapter Eleven

  Alan, my little grandson, has a fever. It came as the new leaves were appearing on the apple trees; as the first flushes of green life burst out after the bleak months of winter. His mother, Marie, my daughter-in-law and housekeeper, is beside herself with worry; she fears he will die as her husband did. She does not sleep, but sits beside Alan’s cot trying to feed him thin gruel and mopping at his forehead with a damp cloth. When he sleeps, she prays. She spends hours on her knees at the village church, beseeching the Virgin Mary to save her boy’s life, and wearying the ears of the Holy Trinity. But it seems to be doing no good. The boy is losing weight fast, he sweats and tosses the bedclothes off in his fever. He mumbles and shouts and thrashes his arms about - I fear he will soon be with God.

  Father Gilbert, the priest of this parish, has recommended fasting and prayer to persuade the Almighty to save the life of the boy. I cannot object, I will gladly go without food if it will save my grandson; when I pray to Our Saviour, Lord Jesus Christ, I ask him to take my life instead of his. Marie says the sickness is a punishment. She says that my past sins, amassed in my days as an outlaw, are the cause of the boy’s suffering. Heaven’s revenge, she calls it. She may be right; certainly I have many a black stain on my soul from those days of robbery, killing and blasphemy, but I find it hard to believe that Our Merciful Father would kill a lively, innocent boy for the long-ago misdeeds of one tired old man.

  If Alan does not soon begin to recover, I have decided that I will sacrifice more than my worthless old carcass. I will place my very soul in jeopardy. I will pay a visit to Brigid. She still lives, and not far away, though she is even older and more shrivelled than me these days. And even as I know her to be a witch and a woman of depraved and devilish practices, I know, too, her power, and I will go to her and beg her help. For Alan’s sake.

  At Robin’s Caves, as my arm grew strong again and the marks of the wolf’s teeth faded to four pink glossy dimples, I saw less of Bernard than I had at Thangbrand’s; he was withdrawn after our adventure in the woods and he had begun to neglect his toilet and grow a scraggly, patchy
beard. The iridescent cockerel was gone; he began to look more like the other outlaws and he spent much of his time drinking and making music alone in one of the many rock chambers that made up Robin’s sprawling hideout. The acoustics in his cave, he told me, were extraordinary; and certainly the music he made there had a booming, earthy quality all of its own. Robin’s Caves, men said, had been carved out of the bedrock by magical dwarfs, and they could close tight, according to legend, when the spirits of the woodland wished, leaving no sign that they had ever been there. In fact, they were merely very difficult to find, deep as they were in an uninhabited part of Sherwood, and I shall never reveal their whereabouts. I swore an oath never to tell and, although my lord Robin is dead, I shall not break my word to him.

  The Caves were roomy, though; at a pinch, they could shelter a couple of hundred men. It was rare, of course, for there to be so many at the camp at one time. Robin sent out a constant stream of armed patrols, each twenty men strong and under the command of a trusted ‘captain’, to scout the surrounding area for enemy troops, and to lay ambushes for rich travellers. He did it, I think, to keep the men hard and busy and out of trouble; for if they were allowed to stay around the Caves, they tended to sit about drinking and gambling and would soon get into fights among themselves. Discipline, though, was as harsh as it had been at Thangbrand’s. The rules were simple: show respect to Robin and his officers; obey his orders without question; don’t steal from your comrades; and don’t even think of touching the chest of silver in the back of the cave that held Robin’s Share. If you transgressed, the penalty was a horrible death.