Lightspeed Magazine Issue 36

by Eleanor Arnason

  “Much better,” said the hwarhath. He walked forward and picked up the rifle, handing it to the monster.

  For a moment, Akuin was afraid. But the monster held the rifle properly, barrel pointed down. The oddly shaped hands did not reach for the trigger. The backs of the hands were pale and hairless. Was the creature the same all over? White and as hairless as a fish?

  The hwarhath man looked at Akuin, who glanced down at once. This was a very senior officer. It showed in his tone of voice, the way he moved, the way he treated the monster, expecting obedience, which the monster gave him. Not a man you looked at directly.

  If the man had questions, he did not ask them. Instead, he explained their arrival. It had been an accident. They’d gotten off their trail and lost. “Though not by much, I suspect. If your relatives become worried, they will be able to find us.”

  The night before had been spent at the entrance to Akuin’s valley. This morning, curious, they had hiked in. “I don’t think we could find this place again. In fact, we’ll need your help to get back to our trail.”

  “I’ll give it in return for news,” Akuin said, then felt surprise at what he’d said.

  The hwarhath man tilted his head in agreement. “That can be done.”

  Akuin remembered he was the host and got busy making tea. The two visitors wandered through his garden. The human still carried Akuin’s rifle. There was another rifle in the cabin. If necessary, Akuin could kill both of them.

  But if they vanished, Akuin’s relatives would look for them and keep looking till the men were found. Hospitality required as much. So did respect for rank and the connections far-in-front officers always had. The hwarhath picked a flower—a yellow midsummer bloom—and handed it to his companion, who took it with a flash of teeth. A smile. Then the two of them strolled back toward the cabin, the hwarhath first, the monster following, rifle in one hand, flower in the other.

  This was a peculiar situation! And likely to turn out badly. If the men became curious about him, they’d discover that he was AWOL. His family would be shamed in public. He would have to kill himself.

  His mother should have turned him in twenty-five years before. The result would have been the same for him: death by suicide or execution. But the Atkwa would have escaped embarrassment. At least his mother wasn’t alive to see the result of her affection.

  Maybe it would be better to ask no questions, send the men off as quickly as possible and hope they did not become curious. But his longing for information was intense. In any case, they must suspect that he was a runaway. How could they not? He was alone in the mountains and so ignorant that he didn’t know the war with the humans was over.

  There was a flat rock near his cabin door. He used it as a table, setting out teapot and cups. His two guests settled down, the monster leaning Akuin’s rifle against the cabin where Akuin could not reach it, though the monster could. He kept the flower, twirling its stem between oddly proportioned fingers. “It really is a very fine garden.”

  “What kind of news do you want to hear?” asked the hwarhath.

  “The war,” Akuin said.

  “It turned out to be a mistake. Humans can be reasoned with, though I can’t say the process is easy, and we live at such great distances from one another that there isn’t much to fight over.”

  “Some fool, apparently a human fool, fired at the first strange ship he encountered,” the monster added. “That’s how the war began.” He showed his teeth to Akuin, another smile. It wasn’t quick and friendly like a hwarhath smile, but wide and slow, disturbing. “It continued because the two sides lacked a way to communicate, unless one calls the firing of weapons a form of communication. In the end, we learned each other’s languages.”

  “That helped,” the hwarhath said. “Though once a war has gotten going, it’s hard to stop. This proved no exception.”

  Akuin asked about the station where he’d been assigned. The hwarhath man was silent.

  “It’s not an important place,” Akuin said. “Maybe you haven’t heard of it.”

  “Why do you want to know about it?” the man asked.

  “I had a friend who was assigned there, a man named Gehazi Thev.”

  “The physicist.”

  “You know about him,” said Akuin. “Is he still alive?”

  “He wasn’t at the station when it disappeared.”

  Hah! Akuin thought and refilled the cups. The monster had barely touched his tea, but the hwarhath male was obviously a drinker. “Did the region collapse, as he said it would? Was the station swallowed by strangeness?”

  “We couldn’t get back in the usual way,” the hwarhath said. “The local gate had vanished, along with everything else. But we were able to survey the area from a distance, and we sent a robot probe. The stars that had been in the region were gone. No question about that. But they hadn’t—as far as we could tell from a distance—been replaced by strangeness, and there wasn’t the kind of release of energy we expected. When the probe reached the region, it found nothing special. There was nothing there except empty space.”

  “How is that possible?” Akuin asked.

  “Gehazi Thev revised his theory.” The hwarhath gave a proper smile, small and quick, which did not threaten at all. “If you know him, you know that nothing pushes him back. His first ideas did not explain what happened, so he brought new ideas to the fore. He now thinks the collapse served to separate the region from our universe.”

  “What do you mean?” Akuin asked. “What happened to the station? Does it still exist?”

  “How can we know?” the man said in answer. “If it has survived, then it’s in another universe, along with the stars that vanished. A very small universe, according to Gehazi Thev, who has described the place. There is no way to check his ideas, but it’s a fine description.

  “At first, according to Gehazi Thev, the new universe would be dark, except for the stars around the station. Imagine how that would look!” The man exhaled. Akuin couldn’t tell if the exhalation meant horror or interest. Horror seemed more reasonable. “In time, the light produced by the stars will be bent back. Then it will seem that new stars are appearing in the distance, all dim and red, like the stars around the station. If the men in the station had good enough instruments, they’d be able to see themselves. They will certainly be able to see and hear the messages they send.”

  “The men in the station must be dead,” Akuin said.

  “Most likely, though Gehazi Thev thinks—or did, the last time I heard him speak—there’s a slight possibility they are alive. It depends on what happened to all the strangeness in the region, when it collapsed, not to mention the energy that should have been generated by the collapse. If these went into this new universe, then the universe is almost certainly uninhabitable. But if the strangeness and energy were in some way dissipated or used up in the creation of the universe—”

  It was, Akuin realized, another one of Thev’s terrible ideas. “When did this happen?”

  “Twenty-one years ago,” the hwarhath said.

  Akuin could have been there, when the station vanished. He almost certainly knew men who had died or gone into their own universe. Had Thev’s lover, the hands-on physicist, been among them? He could no longer remember the fellow’s name. Akuin looked toward his garden, but did not see its midsummer brightness. Instead, for a moment, he imagined darkness and isolation, relieved—finally—by dim red stars that were an illusion, light bent back toward its origin. What a fate!

  “Most likely the station was destroyed,” the hwarhath said in a comfortable tone, then excused himself and went off to eliminate tea.

  The monster stayed where he was, his cup still full. “I have bad reactions to a number of hwarhath foods,” he said. “It’s better not to experiment.”

  “How did you end up working for us?” Akuin asked.

  “I was offered a job. I took it.”

  “Was this after the war ended?”

  The monster smi
led his slow, disturbing smile. “No.”

  “Is this acceptable behavior among humans?” Akuin asked.

  “To change sides in the middle of a war? No.”

  Obviously Akuin found the monster interesting. This was a person who’d done something worse than running away. “What would happen if your people got hold of you?”

  “Nothing now. There is a treaty. I’m a hwarhath officer. That should protect me. But the usual penalty for disloyalty is death.”

  Akuin wanted to ask the monster why he’d changed sides, but there wasn’t time. 8 The hwarhath male was returning, moving through Akuin’s garden, pausing to pick another flower, this one red. He laid the flower down on Akuin’s rock table, then resettled himself on the ground. “Is there anything else you want to know?”

  “What are you going to do about me?” Akuin asked, and was surprised by the question. Surely it would have been wiser to keep quiet.

  The hwarhath tilted his head, considering. “We’re both on leave at the moment. Our work, when we are at work, is not for the Corps that keeps track of hwarhath men; and we are guests in this country. I assume the Atkwa know about you. Let them deal with you. I don’t see that your behavior is our business.”

  He was not going to die. His relatives were not going to suffer embarrassment. In his relief, he offered them vegetables from his garden.

  “We can’t carry much,” the hwarhath said. “And my friend can’t eat most of our edible plants. Either they don’t nurture him, or they make him ill. So he lives on specially prepared rations. It’s a hard fate for a human. Eating is an amusement for them. They expect their food to be as entertaining as a good play. Our human rations are—I have been told—dull.”

  “This is true,” the monster said.

  “But I’ll accept your offer,” his hwarhath companion concluded. “I don’t know that I’ve ever seen handsomer looking vegetables. This is something worthy of respect, though I don’t have the human interest in food.”

  That afternoon, Akuin led them back to their trail. After he left them, heading back toward home, he realized that he hadn’t learned their names. Nor had they learned his, but he was obviously Atkwa. If they wanted to find his records, they’d be able to do it without difficulty. He reached his cabin late in the afternoon. Shadows covered the valley’s floor and lower slopes, but light still filled the sky and touched the eastern hilltops. A copperleaf tree stood high on one of these, shining as if it were actually made of uncorroded copper. Lovely!

  He gathered the teapot and cups, carrying them inside, then came out and picked up the yellow flower, which had been left. The red one had gone with his visitors, tucked under a flap on the hwarhath man’s pack. He’d seen it go bobbing down the trail, as the hwarhath followed his long-legged companion. Easy to see who the athlete in the pair was.

  Holding the withered flower, Akuin realized the two were lovers. It was as clear as something seen in a vision, though he was not a diviner and did not have visions. Nonetheless, he knew.

  Impossible! was his first reaction. But how could he tell what was possible these days? He’d heard a monster speak his native language and been told the monster was a hwarhath officer. If this could happen, and a station vanish out of the universe, who could say what other unexpected events occur?

  He laid the flower down, unwilling to discard it yet, and watched as sunlight faded off the copperleaf tree. A disturbing day, though he was glad to hear that Thev was still alive and apparently famous. It was what Thev wanted. The news brought by the two men made him feel isolated and ignorant, for a moment doubtful about the choice he’d made.

  Overhead the sky seemed limitless, not a roof, but an ocean into which he could fall and sink—if not forever, then far enough to drown.

  Hah! That was an unpleasant idea! And also untrue. He stood with his feet in the dirt of Atkwa. Below the dirt was granite and the great round planet, which held him as a mother holds a child. There was no way for him to fall into the sky.

  As for the choice he’d made—this was what he’d always wanted, as intensely as Thev had wanted fame: the garden in front of him, the copperleaf tree shining on its cliff, evening bugs beginning to call in the shadows. Only a fool mourns for the impossible or asks for everything, as if the Goddess had made the universe for his comfort.

  If he had lost through his choice, he had also gained. Surely this valley—the bugs, the scent of his garden carried on a slight cool wind—was better than a lifetime spent in gray metal corridors. It was certainly better than vanishing into a very small universe of dim red stars. Thev and his ideas!

  He stayed at the cabin doorway, watching day end. The sky was a roof again. The ground beneath his feet was solid. Gradually his uncertainty—his sense of loss—faded, like sunlight fading off the copperleaf tree. He regretted nothing. This was the right place for him to be.

  That evening Ettin Gwarha and Sanders Nicholas made their camp next to the trail. A stream ran in a gully below them, producing a pleasant quiet noise. Ettin Gwarha ate fresh vegetables, while his companion made do with human rations. Then the son of Ettin turned on a map and studied it. “We’ll take a different route out than the one we originally planned,” he said.

  “Why?” asked Sanders Nicholas.

  “The original plan had us ending at one of the Atkwa greathouses. I’d just as soon avoid the family.”

  “Is there a reason?”

  “If they realize how close we came to that man’s territory, they’ll worry, and that will force me to reassure them. As much as possible, I want nothing to do with this situation.”

  “But you told the man you wouldn’t turn him in.”

  “Every family has its secrets, and we are guests in the country of the Atkwa. But never think that I approve of behavior such as his. There is no acceptable reason to run away from duty.” The frontman turned off his map and closed it, then added, “I’m not going to comment on the behavior of the Atkwa women in letting their male relative go wild. Only women can judge women.”

  Sanders Nicholas considered this for a while. Maybe Ettin Gwarha could read the expression on his pale hairless face. No ordinary hwarhath can. “I have another question,” he said finally.

  The frontman looked at him.

  “Why do you know so much about Gehazi Thev and the station which vanished? Physics has never been one of your areas of competence.”

  “Negotiation is my great skill, as you know. When the station disappeared, the Bundle had two questions it wanted answered, and they wanted one question at least to be asked diplomatically, since it was a disturbing question, and they had to go—I had to go—to the Helig Institute for an answer.”9

  Sanders Nicholas waited.

  “The first question was, had some kind of weapon caused our station to disappear? Was it possible that humans—or another alien species—had so much power? Remember that an entire grove of stars vanished with the station. This was a serious event! If intelligent beings caused it to happen, then we were in trouble.

  “The next question was, could such an event be caused? Was there a way to make a weapon out of whatever had happened?”

  Sanders Nicholas gave his lover the wide, slow, unfriendly-seeming smile of humans. “You were hoping you could force the human home system into another universe.”

  “It was a thought that occurred to several men,” Ettin Gwarha admitted. “Surely you can imagine the appeal of the idea, Nicky! The human threat could be eliminated without doing harm to humanity. We wouldn’t have to go to our female relatives and say, ‘We have destroyed women and children.’”

  Sanders Nicholas sat quietly, looking at the small fire they had made. It was dying to embers already. Overhead the sky was dark. The Banner of the Goddess stretched across it, a wide swathe of dimly shining light. “I have two objections,” he said finally. “How could the Bundle be certain that people would not be harmed? It would be an untested procedure, after all; and I find it hard to believe that any universe,
even a small one, comes into existence quietly.”

  Ettin Gwarha inclined his head, perhaps in agreement. “What is your other objection?”

  “Even if it could be done without immediate physical harm, think of the consequences. You would be depriving humanity of this—” He looked up, gesturing toward the starry sky. “Would you like to live in a very small universe, Ettin Gwarha?”

  “No.”

  “I may be showing a bias, but I think this universe would be diminished if it lost humanity, though there’s no question we are a difficult species.”

  “We could have found better neighbors,” Ettin Gwarha said in agreement. “But it doesn’t seem likely we’ll be able to get rid of you. The scientists at the Helig Institute say there’s no way to reproduce whatever happened at Kushaiin. Gehazi Thev does not agree. He believes we could cause such an event, but only in a region on the verge of collapse. Such a region would be full of old stars and strangeness. It’s not the kind of place one would expect to find intelligent life. At most, in such a place, we might find a research station.” Ettin Gwarha smiled briefly, his teeth flashing in the red light of the fire. “Hardly worth destroying in such an elaborate fashion. ‘Avoid force in excess of the force needed,’ as the old proverb says.”

  “Well, then,” Sanders Nicholas said. “We are stuck with each other and with a very large universe.”

  “A disturbing situation,” his lover said in agreement. “Though I think we can endure it. There is a final aspect, which I pointed out to the Bundle. The situation at hand—the idea that worried us—was not likely. Destroying an entire system, or moving it out of our universe, is beyond any science we know, and I don’t believe humanity will develop a weapon able to do this. Human technology, at least in the relevant areas, is not impressive, and their economic and political problems are so severe I don’t think they can afford the necessary R & D. But if there are two star-faring species in the galaxy, there ought to be three and four and five. Suppose one of these other species is as hostile as humanity and better organized. Could they create a weapon able to destroy an entire area of space? How can we know?