Hot Commodity

by Champagne Books

  “Don’t I always?”

  She leaned toward him and kissed his cheek. “Thank you.”

  He wanted to grab her hand and keep her in Cam’s car, beg to her stick around—just a little longer. But this was her decision to make.

  Feeling as if she was deserting him—instead of his cousin—he watched her disappear inside the hotel.

  As soon as she was out of sight, he drove to Cameron’s.

  As irritated as he was with Olivia, Boston didn’t think he could actually blame her. It was hard to watch Cameron when he was down. No woman should have to put up with a man who couldn’t get over the fact he was human and hadn’t been able save a manic depressive.

  Boston really didn’t think he should have to put up with it either. But he had no idea how to slap his friend back to reality and tell him to wake up and notice the world around him. Sienna was gone, and Olivia was here.

  Olivia was better looking anyway. And she wasn’t creepy-quiet like Sienna had been. Cameron was damn lucky for stumbling across Livy; he should definitely put a bigger effort into trying to keep her around, instead of moping about something that happened a full decade ago.

  Boston had lost someone around the same time, and look at him. Had he turned into a bummed-out alcoholic? No. Did he worry the family by plunging into depression? Hell no. He’d picked up and carried on. And if there were some nights when he locked himself alone in a room and filled himself with aching, bitter sweet memories, jacking off until he nearly went blind, well, then no one else had to know about it.

  “I’m getting real tired of picking up your sorry ass every time you

  stumble,” Boston muttered as he parked in driveway. He cut the engine and

  stared up at the house for a moment. Letting out another tired sigh, he exited the car and entered the house.

  “Cam?” he called into the dim interior. There weren’t many lights on; he fumbled a minute before he found the wall switch.

  “Hey, Banks?” he called again and frowned as he started back to his cousin’s den, which was Cameron’s main moping place.

  But that room was dark too. Feeling a finger of concern skate up the back of his neck, Boston started up the stairs. He turned on lights as he went, glancing into every corridor he passed.

  Not caring for the anxious feeling that washed through him, Boston yelled a little louder, “Damn it, Cameron. Where the hell are you hiding? I know you’re here. All your cars are outside.” He hoped his cousin would pop out from somewhere and say, except the one Olivia took, so he could explain that it had returned.

  But no one answered. He made a frustrated growling sound. It wasn’t like Cameron to use the silent treatment.

  “I know she’s gone,” he called, not sure why he was bringing it up. They might be best friends, but neither of them discussed major personal problems. Cameron tended to drink his away, and Boston locked his so deep inside no one knew about them.

  But maybe, for some reason, Cam wanted to discuss this.

  “Hell, I’ll even drink one with you if you want,” he coaxed, thinking that would surely draw the man out.

  Fear hit him when nothing happened. The house was too quiet—silent as death—so he panicked. Cameron was here; he knew it. But where was he? Starting back on the ground floor, Boston methodically went through every room.

  He finally found his best friend in the master bathroom on the second floor, passed out next to the toilet. Boston smelled him first. Even as he flipped on the light, he knew what he was going to find. But he still wasn’t prepared for the severity of alarm that struck him when he spotted the drunk.

  Cameron looked dead. His skin was gray, and he wasn’t moving at all.

  “Cam!” Boston fell to his knees at Cameron’s side and pressed his fingers to the cold, clammy skin on his cousin’s neck, waiting to feel a pulse. When he finally felt a light yet slow thump, he nearly wilted in relief. “Cameron,” he said steadily and shook his shoulders. “Wake up.”

  Cameron did move then, but only to slump limply against Boston’s leg. Unable to stand the stench, Boston reached forward and flushed the toilet. But as he did so, Cameron’s body heaved, and he vomited some more.

  “Jesus,” Boston breathed and hurried to position his unconscious friend so the outpouring was partially aimed into the toilet.

  When it sounded like he was choking, Boston moved quickly to

  reposition him before he suffocated on bile. All the while, Cameron remained comatose. He didn’t wake up once. Not when Boston used toilet paper to wipe chunks from his mouth or even when he pulled Cam into his lap and rocked him.

  He’d never seen anyone so sick before. Or look so dead. It scared him. Something was horribly, awfully wrong and he instinctively knew that if he didn’t get help quick, his friend wasn’t going to make it through the night.

  His voice shook as he gave the emergency operator Cam’s address.

  Gritting his teeth, Boston cradled Cameron closer and cursed. “Stupid, selfish bastard,” he muttered. “Don’t you dare die on me. I will never forgive you for this if you drop dead in my arms, you son of a bitch.”

  Though Cameron didn’t respond to the muttered ravings, Boston figured he’d still gotten through. At least Cameron had stopped throwing up and wasn’t in jeopardy of choking by the time paramedics arrived.

  Nineteen

  Cameron woke to the steady, calming beep of a heart monitor. He felt the IV next, plugged into his wrist like some kind of electrical socket to keep him running. Finally, the warm pressure of someone holding his hand entered his realm of consciousness. Knowing those comforting fingers anywhere, he managed a painful, cracked smile.

  “Mom,” he croaked and turned his face to the right as he opened his eyes.

  “Oh, my sweet baby boy.” Though tears clotted her lashes, she smiled and tightened her grip encouragingly.

  “Where’s Dad?”

  “Right here, kiddo,” came his father’s voice.

  Slowly, Cameron rolled his head to the left.

  “Hey, there,” Chuck said, bending down to get into Cameron’s field of vision. “Decided to join the living again, huh?”

  Cameron didn’t bother to smile. He didn’t feel so alive at the moment. Drained and empty and a little numb, his licked his lips. His head felt as if someone was taking a jack-hammer to his skull and trying to drill down to his toes. Even lying down, he felt nauseous and dizzy.

  “Wha…what happened?”

  “Alcohol poisoning,” his father answered, placing his palm over Cameron’s hair. The warmth of his fingers seeped through Cameron’s locks and soothed his aching head. “You went over the limit this time, son.”

  To his right, his mother covered her mouth and let out a small sob.

  Cam winced. “Sorry.”

  “Yeah, well, you should probably save your apologies for those two.” His dad hooked a thumb over his shoulder toward the curtain that separated him from the main part of the ICU room. “They’re taking it worse than anyone. They both seem to think this is their fault.”

  Cameron managed to lift his face enough to see Boston and Olivia in the doorway. They’d wrapped themselves around each other in a very private embrace. Livy buried her face so far into Boston’s shirt, Cam feared it would

  take a surgical procedure to remove her. And Boston—his best friend in the entire world—curled around Cam’s wife with his arms wrapped so tight he fisted the back of her shirt in his hands.

  Jealousy hit hard. Well, thanks a lot, he wanted to snarl, though his energy level was so pathetic, he could only manage a small grunt. But it sure as hell hadn’t taken them long to turn to each other. He wasn’t even buried yet.

  Then Olivia lifted her face and looked up at Boston. She was as pale as a ghost, save for the red rings around her eyes, where tears gathered and dripped. She said something, and Boston answered with a shake of the head. Then he wiped at his own eyes with the back of his hand.

  Well, damn. Bos was bawl
ing too?

  “Why’re they crying?” he slurred, twisting his face toward his mom.

  “Because they love you, and you scared us all half to death,” she rasped, her voice growing hoarse.

  Cameron closed his eyes, and listened to Boston murmur comforting words to Olivia.

  Chuck gripped Cam’s shoulder. “Boston’s the one that found you,” he explained. “He called the ambulance and held you while you threw up blood. The boy probably saved your life, keeping you from suffocating on your own vomit. Took ten years off his life. He was about to break down into a panic attack by the time we arrived.”

  Cameron glanced at his best friend. Boston appeared to be seeking comfort about as much as he was trying to give it.

  “And that pretty little wife of yours.” Chuck shook his head. “She’s convinced this is all her fault, and no one’s going to convince her otherwise. Keeps saying stuff like she should’ve done more, should’ve tried harder. You wouldn’t have drunk tonight if she hadn’t left. Poor thing is taking on the weight of the world. Kind of like you did when Sienna died.”

  Cameron’s head swiveled around. He ignored the spiking pain from the sudden movement and gaped at his dad.

  “Oh, I remember everything you said back then,” his father murmured. “Most of it was, ‘I should’ve done more. I should’ve tried harder. If only I’d…’” Chuck’s words drifted off as he watched a tear trail down Cameron’s cheek.

  “So, I’ve turned into Sienna,” Cam choked out. “Is that what you’re saying? I’m the manic depressive now.”

  “You couldn’t save her, Cameron,” Allison said, squeezing his fingers. “Nothing Sienna did to herself was your fault. Only she could’ve saved herself.”

  “And none of us can save you,” Chuck added. “No matter how much we want to. No matter how much it kills us to watch you go through this.”

  Cameron squeezed his eyes closed, but tears leaked through anyway. When he looked up, he met his mother’s worried features. “I’ve made a mess

  of things, haven’t I?”

  Allison ran her thumb over his knuckles. “It’s nothing that can’t be fixed,” she assured, sounding suddenly like the woman he remembered from when he was a child and had made mistakes.

  He swallowed. This was all wrong. They were treating him like, well, like he’d treated Sienna in her final days.

  No.

  He wasn’t turning into a Sienna. He couldn’t. He’d never do to his family what she’d done to him. He’d never put them through hell by making them worry.

  But that’s exactly what he’d done. For ten years.

  “God, I’m so sorry.”

  Allison leaned down to hug him and in doing so, finally drew Boston and Olivia’s attention. Gasping, they let go of each other and stumbled forward. Boston came all the way to his side, but Olivia hung back at the last moment, her face wrinkling into a scared, uncertain mask.

  “Still got some life left in you, huh?” Boston asked in a steady enough voice, though his pale face and red-ringed eyes told the true story.

  “Yeah, so you can quit trying to comfort the weeping widow,” Cameron groused and managed a half-hearted glare. “I’m not dead yet.”

  Boston grinned, but the relief in his eyes nearly made Cam tear up again. What in the world had he done to his best friend?

  As he opened his mouth to make some snide, probably sarcastically dry comment, Boston’s face suddenly filled with color. He sucked in a breath, blinking rapidly. “Jesus,” he said, pressed a fisted hand to the center of his chest, and stared at Cameron as if he couldn’t believe his friend had actually survived. “You scared the shit out of me tonight, man.”

  Cameron’s chest constricted, making him cringe. Regret filled him to the brink. He licked his dry lips and said, “I hear I owe you thanks. You saved my life.”

  He lifted his hands; a look of extreme liberation washed over Boston as he stepped forward and gripped Cam’s fingers.

  “Yeah, well, you can pay me back by buying me a new pair of shoes. You puked all over my favorites.”

  “You mean that ratty old brown pair you’ve had for ten years?” Cameron grinned. “Thank God. It was beyond time to retire them.”

  Boston shook his head, the skin around his eyes wrinkling with humor.

  Cameron shifted his gaze past Boston and settled on Olivia. She must not have gone far whenever she’d left him. The family had still been able to contact her and let her know he was in the hospital.

  Her tousled hair rose in a scattered mountainous mess. Still, she was the most beautiful sight he’d ever seen.

  She loved him. Whether he liked it or not, Olivia loved him. It was

  an unconditional devotion, like what his parents felt for each other. Whether he pushed her away or not, she’d still love him. The insight was humbling and overwhelming, but he liked it.

  And that was his decision-maker right there. Never truly having loved a woman before, never having felt the pressing need to keep her safe, Cameron knew he’d do anything for Olivia. He’d even fix himself to protect her.

  “Livy,” he whispered.

  She jerked guiltily; her face drained of color. As his parents and Boston stepped aside and slowly started backing toward the separating curtain to give him privacy, Olivia cautiously shuffled forward as if she thought he was going to beat her now.

  An unexpected surge of pleasure moved through him. She cared. She loved him so much, he altered the whole view he’d been taking on the entire situation. He no longer wanted to distance himself from her. He just wanted to be with her forever. And if he had to make himself right to do that, then by God, he would.

  “Where’d you go?” he heard himself ask, not really caring but curious about the answer. He realized it was the wrong thing to say as soon as the panic entered her face. Shit, he hadn’t meant to make her think this was her fault. He lifted his hand, but she jerked back.

  “I-I…Oh, God, Cameron. I’m so sorry. I’ll never leave again. I’m sorry.”

  He closed his eyes as his own words to Sienna repeated themselves through his head, the first time he’d gone away for the weekend to go camping with friends. Forgive me, Sienna. I never meant to hurt you. I’ll never leave again.

  Cameron shook his head. “No, Livy. I didn’t mean it that way. I…” Hell. He what? He was blowing this. “I’m just glad you’re here.” He saw new hope staring at him through the big blue eyes of his cupcake as he held out his hand again.

  Their fingers gripped and held. Cameron had to assume the tight bond meant something. He sent her a smile.

  “I went a little overboard tonight, huh?”

  She sucked in a shuddering breath and wiped a trail of tears off her cheek with her free hand. His heart clenched. He could only do one thing to stop this. Well, two maybe. He could finish the annulment and get as far away from her as possible. But that no longer seemed possible. The other option, however…

  “God, I’m sorry, Livy.” He clutched her fingers for dear life. “I’ll change. I’ll get better. I-I’ll go into rehab again. Whatever it takes. I didn’t mean to scare you. I love you too much to keep putting you through this.”

  “You love me?” she said, her blue eyes blinking.

  He smiled. “I do. And I want to change. I want to get over this. So, if

  I can do this, if I make it successfully through rehab, will you stay?”

  “You love me?” she repeated, stark shock outlining her face.

  He grinned. “Well, yeah.”

  “No one’s ever loved me before,” she said, looking a little panicked by the thought as if a whole new world of overbearing responsibility had been plopped onto her shoulders.

  “Don’t worry,” he assured her. “I’ll take it easy on you for the first couple of months.” Then he winked. “But after that, I’ll probably start laying it on a little thicker and, you know, getting really down and mushy with all the poetry and roses and serenading.”

  Olivia gurgl
ed out a laugh at his corny attempt to make a joke. “Oh, Cameron,” she said falling suddenly serious. “I love you too.”

  Bending, she wrapped her arms around his chest and laid her head on over his heart. Contentment roared through him. Cameron sifted his fingers through her long mass of bed-tangled hair. Closing his eyes, he leaned forward and kissed her forehead.

  “I never wanted to leave,” she confessed, her voice muffled against his thin hospital gown.

  “Then why did you?”

  She lifted her face and sent him a slightly annoyed look. “You started the annulment papers.”

  He frowned. “Only because you told me to.”

  “Yeah, and I only told you to, to get you to confess you loved me.”

  “Well, I do love you.”

  “Then I’ll come back,” she returned in a snippety tone. “If you make it successfully through rehab,” she added on an afterthought. “And under one condition.”

  His stomach tightened into knots. “What’s that?”

  “You have to drop the annulment papers.”

  The grin that spread through him was instantaneous. He glanced toward the curtain where he could see his family’s silhouette lingering on the other side. “Bos?”

  Boston’s face appeared around the side. He smiled approvingly even as he pulled his cell phone from his pocket. “I’m already on it.”

  Epilogue

  One Year Later

  Cameron tried not to fidget as he waited in the air-conditioned room. When he noticed his knee jiggling, he immediately stopped the action by slapping his hand over it. He didn’t want to be nervous over one silly conference.

  During his first month of rehabilitation, he’d stayed at the center exclusively and been stuffed with a ‘relaxing’ atmosphere: pretty little walks along a sunset beach or meditation gardens, total-body massages, spas. He’d never been so relieved to get out there. But that had only been the beginning of his torture. After checking out of the clinic, there’d been counseling and support groups.

  He’d been coming here every week for a year now. But if he failed the test today, he’d have to keep coming back. And there surely had to be some kind of test behind this whole ‘meeting’. Last week, his doctor had said, “If things go well next time, it should be your last appointment with me.”