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Collected Poems

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by Adrienne Rich

one figurebacked away

  unspeakable

  (If that one moved—)

  but the I you knew who made

  you once can’t save you

  my blood won’t even match yours

  4

  “The dead” we sayas if speaking

  of “the people” who

  gave up on making history

  simply to get through

  Something dense and nullgroan

  without echounderground

  and owl-voiced I cry Who

  are these dead these people these

  lovers who if ever did

  listen no longer answer

  : We :

  5

  Called in to the dead:why didn’t you write?

  What should I have asked you?

  —what would have been the true

  unlocking code

  if all of them failed—

  I’ve questioned the Book of Questions

  studied gyres of steam

  twisting from a hot cup

  in a cold sunbeam

  turned the cards overlifted the spider’s foot

  from the mangled hexagon

  netted the beaked eel from the river’s mouth

  askedand let it go

  2007–2008

  V

  BALLADE OF THE POVERTIES

  There’s the poverty of the cockroach kingdom and the rusted

  toilet bowl

  The poverty of to steal food for the first time

  The poverty of to mouth a penis for a paycheck

  The poverty of sweet charity ladling

  Soup for the poor who must always be there for that

  There’s poverty of theory poverty of swollen belly shamed

  Poverty of the diploma or ballot that goes nowhere

  Princes of predation let me tell you

  There are poverties and there are poverties

  There’s the poverty of cheap luggage bursted open at immigration

  Poverty of the turned head averted eye

  The poverty of bored sex of tormented sex

  The poverty of the bounced check poverty of the dumpster dive

  The poverty of the pawned horn of the smashed reading glasses

  The poverty pushing the sheeted gurney the poverty cleaning up

  the puke

  The poverty of the pavement artist the poverty passed out on

  pavement

  Princes of finance you who have not lain there

  There are poverties and there are poverties

  There is the poverty of hand-to-mouth and door-to-door

  And the poverty of stories patched up to sell there

  There’s the poverty of the child thumbing the Interstate

  And the poverty of the bride enlisting for war

  There is the poverty of stones fisted in pocket

  And the poverty of the village bulldozed to rubble

  There’s the poverty of coming home not as you left it

  And the poverty of how would you ever end it

  Princes of weaponry who have not ever tasted war

  There are poverties and there are poverties

  There’s the poverty of wages wired for the funeral you

  Can’t get to the poverty of bodies lying unburied

  There’s the poverty of labor offered silently on the curb

  The poverty of the no-contact prison visit

  There’s the poverty of yard-sale scrapings spread

  And rejected the poverty of eviction, wedding bed out on street

  Prince let me tell you who will never learn through words

  There are poverties and there are poverties

  You who travel by private jet like a housefly

  Buzzing with the other flies of plundered poverties

  Princes and courtiers who will never learn through words

  Here’s a mirror you can look into:take it:it’s yours.

  For James and Arlene Scully

  2009

  EMERGENCY CLINIC

  Caustic implacable

  poemunto and contra:

  I do not soothe minor

  injuriesI do

  not offerI require

  close history

  of the caseapprentice-

  ship in past and fresh catastrophe

  The skin too quickly scabbed

  mutters for my debriding

  For every bandaged wound

  I’ll scrape anotheropen

  I won’t smile

  while wiping

  your tears

  I do not give

  simpleheartedlove and nor

  allow you simply love me

  if you acceptregardless

  this will be different

  Iodine-dark

  poem walking to and fro all night

  un-gainly

  unreconciled

  unto and contra

  2008

  CONFRONTATIONS

  It’s not new, this condition, just for awhile

  kept deep

  in the cortex of things imagined

  Now the imagination comes of age

  I see ourselves, full-lipped, blood-flushed

  in cold air, still conflicted, still

  embraced

  boarding the uncharter’d bus of vanishment

  backward glances over and done

  afterimages

  swirl and dissolve along a shoal of footprints

  Simple ghouls flitter already among our leavings

  fixing labels in their strange language

  But

  up to now we’re not debris

  (only to their fascinated eyes)

  2009

  CIRCUM/STANCES

  A crime of nostalgia

  —is it—to say

  the “objective conditions”

  seemed a favoring wind

  and we younger then

  —objective fact—

  also a kind of subjectivity

  Sails unwrapped to the breeze

  no chart

  •

  Slowly repetitiously to prise

  up the leaden lid where the forensic

  evidence was sealed

  cross-section of a slave ship

  diagram of a humiliated

  mindhigh-resolution image

  of a shredded lung

  color slides of refugee camps

  Elsewhere

  (in some calm room far from pain)

  bedspringsa trunk empty

  but for a scorched

  length of electrical cord

  how these got here from where

  what would have beheld

  Migrant assemblage:in its aura

  immense details writhe, uprise

  •

  To imagine whatBecome

  present thén

  within the monster

  nerveless and giggling

  (our familiarour kin)

  who did the scutwork

  To differentiate

  the common hell

  the coils inside the brain

  •

  Scratchy cassette ribbon

  history’s lamentation song:

  Gone, friend I tore at

  time after time

  in anger

  gone, love I could

  time upon time

  nor live nor leave

  gone, city

  of spies and squatters

  tongues and genitals

  All violence is not equal

  (I write this

  with a clawed hand

  2008

  WINTERFACE

  i. hers

  Mute it utters ravageguernican

  mouth in bleak December

  Busted-up lines of Poe:

  —each separate dying ember

  wreaks its ghost upon the floor

  January moon-mouth

  phosphorescence purged in dark to

  swallow up the gone

  Too
soon

  Dawn, twilight, wailing

  newsprint, breakfast, trains

  all must run their inter-

  ruptured course

  —So was the girl moving too fastshe was moving fast

  across an icy web

  Was ice a mirrorwell the mirror was icy

  And did she see herself in there

  ii. his

  Someone writes asking about your use

  of Bayesian inference

  in the history of slavery

  What flares now from our burnt-up

  furniture

  You left your stricken briefcase here

  no annotations

  phantom frequencies stammer

  trying to fathom

  how it was inside alone where you were dying

  2009

  QUARTO

  1

  Call me Sebastian, arrows sticking all over

  The map of my battlefields. Marathon.

  Wounded Knee. Vicksburg. Jericho.

  Battle of the Overpass.

  Victories turned inside out

  But no surrender

  Cemeteries of remorse

  The beaten champion sobbing

  Ghosts move in to shield his tears

  2

  No one writes lyric on a battlefield

  On a map stuck with arrows

  But I think I can do it if I just lurk

  In my tent pretending to

  Refeather my arrows

  I’ll be right there! I yell

  When they come with their crossbows and white phosphorus

  To recruit me

  Crouching over my drafts

  Lest they find me out

  And shoot me

  3

  Press your cheek against my medals, listen through them to my heart

  Doctor, can you see me if I’m naked?

  Spent longer in this place than in the war

  No one comes but rarely and I don’t know what for

  Went to that desert as many did before

  Farewell and believing and hope not to die

  Hope not to die and what was the life

  Did we think was awaiting after

  Lay down your stethoscope back off on your skills

  Doctor can you see me when I’m naked?

  4

  I’ll tell you about the mermaid

  Sheds swimmable tailGets legs for dancing

  Sings like the sea with a choked throat

  Knives straight up her spine

  Lancing every step

  There is a price

  There is a price

  For every gift

  And all advice

  2009

  DON’T FLINCH

  Lichen-green lines of shingle pulsate and waver

  when you lift your eyes.It’s the glare.Don’t flinch

  The news you were reading

  (who tramples whom) is antique and on the death pages you’ve seen

  already

  worms doing their normal work

  on the life that was:the chewers chewing

  at a sensuality that wrestled doom

  an anger steeped in love they can’t

  even taste.How could this still

  shock or sicken you?Friends go missing, mute

  nameless.Toss

  the paper.Reach again

  for the. Iliad.The lines

  pulse into sense.Turn up the music

  Now do you hear it?can you smell smoke

  under the near shingles?

  2009

  BLACK LOCKET

  It lies in “the way of seeing the world”: in the technical sacredness of seeing that world.

  —Pier Paolo Pasolini, of his film Accatone

  The ornament hung from my neck is a black locket

  with a chain barely felt for yearsclasp I couldn’t open

  Inside: photographs of the condemned

  Two

  mystery planets

  invaded from within

  •

  Pitcher of ice water thrown in a punched-in face

  Eyes burnt back in their sockets

  Negative archaeology

  •

  Driving the blind curve trapped in the blind alley

  my blind spot blots the blinding

  beauty of your face

  •

  I hear the colors of your voice

  2009

  GENEROSITY

  Death, goodlooking as only a skeleton can get

  (good looks of keen intelligence)

  sits poised at the typewriter, her locale, her pedestal

  two books, one called Raging Beauty

  another Lettera Amorosa, on this table

  of drafts arguments letters

  Her fine bony fingers go on calmly typing

  the years at her turquoise-blue machine

  (I say her but who knows death’s gender

  as in life there are possible variations)

  Anyway he or she sat on your desk in Tucson

  in the apartment where you lived then and fed me

  champagne, frybread, hominy soup and gave me

  her or himLater at the 7-Eleven we bought

  a plastic sack of cotton to pack Death safe for travel

  vagabond poet who can work anywhere

  now here and of course still working

  but startled by something or someone

  turns her headfingers lifted in midair

  For Joy Harjo

  2009

  VI

  YOU, AGAIN

  Some nights I think you want too much. From me. I didn’t ask

  to parse again your idioms of littered

  parking lots your chain-linked crane-hung sites

  limp once more your crime-scene-festooned streets

  to buildings I used to live in.Lose my nerve

  at a wrong door on the wrong floor

  in search of a time.The precision of dream is not

  such a privilege. I know those hallways tiled in patterns

  of oriental rugs those accordion-pleated

  elevator gates. Know by heart the chipped

  edges on some of those tiles. You who require this

  heart-squandering want me wandering you, craving

  to press a doorbell hear a lock turn, a bolt slide back

  —always too much, over and over back

  to the old apartment, wrong again, the key maybe

  left with a super in charge of the dream who will not be found

  2010

  POWERS OF RECUPERATION

  i

  A woman of the citizen party—what’s that—

  is writing history backward

  her bodythe chair she sits in

  to be abandonedrepossessed

  The old, crusading, raping, civil, great, phony, holy, world,

  second world, third world,

  cold, dirty, lost, on drugs,

  infectious, maiming, class

  war lives on

  A done matter she might have thought

  ever undone thoughplucked

  from before her birthyear

  and that hyphen coming after

  She’s old, old, the incendiary

  woman

  endless beginner

  whose warped wraps you shall find in graves

  and behind glassplundered

  ii

  Streets empty nowcitizen risesshrugging off

  her figured shirtpulls on her dark generic garmentsheds

  identity inklingswatch, rings, ear studs

  now to pocket her flashlighther tiny magnet

  shut down heaterfinger a sleeping cat

  lock inner, outer doorinsert

  key in crevicelisten once twice

  to the breath of the neighborhood

  take temperature of the signsa bird

  scufflinga frost settling

  … you left that meeting around two a.m.I thought

  someo
ne should walk with you

  Didn’t think then I needed that

  years ravel outand now

  who’d be protecting whom

  I left the key in the old place

  in case

  iii

  Spooky those streets of minds

  shuttered against shatter

  articulate those walls

  pronouncing rage and need

  fuck the copscome jesus

  blow me again

  Citizen walking catwise

  close to the walls

  heat of her lungs leaving

  its trace upon the air

  fingers her tiny magnet

  which for the purpose of drawing

  particles together will have to do

  when as they say the chips are down

  iv

  Citizen at riverbankseven bridges

  Ministers-in-exile with their aides

 

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