David Suzuki

by David Suzuki

  I don't like to even think of death because it makes me very uncomfortable, not because of fear about the process of dying, although any form of dying other than from instant death in an accident or from old age strikes me as a crummy way to go. No, what I don't like is the idea that this guy looking back at me in the mirror, this person locked into my skull full of memories that make him who he is, this fellow who has known pain, joy, thoughts, having existed for such a brief flash in all of eternity, is going to vanish forever at his death. Forever is such a long time, and seventy, eighty, ninety, even a hundred years is such a tiny interval in all of time.

  As an atheist, I have no illusions about my life and death; they are insignificant in cosmic terms. That's why I have turned down requests to name schools after me, to let my name stand as a candidate for the presidency of a university, and to run for chancellor of another university. I don't have time to try to pad my curriculum vitae or take a position that is merely honorific.

  Mom and Dad on their 50th wedding anniversary (March 21, 1984), only two months before Mom's death

  I attended a potlatch, a ceremonial gathering, for Haida Chief Watson Price's hundredth birthday. As I pondered the significance of his birthday, I found it overwhelming to think of the world he was born into, a world without planes, refrigerators, television, computers, or even cars. He grew up in the tradition of his people, which had its roots thousands of years ago. And in remembering the stories and lessons of his grandparents, he represented a living memory going back to the early 1800s. For most of us, we will be remembered far more briefly. In the end, as we reflect on the meaning of our lives and our legacy to the future, what more could we ask for than to be remembered with affection and respect by a few people who will survive a decade or two further, by our children and grandchildren? I hope when it's my time to die, I do so with the dignity of my father.

  Parents-in-law Harry and Freddy Cullis on her 86th birthday

  After my mother died, Dad met a woman named Fumiko Gondo, who had come from Japan to live with her daughter, Naoko, who worked in Vancouver. Fumiko was a Korean who grew up in Japan, and she did not speak English. She and Dad began to take walks together, and Dad enjoyed the opportunity to brush up on his Japanese. Eventually they started spending all their time together, and Dad even gave away Naoko when she married in Japan.

  Fumiko was a lovely woman, and she and Dad were a great pair. In the early 1990s when Dad developed a cancerous tumor in his abdominal cavity, Fumiko was devastated. Although he had no pain, he lost his appetite and began to lose weight and strength, and it became clear he was dying. Dad had always said he had no great fear of death. “I've had a great life and I have no regrets,” he would say.

  Fumiko boiled large quantities of rice over and over to produce a thick gel of rice concentrate, which Japanese consider extremely nutritive with medicinal properties. As I encouraged him, Dad would doggedly try to get a few spoonfuls down but often gagged with the effort. Finally, a neighbor who was a doctor told me that at this stage of his cancer Dad would not die of starvation, so we shouldn't worry about feeding him if he couldn't eat. It was a huge relief.

  Christmas 2003. Left to right, front row: Severn, Huckleberry, Tara, Eduardo Campos (Tamiko's husband), and Tamo (my grandson). Back row: Tamiko, Midori (my granddaughter), and Sarika.

  I moved in with Dad to be with him in his final weeks of life. He was still alert and interested in what was happening in the family. Each night, Tara and the girls would come over, and they sometimes brought slides of one of our trips, often ones we had taken with Dad and Mom. He would greet Tara with, “Well, what adventure have you got for me tonight?”

  In the last week, my sisters arrived, and we reminisced about our lives. What struck me was that at no point did we complain about how hard life had been or all the things we had missed out on. Instead, we laughed and cried over stories about family, friends, and neighbors and the things we had done together that had enriched our lives. There was no boasting about possessions or wealth or accomplishments, only human relationships and shared experiences, which are what life is all about.

  Dad's great achievement each day was to get out of bed and walk to the bathroom, where he would try to have a bowel movement. He had grown so painfully thin that the skin around his buttocks hung in sheets, and he was so weak that getting to the bathroom and back became quite a feat. Sometimes, in the effort to get his legs off the bed and onto the floor, he would leak a bit, causing him huge embarrassment. We bought rubber mats to go under the sheets, and I finally suggested diapers would solve everything. He was adamant that he would not wear them. Finally, when he had had a particularly messy accident, I called Tara and asked her to get some diapers for Dad. He overheard me and again objected weakly that he wouldn't wear them. Within hours, he slipped into a coma, and his breathing became more erratic and finally stopped. I still think the thought of being made to wear diapers was the final indignity, and he simply checked out, a peaceful death at eighty-five.

  As he was dying, I wrote Dad's obituary and he fine-tuned it. “Don't say ‘passed away,' ” he said. “Say ‘he died'.” Here's what the obituary said:

  Obituary, May 8, 1994

  Carr Kaoru Suzuki died peacefully on May 8th. He was eighty-five. His ashes will be spread on the winds of Quadra Island. He found great strength in the Japanese tradition of nature-worship. Shortly before he died, he said: “I will return to nature where I came from. I will be part of the fish, the trees, the birds—that's my reincarnation. I have had a rich and full life and have no regrets. I will live on in your memories of me and through my grandchildren.”

  Dad had become interested in Shinto near the end of his life, and his Shinto beliefs fit well with the First Nations sense of connection with nature. Certainly if the laws of physics apply to our bodies, we are made up of the earth through the air, water, and food we ingest, and when we die, the atoms that comprise our bodies don't vanish but are eventually recycled back through the biosphere. So we return to nature, which gave us life in the first place, and as Dad's obituary said, we will still be everywhere. I like that idea, although it doesn't satisfy—as religion does—that egotistic desire to continue on in some conscious state.

  Years after Dad died, an interviewer, knowing how important Dad had been to me, asked whether his death was one of the most painful moments of my life. I had to answer no. How could it be? I miss him and Mom tremendously and think of them every day, but Dad had a rich, full life, had been lucid until hours before his death, and had no pain or fear of death.

  THE SENTIMENTS INCLUDED IN Dad's obituary are what I hope will be included in mine. I have had a rich and full life. I've selfishly acted on my priorities and impulses, often when I should have spent some of that time on those I love. I have hurt others, including my own family, but not deliberately out of meanness, and I hope that my life can be summed up as a positive addition to the human family.

  Perhaps one or two programs I've done on television or radio will be played again after I'm dead, perhaps a book or two I've written will be read. That would be nice. But the one true legacy of any value is my children and, through them, my grandchildren. My grandchildren may remember something they learned from me or shared with me and, if I'm lucky, they may even pass that snippet on to their grandchildren. So at most, I might be remembered for four generations. My mother was the most decent, self-effacing person I've ever known; it hurts me to realize that when my sisters and I die, she will disappear from memory quickly in the fragments of memory among my children. Why, then, would I wish for any more than she did? My father made a point of leaving trees as gifts, a gesture that ensures that so long as those plants flourish, he will be there in some way.

  My favorite photo of Dad, in repose at Windy Bay, Haida Gwaii

  This is a sad time to depart from this life. I have witnessed the disappearance and destruction of so much of the natural world that I loved. Extinction of a species is natural in the evolutionary schem
e of life on Earth—99.9999 percent of all species that have ever existed are extinct. But we are an infant species, arriving very recently, perhaps 150,000 years ago in the plains of Africa, and yet now the once unthinkable, the coming extinction of our own species, is actually conceivable. Our trajectory to dominance of the planet has been spectacular, but we have not fully comprehended the price of that success. It has been my lot to be a Cassandra or Chicken Little, warning about imminent disaster, but it gives me no satisfaction at all to think my concerns may be validated by my grandchildren's generation.

  My grandchildren are my stake in the near future, and it is my most fervent hope that they might say one day, “Grandpa was part of a great movement that helped turn things around for us.” I also hope that they might remember my most valuable lesson and be able to say, “Grandpa taught us how to catch and clean a fish. Let's go catch one for dinner.”

  The notorious fig leaf shot for the show “Phallacies”

  for The Nature of Things with David Suzuki

  INDEX

  Aboriginal Australians, 211–14

  Ainu people, 225–26

  air pollution, health effects, 77, 242–44

  Allder, Michael, 75, 92

  Altamira dam protest, 157–67

  Amazonia, 134–54, 157–67, 175–88, 190–93, 225, 227

  Amherst College, 34–41, 59

  Anderson, Ray, 241, 246

  Aral Sea, 77–78

  Archibald, Nancy, 76, 90, 114, 288–89

  Attenborough, David, 79

  Australia, 195–216, 314–16, 319–21. See also JUSCANZ countries

  Beadle, George, 43

  Beban, Frank, 122–23

  Bennett, Bill, 114, 120, 121

  Bonisteel, Roy, 73

  Boyd, David, 263–66

  Bronfman, Stephen, 241, 246

  Bush, George H.W., 269, 322

  Bush, George W., 322, 325, 334–37

  Campos, Eduardo, 383–84

  Campos, Midori, 384

  Campos, Tamo, 384

  Canadian Broadcasting Corporation (CBC), 31, 62, 67, 73, 91, 103, 155–56, 198–99, 218, 365–68. See also Suzuki, David (science broadcaster)

  Cavoukian, Raffi, 272, 274

  Charles, Prince of Wales, 353–59

  Chibber, Ajay, 297, 299

  Chomsky, Noam, 219–20, 349–50

  Chrétien, Jean, 322

  clam gardens, 377–78

  Clarkson, Adrienne, 359

  Clayoquot Sound, 205

  climate change, 209–10, 230–31, 241–47, 305–23

  Cockburn, Bruce, 204–5

  Conference of Parties (cop), 245–47

  Cook, Jonathan, 385–86

  Cook, Peter, 385–86

  Couchman, Paul, 206–7

  Crichton, Michael, 309, 310

  Cullis, Freddy, 100–101

  Cullis, Harry, 100–101, 169

  Cullis, Pieter, 101–2

  Cullis, Tara: Amazonia projects, 152, 155–74, 175–88, 190–91;

  in Australia, 200–204, 208–10;

  celebrity visits, 355– 56, 359–63;

  David Suzuki Foundation, 220–32, 238–39, 252–61;

  Earth Summit, 270–73, 277–85;

  First Nations projects, 252–61;

  marriage and family, 97–110;

  Stein Valley Festival, 126–29, 130, 132

  Cullis-Suzuki, Sarika, 88, 90, 109–10, 175–88, 359–60, 363, 386–87

  Cullis-Suzuki, Severn, 108–10, 175–88, 270–73, 277–85, 359–60, 363, 378, 386–87

  Daintree forest (Australia), 203–4

  Dalai Lama, 359–63

  David Suzuki Foundation: Amazonia projects, 191, 225, 227;

  climate change and emissions research, 241–47;

  Declaration of Interdependence, 274–77;

  executives of, 227–32, 238–39;

  expertise and communication, 238–39, 240–41;

  First Nations projects, 251–61;

  fisheries projects, 232–38;

  forestry research, 247–51;

  Kyoto agreement, 313–14, 316–17, 322;

  Lake Pedder restoration, 207–8;

  lifestyle advice, 261–63;

  objectives, 217–22;

  organization and early accomplishments, 222–27;

  sustainability analysis, 263–66

  Davis, Wade, 274

  de la Giroday, Evelyn, 381–82

  Denver, John, 129–31

  Dick, Simon, 158, 159, 163–66

  Doukhobors, 20–21

  Drever, Ronnie, 248

  Earth Summit (1992), 189, 267–86, 307–8

  Easterbrook, Gregg, 270, 309

  Environmental Children's Organization (ECO), 270–73, 277–85

  environmental movement, history of, 267–70

  European Union, at Kyoto, 314–16, 317–18

  First Nations, 10–11, 14, 113–24, 170–72, 205, 222, 226, 230, 236–38, 250–61

  fisheries. See marine ecosystems

  fishing, sport and subsistence, 10–11, 13, 45, 136–37, 177–81, 192–93, 372–73

  Fitzpatrick, Catherine, 242–43

  Fogg, Nick, 288, 290, 292–93

  forest ecosystems: in Amazonia, 135–36, 147–48, 152, 158–59, 181–84, 190–93, 227;

  in Australia, 203–4, 211;

  forest industry issues, 69, 71–72, 113–24, 205, 247–51, 376;

  Pacific salmon and, 235, 343–46;

  in Papua New Guinea, 295–97, 300–302

  Fulton, Jim, 114–15, 227–32, 241, 252, 264

  Gagné, André and Louis-Edmond, 107

  Garrett, Peter, 204–5

  gender issues, 36, 101–3, 378–82

  genetics and biotechnology, 43, 50, 52, 53–55, 337–43

  George, Dan, 62–63

  Gerussi, Bruno, 62

  Gessler, Nick, 114, 116–17

  Gibbs, Jeff, 158, 165, 272

  Gondo, Fumiko, 393

  Gore, Al, 285, 318–19, 322

  Great Barrier Reef, 201–3, 209–10

  “Greatest Canadian” contest, 365–69

  Greystone Books, 250–51

  Guujaaw, 117–18, 127, 158, 159, 163–64, 274–75

  Gzowski, Peter, 331–34

  Haida Gwaii, 113–24, 230

  Heaps, Terry, 247

  Hocking, David, 238, 240

  Hoggan, Jim, 240

  Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change (IPCC), 307–10

  International Monetary Fund, critique of, 297

  internment of Japanese Canadians, 16–22

  Irekran, 144–50, 167–74, 189–90

  Irwin, Steve, 79–80

  Japanese Canadians, 14–22, 24

  Johnson, Al “Jet”, 174

  JUSCANZ countries, 314–16, 317–18

  Kaiapo people, 138–51, 153–57, 162–74, 176–92, 268. See also Paiakan

  Kidd, Gladys, 156

  Kovanic, Rudi, 81, 82, 91

  Kube-i, 143–44, 153–54

  kuru, 289–90

  Kyoto Agreement, 246–47, 312–23

  Lightfoot, Gordon, 129, 132, 155–60

  Lindsley, Dan, 43, 45

  Lomborg, Bjørn, 270, 309

  Lovejoy, Tom, 158–59

  Macaulay, Shirley, 103, 353, 381

  McCandless, John, 125–26, 129

  Mallus, Juneia, 137, 139, 192

  Marchak, Pat, 248

  marine ecosystems, 209–10, 228–30, 232–36, 374–76, 377–78

  Martell, Roberta, 256–57

  Martin, Paul, 246, 264, 369

  Mathur, Vishnu, 74–75, 81, 84–85

  May, Elizabeth, 123–24, 152, 157

  Mendes, Chico, 152–53

  Millennium Ecosystem Assessment, 348

  missile defense system, 335–37

  Mosquito, Rosie, 158, 160

  Mulroney, Brian, 122, 123, 196, 230, 269, 280, 330

  Munro, Jack, 71–72

  Murray, Jim, 60, 69, 73–75, 114, 332

/>   Nader, Ralph, 350–53

  Narmada dam (India), 76–77

  National Research Council, 329–30

  Noyce, Phil, 196, 201–2

  Oak Ridge National Laboratory, 43–47

  O'Brien, Lewis, 212–13

  Oe, 167, 169, 176

  Onstott, Tullis, 87–88

  Paiakan: accusations and trials, 153–54, 189–90;

  Aucre, 144–50, 176–88, 192–93;

  in Canada, 155–57, 167–74, 205;

  Kaiapo university, 190–92;

  protesting mines and dams, 138–44, 160, 162–67

  Papua New Guinea, 288–304

  Participatory Action Research (PAR), 255–57

  Pedder, Lake, 207–8

  Pinkerton, Lynn, 234

  Posey, Darrell, 143, 153–54

  Projeto Pinkaiti, 190–92, 225

  Queen Charlotte Islands, 113–24, 230

  racism, 3, 14–17, 21–25, 29, 45–47, 52–53

  Raffi, 272, 274

  Reed, Les, 120–21

  Reimchen, Tom, 235, 344–46

  Richardson, Miles, 117, 118–19, 127, 175–89, 222, 252

  Robinson, John, 232

  Roddick, Anita, 173

  Roughsey, Dick, 214

  Sainte-Marie, Buffy, 130, 132

  Saragawa Dam, 225–26

  Saul, John Ralston, 359

  Scapiletti, Nicholas, 237–38

  Schwindt, Richard, 247

  science, social implications, 39–40, 48–50, 53–55, 196, 324–30, 334–49

  Science Council of Canada, 330

  Scott, Gerry, 241, 244

  Sparrow, Willard, 237–38

  Stein Valley Festival, 124–33

  Sting, 164–66

  Strong, Maurice, 268, 273, 280

  Strumm, Shirley, 90–91

  Sunahara, Joane, 37, 40–42, 52–53, 382–83, 389

  Suzuki, Aiko, 8–9, 389

  Suzuki, Carr Kaoru, 4–11, 14, 26–28, 31–32, 37, 58–59, 110–12, 208–9, 393–96

  Suzuki, David (childhood and youth): childhood, prewar, 13–14;

  family, 2–13;

  internment, wartime, 16–22;

  outdoor activities, 10–11, 13;

  postwar life in Ontario, 23–33;

  public speaking, 58–59;

  schooling, 23–25, 28–33;

  social “outsider”, 31–33