Ren and Della: Boxed Set (Ribbon Duet Book 3)

by Pepper Winters

  My fear of her falling off a horse was nothing compared to the sudden terror drenching me as Della switched from chatty live wire to quiet, subdued seriousness beside me.

  Silence fell, interrupted only by the breeze whispering through the willow leaves. I waited for as long as I could, my skin prickling with unease, my heart racing with dread.

  Her fingers trailed over and over, stroking the carved mane, touching slightly too long legs, and studying not quite perfect nostrils.

  I couldn’t wait any longer.

  Pinching it from her hands, I shoved it behind my back. “Forget it. I knew I should’ve asked John to buy you that laptop the school requests everyone to have. I’ll-I’ll tell him tonight. You might have to wait a few months while he saves up my salary to buy it, but I’ll make sure you have something of use instead of—”

  She sprang into me, bowling me over, slamming both of us to the blanket below. “Give it back.”

  My elbows bent awkwardly, my spine jabbed by the carved willow-wooden horse in my hands. “Wha—”

  “My horse. Now. Give it back, Ren.”

  I wriggled beneath her as she sat on my chest, her shorts riding up suntanned thighs and lavender t-shirt right in my face. The sun silhouetted her, showing a faceless girl with curling white-blonde hair with her hand straight out and reckless determination bristling all around her.

  “Now, Ren.” Her voice turned sharp in the way she’d mastered from listening to Cassie telling me off.

  Untangling my arms from behind my back, I lay flat and gave it up as a peace offering.

  She continued to straddle my chest, snatching the horse and rider, the long ribbon sticking out between her fingers. “You can’t give it to me then take it away. That’s not how gift giving works.”

  Propping my head up with my hands, I tried to tame the clenching in my belly and did my best to accept that she liked it. Liked it enough to attack me to take it back, anyway. “It’s not very good—”

  “Zip it.” She grabbed my lips between tight fingers, forcing my mouth closed. “I love it. It’s better than all the shopping trips and all the ribbons.” She squished my lips harder. “If you say one more bad thing about it, I’ll…I’ll—” She pouted, looking over my head toward the forests and fields. “I’ll leave you here for something to eat.”

  I shook my head, dislodging her hold. “And here I thought you loved me.”

  “Not when you’re being a moron.”

  “Hey, I just gave you a birthday present.”

  “And then took it away again.” She scowled. “Not cool, dude. Not cool.”

  “Dude?” I chuckled. “Where the hell did that come from?”

  Her personality had evolved leaps and bounds ever since she started hanging out with Liam and whatever kids she’d befriended at school. I’d even heard her curse the other day and told her off for such language.

  I was fairly sure she hadn’t picked that up from me seeing as I was super careful with how and what I said around her.

  “Some girl in class.”

  “A girl you like?”

  “I guess.” She shrugged. “Stop changing the subject. Don’t touch my gift.”

  “Okay, okay. I won’t take it again.”

  “You better not.”

  I licked my lips from where her touch had been, tasting raspberries and sugar. “Now that we’ve got that sorted and you’ve attacked me on my birthday, what do you want to do for the rest of the day?”

  She rolled off me, flopping onto her back and holding her horse aloft with the sun sparkling on its glossy flanks. “Dunno. Something.”

  “Something isn’t helpful.”

  “Something with you.”

  “Did you want Liam and Cassie to come?”

  Her blue eyes locked on mine with fierce certainty. “No. Just us.”

  “In that case…” Climbing upright, I helped her stand. “Let’s go home for the day.”

  Her face brightened as she spun to face the dense treeline on the edge of the Wilson’s property. “Truly?”

  “Truly.”

  Slipping her hand in mine, we stepped into tree-shadows just as she yelped, “Oh no! I forgot to get you a present. It’s your birthday, too!”

  I shook my head. “Just spending the day with you is enough.”

  “But Cassie said that sweet sixteen means you get lots of stuff.”

  I stilled. “What sort of stuff?”

  “Dunno. Stuff.”

  “This ‘dunno’ business is getting old real fast, Della.”

  She clutched my hand harder as she rubbed the toe of her sandal into the grass. “She wanted me to tell you something, but I don’t wanna.”

  I crouched down, pulling her closer. “Tell me what?”

  Her face scrunched up as if she’d taken a bite of sour lime. “She asked where we were going on your day off.”

  “Okay…”

  “I told her it’s our birthday.”

  “And…”

  “And she wished me happy birthday and promised she’d teach me how to jump on Domino tomorrow as my present.”

  “That’s nice of her.”

  “No, it isn’t. ‘Cause I know what she gets each time she lets me—” She sighed as if she carried the weight of a thousand problems. “I mean…I guess so.”

  I stiffened. There was no way she could know the standing arrangement between Cassie and me, trading horse rides for kisses.

  Pushing that stupid thought aside, I murmured, “Tell me what’s eating you, Little Ribbon.”

  “Nothing.” She sniffed, staring at the dirt.

  “It’s something.”

  I hated her being so glum but I also couldn’t help if I didn’t know what her problem was.

  I reached out to touch her golden head but she jerked away at the last second, stabbing me as surely and as perfectly as only she could do. Della was the only one who could make sunshine live in my chest then suffocate it with perpetual night, depending on how she tolerated me.

  I hated when she was mad because nothing felt right. My heart didn’t beat right. My body didn’t behave right. She made me sick and the only medicine was to earn her smiles and hugs again.

  “What’s wrong?” My patience thinned, batting away the ache at letting her down in some way. Even though I wanted to demand she spit it out, I forced myself not to push her. She had a habit of shutting down these days over things I didn’t understand. She’d give me the cold shoulder if she caught me laughing with Cassie and hadn’t been a part of the conversation. She’d glower if Cassie was there, handing me tools and giggling in her school uniform when Della leaped off the bus.

  She’d always been an open book, so the silent treatment confused me.

  It hurt too, but I didn’t feel I had the right to be in pain when she was obviously hurting because of something she refused to discuss.

  Dealing with a growing girl was exhausting.

  “Della…it’s okay. You don’t have to tell me.” I brought her tiny hand to my mouth and kissed her knuckles. “Let’s just go for a walk—”

  “She said she’s going to give you a special birthday treat tonight because sixteen is a big deal and sixteen-year-old boys deserve special treats.” Tears glassed her beautiful eyes as she yanked her hand from mine. “I don’t want her to give you anything. You’re mine. And I forgot to give you something, and now you’re going to get all the things from her and forget all about me!” With an agonizing gasp, she tore off into the trees.

  What the—

  “Della!” I chased after her, following the crash and crunch of twigs, trying to catch up as she ducked under low branches and weaved around Della-sized bushes. “Come back here.”

  She didn’t stop. She didn’t slow.

  “Della Ribbon, you get your butt back here this instant!” I leapt over bracken, grateful for years of hard labour and a body good at endurance. She was a speedy little thing, and I had no intention of letting her get away with shutting down this ti
me. “Della!”

  Goddammit.

  Something crashed to a stop in front of me, sending me skidding on the brakes as I almost ran into her.

  She looked up beneath a curtain of blonde curls, her eyes tight and lips thin but tears no longer glittered. I almost wished there were tears because the calm collectedness in her stare terrified me.

  “I’m sorry that I didn’t get you a gift.” She let me grab her and wedge her into my stomach. Her thin arms wrapped loosely around my hips as she breathed hard into my lower belly. “I didn’t mean to be a child.”

  “You weren’t a child.”

  “I forgot. I’m not supposed to say anything about Cassie.”

  I peeled her away, staring into her face, but once again, that blank collectedness stared back. “What aren’t you telling me, Della?”

  “Nothing.”

  “There’s something.”

  “Nuh-uh. I’m fine.” She smiled bright and brittle. “See?”

  I didn’t buy it, but my brain didn’t work fast enough to figure out what she was hiding.

  I fumbled for something to say, some reassurance to utter, some way to bring back the happy kid I loved with all my heart, but I was too slow, and Della’s truth slipped through my fingers.

  “Wanna play tag?” she asked, already bouncing away as if the past few minutes never existed. “You won’t catch me.” The flavour of heartache vanished as she giggled and took off at a dead sprint, long hair trailing, ribbon twirling.

  I stared after her, lost.

  What had just happened?

  Della laughed, already a fair distance away. “Ren! Come on, slow poke!”

  Whatever it was wasn’t over, but I didn’t want to taint the rest of our day together.

  For now, I let her fake normalcy and bought into her assurances that whatever worried her wasn’t too overpowering that it stopped her from playing.

  I’d protect her from everything, but until she told me what hurt her, I had to trust she was okay.

  I took off, leaping forward into the trees I adored over any house or barn. “Oh, you’re in so much trouble when I get you!”

  Her happy squeal tried to delete the strange, painful moment from before.

  But it never quite removed the shadow she’d painted on my heart.

  No matter how long we ran like the wild creatures we were.

  No matter how much time we spent in the forest that was our true home.

  Something had happened between us.

  And it would have to be dealt with…sooner or later.

  CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO

  REN

  * * * * * *

  2006

  THAT NIGHT, WHEN Della had fallen asleep and I lay staring at the ceiling beside her, a soft knock on our bedroom door told me Cassie had come to give me her present.

  Glancing down at Della, part of me wanted to pretend I hadn’t heard her while the other part desperately wanted to find out what she’d give me.

  It took a minute of internal warfare before I slid out of bed in just my boxers and hauled on a pair of shorts that were my cleanest pair. I debated whether to stay shirtless.

  Which would seem worse? Shirtless while hoping we were about to make out, or clothed while hoping we were about to make out?

  I chose modesty and grabbed a black t-shirt from the floor.

  Tiptoeing toward the door, I held my finger to my lips to keep Cassie quiet as I slipped through a crack, looking back once more at sleeping Della, her hair spread all over my pillow and tiny body tucked under cosy covers.

  Cassie nodded, following me silently toward the stables until I stopped by the tack room.

  I didn’t know what to say because we both knew why she was here. I didn’t want to be the idiot to ask what she wanted or pretend anything was wrong. Just staring at her told me everything I needed to know.

  No words were uttered as she stepped into my personal space, stood on her toes, and kissed me softly. The familiarity of kissing her now didn’t mean my heart stayed calm. Like always, it leaped and thudded as warm wetness and slippery intoxication turned my brain to mush and body to granite.

  Wrapping my arms around her, I backed her into the tack room wall, pressing her tight and daring to wedge the length of my frame against hers.

  She moaned into our kiss, her fingers slipping through my hair as she tugged me closer. Our heads tilted as we deepened the kiss, breathing hard, tasting, and licking—quickly losing propriety in favour of clutching hands and clawing need.

  Her hands left my hair, slipping over my shoulders and running down my chest.

  I gasped as her touch disappeared up the hem of my t-shirt and fingernails ran along my belly. She tugged the waistband of my shorts, murmuring, “Can I give you a birthday present?”

  I could barely speak intelligently when I was of sound body and mind; asking me a question while blood pounded between my legs and my heart acted as if it was in a death metal band made me utterly unable to talk.

  “I take your silence as a yes.” Slowly, she dropped to her knees. Her eyes glistened, mouth gleamed, tongue flickered over her bottom lip.

  The air prickled around us, full of forbidden danger and illicit taboo. I was playing with fire. I was touching the boss’s daughter, yet really, she was the one touching me.

  I trembled as she pulled my shorts and boxers down in one go, freeing me, sending a flush of embarrassment through my blood, and leaving the tight elastic of my underwear clinging to my upper thighs.

  Her fingers traced the raised scar tissue from the Mclary brand that I’d never be able to remove. She looked up, eyes full of questions. Questions I would refuse to answer.

  She bit her lip, deliberating.

  I stopped breathing, waiting.

  Then her touch moved away from the mark, slipping to cup around my length.

  I jolted with mind-numbing awareness as her fingers pulsed, and her voice trickled into my ears, “Have you had a blowjob before, Ren?”

  I gulped, shaking my head like an idiot. I’d always known Cassie was forward and far more worldlier than I was. I’d seen her kiss different boys if she got dropped off from school in muscle cars or dinged up 4WDs. I’d heard her father yell at her not to be so loose, and her mother to scold her on her friendship choices.

  Although, nothing seemed to stop her from searching for something, trying new things, and sampling experiences she probably wasn’t ready for.

  She’d even told me that I kissed differently to an old boyfriend she’d dated for two weeks a year ago. She made me feel terribly young and stupidly inexperienced.

  I didn’t want to be taught these things. I wanted to be able to participate and blow her mind just like she blew mine. But despite her forwardness, she remained sweet and kind, making me worried that one day, she’d be taken advantage of.

  She also worried me around Della.

  Della was still too young to know what painful passion felt like, brewing constantly in your veins. She believed kisses on the mouth were for unconditional love between anyone—friend, parent, or anyone else who deserved it. She already had older views on body image thanks to Cassie in her bikinis, and I didn’t want her growing up too fast that sleeping in the same bed suddenly went from comforting to downright unpermitted.

  She was a kid.

  My kid.

  And I wanted to keep her that way for as long as possible.

  Funny, when I pictured her kissing a boy like I was kissing Cassie, red anger hazed my vision. I’d kill any boy who touched her and didn’t quite know how I’d deal with her when she entered her teenage years.

  A flutter of hot breath on my upper thighs was the only warning I had.

  My mind shot blank as a tongue met my hard flesh, and my knees threatened to buckle. I slammed one hand against the wall, my other landed in her hair. A grunt escaped me as her tongue came again. My head swam, and I felt nauseous and invincible and fragile and immortal all at the same time.

  “I take it
this is your first time?” she whispered around my length.

  My fingernails dug into the wood and clenched around her hair, holding her tight, not knowing if I was allowed to pull her closer and stop her torture by making her do what she promised.

  I managed some sort of non-cohesive reply before her head bent again and that intoxicating puff of air stroked my body.

  “Happy Birthday, Ren Wild.” Her voice licked around me just as her mouth sealed hot and tight everywhere.

  My head flopped forward.

  My oxygen rushed out.

  And my body jerked in bliss.

  I thought of nothing but the sensation of wet heat and the pulling deep in my belly.

  I’d grown wiser than I’d been a few years ago when puberty first started making my life a living nightmare. I’d learned how to shave without bleeding and how to combat unwelcome erections—most of the time.

  But I’d never been comfortable making myself orgasm.

  Either I was working and didn’t feel right while being paid, or I was in bed beside Della.

  Animals didn’t self-pleasure, even if those dirty magazines said men did. The thought of jerking off, touching myself, and searching for that ever-wanted release didn’t seem ethical.

  But right here, right now, with a girl sucking me and every single worry deleted, I didn’t care.

  I was entirely in her hands.

  I was her student, and I would take whatever she taught me.

  Her fingers wrapped tighter around me, squeezing as her mouth slid deeper.

  The pulling in my belly evolved to an outright pain, travelling in quaking lightning bolts up my thighs into my spine and crackling between my legs.

  I winced as her teeth caught the tip, adding a thread of agony to an otherwise mind-numbing experience, but instead of stopping the impending snarling release, it magnified it.

  “Cas—” I groaned as she grasped me tighter with one hand and dug fingernails into my ass with the other. She yanked me into her mouth as she sucked with noisy pulls.

  I honestly had no control.

  I couldn’t stop it even if I pulled away and ran as far from her as possible.

  The release had already captured me, and as she sucked me hard, fast, and unrelenting, I came.