The 5th Wave t5w-1

by Rick Yancey

  “Cassie.”

  Two seconds: on my feet. Another two and a half: swinging the M16 toward the voice. A shadow darts between the trees on my left and I open up, spraying bullets willy-nilly at tree trunks and branches and empty air.

  “Cassie.”

  In front of me, about two o’clock. I empty the clip. I know I didn’t hit him. Know I don’t have a prayer of hitting him. He’s a Silencer. But if I keep shooting, maybe he’ll back off.

  “Cassie.”

  Directly behind me. I take a deep breath, reload, and then deliberately turn and pump some more lead into the innocent trees.

  Don’t you get it, dummy? He’s getting you to use up your ammo.

  So I wait, feet wide, shoulders square, gun up, scanning right and left, and I can hear his voice in my head, giving instruction back at the farm: You have to feel the target. Like it’s connected to you. Like you’re connected to it…

  It happens in the space of time between one second and the next. His arm drops around my chest, he rips the rifle from my hands, then relieves me of the Luger. After another half second, he’s locked me in a bear hug, crushing me into his chest and lifting my feet a couple inches off the ground as I kick furiously with my heels, twisting my head back and forth, snapping at his forearm with my teeth.

  And the whole time his lips tickling the delicate skin of my ear. “Cassie. Don’t. Cassie…”

  “Let…me…go.”

  “That’s been the whole problem. I can’t.”

  71

  EVAN LETS ME KICK and squirm until I’m exhausted, then he plops me down against a tree and steps back.

  “You know what happens if you run,” he warns me. His face is flushed. He’s having a hard time catching his breath. When he turns to retrieve my weapons, his movements are stiff, deliberate. Catching me—after taking the grenade for me—has cost him. His jacket hangs open, exposing his denim shirt, and the pants he took from the dead kid are two sizes too small, tight in all the wrong places. It looks like he’s wearing a pair of capris.

  “You’ll shoot me in the back of the head,” I say.

  He tucks my Luger into his belt and swings the M16 over one shoulder.

  “I could have done that a long time ago.”

  I guess he’s talking about the first time we met. “You’re a Silencer,” I say. It takes everything in me not to jump up and tear off through the trees again. Of course, running from him is pointless. Fighting him is pointless. So I have to outsmart him. It’s like I’m back under that car on the day we first met. No hiding from it. No running from it.

  He sits down a few feet away, resting his rifle across his thighs. He’s shivering.

  “If your job is to kill us, why didn’t you kill me?” I ask.

  He answers without hesitating, as if he’s decided long before I asked the question what his answer would be.

  “Because I’m in love with you.”

  My head falls back against the rough bark of the tree. The bare branches overhead are hard-edged against the bright blue sky. “Well, this is a tragic love story, isn’t it? Alien invader falls for human girl. The hunter for his prey.”

  “I am human.”

  “‘I am human…but.’ Finish it, Evan.” Because I’m finished now, Evan. You were the last one, my only friend in the world, and now you’re gone. I mean, you’re here, whatever you are, but Evan, my Evan, he’s gone.

  “Not but, Cassie. And. I am human and I’m not. I’m neither and I’m both. I am Other and I am you.”

  I look into his eyes, deep-set and very dark in the shadowy air, and say, “You make me want to puke.”

  “How could I tell you the truth when the truth meant you would leave me and leaving me meant you would die?”

  “Don’t preach to me about dying, Evan.” Wagging my finger at his face. “I watched my mother die. I watched one of you kill my father. I’ve seen more death in six months than anyone else in human history.”

  He pushes my hand down and says through gritted teeth, “And if there had been something you could have done to protect your father, to save your mother, wouldn’t you have done it? If you knew a lie would save Sammy, wouldn’t you lie?”

  You bet I would. I would even pretend to trust the enemy to save Sammy. I’m still trying to wrap my mind around Because I’m in love with you. Trying to come up with some other reason he betrayed his species.

  Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter. Only one thing matters. A door slammed closed behind Sammy the day he got on that bus, a door with a thousand locks, and I realize sitting in front of me is the guy with the keys.

  “You know what’s at Wright-Patterson, don’t you?” I say. “You know exactly what happened to Sam.”

  He doesn’t answer. Doesn’t nod yes. Doesn’t shake his head no. What’s he thinking? That it’s one thing to spare a single measly random human but something seriously different to give away the master plan? Is this Evan Walker’s under-the-Buick moment, when you can’t run, can’t hide, and your only option is to turn and face?

  “Is he alive?” I ask. I lean forward; the rough tree bark is cutting into my spine.

  He hesitates for a half breath, then: “He probably is.”

  “Why did they…why did you bring him there?”

  “To prepare him.”

  “To prepare him for what?”

  Waits a full breath this time. Then: “The 5th Wave.”

  I close my eyes. For the first time, looking at that beautiful face is too much to endure. God, I’m tired. So frigging tired, I could sleep for a thousand years. If I slept for a thousand years, maybe I’d wake up and the Others would be gone and there’d be happy children frolicking in these woods. I am Other and I am you. What the hell does that mean? I’m too tired to chase the thought.

  I open my eyes and force myself to look at him. “You can get us in.”

  He’s shaking his head.

  “Why not?” I ask. “You’re one of them. You can say you captured me.”

  “Wright-Patterson isn’t a prison camp, Cassie.”

  “Then what is it?”

  “For you?” Leaning toward me; his breath warms my face. “A death trap. You won’t last five seconds. Why do you think I’ve been trying everything I can think of to keep you from going there?”

  “Everything? Really? How about telling me the truth? How about something like, ‘Hey, Cass, about this rescue thingy of yours. I’m an alien like the guys who took Sam, so I know what you’re doing is absolutely hopeless’?”

  “Would it have made a difference if I had?”

  “That isn’t the point.”

  “No, the point is your brother is being held at the most important base we—I mean, the Others—have established since the purge began—”

  “Since the what? What did you call it? The purge?”

  “Or the cleansing.” He can’t meet my eyes. “Sometimes it’s called that.”

  “Oh, that’s what you’re doing? Cleaning up the human mess?”

  “That’s not my word for it, and purging or cleansing or whatever you want to call it wasn’t my decision,” he protests. “If it makes you feel any better, I never thought we should—”

  “I don’t want to feel better! The hatred I’m feeling at this moment is all I need, Evan. All I need.” Okay, that was honest, but don’t go too far. He’s the guy with the keys. Keep him talking. “Never thought you should do what?”

  He takes a long drink from the water flask, offers it to me. I shake my head. “Wright-Patterson isn’t just any base—it’s the base,” he says, weighing each word carefully. “And Vosch isn’t just any commander—he’s the commander, the leader of all field operations and the architect of the cleans—the one who designed the attacks.”

  “Vosch murdered seven billion people.” The number sounds weirdly hollow in my ears. After the Arrival, one of Dad’s favorite themes was how advanced the Others must be, how high they must have climbed on the evolutionary ladder to reach the stage of
intergalactic travel. And this is their solution to the human “problem”?

  “There were some of us who didn’t think annihilation was the answer,” Evan says. “I was one of them, Cassie. My side lost the argument.”

  “No, Evan, that would be my side that lost.”

  It’s more than I can take. I stand up, expecting him to stand, too, but he stays where he is, looking up at me.

  “He doesn’t see you as some of us do…as I do,” he says. “To him, you’re a disease that will kill its host unless it’s wiped out.”

  “I’m a disease. That’s what I am to you.”

  I can’t look at him anymore. If I look at Evan Walker for one more second, I’m going to be sick.

  Behind me, his voice is soft, level, almost sad. “Cassie, you’re up against something that is way beyond your capacity to fight. Wright-Patterson isn’t just another cleansing camp. The complex underneath it is the central coordinating hub for every drone in this hemisphere. It’s Vosch’s eyes, Cassie; it’s how he sees you. Breaking in to rescue Sammy isn’t just risky—it’s suicidal. For both of us.”

  “Both of us?” I glance at him out of the corner of my eye. He hasn’t moved.

  “I can’t pretend to take you prisoner. My assignment isn’t to capture people—it’s to kill them. If I try to walk in with you as my prisoner, they’ll kill you. And then they’ll kill me for not killing you. And I can’t sneak you in. The base is patrolled by drones, protected by a twenty-foot-high electric fence, watchtowers, infrared cameras, motion detectors…and a hundred people just like me, and you know what I can do.”

  “Then I sneak in without you.”

  He nods. “It’s the only possible way—but just because something is possible doesn’t mean it isn’t suicidal. Everyone they bring in—I mean the people they don’t kill right away—is put through a screening program that maps their entire psyche, including their memories. They’ll know who you are and why you’re there…and then they’ll kill you.”

  “There’s got to be a scenario that doesn’t end with them killing me,” I insist.

  “There is,” he says. “The scenario where we find a safe spot to hide and wait for Sammy to come to us.”

  My mouth drops open, and I think, Huh? Then I say it: “Huh?”

  “It might take a couple of years. How old is he, five? The youngest allowed is seven.”

  “The youngest allowed to do what?”

  He looks away. “You saw.”

  The little kid whose throat he cut at Camp Ashpit, wearing fatigues, toting a rifle almost as big as he was. Now I do want a drink. I walk over to him, and he gets very still while I bend over and pick up the flask. After four big swallows, my mouth is still dry.

  “Sam is the 5th Wave,” I say. The words taste bad. I take another long drink.

  Evan nods. “If he passed his screening, he’s alive and being…” He searches for the word. “Processed.”

  “Brainwashed, you mean.”

  “More like indoctrinated. In the idea that the aliens have been using human bodies, and we—I mean humans—have figured out a way to detect them. And if you can detect them, you can—”

  “That isn’t fiction,” I interrupt. “You are using human bodies.”

  He shakes his head. “Not the way Sammy thinks we are.”

  “What does that mean? Either you are or you aren’t.”

  “Sammy thinks we look like some kind of infestation attached to human brains, but—”

  “Funny, that’s exactly the way I picture you, Evan. An infestation.” I can’t help myself.

  His hand comes up. When I don’t slap it away or take off running into the woods, he slowly wraps his fingers around my wrist and gently pulls me to the ground beside him. I’m sweating slightly, though it’s bitingly cold. What now?

  “There was a boy, a real human boy, named Evan Walker,” he says, looking deeply into my eyes. “Just like any kid, with a mom and a dad and brothers and sisters, completely human. Before he was born, I was inserted into him while his mother slept. While we both slept. For thirteen years I slept inside Evan Walker, while he learned to sit up, to eat solid food, to walk and talk and run and ride a bike, I was there, waiting to wake up. Like thousands of Others in thousands of other Evan Walkers around the world. Some of us were already awake, setting up our lives to be where we needed to be when the time came.”

  I’m nodding, but why am I nodding? He came to a human body? What the hell does that mean?

  “The 4th Wave,” he says, trying to be helpful. “Silencers. It’s a good name for us. We were silent, hiding inside human bodies, hiding inside human lives. We didn’t have to pretend to be you. We were you. Human and Other. Evan didn’t die when I awakened. He was…absorbed.”

  Ever the noticer, Evan notices I’m totally creeped out by this. He reaches out to touch me and flinches when I pull away.

  “So what are you, Evan?” I whisper. “Where are you? You said you were…what did you say?” My mind’s racing a gazillion miles an hour. “Inserted. Inserted where?”

  “Maybe inserted isn’t the best word. I guess the concept that comes closest is downloaded. I was downloaded into Evan when his brain was still developing.”

  I shake my head. For a being centuries more advanced than I am, he sure has a hard time answering a simple question.

  “But what are you? What do you look like?”

  He frowns. “You know what I look like.”

  “No! Oh God, sometimes you can be so…” Careful, Cassie, don’t go there. Remember what matters. “Before you became Evan, before you came here, when you were on your way to Earth from wherever it is you came from, what did you look like?”

  “Nothing. We haven’t had bodies in tens of thousands of years. We had to give them up when we left our home.”

  “You’re lying again. What, you look like a toad or a warthog or a slug or something? Every living thing looks like something.”

  “We are pure consciousness. Pure being. Abandoning our bodies and downloading our psyches into the mothership’s mainframe was the only way we could make the journey.” He takes my hand and curls my fingers into a fist. “This is me,” he says softly. He covers my fist with his hands, enfolding it. “This is Evan. It’s not a perfect analogy, because there’s no place where I end and he begins.” He smiles shyly. “I’m not doing very well, am I? Do you want me to show you who I am?”

  Holy crap! “No. Yes. What do you mean?” I picture him peeling off his face like a creature from a horror movie.

  His voice shakes a little. “I can show you what I am.”

  “It doesn’t involve any kind of insertion, does it?”

  He laughs softly. “I guess it does. In a way. I’ll show you, Cassie, if you want to see.”

  Of course I want to see. And of course I don’t want to see. It’s clear he wants to show me—will showing me get me one step closer to Sams? But this isn’t totally about Sammy. Maybe if Evan shows me, I’ll understand why he saved me when he should have killed me. Why he held me in the dark night after night to keep me safe—and to keep me sane.

  He’s still smiling at me, probably delighted that I’m not clawing his eyes out or laughing him off, which might hurt worse. My hand is lost in his, gently bound, like the tender heart of a rose within the bud, waiting for the rain.

  “What do I have to do?” I whisper.

  He lets go of my hand. Reaches toward my face. I flinch. “I would never hurt you, Cassie.” I breathe. Nod. Breathe some more. “Close your eyes.” He touches my eyelids gently, so gently, a butterfly’s wings.

  “Relax. Breathe deep. Empty your mind. If you don’t, I can’t come in. Do you want me to come in, Cassie?”

  Yes. No. Dear God, how far do I have to go to keep my promise?

  I whisper, “Yes.”

  It doesn’t begin inside my head like I expected. Instead a delicious warmth spreads through my body, expanding from my heart outward, and my bones and muscles and skin dissolve in
the warmth that spreads out from me, until the warmth overcomes the Earth and the boundaries of the universe. The warmth is everywhere and everything. My body and everything outside my body belongs to it. Then I feel him; he is in the warmth, too, and there’s no separation between us, no spot where I end and he begins, and I open up like a flower to the rain, achingly slow and dizzyingly fast, dissolving in the warmth, dissolving in him and there’s nothing to see, that’s just the convenient word he used because there is no word to describe him, he just is.

  And I open to him, a flower to the rain.

  72

  THE FIRST THING I do after I open my eyes is break out in heart-wrenching sobs. I can’t help it: I’ve never felt so abandoned in my life.

  “Maybe that was too soon,” he says, pulling me into his arms and stroking my hair.

  And I let him. I’m too weak, too confused, too empty and forlorn to do anything else but let him hold me.

  “I’m sorry I lied to you, Cassie,” he murmurs into my hair.

  The cold squeezes back down. Now I have just the memory of the warmth.

  “You must hate being trapped inside there,” I whisper, pressing my hand against his chest. I feel his heart push back.

  “It doesn’t feel like I’m trapped,” he says. “In a way, it feels like I’ve been freed.”

  “Freed?”

  “To feel something again. To feel this.” He kisses me. A different kind of warmth spreads through my body.

  Lying in the enemy’s arms. What’s the matter with me? These beings burned us alive, crushed us, drowned us, infected us with a plague that made us bleed to death from the inside out. I watched them kill everyone I knew and loved—with one special exception—and here I am, playing sucky-face with one! I let him inside my soul. I shared something with him more precious and intimate than my body.

  For Sammy’s sake, that’s why. A good answer, but complicated. The truth is simple.

  “You said you lost the argument over what to do about the human disease,” I say. “What was your answer?”