Kya & Xavier: It's Always Been You (Life As We Know It Book 1)

by Mills, Charelle

  “Dang girl, you're a pro at this.” Toni said unmoved by my current frantic state.

  “Lock my door. I'll see you later.” I said without really looking at Toni and went running out of my room.

  When I reached the building that my class was in I checked the time and it was seven minutes after eight. I had three minutes to get in the class room before my professor locked the door. She was the only one that I had who actually cared whether or not we showed up late. I rushed out of my car threw my book bag over my shoulder before made a mad dash up the walk way towards the door and just before I reached it, I heard someone call my name.

  “Sup ky, you're rushing for nothing, class is cancelled.”

  I turned to see Travis one of my classmates behind me.

  “Are you freaking serious?” I said now extremely annoyed, “I rushed over here for nothing.”

  “I feel ya. I did too. She didn't email us until this morning.” Travis said.

  “Well I guess that's a wrap for me. I'm out.” I said still pissed.

  “See ya Ky.” Travis said as he took off towards the student union building.

  I made my way back to my car fuming and unlocked the doors. I had an hour until my next class but didn’t want to waste time driving back to the dorms only to have to come right back so I opened my book bag and pulled out my psychology book, threw it in the passenger seat and then locked my doors. I figured that I would just hang out in the cafeteria until my next class. When I reached the Café I went through the line to get coffee, found an empty sofa outside in the lobby and sat down. It was early so there was barely anyone around and I was glad because I didn’t feel like talking to anybody. My morning had been officially ruined!

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  “What room is Kya in?”

  I was done with my classes for the day and was currently sitting in our living room with the main door to our dorm propped open so when I heard an unfamiliar voice ask what room I was in I stuck my head out to see who was looking for me.

  I immediately focused on Tori and some girl that was way too large for the leggings and fitted top that she was wearing walking towards me.

  “Can I talk to you for a minute?” Tori said with a massive attitude when she reached our door.

  “About?” I asked pissed beyond recognition because this trick was actually at my dorm.

  “I’m sure you already know.” Tori said sarcastically.

  “I’m listening.” I said and folded my arms across my chest. Tori was standing just outside of my dorm room with her friend standing directly behind her glaring at me.

  “So what’s going on with you and Zay?” She asked.

  “I think that’s a conversation you need to have with him and not me.” I’m going to effin kill him for this trick showing up at my dorm. I freaking swear.

  “I’ve tried but he’s got his head stuck so far up your butt all the time instead of dealing with our situation so I’m just coming here to tell you face to face that you need to stay out the way and let him be a man about his.”

  “I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about but like I said before sounds like this is a conversation you need to have with him and not me so if you’re done please get the hell out of my space.” I was feeling hot all over with my fists clenched at my side. I had already began envisioning contact with them and Tori’s over processed face. Where is Toni when I need her!

  “Look I was trying to be civil about this but since you want to flex let me break it down for you. Me, Zay and this baby are what’s up right now so you can kill whatever you’re thinking about the two of you. I’m his priority right now so you need to fall off.” Tori reached in her pocket and pulled out a thin white and pink piece of plastic, stepped inside our dorm and slapped it down on the counter. I looked down at it and then back at Tori who had a satisfied look on her face.

  “You can keep that. I don’t need it anymore.” She said and then turned and walked out.

  Did this trick just put a freaking used pregnancy test on my counter? I was speechless. I stared at the pregnancy test as if looking at it would make it any less real.

  “Was that Tori I just saw?” Toni asked as she pushed past me fumbling with her keys. She unlocked her bedroom door, disappeared into her room and a few minutes later I heard the toilet flush and water running.

  I sat down on the arm of the sofa. “Sure was.” I yelled “And guess what?”

  “What?” Toni said now standing beside me.

  I pointed to the counter where Tori had left her pregnancy test.

  “Oh hell no, that better not be what I think it is.” Toni said.

  “Sure is.”

  “Please tell me that trick didn’t put a pissy stick on our counter.” Toni said before she walked over to it and peered at it trying to read the results. After which she stuck her head out the door I assumed trying to see if Tori was still in sight.

  “It’s positive. I already checked.” I said.

  “Are you effin kidding me?” Toni said and then went on a rant with everything running together. “That trick is pregnant? You have gotta be effin kidding me! Have you talked to Zay? I can’t freaking believe he was dumb enough to get that trick pregnant. I can’t believe that trick put her effin urine on my counter. How tacky is that? You didn’t touch that pissy thing did you?”

  I laughed but only because Toni sounded so furious and insane. “You need to calm down and heck no I didn’t touch it.”

  “Ky, how are you not pissed beyond pisstivity right now?’ Toni asked with a confused look on her face.

  “Oh I’m pissed, trust me but I swear it’s like I saw it coming so why should I be surprised. Things were too good with us and every time we get to a good place he manages to mess it up.”

  “So what are you gonna do?” Toni asked. She looked at the microwave on the counter to check the time.

  They don’t have practice until 6:00 is he in class?”

  “Nope, he’s working at the Rec center but I’m not going over there.”

  “Why not?” Toni asked.

  “Not worth it.”

  “Oh it’s worth it.”

  “It’s really not, is me going over there going to change the fact that she’s pregnant?”

  “No but he at least owes you an explanation Ky, he’s been all up in your face begging for a new start and she’s pregnant, that’s just messed up.”

  “That’s just Xavier but it’s my fault for believing he could be anything other than what he is. I’m done. No since in stressing over it. I’m just done.”

  “Okay forget him, I just want to hit that trick up for putting her nasty behind urine on my counter.”

  “You’re dumb.” I said and then laughed. “Just let it go, it’s not worth the trouble.”

  Toni softened her tone and then looked at me “Are you okay?”

  “I guess I have to be don’t I?”

  “No you don’t. You have the right to not be okay. This situation is beyond messed up.”

  “I’m good Tee.”

  “You sure?” Toni asked knowing that I was lying but she didn’t want to press the issue, she knew me well enough to know that it wouldn’t do any good.

  “It is what it is.” I said “I need to study for my Psych exam.” I said and picked up my psychology book and book bag off the sofa and then walked into my room. I shut the door and dropped them both on the floor before I stepped on my step stool and climbed onto my bed. I grabbed my body pillow, buried my face into it and closed my eyes because I could feel the tears forming and I didn’t want to let them go. My mind was moving in slow motion and I began to feel like I couldn’t breathe so I did the only thing that I could to make it all go away. I went to sleep.

  Xavier Lee

  As soon as I stepped into the lobby I saw Tori and immediately felt irritated. I knew that she was there waiting on my but I was not in the mood to deal with her. I figured now was a perfect time to go ahead and let her know that we were done so that I
didn’t have to worry about these surprised visits anymore. No sense in prolonging the inevitable and I didn’t need her doing anything stupid. The second she saw me walking through the door she stood up and walked over to me dropped a bomb.

  “I know you act like you don’t have time for me anymore but maybe you need to find some because I’m pregnant and whether you feel like it or not we need to talk about it.”

  What the hell, did she say what I think she just said? “You’re what?” I asked.

  “I’m pregnant, and yes it’s yours before you even ask.” She said clearly prepared for my reaction.

  “There is no way you’re pregnant. Hell we haven’t been together in over three months so if you are pregnant it damn sure isn’t by me.” Hell the servicing between us had been one sided for a while now and I was the one on the receiving end so she had to be damn crazy to claim that I got her pregnant.

  “Really Zay?” She asked evidently not happy about my response. She must be crazy to think that I would believe that she was pregnant. I may not know a lot but I know that if you were four months pregnant then it would be pretty obvious.

  “Yeah really.” Was all I said.

  “So you’re going to just assume that I would lie about something like that, for what, why would I lie?”

  “Why wouldn’t you?” I shot back at her. I was fuming and I felt hot all over. This girl was crazy if she thought that I would believe her. Hell I used a condom every single time even though she kept trying to convince me that I didn’t need to, there was no way she was pregnant.

  “If you need proof just ask your girl. I left the test with her.” She said with more attitude than I needed from her right now.

  “You did what?” I asked after I realized what she had just said.

  “Yeah I paid your little princess a visit today and we had a heart to heart about you me and this baby.” She said and placed her hand over her stomach that was just as flat as mine I might add.

  “Are you fucking crazy? You told Ky that you’re pregnant. Have you lost your damn mind?” I knew I was yelling but I didn’t care. Everyone in the lobby had all eyes on us but that didn’t stop me. “I swear on everything that’s real that this better be a bad joke.” I said and pointed my finger in her face so aggressively that she actually stepped back.

  “It’s not a joke and she didn’t seem real thrilled about it either, so I guess you’re happy reunion isn’t so happy.” She said clearly feeling pleased about what she had done.

  “Get out of my face.” I yelled, “You’re insane but I should have known that from day one.”

  “Call me whatever you want but this right her”, she said and then pointed to her stomach, “is as real as it gets so it’s you and me whether you like it or not. Take all the time you need bae because I’m not going anywhere and neither is this baby.” I looked at her and literally wanted to wrap my hands around her neck. It’s like she was possessed. She had to be as crazy as she was acting.

  “If and I do mean IF by chance you are pregnant and by me, then I promise you this, I will take care of my kid but there will NEVER and I need you to hear me NEVER be a you and me. So you can cancel that.” My temple was throbbing and I felt like my head was going to explode. I turned to walk away but she couldn’t leave well enough alone so she followed behind me this time softening her tone.

  “Zay, I’m sorry, can we please talk about this. The only reason why I went to see Kya…” I turned around and cut her off. “Do not say her name. You are so beneath her and the sad thing is that you actually thought that you would ever be anything more to me than just a late night call and quickies in the back of my Jeep.” I laughed. “Whatever this was has been over for a while now, so do yourself a favor and get over it.” I waved her off and then turned to walk towards the elevator. I didn’t even look back because at this point I didn’t care what she did. As soon as the elevator doors closed I punched the wall as hard as I could several times, feeling no pain because I was fuming. This had to be a terrible joke, there was no way that I had gotten Tori pregnant and Kya, what on earth could I say to fix this? I’m fucking screwed!

  “Aye man you heading to the café?” Chaz asked as soon as I opened the door to our dorm. I didn't say anything I just reached in my pocket pulled out the key to my jeep and tossed it to him. I didn't even know if he was going to ask me for a ride or not but I wasn't in the mood for a conversation so I just gave him my key. Being from Hawaii he didn't have a car on campus with him and he was one of the few people I trusted with my ride. I pulled the lanyard that I kept my dorm and mailbox keys on from my pocket and then unlocked my bedroom door.

  Chaz followed behind me and stuck his head in the door. “Dude, you alright?” He asked sensing that something was going on.

  “I'm straight.” I said.

  “Alright if you need anything, I'm here man.”

  “Preciate it but I'm good.”

  “Alright well I'm heading to the café and then right back here. I shouldn't be gone long but just text me if you need to leave.”

  “You’re good.”

  Chaz left and I sat on the edge of my bed and laid back but that didn't last long. I sat up and then propped my elbows on my thighs and lowered my head into my hands digging my hands into my hair before I stood up and began to pace. I was restless because my mind was going a million miles a minute. I started retracing my steps trying to remember if I had slipped up with Tori and when was the last time that we had actually had sex but nothing changed. It had been at least three maybe four months so there was no way.

  I got pissed all over again and punched my door but this time I felt it so I shook my hand and then looked down at it. My knuckles were swollen and red so I walked into the kitchen and got the ice pack that I used last time I had a sprain and wrapped it around my hand and tightened the velcro strap so that it would stay in place. I knew that coach would kill me if I couldn't play but honestly I really didn't care at this point all I could think about was Ky. I had to see her and try to fix this, there had to be a way to fix this.

  Chapter 8

  Kya Renee

  “Ky, wake up?” Toni whispered as she gently shook my shoulder. “Ky are you up?”

  I rolled over and slowly opened my eyes. It was dark in my room with the only light being the string of Christmas lights that lined her ceiling. Toni was standing next to my bed looking down at me.

  “Yeah what’s up?’ I whispered. “What time is it?”

  “It’s after 10:00 and Zay is here. I told him he had to wait out there so that I could see if you wanted to talk to him first. Do you want me to tell him to leave?”

  “What?” I asked a still half asleep.

  “Zay is here. He wants to talk to you.” Toni said again.

  I looked at Toni as if she were a stranger but then I finally pulled it together. “He can come in.” I said and then sat up. I scooted back against the wall, pulled my knees to my chest and then crossed my ankles. Toni left and a few seconds later Xavier was standing in my door way. He had on dark gray nylon wind pants that were dragging the floor and gray hoodie that had Spartans printed on it in blue and gold letters. His hands were in his pockets and he looked stressed. No point in looking stressed now. You made your bed!

  “Sup?” he asked as he stepped into my room.

  “You tell me.” I said sharply.

  “I didn’t know Ky.” He said getting right to the point. He kept his hands in his pockets but leaned against my desk.

  “How could you not know your girlfriend is pregnant?’ I fired back I was starting to feel like I couldn’t breathe again.

  “She’s not my girlfriend, never has been and I didn't know because she didn’t tell me. Besides I don’t believe her anyway. I haven’t been with her like that in forever so if she is pregnant it can’t be mine.”

  “I’m not doing this with you.” I said. “You want proof it’s in our trash can in the kitchen so good luck with your little ready-made family.”

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nbsp; “That shit doesn’t mean anything to me and she probably had one of her trifling pregnant friends take the test for her. I’m telling you there is no way she’s pregnant by me because if she was you would know it by looking at her. I haven’t been with her like that in forever.”

  “That’s between you and her all I know is you got some stuff to figure out.”

  “Come on Ky, do you really think I would lie about something like that?”

  “What I know is that she felt the need to show up here with a nasty behind pregnancy test and guess what it said?” I yelled. “Positive!”

  “Ky I'm telling you...”

  I cut him off before he could finish.

  “Honestly I don't really care. It's always something with you. You do it every time but it's my fault because I let you. So it's on me for expecting you to be something that I know you can't be.”

  “That’s fucked up Ky.” He raised his voice. Is this idiot really getting mad at me?

  “This situation is fucked up.” I said, scooted forward and slide off my bed. How dare you get mad at me because you got some trick pregnant?

  “So that's what it is?” He asked.

  “Do you even know how I feel right now, do you even care.” I yelled.

  “Shit Ky, If I didn’t care I wouldn’t be here.” He said trying to stay calm.

  “What do you want me to do Zay, just tell me because I don’t know what you expect me to do?”

  “I want you to believe me.” He moved towards me but I stepped back.

  “Don’t touch me.” I couldn’t let him touch me because if he touched me I knew that I would break and I couldn’t break. I just couldn’t.

  “I guess you have your mind made up then.” He said.

  I didn't say a word. I just looked at him.

  “Whatever man, I'm out.” He said and then left.

  The second he was out of my sight I finally broke down. Tears streamed down my face as if someone had just flipped a switch. I crawled back onto my bed and closed my eyes. A few minutes later I felt someone on my bed and then I heard Toni whisper. “I hate him too Ky. It's going to be okay I promise.” I could feel her lay down next to me but she didn't say another word she just laid there with me in the dark. It was our thing, not trying to fix it just being there and as crazy as it was it actually made me feel better.