All I Want…

by Isabel Sharpe

  She watched him walk away, his smooth, graceful stride so different from Link’s powerful, lumbering step, and sank back into her chair, cheeks on fire. What had she done?

  And what was she going to do with the terrible fear that he wasn’t looking forward to “sometime” even half as much as she was?

  KRISTA PEERED THROUGH her snow-shrunk windshield, wipers clearing the white fluff away as fast as it could fall. And it was falling fast. Good thing she’d gotten restless and left earlier than she’d planned this afternoon. She was a few miles from the inn and the snow had only been falling for an hour or so, but the radio report indicated travel conditions were going to get worse as the evening wore on.

  At least the drive had been lovely. She’d been to Maine quite a few times but never stopped being amazed at the change from the New Hampshire border, across the Piscataqua River, into the peace and green of the appropriately nicknamed Pine Tree State. This time she’d traveled farther north than the usual coastal hotels and shopping meccas. She’d left 95 at Route 201, the Old Canada Road National Scenic Byway, and headed northwest to Skowhegan. Then past. Then after forever, she’d turned onto what was a fairly unpromising-looking little track, which Betty Robinson, the Pine Tree Inn owner, had cheerfully assured her was not going to seem right but was.

  If she said so.

  Certainly no problems with traffic. Maine was not jammed this time of year as it could be in summer. Ideal for what Krista was after. Off-the-beaten-track romantic holiday getaways.

  So far she could see how this could be very romantic. Closer to Skowhegan there had been other choices, one inn in particular had caught her eye online while planning this trip—king-size beds and fireplaces in every room. But she was determined to stay away from the usual destinations, so here she was, miles from a town of any size, bumping through the snow to the Pine Tree Inn, frankly unsure of what to expect….

  And wishing she wasn’t alone. Thinking—for no good reason and in spite of having told herself a thousand times to stop—of a pair of hazel eyes recently sighted in a Thai restaurant and wishing they were along for the ride. Then this visit could have been the romantic launch to a new adventure, which maybe this time would have worked out forever.

  Or at least longer than a-few-to-several weeks.

  Total attraction. Unbelievable attraction. Nearly unbearable attraction.

  Wistful sigh.

  Had he responded to her amazing charms and inviting smile by walking forward, grabbing her arms, hoisting her to her feet, gazing into her eyes while breath swelled his manly chest and declared he’d never felt such a pull to any woman before and would she please accompany him to the nearest spot where they could get comfortable and privately and immediately naked or he’d go mad from wanting?

  Um. No.

  He’d missed most of her inviting smile and obviously had no problem dismissing her amazing charms, because after that breath-stealing connection, he couldn’t get away from her fast enough.

  Not that it was necessarily about her. Maybe he really was in a crazed hurry to leave, and maybe he regretted walking away from what might have been as much as she regretted him walking.

  But then maybe Lucy was right, and Krista was too into the hot bod and the hot chemistry and maybe she should start dating men she wasn’t that attracted to. Men she could feel so-so about while insisting she was in love, hanging on year in and out, after anything they had in common had long since fled screaming from the boredom. Just like Lucy.

  Good idea!

  Not.

  She’d a thousand times rather suffer through one passionate relationship after another exploding into shrapnel than hang on to the safe but mediocre for fear of being alone.

  Though just once she’d really like to get it right, without the explosion, at least not so damn soon after the fun started.

  Another mile through ever-thickening snow and the road widened into an empty parking area—was she the only guest here?—with tiny cabins barely visible through the white whirl, the closest with a red Office sign hanging beside the door and Christmas lights glowing blurry green along the eaves.

  Krista parked and uncramped her fingers from the wheel, stretched and rolled her shoulders. She’d made it. And with the fat flakes falling as fast as possible, not a moment too soon.

  Door open, she stepped into the crunching snow, already accumulated to over an inch, and pulled out her overnight bag, glad she’d worn boots just in case. A mug of hot decaf would taste fabulous right now, and she looked forward to a chat with the owners about annual holiday events in the surrounding area, to flesh out her article.

  Unfortunately chatting would have to be done another time. A black-and-white Closed sign hung in the office window under an envelope with her name on it taped to the glass and another one above it that read “Smith.” Great. Not only was she the only guest, the place was entirely deserted of staff, too. Who knew if this Smith person would even show up, considering the weather.

  Hmm.

  She did a slow three-sixty, taking in the darkening sky, the wind picking up.

  Romantic? Or creepy?

  For a second, the idea of driving back into Skowhegan appealed. Until she realized she’d have to drive through worsening snow, which could become not only an annoyance but a serious hazard on unfamiliar roads. And she’d have wasted the chance to write this article, which could become a humor piece if need be: Romantic-Getaways Author Becomes Stephen King Heroine.

  Only, in case the fates were feeling tempted, she was kidding about the horror stuff.

  Kidding.

  She shivered, grabbed the envelope and ripped it open. Two keys—thank goodness they’d honored that request. She’d locked herself out of too many hotel rooms to count and asked for an extra as a matter of routine now. On each key ring hung a small, rough wooden circle, the cross-section of a tree branch with distinctive white birch bark still clinging in places. The circles had the cabin numbers burned into them. She peered at the first. Cabin six. Frowned at the second. Unless she was mistaken, the other key had a nine on it, though it was hard to tell, the way the wooden disks spun. Someone must have picked them up in a hurry, not realizing one was upside down.

  Nice. Though considering the weather, no chance of her coming outside to get locked out in the first place. Not as if there was a lot of nightlife in the area to be explored…except maybe animal.

  Krista glanced around nervously through the white at more white-covered shapes. Trying to feel like a brave adventuress instead of a city girl tossed to the wolves, she made her way to cabin six and tried both keys. The six key worked, the nine definitely didn’t. Oh, well. She was only here one night then, weather permitting, on to a B and B in Jackman tomorrow. Having only one working key wasn’t going to be a problem.

  She pushed inside and flipped on the light, relieved to be out of the snow but surprised not to be enveloped in a rush of warm air. Maybe they left the cabins unheated until the guests arrived to save fuel? Understandable, but chilling. As was the total silence. She prowled around, hyperconscious of every bump, swish and creak of her steps, taking in the cold-but-cozy feel of the place—a bit too log cabin and geometric Native American for her taste, but then if a lot of their guests were hunters, she couldn’t exactly expect floral and froufrou.

  There was a gas fireplace on the right, at the foot of the king-size bed. On a table to the left sat a potted miniature Christmas tree, three wrapped fresh-looking blueberry muffins, boxes of cold cereal and—thank goodness—a coffeepot with several packs of good coffee and tiny tubs of half-and-half. A mini refrigerator held glass bottles of premium orange juice and single-serving cartons of milk. The spotless bathroom had a large tub and a small basket with shampoo, conditioner and lotion.

  Not half bad for less than fifty dollars a night. Very nice, in fact.

  But unless she had less than the sense she was born with, no thermostat. No heating unit against the wall. So the fireplace must be it. How cozy. And roma
ntic! She swooped over to it and searched for the controls. Exactly the warming touch the room needed, figuratively and literally.

  Except, after a good half hour of frustrated attempts, finally using the last match in the box she’d dug out of her purse, she couldn’t get the damn thing to work. As far as she could tell, no gas was flowing at all.

  She picked up the room phone and left a message with the office, though chances were with the storm raging, no one would be making the rounds tonight.

  Irritation.

  Thank God it was in the thirties and not single digits. She’d brought her new warm flannel nightgown instead of the one washed thin, and in a king bed the blankets could be doubled over onto one side. For internal heat, the coffeemaker could make decaf, and she always had herbal-tea packets in her purse.

  She’d be okay. This would be an adventure, in fact. Right? Her article would be funny and charming. Single woman’s attempt to stay warm on lonely night in romantic cabin.

  Very lonely.

  She changed into her nightgown and brushed her teeth, starting to shiver. Except for the occasional wind gust or creaking branch, the silence was absolute—that particular dead silence of a snowy evening. Even cities grew quiet, muffled, when the lovely white blanket dropped. Though here, instead of cars picking their way cautiously through the snow, she could all too easily picture moose and bear nosing around the cabin in the darkness.

  Gulp. Good thing she slept with earplugs or she’d imagine the great beasts pawing and snuffling to get in no matter what she heard.

  Of course, bears and moose sounded pretty tame once you started imagining forest-dwelling psychos investigating apparently deserted hotels. Drunk. High. Armed.

  Not going to think about that.

  Not.

  She slid into bed, unwilling to stay out in the chill long enough to do her Yoga routine—it was hard to relax when your teeth were chattering. The sheets were icy at first, but gradually her body heat and the huge pile of blankets started a slow, lovely thaw, which changed the icebox into a deliciously warm cocoon. Better with company, but mmm, nice. Maybe she’d start turning off the radiators in her apartment at night, too. Maybe that article would come out just fine.

  She yawned and blinked a few times, then closed her eyes, trying to clear her mind, fill it with peace and calm and warm golden light instead of images of the vast woods around her and things that go bump in the night and the fact that no one could hear her scream.

  Mostly she’d keep at bay the fact that during this off-the-beaten-track romantic getaway research trip, she had absolutely no hope of romance.

  4

  HE SHOULD BE FURIOUS.

  Seth Wellington IV should be ragingly furious. He should be railing at Aimee, cursing Juice, hauling out his cell to hurl orders at his secretary, Sheila, and generally making life miserable for as many people as possible, which was what pissed-off CEOs were best at.

  Most of all he should be annoyed at himself for wasting time going on this ridiculous wild-goose chase into the middle of absolutely freaking nowhere in a blinding snowstorm when he had about a million other things he should be doing.

  Instead he was loving it. The perfect errand for a man who must be every kind of fool to be on it.

  The second he’d crossed the bridge into Maine, leaving behind beautiful but industrial Portsmouth, New Hampshire, and entered the vast peaceful expanse of pine forest, he’d known he’d been away too damn long. Maine never failed to feed his soul. And judging from the way he’d rolled down his windows and gleefully gulped familiar lungfuls of the cold, damp, pine-scented air, his soul had been starving.

  That it was insanity to go on this trip he didn’t question. That he felt saner than he had in way too long was something that needed closer inspection….

  When he wasn’t trying so hard to stay on the road.

  Krista hadn’t been kidding about the off-the-beaten-track part. He’d been to Skowhegan before, to the state fair, but not beyond the town. His travels in Maine had been primarily coastal. He’d stayed way up the coast near the Canadian border a whole summer, longer than he’d stayed anywhere else on his trip. The life, the smells, the atmosphere, the old man he’d gotten to know better than anyone during his year-plus of travel, all had found a place in his heart and all had been nearly forgotten until his return today.

  But, of course, this time he was, as always, operating on short notice and a tight schedule. The whole way from Boston he’d kept an eye out for Juice’s hideously over-detailed red Camaro and come up empty—not that he thought it likely he’d find that needle in this highway haystack. Seth had called Aimee several time to see if she’d heard anything, but Her Poutiness refused to take his call.

  And Sheila wondered why he didn’t like dealing with his stepsister any more than he had to?

  He found a gap in the woods that fit the description of the road the inn owners told him to look for and took the turn slowly, following the flat white track through the trees, which theoretically would lead him to the Pine Tree Inn. He damn well hoped so. The gas in his car would get him back to Skowhegan to fill up in the morning but not a hell of a lot farther. He couldn’t afford to be wandering lost in the Maine woods.

  The thought startled him. Since when? Years back he would have relished such an adventure. If he’d run out of gas, he would have slept in his car or found a way to make a shelter and find food, thrilled at being so directly in touch with basic survival instincts. Times like that brought a man closer to the essence of being human.

  Hint: It had nothing to do with corporate merchandising.

  So he’d grown soft again.

  Well that was life. When you were sure fate would lead in the direction you needed to go to learn the most, it took a sharp U-turn and taught you something else. This trip tonight had made him realize all the more how far he’d strayed from the person he thought he’d become. Chasing after Aimee’s screwup had already managed to be a lot more worthwhile than he’d expected—and there was still more to come.

  Though he really didn’t want to arrive at the inn and find Juice there causing Krista any trouble. Unfortunately since Juice had a head start on both Seth and the snow, that was the most likely scenario. Then what? At worst, confrontation or hostility from Juice. Confrontation and hostility from Krista was probably given, but he had more confidence in his ability to handle her. Seth was no wimp, but Juice was…enormous. And as a bodyguard, probably trained in violent confrontation. Comforting thought.

  Seth’s Camry jolted and slipped over what was probably a rock in the road, and he found himself gripping the wheel too tightly. No point focusing on the worst. At best, if Juice had arrived, there would be awkwardness and confusion. He liked that version a lot better.

  If Seth had his way, Juice would have given up his quest, cancelled it due to weather and gone straight to visit his folks in Waterville. Because neither Seth’s best-nor worst-case scenario would look good when the full report appeared in a savage satire on Krista’s blog. Maybe not such a problem now, but in two weeks when the stores’ new direction became public, reporters would dig up the story. Newspapers would feast on a tale of conflict and scandal and revenge….

  Seth shuddered, then forced himself to relax. No point worrying now. Juice was the unknown quantity; Seth couldn’t claim to have a close personal relationship with Aimee’s cherished protection. He could only hope the giant would listen to reason. Or at least that Aimee would take a call from Juice, then let Seth talk her into backing off.

  He jostled around a curve and, miracle of miracles, there it was. The Pine Tree Inn, with, thank God, only one snow-covered car in the parking lot—not a red Camaro. Either Juice had already come and gone—and Seth didn’t at all like the idea of Krista alone and scared or worse after his visit—or he’d never made it this far. Maybe Aimee had called him off and let Seth keep going out of spite. He wouldn’t put it past her. Possibly Juice had been delayed by the snow and would still arrive sometime lat
er tonight, though with the weather this bad, it was unlikely he’d keep trying. Even Seth, experienced in winter driving, had been fleetingly tempted to stay in Skowhegan.

  He pulled out his cell and dialed Aimee again. Again she didn’t pick up, but he left another message, telling her he was at the Pine Tree Inn, that he’d talk to Ms. Marlow on Aimee’s behalf and that she better call Juice off or risk a hell of a lot worse publicity than Krista had ever exposed her to.

  Then he hung up and laughed incredulously, shaking his head. A screwed-up situation, but he’d done what he could. If Juice showed up later tonight, at least Seth had gotten here first and could sort things out. If Juice didn’t show up…

  A glance out through the snow at the cabins. Krista was in one of them. Was she thinking about her fantasy tonight?

  He rubbed his fingers back and forth over his chin, then yanked his brain back from of his own fantasy. Right. Krista would really be turned on seeing a guy she’d smiled at in a restaurant three states away show up a day later in a secluded cabin trying to seduce her. If she had a weapon, he wouldn’t blame her for using it first, asking questions later.

  Out of the car, bag slung over his shoulder, he trudged through the deepening snow, yawning and swinging his arms. He was tired, it was getting late and he needed a bathroom, a cuppa and a bed.

  Taped to the office door, as Betty Robinson had said it would be, was the envelope bearing the name Smith. He tore it open and took out the key. Cabin six.

  A few minutes spent trudging through thick blowing snow and he figured out which was cabin six. The key went in and turned smoothly; he shut the door quickly behind to keep the storm from—

  His instincts went from zero to sixty in no seconds.

  What the—

  There wasn’t much light in the cabin at all. A gold sliver on the floor from the bulb left burning in the bathroom. But there was enough. Enough to see that the lone bed in the room was occupied.