What You Do To Me (Unexpected Love)

by Izzy Cullen

  Pushing the thoughts of David aside, I focused back on Alex who had now moved lower, kissing and nibbling at my stomach. Sliding lower, he pushed my thighs apart with his hands. The kissing and nibbling moved to the inner side of my thighs, eventually making his way to my clitoris. Alex was gentle at first, grazing his tongue over it, but quickly making harder, longer strokes and he started sucking. It wasn’t long before I felt another build up. I could feel my legs and abdomen tightening. Alex didn’t let up, but instead, added fingers into the movement with his tongue. My body was thrown into another spasm, making me scream out in a way I had never screamed before. The shaking and spasms rolled through my body, leaving me in a state of unknown.

  Becoming aware of my surroundings again, I heard Alex ripping the condom wrapper open. A few seconds later, he was placing himself between my legs. He leaned over and his mouth and tongue were invading mine. I could taste myself in his kiss, only turning me on more. Alex wrapped my legs around his waist, not leaving my mouth, while his hands slid up my legs, lifting my ass off the bed, allowing his hands room to caress my butt cheeks.

  Alex pulled away from the kiss, “Are you still sure? If you aren’t, I can find the will to stop myself.”

  “God, I need you. I need you now, please.” Not realizing how much I sounded like I was begging for him, I wanted this to happen.

  Alex moved my hips, and with his hands on my ass, he slid into me. He let out a low groan. “You feel even better than I thought and you have no clue on how good I thought this would feel.”

  I immediately started moving my hips with his and the feeling that was being felt between my legs was unimaginable. I found it almost impossible to feel the tightening again, but I was. In all my life, I had never had multiple orgasms and each one was as intense as the first.

  “Look at me,” I heard Alex say, but it didn’t come off like a command, but almost as a plea.

  I immediately laid my head back and looked up at him. The moment our eyes connected, I could feel the waves rippling through me and I felt Alex tense up between my legs. With a few final thrusts, Alex slumped down on me, resting on his elbows, keeping most of his weight off me. His forehead rested on mine as we both tried to steady our breathing.

  After lying like that for minutes, Alex pulled out of me, pulling the condom off. He stood and walked towards the bathroom. I immediately felt exposed and used. I thought there was some sort of connection, but obviously, with him walking away like that, it must have just been about sex for him. I heard the water running, so I stood and grabbed a shirt from my bag. Throwing it on, I climbed back into bed, fighting the tears that were now burning in the back of my eyes.

  Walking out of the bathroom in all his glory, Alex walked over to my side of the bed. Sitting next to me, he sat down a glass of water on the nightstand and stroked my hair. Taking my hands, he handed me some Excedrin. “I didn’t want to get out of bed with you, but you will need these. It’s bad enough with these. You’re still gonna have a hell of a headache.”

  Not being able to fight the lump in my throat, I let out a small sob. Alex immediately jumped behind me, scooping me up into his arms. “Shhh, don’t cry. I’m sorry. I should have stopped; I should have known you weren’t ready for this.”

  I immediately started feeling worse, knowing that he was beating himself up over something I so desperately wanted. Trying to speak between sobs, “No, it’s not that. I thought you were leaving and that you just wanted the sex.”

  Alex scooted back on the bed and rolled me to face him. “Abby, you are so much more than just someone to sleep with. The minute I saw you at the concert, I knew I needed to get to know you. As soon as I saw you in line, I couldn’t take my eyes off you. You aren’t like anyone I’ve ever met. You seemed to have no real interest in meeting me, or any of the other guys from the band. Then, when I found out you were alone, I was excited, because it gave me a way to keep you around. Even then, I didn’t want to let you go, but after the concert, when I went back to talk to you and you were gone, my heart stopped. It literally stopped. I knew your name was Abby, but I had no other information.”

  He stopped for a brief moment, wiping and kissing the tears from my face. “I walked into the hotel bar so I could get drunk and forget about meeting you, but instead, I found you again. When you kept trying to get away from me, I panicked. I knew I had to do what I could to spend more time with you. Luckily, you are a pushover and I talked you into five minutes in my room. Equally as lucky, you aren’t good with time,” he said, nudging me and getting a giggle out of me.

  “When I got up this morning, well yesterday, and you were gone, my heart sank. I used my influence to find out what room you were in, but they had no record of an Abby or Abigail being checked into the hotel. I tried calling and texting your phone, but you didn’t respond.”

  “Abrianna.”

  “Huh,” Alex said to my interruption.

  “My full name is Abrianna. I go by Abby and my close friends call me Abbs. I’m checked in under my full name,” I said quietly. I was still in shock from everything that he was saying to me; that he tried to find me that morning when I left his room.

  “Well, Abrianna, I was mad when you left,” leaning over and kissing me on the nose. “I couldn’t believe you could walk out and not say good bye. I thought that whatever I was feeling last night, you were feeling it too.”

  “I was feeling it, but I thought I was the only one and it scared me. You aren’t just some normal guy. I assumed that taking girls to your hotel room was a common event. It wasn’t until after my run when I ran into you that I realized you wanted me there this morning.”

  “After seeing you this morning, I couldn’t risk the chance again by leaving. I thought that I was given three chance encounters, and I wasn’t allowing you to slip away again, because I felt like it was my last chance. I told Sam that I refused to leave and to cancel as much as she could. I needed more time with you and I’m embarrassed to admit this, but I wasn’t leaving, knowing you were alone with Derek for the night.”

  My heart was melting, until I heard the part about Derek. Now I didn’t know if he really was feeling something or worried that he didn’t get to sleep with me the night before and Derek might be sleeping with me when he left. “This isn’t about me, is it? Is this some male ego thing, thinking Derek would sleep with the girl you couldn’t get to screw the night before?” I could hear the poison in my words, but right now, my head was spinning, thinking this was all actually some competition for him after seeing Derek show up this morning.

  “I’m telling you the truth. I couldn’t say goodbye to you and in a few hours, it’s going to kill me, knowing I have to let you go.” He took a deep breath in and continued, “This has nothing to do with Derek, other than he put things in perspective. I couldn’t stand him hugging you in front of me, because I wanted to be the one holding you.”

  “This isn’t going to work, so we shouldn’t try to fool ourselves,” I said, trying to convince myself in the process. “I’m the mom of three children. I have a job and a life that I can’t leave. You are a rock star with a career and we live thousands of miles apart.”

  “Please, can we worry about that later? Right now, I want to enjoy this time with you, without arguing. I know I just can’t let you walk out of my life after the day and night we just shared. Can you give me a chance?” Pausing for a moment, “Give this a chance.”

  “Right now, I have little left to give,” I said, knowing my wounds from David weren’t healed and there was nothing good that could come of this with Alex. I barely had the strength to survive all the devastation David’s death and the discoveries of the affairs brought me just months ago. I couldn’t allow the girls to see me like that. They needed someone strong leading them through life.

  “I’ll take anything you can give.” Alex leaned his forehead on mine. “Let’s start as friends, because you seem really good at that type of relationship.”

  Letting out a little la
ugh, “Sure, friends.” Deep down, I knew it was not going to be easy thinking of Alex in the same way I thought of Derek.

  Breaking from the moment, I eventually rolled over, took the Excedrin, and drank the water Alex brought to me. After thinking about all the alcohol I had consumed, I realized what he did was a thoughtful gesture and I needed to forget about him leaving me right after the sex.

  We spent the next hour or so talking. Alex told me about his ex-wife and about how they started dating in high school. He thought that she loved him, for him, but considering the band was already on the fast track and got signed a year after seeing each other, he soon discovered it wasn’t about the love, but the lifestyle she loved about him. They were both young at the time the band was signed, eighteen and right out of high school. He talked about how he eventually wanted kids, but she just never felt it was the right time in their lives. Finally, he decided it wasn’t meant to be, but instead of divorcing, he cheated and tried to hurt her, hoping that she would realize it was him she wanted and not the lifestyle. Eventually, things fell apart.

  Listening to him brought my mind back to David. I had always wanted kids and he never felt it was right. I told him I had stopped taking the pill and I wanted to get pregnant. I remember how he didn’t touch me for months. God, how that should have told me something, but I thought I could change him and who he was. After a night out drinking, he came home and that is how I became pregnant with Lily. I remembered how upset he was, but I thought once she was here that things would change. Of course, they didn’t. I could feel him emotionally and physically pulling further away from me…from us.

  After I told him I was pregnant with the twins, he freaked. I don’t think he talked to me for a month, thinking I got pregnant on purpose. I had been on the pill, but due to the antibiotics I was taking for a cold, they were no longer effective. For some reason, I kept thinking he would change and come around. I was so young and naive to think I could change him. Instead, I had realized how much of me changed, how I lost who I was and how that all my dreams were shoved away.

  9.

  I woke to someone banging on the door. I rolled over and saw Alex getting out of bed, grabbing his jeans from the floor. I immediately rolled over to look at the clock on the nightstand. Crap, it was ten in the morning already.

  I heard the door open and immediately the sound of Sam’s voice filled the room. “Do you know what time it is and how hard it was to get them to give me this goddamn room number?” She sounded mad, but at the moment, I didn’t know why.

  “Good morning to you too,” Alex said with a little playfulness in his voice.

  “Here take these and the coffees. I’m sure you will both need them.” I heard something being exchanged between them. “Get the sex washed off you, because we have a flight to catch, so be downstairs in thirty minutes.” Now speaking in a louder voice, “And Abby, I’ll be calling you later, now drink the coffee.”

  I heard Alex say thanks as he shut the door. I lay back, looking up at the ceiling. My head was pounding, so I closed my eyes. Alex set whatever he was carrying down and slid back in next to me. “What are you doing? You heard your sister. You have a plane to catch.”

  “One, I didn’t plan on the first morning I woke with you in bed to be rushed out of bed, and two, the plane is chartered, so it won’t leave without me.” Alex leaned down and kissed me on the forehead. I responded by opening one eye. “Here, have some coffee.” That time, I responded with a moan. I love my morning coffee. “You have no clue what that sound is doing to me.” That time, I broke out into a smile.

  We both sat up in bed. Alex propped against pillows and I was propped against him. We drank our coffee, taking in the fact that we would be saying goodbye in a few short minutes. When Alex finished his coffee, he took my cup, put it on the nightstand and wrapped both arms around me. I let out a sigh, not wanting this moment to end. Alex kissed the top of my head. “Come on, we need to shower.”

  Alex started sliding off the bed and he reached out his hand so he could take mine. I reached out and grabbed it and we walked into the bathroom together. In the shower, Alex took his time washing every inch of me and I thanked him by doing the same for him. On my way up from washing his feet, I stopped and started washing his manliness with my mouth. Alex moaned and reached for my hair. Moments later, he was pulling me up from my knees and pushing me up against the shower wall. His mouth was invading mine and he had his hands grabbing at my hips, sliding to my ass and bringing my legs up around his waist. Alex paused from the kissing to look me in the eyes as he entered me. All I could do was moan softly, while maintaining eye contact. We stayed that way until we both hit our climax.

  When we climbed out of the shower, Alex wrapped a towel around me, and then his waist. He pulled me over and began towel drying my hair, stopping occasionally to trail kisses down my neck.

  When we exited the bathroom, Alex broke the silence. “I’m so sorry. I got lost in the moment and forgot to put on a condom.”

  Up until that moment, I had not thought about a condom. I hadn’t used one in thirteen years. “It’s okay, I have an IUD. After the twins, David made me either get that or have my tubes tied.”

  “I’m clean if you’re wondering.” With that comment, it hit me just who Alex really was. He had made it easy to forget about the rock star and so easy to focus on him as a person.

  “I hadn’t even thought about it, but thanks for the heads up.” I turned to grab my bra and panties from my bag, feeling upset, but having no logical reason for being mad at him. I just hated thinking of him with all those other girls and knowing he was leaving me now. He was going where all the groupies would be easily and readily available.

  Alex must have sensed the hostility in my voice. He wrapped his arms around my waist, and kissed my neck. “You know, after last night, all I want is you. All I’ll be thinking about for the next eight weeks will be you.” My heart was becoming lighter, but then he kept talking. “Also, for the record, other than my ex-wife, I’ve never been without a condom.” Really, I could have done without that last comment.

  I heard a phone ringing and Alex broke away from the embrace. “What?” He barked into his cell phone. “I know. I’ll be there in a minute.” There was another pause, “Sam, I said I’ll be there in a minute.” He hit the end button and tossed the phone onto the bed.

  “You better go. I’m making you really late. Plus, I have to meet Derek for lunch and I have a long drive home.”

  “Come with me. I’ll fly you home tomorrow.” Alex was looking at me with pleading eyes.

  “I can’t. I have three little girls at home waiting for me to show up. I already miss them like crazy and even if I could or did, it is only postponing the inevitable. I’ll eventually have to leave and return home.”

  “I know, it was selfish of me to ask, but I don’t want to say goodbye.”

  I looked at Alex, wanting to tell him I didn’t want to leave him, but I knew if I did, it was only allowing us both to think last night wasn’t the end and it needed to be. “You don’t have to,” I paused and wrapped my arms around his waist. “Call me tonight after your show. We’ll talk whenever you want and there doesn’t have to be a goodbye.” Knowing he wouldn’t be calling, it saved us the awkward good bye.

  Alex leaned down and kissed the top of my head. “I like the sound of that.”

  We both started getting dressed. He slipped on the clean clothes that Sam brought him and he asked me to pack his shirt and jeans in with my stuff so he has a reason to come find me in case I refused his calls. After a few more kisses and a reassurance on his part that this wasn’t goodbye, he headed for the door. “Abrianna Porter, I am serious, this isn’t goodbye.” With that, he walked out the door. After he left, I finished getting ready and while packing up my bag, my cell rang.

  “Hey, sunshine, how is the head this morning.” I heard Derek’s fake upbeat voice on the other line.

  “Well, I’m alive and moving and in desperate n
eed of grease.”

  “Beautiful, me too. I’m just grabbing a coffee and checking out. Where do you want me to meet you?”

  “I’m grabbing the last of my things and then hopping in the elevator, so I’ll see you in the lobby. Oh, grab me a coffee too.”

  Getting off the elevator, I headed to the hotel lobby and went to the registration desk. I checked out and waited for Derek.

  I saw Derek walk into the lobby, dressed casually in jeans, a ringer tee and running shoes. “Hey, where’s the coffee?” I asked in a demanding voice.

  “Wow, right here and you look awfully swell this morning.” Derek seemed to put a little too much emphasis on the awfully, a little too much for my liking.

  I rolled my eyes at Derek, knowing I really did look like a train wreck, but at least I was comfortable in my tank, jeans and flip-flops. “So where should we eat?”

  “Let’s leave your bags at the luggage hold, and walk to Greektown to hit one of the restaurants there.” Derek reached over and took the bag from my hand.

  Exiting the hotel, I slipped my sunglasses over my eyes. I held my coffee in one hand and reached out to wrap my other arm around Derek’s, while resting my head on his shoulder. We walked the several blocks to Greektown like that; neither of us saying a word, and knowing nothing had to be said.

  We walked around the area and found a cute little restaurant to pop into so we could eat. Once we were seated and we talked over the menu, we placed our orders. Derek was looking at me and I knew he had something he needed to say to me.

  “What? Say it,” I said in an almost annoyed voice.

  Derek’s face immediately broke into a smile. “You know me too well, Abbs.”