Collected Stories 5 - The Eye of the Sibyl and Other Classic Strories

by Philip K. Dick

  When he returned to his own conapt in Berkeley he put in a long distance vidcall to Dr Edgar Green at Six-planet Educational Enterprises on Ganymede. Within half an hour he had his party.

  "Do you remember me, Dr. Green?" he asked as he faced the image. To him the rather plump, middle-aged face opposite him was unfamiliar; he did not believe he had ever seen the man before in his life. However, at least one fundamental reality-configuration had borne the test: there was a Dr. Edgar Green in Six-planet's personnel department; Carol had been telling the truth to that extent.

  "I have seen you before," Dr. Green said, "but I'm sorry to say that the name does not come to mind, sir."

  "John Cupertino. Now of Terra. Formerly of Ganymede. I was involved in a rather sensational piece of litigation slightly over three years ago, somewhat before Ganymede's revolt. I was accused of murdering my wife, Carol. Does that help you, doctor?"

  "Hmm," Dr. Green said, frowning. He raised an eyebrow. "Were you acquitted, Mr. Cupertino?"

  Hesitating, Cupertino said, "I--currently am under psychiatric care, here in the Bay area of California. If that's any help."

  "I presume you're saying that you were declared legally insane. And therefore could not stand trail."

  Cupertino, cautiously, nodded.

  "It may be," Dr. Green said, "that I talked to you. Very dimly it rings a bell. But I see so many people... were you employed here?"

  "Yes," Cupertino said.

  "What specifically, did you want from me, Mr. Cupertino? Obviously you want something; you've placed a rather expensive long distance call. I suggest for practical purposes--your pocketbook in particular--you get to the point."

  "I'd like you to forward my case history," Cupertino said. "To me, not to my psychiatrist. Can that be arranged?"

  "You want it for what purpose, Mr. Cupertino? For securing employment?"

  Cupertino, taking a deep breath, said, "No, doctor. So that I can be absolutely certain what psychiatric techniques were used in my case. By you and by members of your medical staff, those working under you. I have reason to believe I underwent major corrective therapy with you. Am I entitled to know that, doctor? It would seem to me that I am." He waited, thinking, I have about one chance in a thousand of prying anything of worth out of this man. But it was worth the try.

  " 'Corrective therapy'? You must be confused, Mr. Cupertino; we do only aptitude testing, profile analysis--we don't do therapy, here. Our concern is merely to analyze the job-applicant in order to--"

  "Dr. Green," Cupertino said, "were you personally involved in the revolt of three years ago?"

  Green shrugged. "We all were. Everyone on Ganymede was filled with patriotism." His voice was bland.

  "To protect that revolt," Cupertino said, "would you have implanted a delusional idea in my mind for the purpose of--"

  "I'm sorry," Green interrupted. "It's obvious that you're psychotic. There's no point in wasting your money on this call; I'm surprised that they permitted you access to an outside vidline."

  "But such a idea can be implanted," Cupertino persisted. "It is possible, by current psychiatric technique. You admit that."

  Dr. Green sighed. "Yes, Mr. Cupertino. It's been possible ever since the mid-twentieth century; such techniques were initially developed by the Pavlov Institute in Moscow as early as 1940, perfected by the time of the Korean War. A man can be made to believe anything."

  "Then Carol could be right." He did not know if he was disappointed or elated. It would mean, he realized, that he was not a murderer; that was the cardinal point. Carol was alive, and his experience with Terra, with its people, cities and objects, was genuine. And yet--"If I came to Ganymede," he said suddenly, "could I see my file? Obviously if I'm well enough to make the trip I'm not a psychotic under mandatory psychiatric care. I may be sick, doctor, but I'm not that sick." He waited; it was a slim chance, but worth trying.

  "Well," Dr. Green said, pondering, "there is no company rule which precludes an employee--or ex-employee--examining his personnel file; I suppose I could open it to you. However, I'd prefer to check with your psychiatrist first. Would you give me his name, please? And if he agrees I'll save you a trip; I'll have it put on the vidwires and in your hands by tonight, your time."

  He gave Dr. Green the name of his psychiatrist, Dr. Hagopian. And then hung up. What would Hagopian say? An interesting question and one he could not answer; he had no idea which way Hagopian would jump.

  But by nightfall he would know; that much was certain.

  He had an intuition that Hagopian would agree. But for the wrong reasons.

  However, that did not matter; Hagopian's motives were not important--all that he cared about was the file. Getting his hands on it, reading it and finding out if Carol was right.

  It was two hours later--actually an incredibly long time--that it came to him, all at once, that Six-planet Educational Enterprises could, with no difficulty whatsoever, tamper with the file, omit the pertinent information. Transmit to Earth a spurious, worthless document.

  Then what did he do next?

  It was a good question. And one--for the moment--which he could not answer.

  That evening the file from Six-planet Educational Enterprises' main personnel offices on Ganymede was delivered by Western Union Messenger to his conapt. He tipped the messenger, seated himself in his living room and opened the file.

  It took him only a few moments to certify the fact which he had suspected: the file contained no references to any implantation of a delusional idea. Either the file had been reconstructed or Carol was mistaken. Mistaken--or lying. In any case the file told him nothing.

  He phoned the University of California, and, after being switched from station to station, wound up with someone who seemed to know what he was talking about. "I want an analysis," Cupertino explained, "of a written document. To find out how recently it was transcribed. This is a Western Union wire-copy so you'll have to go on word anachronisms alone. I want to find out if the material was developed three years ago or more recently. Do you think you can analyze for so slight a factor?"

  "There's been very little word-change in the past three years," the university philologist said. "But we can try. How soon do you have to have the document back?"

  "As soon as possible," Cupertino said.

  He called for a building messenger to take the file to the university, and then he took time to ponder another element in the situation.

  If his experience of Terra was delusional, the moment at which his perceptions most closely approximated reality occurred during his sessions with Dr. Hagopian. Hence if he were ever to break through the delusional system and perceive actual reality it would most likely take place then; his maximum efforts should be directed at that time. Because one fact seemed clearly established: he really was seeing Dr. Hagopian.

  He went to the phone and started to dial Hagopian's number. Last night, after the arrest, Hagopian had helped him; it was unusually soon to be seeing the doctor again, but he dialed. In view of his analysis of the situation it seemed justified; he could afford the cost... And then something came to him.

  The arrest. All at once he remembered what the policeman had said; he had accused Cupertino of being a user of the Ganymedean drug Frohedadrine. And for a good reason: he showed the symptoms.

  Perhaps that was the modus operandi by which the delusional system was maintained; he was being given Frohedadrine in small regular doses, perhaps in his food.

  But wasn't that a paranoid--in other words psychotic--concept?

  And yet paranoid or not, it made sense.

  What he needed was a blood fraction test. The presence of the drug would register in such a test; all he had to do was show up at the clinic of his firm in Oakland, ask for the test on the grounds that he had a suspected toxemia. And within an hour the test would be completed.

  And, if he was on Frohedadrine, it would prove that he was correct; he was still on Ganymede, not on Terra. And all that he experien
ced--or seemed to experience--a delusion, with the possible exception of his regular, mandatory visits to the psychiatrist.

  Obviously he should have the blood fraction test made--at once. And yet he shrank from it. Why? Now he had the means by which to make a possible absolute analysis, and yet he held back.

  Did he want to know the truth?

  Certainly he had to have the test made; he forgot temporarily the notion of seeing Dr. Hagopian, went to the bathroom to shave, then put on a clean shirt and tie and left the conapt, starting toward his parked wheel; in fifteen minutes he would be at his employer's clinic.

  His employer. He halted, his hand touching the doorhandle of his wheel, feeling foolish.

  They had slipped up somehow in their presentation of his delusional system. Because he did not know where he worked. A major segment of the system simply was not there.

  Returning to his conapt he dialed Dr. Hagopian.

  Rather sourly Dr. Hagopian said, "Good evening, John. I see you're back in your own conapt; you didn't stay in Los Angeles long."

  Cupertino said huskily, "Doctor, I don't know where I work. Obviously something's gone wrong; I must have known formerly--up until today, in fact. Haven't I been going to work four days a week like everyone else?"

  "Of course," Hagopian said, unruffled. "You're employed by an Oakland firm, Triplan Industries, Incorporated, on San Pablo Avenue near Twenty-first Street. Look up the exact address in your phone book. But--I'd say go to bed and rest; you were up all last night and it seems obvious that you're suffering a fatigue reaction."

  "Suppose," Cupertino said, "greater and greater sections of the delusional system begin to slip. It won't be very pleasant for me." The one missing element terrified him; it was as if a piece of himself had dissolved. Not to know where he worked--in an instant he was set apart from all other humans, thoroughly isolated. And how much else could he forget? Perhaps it was the fatigue; Hagopian might be right. He was, after all, too old to stay up all night; it was not as it had been a decade ago when such things were physically possible for both him and Carol.

  He wanted, he realized, to hang onto the delusional system; he did not wish to see it decompose around him. A person was his world; without it he did not exist.

  "Doctor," he said, "may I see you this evening?"

  "But you just saw me," Dr. Hagopian pointed out. "There's no reason for another appointment so soon. Wait until later in the week. And in the meantime--"

  "I think I understand how the delusional system is maintained," Cupertino said. "Through daily doses of Frohedadrine, administered orally, in my food. Perhaps by going to Los Angeles I missed a dose; that might explain why a segment of the system collapsed. Or else as you say it's fatigue; in any case this proves that I'm correct: this is a delusional system, and I don't need either the blood fraction test or the University of California to confirm it. Carol is dead--and you know it. You're my psychiatrist on Ganymede and I'm in custody, have been now for three years. Isn't that actually the case?" He waited, but Hagopian did not answer; the doctor's face remained impassive. "I never was in Los Angeles," Cupertino said. "In fact I'm probably confined to a relatively small area; I have no freedom of motion as it would appear. And I didn't see Carol this morning, did I?"

  Hagopian said slowly, "What do you mean, 'blood fraction test'? What gave you the idea of asking for that?" He smiled faintly. "If this is a delusional system, John, the blood fraction test would be illusory, too. So how could it help you?"

  He had not thought of that; stunned, he remained silent, unable to answer.

  "And that file which you asked Dr. Green for," Hagopian said. "Which you received and then transferred to the University of California for analysis; that would be delusional, too. So how can the result of their tests--"

  Cupertino said, "There's no way you could know of that, doctor. You conceivably might know that I talked to Dr. Green, asked for and received the file; Green might have talked to you. But not my request for analysis by the university; you couldn't possibly know that. I'm sorry, doctor, but by a contradiction of internal logic this structure has proved itself unreal. You know too much about me. And I think I know what final, absolute test I can apply to confirm my reasoning."

  "What test?" Hagopian's tone was cold.

  Cupertino said, "Go back to Los Angeles. And kill Carol once more."

  "Good God, how--"

  "A woman who has been dead for three years can't die again," Cupertino said. "Obviously it'll prove impossible to kill her." He started to break the phone connection.

  "Wait," Hagopian said rapidly. "Look, Cupertino; I've got to contact the police now--you've forced me to. I can't let you go down there and murder that woman for the--" He broke off. "Make a second try, I mean, on her life. All right, Cupertino; I'll admit several things which have been concealed from you. To an extent you're right; you are on Ganymede, not on Terra."

  "I see," Cupertino said, and did not break the circuit.

  "But Carol is real," Dr. Hagopian continued. He was perspiring, now; obviously afraid that Cupertino would ring off he said almost stammeringly, "She's as real as you or I. You tried to kill her and failed; she informed the homeopapes about the intended revolt--and because of that the revolt was not completely successful. We here on Ganymede are surrounded by a cordon of Terran military ships; we're cut off from the rest of the Sol System, living on emergency rations and being pushed back, but still holding out."

  "Why my delusional system?" He felt cold fright rise up inside him; unable to stifle it he felt it enter his chest, invade his heart. "Who imposed it on me?"

  "No one imposed it on you. It was a self-induced retreat syndrome due to your sense of guilt. Because, Cupertino, it was your fault that the revolt was detected; your telling Carol was the crucial factor--and you recognize it. You tried suicide and that failed, so instead you withdrew psychologically into this fantasy world."

  "If Carol told the Terran authorities she wouldn't now be free to--"

  "That's right. Your wife is in prison and that's where you visited her, at our prison in New Detroit-G, here on Ganymede. Frankly, I don't know what the effect of my telling you this will have on your fantasy world; it may cause it to further disintegrate, in fact it may even restore you to a clear perception of the terribly difficult situation which we Ganys face vis-a-vis the Terran military establishment. I've envied you, Cupertino, during these last three years; you haven't had to face the harsh realities we've had to. Now--" He shrugged. "We'll see."

  After a pause Cupertino said, "Thanks for telling me."

  "Don't thank me; I did it to keep you from becoming agitated to the point of violence. You're my patient and I have to think of your welfare. No punishment for you is now or ever was intended; the extent of your mental illness, your retreat from reality, fully demonstrated your remorse at the results of your stupidity." Hagopian looked haggard and gray. "In any case leave Carol alone; it's not your job to exact vengeance. Look it up in the Bible if you don't believe me. Anyhow she's being punished, and will continue to be as long as she's physically in our hands."

  Cupertino broke the circuit.

  Do I believe him? he asked himself.

  He was not certain. Carol, he thought. So you doomed our cause, out of petty, domestic spite. Out of mere female bitterness, because you were angry at your husband; you doomed an entire moon to three years of losing, hateful war.

  Going to the dresser in his bedroom he got out his laser beam; it had remained hidden there, in a Kleenex box, the entire three years since he had left Ganymede and come to Terra.

  But now, he said to himself, it's time to use this.

  Going to the phone he dialed for a cab; this time he would travel to Los Angeles by public rocket express, rather than by his own wheel.

  He wanted to reach Carol as soon as humanly possible.

  You got away from me once, he said as he walked rapidly to the door of his conapt. But not this time. Not twice.

  Ten minutes
later he was aboard the rocket express, on his way to Los Angeles and Carol.

  Before John Cupertino lay the Los Angeles Times; once more he leafed through it, puzzled, still unable to find the article. Why wasn't it here? he asked himself. A murder committed, an attractive, sexy woman shot to death... he had walked into Carol's place of work, found her at her desk, killed her in front of her fellow employees, then turned and, unhindered, walked back out; everyone had been too frozen with fear and surprise to interfere with him.

  And yet it was not in the pape. The homeopape made absolutely no mention of it.

  "You're looking in vain," Dr. Hagopian said, from behind his desk.

  "It has to be here," Cupertino said doggedly. "A capital crime like that--what's the matter?" He pushed the homeopape aside, bewildered. It made no sense; it defied obvious logic.

  "First," Dr. Hagopian said wearily, "the laser beam did not exist; that was a delusion. Second, we did not permit you to visit your wife again because we knew you planned violence--you had made that perfectly clear. You never saw her, never killed her, and the homeopape before you is not the Los Angeles Times; it's the New Detroit-G Star... which is limited to four pages because of the pulp-paper shortage here on Ganymede."

  Cupertino stared at him.

  "That's right," Dr. Hagopian said, nodding. "It's happened again, John; you have a delusional memory of killing her twice, now. And each event is as unreal as the other. You poor creature--you're evidently doomed to try again and again, and each time fail. As much as our leaders hate Carol Holt Cupertino and deplore and regret what she did to us--" He gestured. "We have to protect her; it's only just. Her sentence is being carried out; she'll be imprisoned for twenty-two more years or until Terra manages to defeat us and releases her. No doubt if they get hold of her they'll make her into a heroine; she'll be in every Terran-controlled homeopape in the Sol System."

  "You'd let them get her alive?" Cupertino said, presently.

  "Do you think we should kill her before they take her?" Dr. Hagopian scowled at him. "We're not barbarians, John; we don't commit crimes of vengeance. She's suffered three years of imprisonment already; she's being punished sufficiently." He added, "And so are you as well. I wonder which of you is suffering the more."