He tried to calm his leg from jumping under the table, but he was embarrassingly unsuccessful. “Twins Law; fucking twins. I’m scared as shit man.” He gave Sunshine a heart stopping smile by the way her cheeks turned pink and she bit her bottom lip in his direction.
Horny mofo’s.
“Don’t worry about it, bro. Sunshine’s going to be fantastic, you’re going to get yelled at for the rest of your life for being such an over protective douchebag, and me and Dulce will babysit once they turn…eighteen.” I bust out laughing as his face goes ghost-white, not finding any humor in this. “Relax, you’ve got me and my badass side kick now.” I blew an animated kiss to Blue with all the tongue I could give and she rolled those sexy eyes of hers.
So damn sexy.
“You piranhas ready to go? I’m ready for desert.”
Blue locked eyes with me as her breath sped up. “Which is?” She asked boldly.
“You.” I replied, not missing a beat.
She jumped up out of her seat, running with her Taco Bell wrappers to the trash bin and ran out the door.
“See you two at home!” I shouted behind me as I ran after my smurfity-smurf-smurf.
Chapter Nine
Ocean
Liv and I couldn’t stop cracking up after Law and Dulce's exit. I got up to sit next to her, needing to be as close to her as possible. As soon as I sat down, she leaned into me and I put my arm around her.
“You about done baby? You keep eyeing that crunch wrap supreme on that menu. I won’t judge, eat up baby. You’re going to need the energy to keep up with me…and the twins.”
She huffed at me with an embarrassed smile. “I am not. I just ate three gordita-crunch tacos and one and a half steak cantina bowls; there is nothing else I want to eat right now.”
I winked at her and she blushed. Damn she was so beautiful to me. “Come on then, let’s go home. Law’s not the only one craving desert.”
I watched her face as it went from flirtatious to terrified. I was laughing on the inside because I knew she was going to start acting all self-conscious and shit.
“Ocean, you still want to have sex with me?”
I looked around the Taco Bell before I looked at her. She was waiting for an honest answer and the answer I wanted to shout at her was: ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?!
Not wanting to take that route…not just yet. I smiled, leaned in for a kiss, and grabbed her hand along with her trash. “Come on, let’s get home and I’ll show you just how much I want to not just have sex with you.”
Before I even finished my sentence, she was rushing us out the door. “Keys.” She held out her hands to me.
“Oh, now you want to drive her? You scared I’m going to make you wait for it.”
“You’re too cocky for your own good. I want to drive her. Give me the keys. You bought her for me and anyways you’ve been begging me to drive, so hand them over!”
“Hell no. Get in.”
She looked up at me and I could see the excitement fueling her hormones beneath those exotic sharp eyes. I opened the car door for her and she slipped in, yanking her door closed.
I took my time walking over to the driver side. Even stopped to pull out my phone and pretend I was making a call. The car horn went off like rapid fire and I fucking lost it laughing so hard. I heard pregnant women could have a sex drive stronger than fourteen-year-old boys at summer camp. I was going to definitely have fun with Liv.
When I sat down in my seat, Liv was facing me in her seat pissed the fuck off. She was breathing heavy and her eyes where fileting my flesh right off me. “I want to go home Ocean! Don’t forget my Twizzlers and Raisinets!”
I started the car letting it roll backwards and as I grabbed the gear shaft thrusting it into first, I looked into her eyes, “Don’t worry baby, I have something better you can put in that pouty mouth.”
She gasped, covering her mouth and sitting backbone straight in her seat. After the shock wore off, she surprised the hell out of me as I entered the highway; taking the fastest way home I could think of.
She unbuckled her seat belt, leaning over into my lap. I kept my eyes on the road trying to play it cool…key word TRYING. She ran her hand down my chest and stomach making sounds that had me about blow in my pants. Liv was giving me tunnel vision I wanted her so bad. My zipper came down and effortlessly, she let the monster out.
Her name for my dick, not mine.
She grabbed me by the base and squeezed.
I jerked the wheel to the left without meaning to. “Sorry.” I croaked.
Fuck, I sounded like a puss!
“It’s okay baby.” She spoke with her hot lips pressed against the tip of my monster. “I want my Twizzler now, Ocean. Can I have it?”
I thrust my hips upward, grazing my dick with her teeth as she smiled. “Fuck yes baby; you can have him.”
When her hot slick mouth covered me, I fucking came undone. Her hand covered mine shifting with me as I drove and I swear I was going to bust a nut right in her mouth. I always pulled out before I did not really knowing if she would like it or curse me out, but DAMN!
Her tongue and throat were making love to my monster! No wonder she was always on fucking Google, FREAK! With every hard shift of the seven speed I was driving the hell out of to get home, I got harder and seconds closer to coming. She purred and hummed with my dick deep in her throat.
When I finally drove through the gate to our condominium, I said fuck it. I parked up right inside the main gates entrance, rammed my seat back, and lifted up her dress as she took off her panties. She fucking jumped on my dick, sending us into the back seat hard.
She started her grind off slow, taking me in all the way quickly…too quickly for her. I could see the pain on her face, but she sucked it up and rode me like a goddamn rodeo champ. As she bounced on me, she slowed her pace, looking me in the eye.
“Ocean, tel—tell me how much…” her head flew back as she screamed shit at me in Portuguese and I came right after her.
I grabbed her back to bring her closer to me to get my lips closer to her perky nipples. I sucked one into my mouth, gently flicking her beaded nipple with my tongue as she tightened her pussy around me. “How much what Liv?”
She took a deep breath as her thighs shook around my hips. “Tell me how much you want me.”
“Baby, your insecurity doesn’t fit you well. Let me take you inside and I’ll show you how much I love you. Let me penetrate you so deep that when you think about yourself, all you’ll see is the million and one ways I love you. Let me imprint the way I love you so deep that when I’m not around, you’ll want to be alone for hours trying to make yourself come as hard as I make you come.”
“Upstairs now.” She breathed heavily into my face.
“Anything you want from me you already have baby.” I dressed her, parked the car in front of our condo and took her upstairs to ruin her all over again.
Hope our twins don’t mind because I had plans on busting nuts deep-and I mean deep inside-their mother tonight.
Chapter Ten
Livie
I felt myself tossing and turning but no matter how much I moved, I couldn’t wake up from the approaching nightmare that was about to rock my dreams. I felt my consciousness shift me back to the night I found my mother. I watched myself as I woke up to the blaring sound to my Rihanna What Now ringtone.
It’s amazing the details your mind holds onto when it’s infected with a tragic and traumatizing experience. I watched my body drag itself out of bed with the knots twisting and snarling inside of my stomach from the impending doom ahead. My nightmare violently shifted to the too short of a car ride to my mom’s house. It was like I was the ghost within my dream. I saw, heard, and felt everything while being invisible and watching myself.
I watched as the Livie from the past opened the door to my mom’s home, taking in the cleanliness. I followed my body upstairs to where I already knew was awaiting.
Livie listen to me! Turn b
ack around! Please turn around and go home. You can’t save her… you never could!
The body kept walking, knocking on the door and when I grew impatient, I opened the bedroom door, and then…I saw my mother in the same white gown sitting on her bed.
She looked up at me with a smile on her face, sitting cross-legged patting the space next to her. “Come here, princessa. Don’t be afraid.”
I hesitated as I walked to the bed and when I passed her shiny ivory dresser, what I saw in the mirror was not the Livie from the past. The Livie I saw was me now, except my stomach was full of babies; about to explode, full of babies. Every inch of the two babies now growing inside of me now were showing in all their healthy glory and as I shuffled forward, my mother reached out to my stomach.
I climbed up on the bed, sitting next to her with effort as she helped me sit cross-legged in front of her. She took my hand in hers and she giggled while studying me. “I can’t believe how far you’ve come Liv. You are more beautiful than I’ve ever remembered or could have imagined.”
“Why mom? Why did you do it? Why couldn’t you have talked to me or asked me for help?” I searched her face as she continued to smile.
“Mi hija-my daughter-the demon I was battling was stronger than us both. I’m sorry not for how my life ended, but for the treatment you received from me and those I kept around me. I always knew you were strong and stronger than I was, but that didn’t give me the right to abuse you. I am not here to talk about that hija. I am here to give you a message…a message from myself, your father who is extremely proud of you, and from Ocean’s sister…Stormie.”
I gasped as the tears fled from my eyes. “What?”
“Angels talk, beautiful and we’ve been looking out for you all. What you need to know is that this all will pass. You will get through this in one piece with Ocean and his family by your side. Your destiny and fate is not the same as mine and I know you believe in your heart that it is, but we’ve seen a glimpse of the mother you are destined to be. Let me tell you that you are amazing. I love you Livie. Fight those demons you think are winning; you’ve almost beat them, just keep fighting and keep Ocean close.”
Her face flickered and I panicked, grabbing onto her hands not wanting to let her go. “No! No! Why? Why do I have to keep him closer?”
Her smile brightened as the room around us turned white and I saw my father and a girl that looked like Stormie call out to my mother. I was in shock. I wanted to get up and run into that white light my mother was floating back to, but I couldn’t move because I was watching my father accept her hand and embrace her. They were together again, with Stormie by their side. As fast as my dream came, it went; leaving me confounded.
“Ocean!” When I opened my eyes, he was hovering on top of me and looking down on me as the moonlight from our window illuminated his face and body above me.
His hand stroked my face as he looked at me. “What is it baby?”
I took a deep breath as I exhaled, letting my nerves settle under the light pressure of his body above me. “I had a dream…well it started as a nightmare, but then it changed. I saw my mother in her house in the room I found her in. Ocean, she looked perfectly happy and like an angel. She told me to hang on and keep fighting. She told me that my fate was not the same as hers even though I feel that it is, but I saw more Ocean. I saw my father and Stormie…Ocean I saw Stormie. She was beautiful and she looked happy, like really happy.” My tears took over and I cried as his own tears slid down his calm face.
I reached up, wiping his tears away as we looked each other in the eyes. “My mom told me to keep you close. I asked why but she couldn’t tell me. My father and Stormie called for her to go back. What does that mean?”
He cocked his head to the side as he continued to look at me. “I don’t know baby. I’m happy she told you what I already know to be true. You are stronger than your mother and not that she wasn’t an amazing mother to you before everything changed, but Livie you are going to be amazing.”
I felt him spread my legs apart as his tip poked into my entrance. He smiled as I relaxed under him, running my hands along the sides of his back. Ocean made love to me gently-softly-as he admired every inch of my flesh inside and out.
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I woke up to the sounds of loud banging and extremely boisterous voices coming from the kitchen or living room, I think.
Whatever was going on it needed to stop! That dream kept me up all night. Even after Ocean made love to me, I had trouble settling back into a comfortable sleep.
A head popped up form under the covers and I screamed.
“What the hell?!”
Dulce shouted from under the covers. I looked down at myself, knowing I slept naked and thank god I had on gym sweats and a tank top. I don’t remember getting dressed and I sure as hell don’t remember Dulce coming into bed with me. I mean, we were used to having sex with our own men walking in on each other but never together…no way I was sharing what was mine and I know she felt the same way.
“Don’t look at me prima. I don’t know how I got here either.” She looked down at herself and she was dressed the same way as I was.
When she pulled her hair back, I saw the hickies lining her neck and my eyes widened. “What exactly did you and Law do when you got home?”
Her face blushed as she closed her eyes, inhaling deeply. “You should be asking what he didn’t do to me. If there’s any chance of us getting pregnant, I’m convinced he’s going to find it and fast.”
I laughed, taking in her appearance. I moved out from under the covers with sore muscles and a heaviness in my belly. I got up, walking over to the dresser to look at myself. I looked the same except for my ever-growing boobs and my noticeable potbelly. It looked cute, sort of, I thought as I rubbed the little pouch with my hand.
The banging in the kitchen grew louder and both Dulce and I charged towards the door to see what the hell was going on.
She opened the door and I slammed it shut behind me with extra oomph! Immediately, the loud noise stopped. I heard giggling which I’m pretty sure was Law because he was the toddler of the group. Well, the second toddler of the group because Ocean was the infant loaded with temper tantrums. As we entered the living room from the hallway, we hesitantly walked into a room full of smiling faces. Ocean and Law stood side by side in tailored tuxedos; which took me breath away immediately. Dulce and I held onto each other as we looked them over.
Ocean’s eyes ran over my potbelly with a wild grin showing off all his perfect teeth. From the kitchen Law’s uncle, mom, Santi, Trevor, and Joseph walked in also dressed as if they were going to a freaking wedding. That was when I noticed the little square boxes Ocean and Law were holding in their hands.
“No way!”
Oh hell no! Oh hell yes!
Ocean laughed nervously. Law motioned over to Dulce and like the sex crazed victim she’d become, she went willingly while I on the other hand stood planted where I was.
Santi moved to my side, extending his arm out to me. “Morning beautiful.”
I smiled at his shyness. “Morning”.
“I know I’m not family, but I would be honored if you let me walk you…I would say down the aisle but there really isn’t one, so can I walk you over to Ocean?”
I looked him in the face, then to Ocean who was patiently waiting for me. I accepted his hand, letting him lead me down the make believe aisle handing me over to Ocean.
Before letting me go, he pulled me into a hug, whispering, “Thank you. I’ll never forget that beautiful.” He kissed my cheek as he placed my hand in Ocean’s strong and confident hold.
I looked at Ocean who was on the brink of crying from the erratic movement of his eyes. “Is this for real Ocean? Are we really doing this?”
“Yes it’s real, baby. I want this to be real as well as official. I love you and I want the four of us to be a family; not just live life going through the motions of being one. I want you as my wife today, tomorrow, and for
every day after that God gives me. With this ring…” He opened the box in the palm of his hand to show me a huge rock sitting in the most beautiful set I’ve ever seen. “Livie Marie Hawthorne, with this ring-along with my heart and soul-I promise to love you, cherish you, and stay by your side. Through thick and thin, sickness and in health, every natural and emotional disaster aware to man and mother nature for that matter, I promise to love you through it all. Will you do me the honor of being my wife and making my family whole?”
I stepped closer to him, taking his hand placing it over my stomach. “I do. I accept you Ocean Grant Hawthorne as my lawfully wedded husband, through sickness and in health, rich or for poor, now and forever. With my feet planted and my head above water Ocean, promise me.”
“I promise Livie. I will keep your feet planted right here next to me where you belong and your head above water where my lips can easily seek yours and show you how much I love you.” He took the ring he gave me as my promise ring and replaced it with the gorgeous ring and band.
He reached into his tuxedo pocket and pulled out a box which housed his wedding band. He handed me the box and as I opened it, I smiled. It was a simple platinum band with my name Livie engraved into the band surrounded by diamond stones dancing around my name, it was absolutely stunning.
Law’s father stepped forward and with a bible in hand recited the rights of consuming a marriage. When our ceremony was over, Ocean loosened up his tuxedo pulling me into a hug and kissing my entire face.
We stepped aside to watch a crying Law…such a punk, but I loved that punk with all my heart…and Dulce complete their vows. I cried the entire time as they confessed their love to each other; it was beautiful.
Of course, they were about to get into the start of an argument being provoked by none other than Law himself but that was who they were and I loved them just the same. Ocean rubbed on my stomach the whole time. I felt the strong calm and steady beat within his chest against my back.
Layla was a complete mess. She was holding onto her brother the entire time as tears and sobs rocked her. Her one and only son was getting married right in front of her and she was crying not from sadness, but from the feeling only a proud mother watching a child she gave birth to and turn into a wonderful man would understand.
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