Amelia Grey - [Rogues' Dynasty 06]

by The Rogue Steals a Bride

  “No,” he answered quickly.

  “Yet, you ask it of me.”

  He hesitated. “I must. Sir Randolph is not keeping us apart. You are. Sophia, what do you want from me? Am I to be your lover while you are married to Snellingly, Bighampton, or someone like Beckett?”

  “No, of course not,” she whispered earnestly as she gathered her hair underneath the hood of her cloak. “Once I am married, I will not betray my husband.”

  Matson put his hands on his knees and clasped them together and shook his head. “So what are we to do then, Sophia? Look at each other from across the room at every ball and dinner party and wish we could touch and kiss like we have this night?”

  “After tonight, nothing else is possible between us. I must choose a husband.”

  Sophia rose and ran across the lawn. She had to get to her room before the tears started flowing.

  Twenty-five

  Love is light from Heaven; a spark of that immortal fire.

  —Lord Byron

  There was no public room in London as opulent as the Grand Ballroom, with its gilt moldings and carved fretwork. There was hardly an evening of the year that the baroque chandeliers were not lit with burning candles that threw colorful prisms and dancing shadows of golden light across the large room.

  Tonight was no exception.

  Matson leaned against a column where he could watch the dance floor. Sophia had been on it three times since he’d been standing there. He’d seethed with that rotten, green-eyed beast called jealousy, watching her glide easily through the steps, turns, and twirls with Lord Hargraves, Mr. Beckett, and the rapidly recovered Lord Snellingly. The hell of it was that all three men measured up to what Sophia wanted; Matson didn’t.

  No, he thought, she didn’t want them, she wanted him but was going to settle for one of them.

  Matson tried to stay away from the party, telling himself that he didn’t give a damn, but the problem with that was he did. He’d spent the entire day at his home, replaying his time with Sophia last night in her garden with the moonlight shining on her delicate white skin. He remembered every kiss, every caress of her rounded shoulders, swelling breasts, curved waist, and the soft flare of her shapely hips. He remembered every detail of making her his and then her refusal to accept him.

  He didn’t know how long he’d sat in her garden after she’d left him. He was too stunned to move at first. Sophia would rather live with a vow than give it up for him. A thousand thoughts had crossed his mind, including one he’d thought long and hard on today. His heart was telling him one thing, but his honor was telling him another.

  He had a ship heading back to America at first light. He’d thought seriously about kidnapping Sophia and sailing away with her on his ship. She loved him. He was convinced of that, and felt in time she would forgive him for forcing his will on her. But that thought had lasted only as long as the afternoon. If anyone had forced him to give up his vow, he would have never forgiven them. Honor was a matter of personal choice, not someone else’s choice.

  The cold, unmasked truth of what Sophia made him face last night rang in his mind. He was asking her to do something he wasn’t willing to do himself, until now.

  It took a lot of soul searching to realize that he wasn’t going to let his hatred for Sir Randolph keep him from Sophia. He didn’t want to spend the rest of his life hating a man and defending a mother who’d said yes to the very kind of passion he’d shared with Sophia that afternoon in the rowboat.

  He had to tell Sophia that.

  He watched her leave the dance floor and be escorted back to her aunts. Matson pushed away from the column and headed toward them.

  As he waded through the crowd, Matson smiled and accepted words of congratulations, hearty claps on the back, and nods of admiration for winning the race yesterday.

  “Good evening, ladies,” he said, stopping in front of Sophia and her aunts.

  “Delightful to see you, Mr. Brentwood,” Mae said with a beaming smile.

  “That’s a lovely dress you have on, Miss Shevington,” he said to Mae. “And you, too, Miss Shevington.”

  “Good evening, Mr. Brentwood,” June said tightly and then lifted her chin and looked away, as if she were searching for someone in the room.

  “How are you this evening, Mr. Brentwood?” Sophia said.

  Her eyes seemed to be caressing his face as he spoke to her. “I’m well, Miss Hart, and you?”

  “I’m—I’m still trying to get over the events of yesterday—and last night.”

  So am I.

  “I’ve never seen a lady row a boat as well as you,” he said.

  “And you, sir, are by far the strongest gentleman I’ve met,” Sophia said.

  “Mae,” June said sharply, and Matson and Sophia looked at her. “Is that man smiling at you?”

  Mae turned to her sister. “Why, yes, Sister. Yes, I believe he is.”

  June clucked. “It’s disgraceful for an old spinster such as yourself to be flirting with a gentleman, and one who appears younger than you too.”

  Mae smiled at the man. “Oh, I know it’s absolutely scandalous, Sister, and I’m enjoying it so much.”

  Sophia looked at Matson and gave him a weak smile. A waltz was announced. “Are you free for this dance?” Matson asked her.

  “Yes,” she answered quickly.

  “You don’t mind, do you, Miss Shevington?” he asked Mae, deliberately not looking at June.

  “No, of course not.”

  As Matson and Sophia started to walk away, the gentleman who had smiled at Mae walked up to her and asked her to dance. She accepted. Matson smiled to himself. Perhaps Miss Shevington was finally going to get a beau.

  Matson led Sophia to the far corner of the dance floor, where they would wait for the music to start. He looked at her face for a long time before finally saying, “Has anything changed?”

  She shook her head as if she didn’t trust herself to speak.

  “You have a past, Sophia, but so have I.”

  She cleared her throat. “What do you mean?”

  The music started, and Matson took Sophia’s hand with his left hand and placed the other high on her back between her shoulder blades. Her body was warm. He stepped forward, and she slid her foot back, starting the box step.

  “My first love was a married woman,” he said to her as they danced.

  “Oh,” she said, clearly surprised. “I didn’t know you had a first love.”

  “I was only twenty when I met her and didn’t know she was married until a few nights later. My heart was already involved by then. At every party I went to, I had to watch her with her husband, knowing I could never touch her. It was hell for a couple of years, but I managed.”

  “I don’t know what I can say to that.”

  “You don’t have to say anything. I watched you dance with other men tonight, Sophia, and I knew that what I felt for Mrs. Delaney doesn’t compare to what I feel for you.”

  Sophia missed a step, but Matson made up for her error. “Matson, don’t.”

  “You asked me last night if I could think of reason that would make me give up my vow to hate Sir Randolph, and I realized today I have a reason. You. You are that reason. Marry me, and I will deny my vow and welcome Sir Randolph into our home.”

  Tears pooled in her eyes. She missed another step. Matson quickly corrected for her again.

  “There is a difference.”

  “No.”

  “Yes,” she whispered earnestly. “Your vow was made on hatred. Mine was given in love. I can’t break it.”

  He swallowed hard and looked around the dance floor for a moment, trying to handle her rejection. Finally he said, “I can’t stay here and watch you marry another man. When I was in love with Mrs. Delaney, I could stay in Baltimore, see her, talk to her, and put my desire for her aside. I know myself and what I’m capable of, and I can’t stay here and watch you going home with another man, to his bed for his kisses and touches, and not
mine.”

  “No, don’t.” She looked away.

  “I have had you, Sophia. I had you first. Marry me,” he said as his hold on her tightened.

  “You know I can’t. Don’t ask me again.”

  Matson felt as if a knife sliced through his heart, but he managed a nod, and they finished the waltz in silence. As the crowd left the dance floor, he held back and said to Sophia, “You know I thought about kidnapping you and taking you away with me on my ship. I wanted to steal you from the titled men pursuing you and force you to be my bride.”

  She gave him a sad smile. “Perhaps you should have and left me with no choice.”

  “I won’t dishonor you by forcing you to give up your vow. I wish I could. And I know if I stayed here, I would ask you to betray your husband. I can’t watch you live with another man. I want you to have a good life. I have a ship leaving at first light for America. I’ll be on it. Good-bye, Sophia.”

  Matson turned and walked away.

  ***

  On what felt like wooden legs, Sophia followed her aunts and Sir Randolph into the house later that night. She had felt as if she were in a stupor since Matson left her on the dance floor.

  She stopped in the foyer and gave her wrap to Mrs. Anderson. Ever since Sophia had watched Matson walk away, she’d felt as if her heart had shriveled into a cold, hard knot. She kept hearing him say that he would give up his vow for her, but he couldn’t dishonor her and take her vow away. Sophia had thought of nothing else since he left. Her guilt over what she did to her father had always been great, but through his actions, she knew he had forgiven her.

  Now she had to forgive herself.

  “Sophia, aren’t you coming up?”

  Sophia looked up the stairs and saw June, Mae, and Sir Randolph at the top of the stairs. “No, I’m not. I’m going to pour myself a glass of port.”

  “Port? You don’t drink port,” June admonished.

  “Tonight I do.”

  “What’s wrong with you?” Mae said.

  Sophia paid no mind to her aunt. She walked down the corridor and into the drawing room. She was pouring from the decanter and into a glass when her aunts and Sir Randolph walked in with worried expressions on their faces.

  “Tell us what is wrong, Sophia,” Sir Randolph said, coming to her side.

  She took a sip of the deep-red wine. “I had decided earlier tonight that I was going to marry Lord Snellingly.”

  “Oh, how wonderful,” June said. “Sir Randolph, did you hear that?”

  “Of course, Miss Shevington. I might be old, but I’m not deaf.”

  “No wonder you want a port. This calls for a celebration. We need champagne, Sir Randolph.”

  “There is no cause for celebration, Auntie. After I decided on Lord Snellingly, a man I didn’t love and could never love, I realized I would probably cringe every time he touched me, because I love another man.”

  “Sophia!” June exclaimed.

  “Oh, Sophia,” Mae whispered softly. “It’s Mr. Brentwood, isn’t it?”

  Sophia looked at Mae and nodded sadly. “I was barely seventeen when I made that vow to Papa. How could I know about true love and the unrelenting desire for a man? I wanted to redeem myself for costing my father the woman he loved. I now know the only way to redemption is forgiveness. I have forgiven myself. Perhaps I could have married Lord Snellingly if I hadn’t fallen in love with Matson, but now I can’t. I know all of you will be disappointed in me, but I can’t live without Matson. I must go to his ship now and stop him from sailing away.”

  “We are not disappointed in you, dearest,” Mae said. “Would your father really want you marrying a man you don’t love? It won’t change the past and what happened to him. Besides, if he had truly wanted to marry that lady, he would have sent you to your room for the disobedient child you were and married her anyway. Don’t give that vow another thought. If you love Mr. Brentwood and he loves you, marry him.”

  “Mae!” June said harshly. “Just because you have completely lost all your common sense is no reason for you to encourage Sophia to do away with hers.”

  “No, Miss Shevington, Sophia is right,” Sir Randolph said. “It’s time she knew the whole truth.”

  “What truth?” June asked.

  A faraway look settled in Sir Randolph’s eyes. With an expression filled with contrition, he said, “I always agreed with your father’s obsession for you to marry a title. It seemed the right thing to do. I lost the woman I loved to a title too. I had more money than we could have ever spent, but money meant nothing to her. She wanted a title. When her first husband died, I thought now Lady Elder will finally marry me, but she didn’t. She married four times and always for a title. Sophia, it’s true your father loved Miss Hamilton, but she never loved him.”

  “What?” Sophia whispered. “I don’t understand.”

  “Your father saw her and fell instantly in love with her. He assumed she would marry him. He was young, healthy, and wealthy. He didn’t not marry her because of you. Miss Hamilton wouldn’t marry him. He asked her and she refused him. She told him she intended to marry a gentleman with a title, and she did. Your father and I concluded that if titles meant that much to the two ladies we loved and wanted to marry, then you must marry a title too. We’ve always wanted the best for you. You don’t need redemption, Sophia. You did nothing wrong.”

  Sophia felt as if a weight had been lifted off her shoulders, and her knees went weak.

  “That’s all well and good for you, Sir Randolph,” June said, “but Sophia is not absolved from keeping her vow. I don’t intend to let Sophia go back on her word. I won’t hear of —”

  All of a sudden, Sir Randolph grabbed June by her upper arms and kissed her hard and quick on the lips.

  She gasped, and so did Sophia and Mae.

  He looked down into June’s wide eyes, and then he kissed her open mouth again. He then turned her loose, stepped back, and said, “Now, Miss Shevington, I think you should consent to be my wife.”

  Sophia’s gasp was muted by her aunts’ gasps.

  “What did you say?” June asked.

  “Marry me, Miss Shevington. I’ve only ever found one other woman who tries my patience, challenges me on every issue, and provokes me to madness like you have. Because of that, I think we will suit.”

  More gasps were heard.

  “When I asked Lady Elder to marry me over forty years ago, she turned me down for a man with a title. So, Miss Shevington, what do you say? Will you marry me or refuse me?”

  June turned a stunned face to Mae. “Sister?”

  At first Mae’s eyes were full of questions, but slowly a smile eased across her face. “I think you should say yes.”

  “But what about you?” June asked.

  “I can’t marry him, too, June. It’s time we have our own lives. It’s time we part.”

  “Part?” Sir Randolph said. “What are you talking about, Miss Shevington? You’ll live with us. I need you here to help me keep her straight when she gets crotchety.”

  “Crotchety?” June said, jerking her hands to her hips in indignation. “I’ll have you know I have never been crotchety in my life.”

  “See what I mean,” Sir Randolph said and then smiled. “I can’t even get her to say yes to my proposal.”

  “Then I’ll say it for her,” Mae said. “Yes, Sir Randolph, June will—”

  “Wait,” June interrupted. She ran her palms down her sides. “I’ll take care of this myself, Sister.” June turned to face Sir Randolph. She relaxed her shoulders and lowered her chin a fraction and smiled. “Yes, I’ll marry you.”

  “Good. We’ll make plans over breakfast tomorrow morning, but right now I have to get Sophia to the docks. I am an honorable man. I am partially responsible for keeping them apart. I must help them get back together. I pray we can get there before the ship sets sail.” He looked at Sophia. “You get our cloaks and meet me out front. I’ll go to the mews and get our carriage before the horses
get unharnessed.”

  A few minutes later, when Sophia and Sir Randolph were settled in the carriage, he told the driver not to spare the horses on his way to the docks. Sometimes they took the corners so fast Sophia thought the carriage would topple. Thankfully, Sir Randolph knew exactly which ships were Matson’s, and he had the carriage pull them right up to the ship. When she stepped out of the carriage, Sophia saw three huge ships at the dock.

  “This is the one that will be leaving,” Sir Randolph said. “See the smoke rising from it?”

  Sophia’s heart pounded, and she looked about the dock. She wanted to board and find Matson but realized the gangplank had been removed to get ready for their departure.

  “Matson,” she called. “Hello! Can anyone hear me?”

  A light lifted above the hull of the ship, and a small face came into view. Sophia blinked, thinking her eyes were deceiving her. It was the boy thief who had stolen her brooch.

  “You!” she said. “What are you doing on the ship?” she called up to him.

  “Doing me job, lady,” he called back. “What can I do for ye?”

  “You’re working? On Mr. Brentwood’s ship?”

  “I ’ad no choice. ’E told me I could go to an orphanage or take a job learning to be a sailor. I took the ship.”

  Sophia’s heart swelled even more. Matson had taken care of the little boy. “That was very kind of Mr. Brentwood. Do you know where he is?”

  “’E’s standing right behind you.”

  Sophia spun and saw Matson. She rushed into his arms, and he caught her up to him and swung her around. “Don’t leave, Matson, I will marry you. I love you. I will marry you. Please don’t go.”

  Matson set her on her feet and looked at Sir Randolph.

  “I’ll wait in the carriage,” Sir Randolph said and turned away.

  “Do not tease me about this, Sophia.”

  “I’m not. I don’t want to live without you. I’ve forgiven myself, my father, everyone. I have to live for me, and I want to live with you.”

  Matson pulled her up against his chest. “Sophia, I have been waiting here, hoping you would come so I wouldn’t have to get on that ship and sail away. Let me hear you say it again.”