Broken by Desire

by Dani René

  “Because she’s invited Sasha.” I stare at him, opening my mouth and closing it again. Cassie come on, he asked you to go with him! She will be there! I can show her he’s mine! Yes! She has a boyfriend! I will once and for all make sure his mother and his ex, realize I am not letting him go. I need to play it cool. This shouldn’t be a problem, and it won’t be because I will not let it get to me. No panic attacks, no stress and certainly no second thoughts about Claudia or Sasha.

  “No problem,” I shrug and twist my back to him so he can continue massaging me.

  “That’s it?” His voice is one of shock and I suppress a giggle. It’s obvious he was stressed about telling me about the event, but he needs to realize that I am happy with him and nothing will change that. My nonchalance has stunned him, and I can only imagine his facial expression. I grin. Without answering the question, I settle on MTV and see one of my favorite videos come up. Always by Bon Jovi. Lucien’s hands still as he leans forward. His lips graze my earlobe, sending a rush of heat over my skin.

  “Want me to grow my hair like that?” He points at the guy on screen who is painting on a large white canvas, with the shoulder length dark hair and I giggle.

  “Nope, I prefer your hair messy and spikey.” I lean backward, into him and his warmth envelopes me. His lips find the sweet spot on my neck as he licks and nips at the skin. My core pulses with need and desire shoots through me and gathers in my panties. I love how he can turn me on with such a slight action. Reaching back, I place my hands on his thighs and stroke them.

  “I am taking you upstairs now. I need to be inside you.” He lifts me up and stands behind me. Unzipping my blue knee-length dress and slipping it off my shoulders. An audible growl rumbles from his chest when the dress pools at my feet. “Jesus, Cassie, did you wear that to work?” He turns me around and takes in the strapless black lace corset and matching panties. Still wearing my heels, and the lace lingerie, his expression tells me he approves.

  “I did, Mr. Verán, why?” I breathe the name that will have his dark dominance surface. His eyes blaze with need and desire. My nipples pebble against the rough material of the corset.

  He leans in and his breath on my ear sends shivers over my skin. “Because if I had known, I would have ordered you to my office, bent you over my desk and fucked you so hard you wouldn’t be able to walk back to your desk.” His voice is laced with a dark desire and the words come out as a primal growl. I squirm in front of him. Squeezing my thighs together, I know that we’re heading to the play room, because the animal I have just unleashed will make me scream in the best way possible.

  I drop to my knees, undoing the black leather belt and unbuttoning his pants. I tug them down his toned thighs along with his tight black briefs. He practically rips his shirt off; my eyes rake over the sculpted planes of his abs. His beautiful V muscles pointing to my reward. I lick my lips, keeping eye contact with him. He loves watching me. Fisting his cock in my hand, I stroke him in slow tortured movements and his head drops back. A deep primal growl rumbles in his chest and I can’t help getting turned on from giving him pleasure. I lick him from base to tip and he growls again. “Fuck, baby.”

  I flick my tongue over the moisture on the tip and savor his arousal leaking out. Without breaking eye contact I suck him into my mouth, I take him as deep as I can. I love the taste of him; all I can think of, is feeling him inside me. My mouth moves up and down sucking and licking my way over the ridges and thick vein running along the bottom of his shaft. Lucien’s fingers tangle in my hair, taking complete control of me. He plunges into my mouth, hitting the back of my throat. My hands grip his toned ass, as he fucks my mouth, faster and deeper. His groans are deep and when his eyes meet mine, they’re black with lust.

  He pulls me off his cock and lifts me up suddenly and we are now face-to-face. “I need to fuck your tight pussy. You’re wet for me aren’t you, sweetness?” I open my mouth to speak, but he interrupts me, sealing my mouth with his. His tongue licking into my mouth, I show his tongue the same attention I gave his cock.

  Without breaking contact with my mouth as he lifts me by my ass. I wrap my legs around his taut waist as he makes his way to the play room and sets me down at the foot end of the bed. “Take off your panties, not the corset. Sit on the bed.” I obey, sliding my black lace panties down my thighs; I sit on the bed and watch him. He’s completely naked and I have to lick my lips. He really is impeccable and totally irresistible.

  Lucien turns and his eyes lock on mine. The lust in his gaze matches my own. I need him. Nobody has ever made me ache, made me need or made me fall so deep and so hard. “Touch yourself, slowly.” Without question, my fingers move between my legs. My arousal soaks my fingers. Lucien’s tongue flicks out as he licks his lips, his gaze trained on my fingers. “Stop. I want you to stand, give me your hands.” I stand and reach my hands out to him. He licks my fingers clean and then closes my wrists together. The lock clicks the thick soft leather cuffs, my arms bound together. “I want to see how much you can handle. Close your eyes.” My eyes flutter closed, with the black silk blindfold in place, my body hums. My pulse quickens when I hear the heavy clang from above me. “What is your safe word?”

  “Summer.” Chewing the inside of my cheek to keep from smiling.

  “Good girl.”

  “Thank you, Sir.” I breathe the words and he groans. My body is trembling, not from fear, but from the delicious anticipation of what Lucien is planning. He moves around the room again and suddenly his heat is at my chest. Without instruction, he raises my hands and secures the leather cuffs to something and locks them in place. I am now secured with my arms above my head.

  “Now, sweetness, do you like teasing me with lingerie?” His voice is at my ear and I whimper.

  “Yes, Sir.” I breathe.

  “Mmmm,” he caresses my ass, both hands moving in sensual circles. The angle of my arms allows my breasts to lift out of the corset. I wriggle at his touch. My skin is on fire where his fingertips trail, my body is humming with desire, he lifts his hand and with an abrupt swat, it comes down hard on my ass. I tug at my arms, but I am at his mercy. His hand comes down on the other cheek of my ass and I whimper again. I am thoroughly soaked. He grasps my neck and pushes his erection against my ass. The need to tease him overcomes me, I push back against him, eliciting a growl from him. His grip on my neck tightens and I push back again. “You make me so fucking hard, sweetness.” He breathes in my ear. “Do you hear me?” I nod. “When I fuck you now, it will be deep, hard, and it will be primal. You will scream so loud, when I pull your release from your soul. You will take every fucking inch of me.”

  My core tightens and pulses. The ache is so intense; tears roll down my cheeks. He releases my neck, the room is so quiet, but I can’t hear him moving. Suddenly he’s in front of me, his breath on my face. His hands on either side of my arms. With a soft trail from my elbows down my body, his touch is light, sending shivers over my skin. Goose bumps rise on every inch of my body. My moans are getting louder as I repeat his name, over, and over again. His hot breath moves down my body until he reaches my pussy. “You smell so fucking delicious.” He nudges my legs apart, with his lips above my entrance he plants a soft kiss on me. I am about to come undone.

  “Please, Sir?” I beg, my voice rising in desperation. I need him inside me. “I can’t anymore.”

  “What sweetness? I am just teasing you like you tease me.” The delight in his voice is evident. He loves teasing me until I am begging him to fuck me. His index finger strokes my slick folds and I whimper again. The knot in my belly is wound so tight. His tongue laps at my entrance. My legs open shamelessly as I buck my hips towards him, trying to get the pressure I need to find my release. All too soon, he stands up and moves so his body is flush with mine. His hand cupping my heated entrance, “Do you need me here, sweetness?” I nod so fast, I am dizzy. “How much do you need me?” He rips off the blindfold. My eyes fly open and I see the pleasure in his heated stare. He
is enjoying this game. His other hand gripping my neck as he holds me in place. I can’t move, and I don’t want to.

  “Please, Lucien, I need you please?” I am close to tears again from the intensity of him.

  “Good.” Suddenly he plunges two fingers inside me and I cry out as an earth shattering orgasm rips into me which sends me spiraling. My eyes slam shut and I see stars at the back of my eyelids. The world spins on its axis as my body shakes. “You are fucking gorgeous.” His voice is hoarse. As my orgasm subsides, he pulls his fingers from my soaked core, he places his index finger at my lips, and I suck his finger into my mouth tasting myself. “My fucking dirty girl.” I look into his dark green eyes as they stare into my heart. There is something distinct about him tonight, but I can’t quite put my finger on it. It’s like he’s showing me something, him. This man has a hold on every depth of my soul and I know that he will forever be ingrained in me.

  I glance down, he’s naked and rock hard. “Wrap your legs around me.” He orders and holds me up. I wrap my thighs around his taut waist and he slides into me all the way to the hilt of his magnificent cock. Our eyes lock and his thrusts are slow and torturous. His restraint is barely there. I am climbing again. He is incredible. All I can do to keep from coming undone is to concentrate on all the emotions he is sending through me. Fucking his love into me, in such a way it’s the most intense moment we’ve ever shared. His left hand reaches up and twists my hard nipples. With short tweaks and tugs that send delicious jolts to my core.

  “My lumiére,” he slams into me faster and harder. His movements speed up and our connection is sizzling. I tighten around him, squeezing him, demanding the release that only he can give me. I realize in that very moment, I love him, and it terrifies me. He looks amazing as his body stiffens. “Come with me my lumiére. Mon Dieu tu es belle,” his accent is heavy with lust and my release washes over me as he comes inside me. Our release shatters us both in unison. I scream his name so loud, I am sure the neighbors heard me. My body is shaking; Lucien holds me tight to his chest as my orgasm shudders through me.

  Lucien

  I stand there holding her for a moment. Not wanting to slip out of her body just yet. She feels too fucking good. This feels too fucking perfect. The way I need her is unnerving. She needs to ache for me the way I ache for her. Our two broken souls fusing into one. This girl will break me more than I ever thought possible. She’s the brightest light in my life, but she’s also my darkest desire.

  “Cassie…” I want to tell her I love her, but my fear silences me. It’s in her eyes. The love she has for me. You can’t love me, baby. I wish I didn’t love you, but I do. I want to be with you so much it’s ripping me to shreds. Once you know my secrets, there won’t ever be turning back. You will never be able to accept me. I know you won’t. God, my heart is in my throat. I love this girl. My eyes glaze over with unshed tears, shaking my head, I try to clear the thoughts that seem to invade my mind. I can’t love. I don’t love. It’s just lust. Four months of undeniably amazing lust. “Are you okay?”

  She nods. A shy smile curls her sweet lips. I unhook the cuffs, her arms fall around my neck and I sit her on the bed. Kneeling in front of her, unlocking her wrists, kissing each one softly.

  “Lucien,” she stares down at me with those big chocolate eyes, my resolve crumbles and all I want to do is love her. I want to let go completely, but there’s no way I can. Because losing her isn’t an option, but I know it will come, eventually. I am just delaying the inevitable.

  “What’s wrong baby?” My heart constricts. I hurt her. Fuck!

  “I—” The phone buzzes interrupting us. “Go, it’s okay. Seriously. Go. We can talk after. Go.” She smiles and I grab a pair of jeans from the chair. Once I tug them on, I glance at her again. I don’t know if she’s just putting on a brave face, but she shrugs nonchalantly.

  “Be right back okay?” Leaning down I plant a soft kiss on her nose and run down to the door.

  My phone stops ringing as soon as I get to it. With a quick glance at my missed calls, I find it’s only Jayce. I will call him later. My need to get back to Cassie grows as I walk back up the staircase. I find her still sitting on the bed. “Baby? Are you okay?” I kneel at her feet and my hands on her soft smooth thighs.

  “Lucien…” Her eyes shine when she meets my intense gaze. My heart is pounding in my chest. “You’re incredible.” I burst out laughing, letting out a breath I had no idea I was holding. The tension leaves my body and I grab her for a kiss.

  “You fucking scared me baby, don’t do that again. I thought I hurt you.”

  “Of course not. I love every… moment with you.” A blush spreads across her cheeks.

  “Moment?” Cocking my head to the side, I watch her intently. The intrigue and suspense of her explanation is pulling me in. The amusement in her eyes at my question is unmistakable, but she doesn’t respond.

  “Can we talk later? Like, when I am not sitting naked on the bed with you kneeling at my feet.”

  I chuckle. As I rise, I pull her into my arms, she always molds to my body like she was always meant to be there. I suppose she was. My lumiére. “Are you hungry? I can make us something to eat unless you want to go out?” Her eyes are shining and the blush on her cheeks make me smile. I put that there. She looks happy, content and satisfied.

  “Dinner in, with my man.” Her sassy tongue is back, and she strides out of the room, butt naked. Yes, she will be the death of me. I make my way downstairs to the kitchen and grab my phone.

  Jayce answers on the first ring. “Seriously, you need to stop with ignoring me!” He can be so fucking dramatic sometimes. I didn’t answer one call.

  “Yea, yea, what’s up?” I slip into the chair at the counter; somehow, I know why he’s calling.

  “Are you going on Sunday?”

  I lower my voice whispering into the phone. “Yea, you know that I have to be there.” With the phone between my shoulder and ear, I grab ingredients for dinner, and set it down on the counter. Tomorrow will be a royal fuck up. I know Sasha is trying her utmost to act like she’s not bothered about Cassie and me, since she’s got herself a boy toy, but something doesn’t feel right. Claudia on the other hand will be claws out, and I am ready for her.

  “I will be there with bells on. Can’t wait to see how it plays out.”

  “Oh yea, don’t you just love drama.” Jayce chuckles and I know that he is looking forward to a show down with me and Claudia. We haven’t seen each other in two months and this would be the first event that Cassie and I will attend as a couple. It’s official. I am in a relationship and I know that it will be an interesting evening.

  Chapter 13

  Cassandra

  “Lucien, come on!” I am standing at the door, we were supposed to leave fifteen minutes ago and I am impatient. He does this on purpose, to frustrate me. One of my pet peeves is being late and he loves to make sure that I am fuming by the time we get in the car.

  “Yes, sweetness. Don’t panic, we will be there on time.” He gives me a cheeky wink and a panty melting grin, dimples included and I fight off the urge to smile. I glare at him while chewing on my lip. Those green eyes fall to my lips and I can’t help poking my tongue out at him. He grabs the keys, and we make our way out to the garage.

  Lucien unlocks the Jeep and opens my door. I slip into the passenger seat and lock my seatbelt in place. Lucien slides into the driver’s seat and starts the engine. “I am sure there’s enough space for Kenna and all her suitcases. Well, let’s hope so.” He chuckles as he pulls out and down the driveway. I know her, she probably packed enough clothes to supply a small country. Lucien pulls out into the road and we make our way to LAX. “So, tell me about this charity of your mom’s?” I ask, curiously. His body tenses at my question and I frown. “Handsome? What’s wrong?”

  “Nothing, can we talk about it later?” I hate when he does this. He avoided questions about his past and his family constantly. This time, I can see it’s af
fected him more than usual.

  “Why?” I twist in my seat and face him. He glances at me and averts his eyes back to the highway.

  “Drop it, Cassie, we can talk later.” That’s the end of that, if I push it he will get angry. I am not in the mood for an argument when I am about to see my best friend. I turn to gaze out my window as he places his hand on my thigh. “Sweetness, please don’t be angry, it’s just going to take a lot out of me to explain it to you.”

  “Fine. It’s okay.” I don’t want to talk about it anymore. It’s a constant fight, like he’s pushing me away and that slices my heart. Since I figured out I love him, it hurts deeper than before. As soon as he pulls into the parking area, he finds a space close to the entrance. When he cuts the engine, we both sit in silence for a few moments.

  “Sweetness?” I shift and turn to him, those green eyes have my resistance vanishing. Those dimples will be the death of me. How can he do that with one look? I want to be angry, but I can’t. Not when he’s giving me a puppy dog stare. I give him a small smile.

  “You frustrate me!” I respond and a smirk curves his full lips.

  “Yes, but then I release the frustration.” He winks and I huff at him.

  “Not now!” He tugs me back and holds me in a tight embrace. I am no longer angry and he knows it. He does this all the time. The power he has over me is alarming. I find myself constantly at his mercy. It’s been a month since I submitted to him. I am still learning, and Lucien loves to train me. The dominance he has over me is incredible. I never thought I would be the kind of girl that was a submissive, letting her Dom do all sorts to her, but I love it.

  “Come on, sweetness, we have ten minutes.” His voice is rough and his hand snakes into the waistband of my shorts. I am so glad that the front of the car is facing a wall.

  “What are you doing?” I gasp as his fingers tease into my panties. He doesn’t answer me, instead he slips his index finger over my clit, stroking my slick folds.