Broken by Desire

by Dani René

  Then her words come out in a rush. “The truck driver lost control as he rounded the corner. My mother… She wanted to see me, she was in the car too. The car rolled.” Cassie took a harsh deep breath, while tears flowed down her cheeks. My heart was officially in shattered pieces. She didn’t just lose one, but two parents, and the man she loved. “They were taken to the hospital. They didn’t make it. All three of them. I killed them. It was my fault. I was depressed for so long. To leave my apartment was difficult, so I used to sit in a corner of my bedroom just staring into nothing. Kenna left me for a while, but after two weeks, she basically slapped me into shape. She took me to Dr. Kessel, a therapist in New York. I was… They put me… I was…” Her voice came in short spurts, and I realized it was just to get it all out. “I was admitted, I mean, I spent 6 months in an institution. I am so fucked up. So broken. Nothing can ever make me whole again.” She looked up at me expecting pity, but all I gave her was love. It overwhelmed her, I could tell from the expression on her face. Her tears fell, but I didn’t make a move to touch her. She needed to tell me when she was ready. How could she even want me? She has been through so much. She’s so strong and I am a fuck up. “I have these horrible attacks from time to time. I can’t breathe, it hits me like a freight train and all I can do is sit in a corner. They say if you love someone too much the universe takes them from you. Maybe that was my problem. I loved them too much. I wasn’t meant to be happy. I was just meant to be like this.” She gestures to her face. “How can you want me? I was in a mental institution?”

  Shock ran through my body, I was quiet, trying to figure out how to reply to that. How the fuck can she think that? I love her more now than I did twenty minutes ago. She’s incredible. I waited for her to finish, but then she stood. She left me on the sofa. I took a deep breath and followed her. In the kitchen I watched her pour a large glass of water. She gulped it down and I am sure she was exhausted, dehydrated from the amount of tears she cried. I reached out for her and she started at my touch. Then I turned her around and cupped her face in my hands. Her face was beautiful, even with the tears, and puffy red eyes. She was perfect. So many emotions were tumbling through me that I wasn’t sure which one to hold onto. I decided on the one where I love this girl with everything I am.

  “You’re an amazing strong woman. You’ve been through so much and you’re still here. There are no words to explain how much I love you. Let me help fix you? We’re here together, we fit like pieces of a puzzle Cassie, I want to take care of you forever. Your past is gone; I don’t care where you’ve been. Only where you’re going. Let me? Please? I want to make your future better than your past.” I pull her into my embrace and she let me hold her. Pain, relief, and love washes over me. She cried then, and I let her.

  Moments later, I cup her face in my hands, sealing her mouth with mine in a tender kiss, her body visibly calms. “There is never a time that you should be scared to tell me anything. You’re my light, the strongest, most beautiful light I have ever seen. You blind me with your strength and smile.” I scoop her up and carry her to the master suite. Laying her down, in my bed, where she’s meant to be. I climb in behind her and hold her to my chest. She cried some more. She sobbed, like girls do for those sappy movies they watch. All the while, I hold her. As the sobs calm and her breathing became even, I notice she’d fallen asleep with my arm around her. She looked incredible and there was nowhere else I would have her. My eyes fell closed then, and I had the best sleep I had in a week.

  Chapter 17

  Cassandra

  The heat of the sun streams through the windows. When I open my eyes, I take in the beautiful view from the bed. “Good morning beautiful,” I roll over to meet green eyes peering at me.

  “Hi. I feel like a bus ran over me.” My voice is croaky, and he smiles.

  “You’re cute.” I groan, I don’t feel cute at all. Last night was like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders when I told him about my past. The fact that he’s still here is not lost on me. I can’t believe he stayed. He now has a girlfriend with a crazy past. There was a small detail that I left out. I shouldn’t have, but I couldn’t bring myself to tell him. Not yet, we needed to get over the initial shock of everything. Or maybe he would never need to learn the ugly secret that has left me broken for so long. After his confession, this would probably hurt him way too much.

  “Thank you for your honesty and letting me in Cassie, I love you.” He pressed a kiss on the tip of my nose. Guilt rose in my chest. I should just tell him now. He will never forgive you. Just let it go.

  “I love you too, Lucien. I need to call Kenna. She’s probably worried.” My phone has been off all night, I grab it and turn it on. There are a few messages and 2 missed calls. One is from Dr. Kessel. I will listen to her voice message later. The past is the last thing I want to think about right now. I open my messages and hit reply to Kenna’s latest one.

  "Yes, I have an idea. There’s somewhere I want to take you today. You will love it. The arrangements have to be made first." Lucien rolls out of bed and I immediately miss his warmth. My gaze rakes in his naked toned body, the smooth tanned skin has me aching again. I can’t help wanting him all the time. As soon as he’s disappeared into the bathroom, I turn my attention back to my phone, and type out a reply to Kenna.

  *Hey babe. All okay. We spoke. Not the whole story, but most of it. See you later. xo*

  I push the covers down and get up. My clothes are scattered all over the room, but I find Lucien’s discarded black T-shirt and tug it on. With the patio door open I step outside. My gaze falls on the Hollywood sign in the distance. There was something about being in this city, it did something, making you believe anything is possible. I realized as I stood there that I was here with Lucien. Last night was draining, and I was tired, but he didn’t ask me to leave.

  Moments later I hear Lucien. “Everything is ready. Our appointment is at 11 am.” When I turn to face him, there is a mischievous glint in his eyes.

  “Appointment?” I frown at him; he knows I hate surprises. He nods and winks at me. With a smirk, he presses his index finger and thumb together, ‘zipping’ his lips. Without thinking I roll my eyes at his playfulness. He has his moments where he frustrates me, but I secretly love it.

  “Ms. Winters, I do not appreciate you rolling your eyes at me. I will bend you over right here on the patio and spank you.” His words sending delicious tingles down my spine. That sounded like fun. I could definitely enjoy that. Would love to have his hands on my ass right now. It would turn him on spanking me. We needed some sex! Yes!

  “Oh really? Would Mr. Verán enjoy that?” My question is soft; my voice is raspy. I used the sexiest voice I could muster. His eyes darkened, and I knew he wanted to take me. My nipples harden in the flimsy cotton material of the top. His eyes flit to my breasts and a devilish smirk curled his sensual lips.

  “Ms. Winters, I don’t recommend you start something now.” His voice was dark and seductive. My core pulses in anticipation. I turn and lean against the railing of the balcony. My eyes fall to the bulge in the front of his sweats. It’s an obvious sign of how turned on he is. His beautifully tanned torso is rock solid, the smooth dips of his abs and V muscles have me squirming.

  “Why not, Mr. Verán? Can you not finish it?” My cheekiness earns me a cocky smile. The playful act of defiance has my stomach in knots of anticipation. I stare into his dark green eyes that are filled with a dark hunger I yearn for. Without another word, he stalks to me and grips my shoulders.

  “Let me finish this for you. Right here.” His eyes flicker to the patio where we’re standing and a gasp escapes my lips. He easily spins my around. With a hand on my back he bends me over. My grip on the railing is tight because this will be hard. The first swat tingles on my ass and sends shivers over my skin. Another swat has me mewling for more. “Hold on tight, baby. Because you are going to get fucked. Very hard.” His voice at my ear is low, and deliciously dark. I clutch the wood and giv
e a slight nod. By this stage words are no longer possible.

  My body is on fire. I feel him behind me. The tip of his erection pressing against my wet heat. I push back trying to force him inside me, but he chuckles. With a small step back he moves away, leaving me whimpering. The heat of his chest is on my back as he reaches around me, his fingers strum my clit and my knees almost give way. His expert touch sending me to the edge as soon as I am about to find the release I need he stops.

  “Now, Ms. Winters, you rolled your eyes at me didn’t you?” I nod. “That deserves punishment, and I will give it to you. Do you understand me?” I nod. “Good girl.” His voice a deep growl. The heat of his breath fans over my ear, his teeth nibble the sensitive lobe, sending shock waves through me. “Tell me if you need me to stop. Okay?” I nod again.

  He tugs my panties down, allowing me to step out of them. His foot nudges mine further apart. “I love when you’re open and ready for me,” he grunts. He strokes my slick folds again, making me moan. I mumble his name as the heat pools at my core. Again, as I feel my orgasm near, he stops. I let out a huff. “But, you rolled your eyes at me, little kitty. This is your punishment.” He whispers. Stepping back, he lifts his hand, a sharp sting on my ass causes me to lift onto my toes. Left, then the right and then the center. Again, and again. My knees were wobbling, and my white knuckle grip is painful, but I don’t care. I was so turned on that when Lucien’s fingers stroked me again I was dripping down my inner thighs. “My sweet, sexy, wet tigress. Purr for me.”

  His breath on my core, is incredible, and my legs are trembling. I try to push back against him, but he’s just out of reach. His tongue lightly laps at my inner thighs. “You taste so fucking good.”

  Suddenly he drives two fingers inside me, my orgasm shatters through my body and I tighten around his fingers. A low growl rumbles in my ears, somewhere through the haze of desire sweeping through my mind. As I am trying to catch my breath, his cock presses against my entrance. “Hold tight naughty girl. I am taking you hard and fast.” He hisses in my ear, his tongue licking the shell. His lips leave feather soft kisses down my neck, leaving goose bumps in their wake. His teeth graze my shoulder as he slams into me fast and deep. My cry is loud and harsh. I don’t care if the whole of LA just heard me, my lust is barreling through me. “That’s my girl. So fucking tight around me. Take me lumiére, fucking take my cock.”

  He pulls almost all the way out and drives back in to the hilt. Reaching around me his fingers flick over my hard clit, stroking me, faster and faster. “You’re so fucking tight; my cock loves being inside you, baby.” He thrusts into me relentlessly, almost violently. My arms are shaking at the intensity of our movements. He teases my rock hard nipples, with his other hand, sending waves of pleasure skittering over my skin. My head drops down, I can’t hold myself any longer, I moan his name repeatedly.

  A second orgasm building again, tightening my pussy around his cock. “My lumiére.” His voice hoarse with desire. His hand moves from my breasts and he grips my neck tight as he plunges into me. My release so close, when I clench around him, my body tenses. The connection we have isn’t only physical, its emotional, deep in my heart and soul.

  My eyes are shut so tight I see stars, fireworks. Nothing exists, but us in that moment. “Come sweetness, give it all to me.” His order sending me crashing over the edge as I nosedive into oblivion. My body shaking uncontrollably as his release fills me. “My lumiére!” As soon as he growls in my ear, my legs give way, but Lucien holds me up against him. His hot breath still in my ear, sending shudders over my skin. “Fuck. That was…”

  I nod. Unable to speak. As I come down from the euphoric high, I remember we’re still out on the patio. The neighbors must have heard that. Luckily, nobody can see us from here. Lucien slips from me and scoops me up. Back inside, he places me on the bed. “Are you okay, baby?” I nod and smile.

  “Yes, that was incredible. Go shower, I can’t move right now.” With a chuckle, he plants a soft kiss on my lips and walks off into the bathroom. My body is still shaky and all I can do is giggle.

  Lucien

  My mind is on the amazing sex we just had on the patio, no woman has made me lose control so much. The way her body trembles under me, and her pussy tightens around my cock. The feel of her is indescribable. As I step out of the shower, I grab a towel and make my way into the bedroom. She’s already showered, dressed, and ready to go. The excitement is evident on her face. “Please tell me where we’re going?” She’s been asking me that all morning.

  “Baby, if I tell you it won’t be a surprise.” I grab my jeans and a T-shirt from my walk-in closet. Her voice is muffled in reply, but her complaints don’t go unnoticed. When I walk back into the bedroom, she’s sitting on the bed with the sexiest pout I have ever seen. Her lips look so damn fuckable. I would love to slide my cock between them. With her warm wet mouth swallowing me. Fuck! I need to get ready or we will never leave.

  I raise an eyebrow at her and she shrugs. “Fine, I am waiting downstairs.” As she passes me, I swat her pert little ass, and I am rewarded with a sexy yelp. I chuckle at her.

  “Why? Am I distracting you with my naked body?” As I pull my boxer briefs up, she takes a backward glance and gives me a cheeky wink. That girl is going to be the death of me. I get dressed as quickly as humanly possible. Once I am downstairs, I find her sitting on the sofa, quietly flipping through channels on the flat screen. “Are you ready?” Turning the television off, she bounds from the sofa and stands at the door, waiting patiently.

  In the garage I unlock the Aston. Her gaze cuts to me with awe when I click a button and the roof of the car folds and gets tucked away in the trunk. “Wow. Bringing out the big guns today are we?” She gives me a cocky smile, with her hands on her hips.

  “I am just full of surprises baby; you should know that by now. Trust me, there’s only one gun you need to worry about.” A blush spreads across her cheeks as open the door for her.

  “Lucien!” With a chuckle, I watch her slide into the leather seat. Her shorts ride up her thighs and I can’t help craving to be between them. This girl has come into my life, broken down every wall, shattered every belief I had about love. Once I am in the drivers’ seat, I start the engine and pull out onto the road. “She sounds almost as good as you do when you’re purring.”

  A cheeky wink gets me a beautiful laugh from her. “Oh I purr?” I nod. “Mmm…” She doesn’t reply, but places a hand on my thigh, stroking from my knee, stopping just short of my crotch.

  “Cass, I need to concentrate on driving.” She nods, flashing me a naughty smile.

  “I realize that; I didn’t do anything. Did I?” Once I change lanes, I cut a quick glance at her. Those big puppy dog eyes will be the death of me.

  “No, you didn’t just make my cock hard, and you didn’t make me think of fucking you on the hood of my million dollar Aston Martin. No, definitely not.” Her breathing hitches and I smile. So beautifully responsive for me. We take the scenic route, and just before we get to our destination, I pull over and blindfold Cassie. Once I am happy she can’t see, I pull out onto the road and race down to the venue. The security gives me the go ahead and I find the parking number allotted to me. I lean towards her, and tug on the blindfold. “We’re here.”

  “Are we playing in the car? Is that the big surprise?” Her giggle is soft, and she chews her plump bottom lip. She’s nervous. Slowly stroking her bare thigh, using my thumb, I swipe it over the crotch of her shorts. A small moan escapes her lips and her hips buck towards me instinctively.

  “Maybe we are. How would you feel about that?” I am teasing her, trying to sound as serious as possible.

  “Lucien, I am all for playing games, but what are you doing? Where are we?” I sit back and chuckle. Her body relaxes and I unlock the doors.

  “We’re at your surprise.” I get out, run around the car and open the door for her. Helping her out, I plant a soft kiss on her lips. When I see my contact coming up
to greet us. “Come on darling, hold my hand.” I hope she will enjoy this. I give him a quick nod and lead Cassie around to his office. He’s taking us on a tour, so he needs to explain the rules and ask Cassie what she would like to see.

  Cassandra

  We spent the day at Universal Studios, Lucien got us an exclusive private tour. It was so exciting seeing where the shows were shot and running into some of the actors. The weather was wonderful, the day definitely lifted my spirits. I glance at the time; it was only 3 pm by the time we had finished the tour. “You ready for our late lunch sweetness?” I smiled and nodded.

  He looked so handsome in his white tank and blue ripped jeans. He was wearing his Aviators, but his eyes were twinkling behind them, he laces his fingers through mine, we stroll to the car. “I am, where are we going for lunch?” Lucien opens my door; I slide into the plush leather seat.

  “You should know by now, it’s a surprise.” He chuckles when I sulk. Once he’s in the driver’s seat, the engine purrs to life and he pulls out onto the road.

  “You’re adorable when you pout.” He glances over at me and gives me a smile.

  We’re interrupted by Lucien’s phone ringing on the hands-free holder. He presses the answer button, my skin prickles at his step-mother’s voice. “Lucien, darling. Your father has taken ill, and he requires you at the house immediately.” I glance over at Lucien and his face has drained of color. I place a hand on his thigh and give it a squeeze.

  “What? Where is he?”

  “He’s here, the physician has just left. Get here as quickly as you can.” The line goes dead.