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Never Tied Down (The Never Duet #2)

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by Anie Michaels


  But I’ll find you there, too.

  Love,

  Riot

  Shit.

  I put the paper down, closing my eyes and leaning my head back to face the ceiling. If I was being really honest with myself, I knew this would happen. I knew coming to LA meant seeing Riot. I didn’t, however, think that he’d contact me in quite that manner. It was just like him though, putting my needs first and giving me an out. Kind of. He told me I could find another place to go, to not come back to that coffee shop, but that he’d eventually find me and make it happen.

  Somewhere in the back of my mind I knew that all along he’d just been biding his time.

  That sent a shiver through me.

  He couldn’t be dissuaded. He could be put off, but only until he was done waiting. I knew that.

  I pulled out my phone, and in just moments I heard Megan’s voice on the other end.

  “Kal, what’s up, lady?”

  “I got a note from Riot.”

  “What?” she asked, sounding genuinely shocked. “What did it say?”

  “Basically, it says that he knows I’m here, and that he wants to talk to me, but he’ll give me more time if I need it.”

  I expected at least something from Megan; she was rarely quiet. But all I got was thick silence.

  “Meg? You there?”

  “I think you should talk to him.” Her words were firm, but also hesitant. She knew her opinion was going to possibly rub me the wrong way.

  I sighed. “I kind of figured you were going to say that.”

  “Look at it this way, you might never be ready to talk to him. You might never feel ready. But he will wait forever. He will hang on to the hope of you until he breathes his last breath. And that’s not fair to him. So, if you’re not planning on talking to him, trying to work things out, at least tell him that much. Let him off the hook.”

  The thought of Riot waiting for me, silently watching me, standing by until he thought I was ready for him, made something clamp tight around my heart. The thought of telling him to move on, telling him I’d never be his again, well, day after day that thought caused me pain.

  “I don’t know if I’m ready to talk to him yet.”

  “Do you think you’ll be ready soon?”

  I shrugged then said, “Maybe.”

  “Maybe,” she said with emphasis, “Riot is the one thing you need to move on completely.”

  “I don’t know if you’re right,” I said slowly. “But I’m also not sure that you’re wrong.”

  “When you see him, you’ll know.”

  “You think?” I was hopeful. Even though I was unsure about seeing him, after months of being in the proverbial dark it would be nice to feel sure of something. Of anything.

  “Is what you’re doing now working? Are you thinking of him any less? Is avoiding him, even though you’re in the same town, moving you forward? Listen,” she said, her voice suddenly softer. “You don’t have to jump back into a relationship with him. You don’t have to do anything you’re not ready for. But seeing him, talking to him, perhaps even talking about Marcus, that might help you, sweetie.”

  “Okay,” I said, my voice matching her softness. “You’re probably right.”

  “I usually am,” she replied, her voice conveying the smile I knew was on her face.

  “Your husband’s a saint,” I said, now laughing. “I don’t know how he puts up with you.”

  “He totally is,” she agreed. Then she sighed. “Patrick knows what he’s got, and he knows he’s got it good. And I feel lucky to have him too. That doesn’t mean I’m wrong any less.”

  “I want what you have.” My voice was suddenly a whisper. “I’ve wanted it for so long, Megs. I’ve just told myself it wasn’t possible, that it would end badly, that I would hold someone else down and then they’d leave, and I’d be even more broken than I was when I started.”

  “Sweetie, I’m almost positive that Riot will give you whatever you want, but not if you keep hiding from him.” Then, as she had a tendency to do, she lightened the mood. “I only hide from Patrick when there’s some sort of sexual game going on, and even then I don’t hide well enough for him to not find me.”

  I laughed, even as an errant tear slid down my face.

  “What if I just end up pushing him away again?”

  Megan let out a loud laugh. “Honey, you let Riot back in, there’s no way he’s going to let you push him away again. Not out of fear. Trust me, Kals. Just talk to him.”

  “Okay,” I said, breathing the word out, hoping to push out some of the fear with it. “How is life in Portland?” I asked, trying to move the conversation away from me and the myriad of issues she and Ella were constantly helping me cope with.

  “Oh, you know, same old. It’s really rainy here, but that’s no surprise. Getting colder. What are your plans for Thanksgiving?”

  “I don’t have any. I was just going to stay here, get some Chinese food.”

  “Do you get time off?”

  “Yeah, I’m off Wednesday through Sunday.”

  “You should come to Lincoln City. Ella and Porter are hosting Thanksgiving at their beach house.”

  The last time I’d been in that house I’d slept with Riot. I’d fallen in love with him in that house. It would be torture to be there again if I didn’t figure my life out.

  “Maybe, I’ll see what I can work out.”

  “Okay, well, we all want to see you.”

  I smiled because I knew she was being sincere. “I know, Megs. I want to see you guys too. I’ll try to make it work.”

  “Okay. I’ve got to get back to the store now, Kal. Do you think you’re gonna talk to Riot?”

  “Yeah,” I said softly.

  “Good. Call me if you need me after.”

  “Will do.”

  “Love you, Kal.”

  “Bye, Megs.”

  It took me three days to work up the nerve to go back to the Coffee Bean I’d found the note in. I was a nervous wreck. I spent an inordinate amount of time picking the perfect outfit, I planned what I was going to say to him, and then I marched into the coffee shop, sat down, and I waited. I waited and I waited, but he never showed. Well, at least not in the two hours I sat there.

  It hadn’t occurred to me that he wouldn’t come. He said if I was there, he’d find me. But then I started panicking. Perhaps he’d come the past three days, waited for me, but then assumed I wasn’t coming back. Perhaps he thought I’d chosen to stay away, to avoid him. Suddenly, the apprehension I had about seeing him turned into fear that I would never see him again.

  I grabbed my bag and headed for the door, walking with determination to the soundstage I knew he worked on. I opened the door and stalked down the hallways, looking frantically for Riot. I saw quite a few people, but none of them were the tall, dark-headed, and devastatingly handsome man I was looking for. I turned another corner and collided with a woman.

  We both stumbled backward violently, and had I not fallen against the wall, I would have hit the floor.

  “I’m so sorry,” I said immediately. “Are you all right?” I righted myself and saw the other woman doing the same.

  “I’m fine, are you okay?” she asked, not unkindly.

  “Yeah. I’m sorry. I was just looking for someone.”

  She straightened her blouse and adjusted the pencil behind her ear, gripping her clipboard to her chest. “Maybe I can help. Who are you looking for?”

  “Um, Riot Bentley. I think he works on this lot.”

  “He does. Are you Kalli?”

  My chin came back in surprise. “How do you know my name?”

  “Lucky guess,” she said quickly, but then grabbed my elbow and started leading me down the hallway. I followed her through the maze of the soundstage. It looked similar to the lot I worked on, but there were differences. Different pictures hung on the walls, different people roamed the halls, different offices with different people. She led me on set and my mouth gaped a little
. Even though I was in the business, even though I’d worked on movies, television, music videos, I never got tired of seeing a set in person. Something about a soundstage with the lights off, set unlit, almost like a page in a book not being read, gave me goose bumps.

  “He’s got to be on set in a few minutes, but I’ll see if I can track him down.”

  “Um, okay. I don’t want to get him in trouble. I can come back later.”

  “It’s fine,” she said, leading me back into a hallway, then turning into the first door on the left. Once inside I was overcome by his scent. It had to be his dressing room. It was almost annoying that my nose could identify him. It smelled spicy and clean, warm. Like Riot. I realized that, if given the opportunity, I could probably identify his smell in a blind nose test, and that was pitiful. “Wait here. I’ll go find him.”

  “Wait, no, it’s okay,” I said to vapor as she disappeared down the hallway, walking faster than I thought was necessary, with purpose. I took a moment and slowly turned, looking around the room, trying to take it in. My eyes drifted from the couch against a wall to the brightly lit vanity, to the old-school coatrack with a familiar leather jacket draped over it. I knew if I walked to the coatrack I would not be able to keep myself from burying my face in his coat. So I didn’t move.

  I saw a pair of Converse sitting on the floor under the vanity and I smiled, thinking about how I loved him in those shoes. He wore them almost ironically. He wasn’t trying to be a hipster. I knew he was trying to put off more of a rebel vibe, but he’d fallen victim to the hipster movement. He wore them before it was cool.

  I heard loud, running footsteps coming down the hall, and my head snapped to face the doorway. When Riot appeared, hands braced against the doorframe, breathing heavily, a gorgeous and familiar smile across his face, my heart started beating triple-time.

  “You’re here,” he said, panting.

  I nodded, stuck standing still in the middle of his dressing room. My eyes took a moment to travel up and down him, taking stock of him, and my heart wondered if he was real, if he was truly just standing feet away. If my heart were in charge, my arms would be around his shoulders, my face buried in his neck. But my brain was currently in charge, so my eyes were the only part of me allowed to move.

  His hair was still dark, styled a little differently, shorter on the sides but longer on top. He wore a black fitted t-shirt, tight in all the right places, all of which my eyes found. He had on faded jeans with a police badge clipped to the belt. Obviously, he was in costume.

  “Hi,” I said when my eyes were finally done taking him in. I couldn’t move, couldn’t find the way to make my brain communicate with my body, which was probably good. I wanted to run to him, run my hands over him, press myself into him, and take everything from him I’d been missing for so long.

  “Hey,” he said with a lopsided grin. “You get my note?”

  “Yeah,” I said, a smile finally sprouting, taking root, lighting me up.

  “Good.”

  I startled when I heard, “Riot Bentley, Leah McCann, call to set B, three minutes.”

  “Shit,” he murmured, but then he moved and was right in front of me, hands on either side of my neck. “I’ve got to go. I’m filming a scene. Can you wait? It might be a while.”

  I looked at the clock above the door and determined I had nowhere to be. I was technically done for the day and didn’t need to be in the studio. I had my laptop and I could work in his dressing room.

  “I can wait.” His eyes lit up at my words and then they drifted down to my lips. My breath caught and his hands tightened just slightly, making my eyelids flutter. He couldn’t kiss me right now; it was too soon. But knowing he was thinking about it, well, that was amazing. “Can I work here? Do you mind?”

  “No,” he said, giving me one last gentle squeeze then moving away. “Make yourself at home. Do you need anything?”

  I needed so much. But I managed a simple, “No, I’m good.”

  “I’ll be back as soon as I can.”

  “I’ll be here.”

  He gave me one last smile and then turned and left.

  “Holy crap,” I mumbled to myself, willing my heart to stop beating so quickly. I rubbed my hands together, realizing they were clammy. He made me nervous. God, he looked good. Even better than I remembered, and I had a damn good memory. I turned and sat on the couch, hardly stopping my body from flopping down, my bag falling next to me. My head leaned back and I was looking at the ceiling, wondering if I’d made the right decision. My heart really wanted to see Riot—it had quite nearly leapt right out of my chest at just the sight of him. But my mind, now that the image of him was gone from right in front of me, was warring with my heart.

  I took out my phone and sent a text to Ella.

  **I’m in Riot’s dressing room. **

  I bit my bottom lip, running it through my teeth, waiting for her reply. Just as I knew it would, her reply came in just seconds.

  **What?! What happened? Are you horizontal?**

  **No, I’m not horizontal. I just worked up enough nerve to see him, so I went and found him. But he’s working, so I’m waiting in his dressing room. **

  **And then what? **

  **I don’t know. I’m hoping you can convince me to stay. The longer I sit here by myself, the stronger the urge to run gets. **

  **Don’t you dare run, Kalli. No more running. Give him a chance. You both deserve it. **

  I sighed because I knew she was right. I also grinned because I knew I could count on her to help alleviate some of the uncertainty. So, instead of stewing and worrying about what might come when he walked through that door again, I pulled out my laptop and started working. I needed something really specific for a scene we would be shooting in a few weeks, and I hadn’t managed to find it yet, so I was on the hunt.

  Forty-five minutes later, I looked up from my screen when I heard footsteps enter.

  There he was. Just as beautiful as he’d been earlier that day, still smiling.

  “I was worried you’d leave.”

  “I almost did,” I admitted, smiling. “Ella talked me down, told me to stay.”

  “I always liked her,” he said softly.

  “I think the feeling is mutual.”

  “Have you had dinner yet? Can I take you?”

  I felt relief at his words. I needed to get out of this small confined space. A public dinner was a good idea.

  “That sounds great.”

  He came farther into the room and closed the door behind him, then walked to his armoire and before I realized what was happening, he’d pulled his t-shirt up and over his head and I was left looking at the incredibly muscled back I could so vividly remember running my hands over. My mouth gaped and my eyes worked quickly to take him all in before the sight was taken from me. Just as quickly as he’d removed his shirt, he pulled another one on, and I made a silent plea to the ex-boyfriend gods that he’d leave his pants on. Thankfully, he bent and slipped off his shoes, exchanging them for the Converse I’d seen on the floor earlier, then removed his fake badge and left it on the counter of his vanity. Then he turned to me.

  “Ready?”

  “Sure,” I said, closing the lid to my laptop and shoving it in my bag. I stood and followed him out of the building, walking straight to his truck. He opened the door for me and I smiled at him as I slid in, letting him close the door behind me. I took a deep breath as he rounded the bed, trying to calm my nerves.

  Once it was started and we were on the move, I was able to relax a little.

  “So, you got my note.” He said it like a statement, only the tone of his voice indicating he wanted me to elaborate.

  “I did. A few days ago.”

  “And yet you haven’t been there since.” He didn’t sound angry, but maybe a little disappointed.

  “I’d kind of been lying to myself since I moved here. I told myself that I probably wouldn’t see you, and if by chance I did, I would be able to handle it.” I
saw his head turn toward me out of the corner of my eye, but couldn’t bring myself to stare into his eyes while so close to him. Baby steps.

  “So, you came and found me?”

  “No. Well, yes, I guess so. I spent the last three days working up enough nerve to sit at that coffee shop and wait for you, and when you never showed I was a little pissed. So I went on a mission. Luckily, you weren’t hard to find.”

  “Erin, the girl you bumped into with the clipboard? She helped me find out where you were working. You happened to literally run into the only person in the world who knew I was looking for you.”

  “You never came. To the coffee shop, I mean.”

  “I did,” he said, his head turning to me once again, and that time I couldn’t resist, so I turned to look at him as well. “I went there all three days, but you weren’t there. No note in return. Nothing. But I hadn’t given up. I just got caught at work shooting that scene. If I weren’t in this truck with you right now, I’d be sitting in that coffee shop waiting for you. I’d have waited there forever if there was still hope you’d show up.”

  With his gaze darting between me and the road, I never got a clear look, but I knew his eyes had softened the way his voice did. The softness I heard there only went further to melting me on the inside.

  A breathy, “Oh,” was all I could manage in return.

  “We’ll talk about it at dinner.”

  “Okay,” I said. Then he turned his head again and gave me that brilliant smile and my nerves came down another notch.

  A few minutes later he pulled into a parking lot and made sure I knew to stay in my seat so he could open my door. I smiled as I climbed out, and then laughed when I saw his choice of restaurant.

  “Pizza? What are you? Twelve?” I laughed and smiled at him, my belly flipping when I heard him laugh along with me.

  “What can I say? I haven’t gotten the lay of the land here in LA completely, but I do know this place has excellent pizza and beer.”

  “Well, in that case….” I laughed.

  He opened the door for me and when we were led to our table he scooted in my chair. I wasn’t surprised; Riot had always been rather chivalrous and thoughtful. But it also made me feel slightly uneasy. It was feeling too much like a date and I wasn’t sure what was happening. Then suddenly, Riot Bentley was sitting across from me, smiling, and I didn’t know if I’d be able to stay away from him any longer.

 

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