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The Killing Fields

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by Ryan Schow


  Marcus gives us all a cursory glance, pauses, then says, “I like to think of it as us going shopping.”

  “Where?” Bailey asks, more cautious. “I mean, how will you know it’s safe?”

  “Again, we make that assessment when we land.”

  “And then?” I ask.

  “First we’re going car shopping, then we’re shopping for guns, ammo, knives. When we have that, we’re going grocery shopping.”

  “What’s on the grocery list?” Quentin asks.

  “Perishables, first. Fruits, veggies, stuff like that because once they’re gone, we’ll be on a steady diet of non-perishables. Basically all the unhealthy crap. We’ll be looking for canned goods, packaged goods, anything we can get in bulk like beans, rice, tortillas.”

  “What if we encounter other shoppers who aren’t so nice?” I ask.

  “Great question, Nick. That’s why we have our guns, our ammo and our knives.”

  “So you don’t mind shooting someone over a can a beans?” Bailey asks.

  “I don’t if they want to shoot me first. But guns are reasons to stay away from us. Shooting someone else is a way to live, to protect the group. It’s not a first case scenario. Think of using them as a last case scenario.”

  “Let’s say I want to add someone to the group,” Quentin gently suggests, joining our threesome.

  “No,” Marcus replies, curt.

  “If we have to repopulate the species,” Quentin says, more urgent now, like he’s terrified of hearing Marcus tell him no once more, “Bailey will start with you two—”

  “Are you kidding me?” Bailey snaps, offended.

  Marcus and I merely shake our heads. This only serves to frustrate Marcus further, but me? I’m thinking Quentin might be right.

  “Look, I’m not thinking about sex or anything, not with the end of the world happening a mile away, but there will come a point in time…”

  “No more people,” Marcus echoes.

  “Really?” Nick asks. “Is no one going to talk about the elephant in the room?”

  “I’m not an elephant,” Bailey says.

  “More people means more hands to help,” I explain.

  “And more mouths to feed,” Marcus counters. “Plus, more targets, more chances at betrayal, more reasons for internal strife.”

  “Let’s not mince words, gentleman,” Quentin says. “Bailey is hot as hell and we’re all men, which means one of you gets her and I’m going to need an outlet if she’s not one.”

  Bailey slaps at Quentin, but he ducks fast, avoiding the slap.

  “What, you’re pissed off because we’ve got human nature to contend with? Seriously, stop thinking about just yourself already.”

  “Anyone ever tell you your timing is for shit?” she barks.

  “All the time. I’m just saying, out here in the ocean, there are no people, but if a damsel in distress needs a place to stay and we sort of hit it off—”

  “We’re about to climb into the mouth of hell,” Marcus growls. “We’re going in there armed and ready to kill to survive. I’m not sure there’ll be time for you to make a love connection, let alone speed date your way into some girl’s panties.”

  “Come tell me that when she picks him,” Quentin says to Marcus while casting a glance my way.

  Ignoring him, Marcus says, “Obviously Quentin won’t get a gun. Nick, can you handle yourself with a weapon? We discussed this already, right?”

  “We did, and yes I can.”

  “Shotgun or .357?”

  “This is ridiculous,” Quentin protests, but no one’s listening.

  “Shotgun,” I say.

  “Any last questions from everyone but Quentin?” When no one says anything, Marcus says, “Then it’s settled.”

  “I have a question,” Bailey says. Marcus raises an eyebrow. “Can I go clothes shopping?”

  “If the home we raid has ladies garments that fit your body, then yes, otherwise, it’s too risky being exposed for too long.”

  “Won’t we be raiding multiple homes?” I ask. “I mean, if this thing carries out, and we have the time and the space to safely ‘shop,’ then shouldn’t we shop deep?”

  “Yeah,” Bailey says. “What he’s saying.”

  Turning back to the waters ahead, and to the shoreline, Marcus says, “Let’s pray we’re that lucky.”

  Bailey heads down to the main deck’s bow, plops down sideways on the gray cushions and tilts her head back against the soft ocean breeze.

  I see where she’s at, but I don’t feel much like company because I can’t stop worrying about Indigo, or my own well being for that matter. We’re about to go into a war zone on a daylight breaking and entering mission in a city that’s most likely been devastated beyond measure. If I see the dead, I know it’ll have me thinking of Indigo, and even Margot, my ex-wife, a woman who doesn’t deserve a single ounce of my concern after the bomb she dropped on our family.

  Downstairs, I head to my stateroom, kick off my shoes and lie down. Who knows how long it’ll take to get to Newport Beach? Not long, most likely, but Marcus can scout it out while I grab a quick power nap, and then I’ll be ready to go.

  So I’m lying on my bed, collecting my thoughts and mentally preparing for what we are about to head into when the door opens and Bailey walks in.

  She doesn’t say anything, or even apologize for intruding, she just walks in and flops down on the twin-sized bed across from me.

  Setting aside my jumbled thoughts, I look over at her thinking her manners have something to be desired. Then again, it’s been awhile since I’ve shared the casual company of a woman, and I guess this is as good a time as any.

  “Was your room too big?” I ask, because she’s got the master and my room is a closet with two beds stuffed inside.

  “Too lonely,” she says.

  My eyes drift to the ceiling where they sit until she speaks again.

  “I used to think that I could do alright being alone. And Lord knows our job can be lonely at times, even where there are dozens of people around you. But now that things are…changing, it seems like maybe being alone isn’t so great a thing.”

  “At least you’ve got Marcus and Quentin.”

  She rolls on her side, props her head on her hand and looks at me. I meet her eyes. Show her nothing: no interest, no openness, no signs of attraction.

  “Marcus is too intense, Quentin is too…nerdy, but you’re…well, you’re you.”

  “Good news is, I’ve always been me,” I say, deadpan, wondering where any of this is going.

  “Do you have someone in your life?”

  “Sure.”

  “I mean a partner?”

  “A business partner?” I ask, being coy.

  “No, dummy. A life partner. Someone you pay bills with, live with, do it with.”

  “I’m a single parent.”

  “By choice?”

  “Everything is choice,” I say, even though with what happened to me and Indigo, neither of us really had a choice. Unless you consider cutting my wife and Indigo’s mother off a choice, and then yes, technically, we had a choice.

  The way I’m looking at her, pretending to be so dispassionate, so uninterested, I’m thinking a woman like Bailey might be fun for awhile, but she wouldn’t be someone I’d want to have kids with, live with, make a life with.

  Then again, maybe it’s because I don’t know her.

  Who is she?

  Such an interesting train of thought. But no. Our chances for survival are pretty much crap, so any thoughts of long term anything fizzle out. Hell, maybe we’ll all die.

  The thought of your impending death sort of squashes any idea of new love and sex. So now I don’t have to try so hard to not be interested. I’m not. Safety trumps love on Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs scale any given day.

  “Well if I had a choice now, I would choose to be with someone,” Bailey says, “but so many of today’s men are a bunch of emasculated soy boys whose idea of
a good time involves pot, video games and masturbation as a means of avoiding intimacy.”

  “You trying to say romance is dead?”

  She smiles and nods. It’s a nice smile, an intriguing nod.

  “I’m sure you had no problem getting men to fall for you before all this began.”

  “Most men are intimidated by powerful women.”

  “And are you a powerful woman?”

  “No, but that’s the air I exude,” she admits. “Especially when I tell them I write romance, which I shouldn’t do. I see how it makes men change. How they think they won’t be able to live up to my expectations in the bedroom.”

  I don’t take the bait because I don’t want to have a conversation like this. Then again, I can see she’s trying to talk about normal stuff because right now nothing is normal and what she needs is to not think about the things she saw.

  “Listen, I’ve love to play get-to-know-you and all, but we’re about to go into that mess and chances are better than not that it’s going to be worse than we’re imagining. So if you don’t mind, either hang out and let me get a quick nap, or give me a bit of privacy and you can do…whatever it is you want to do.”

  Rolling over on her back, she says, “You don’t have to be rude about it.”

  “I thought I was polite,” I say, deadpan.

  I manage to nod off, catch a good half hour, then wake back up. Bailey is quietly asleep in the bed next to me. I study at her, wonder again about the details of her life, who she might be. How the hell did the four of us wind up here? Like this? I don’t really like Quentin, and I’m not sure yet about Marcus, but Bailey…she’s the biggest unknown of all.

  Of course, that’s only because I’d like to get to know her. Seeing a woman like her, a confident woman who is beautiful and capable, I want to be attracted to her. That’s part of how I felt when I first met Margot. But she is not Margot. Maybe she’s a better person, or a worse person. Some girls, they have the loneliest lives, the most private of lives. But in public, you’d never know it the way they put off airs about being the life of the party.

  I suppose time will tell.

  As for me, considering the whole dating scene right now when measured against the idea of mass slaughter, falling cities and a long, bleak future, well that’s got to be a lot like shot-gunning vomit. As in, no thanks.

  Lost in my own thoughts, I didn’t realize she’d opened her eyes and is now looking at me.

  “What are you thinking?” she asks.

  “All kinds of terrible thoughts,” I say. “You?”

  By the look of it, fun and flirty is gone. Her real emotions are emerging. “I’m scared, Nick.”

  She looks scared.

  “Maybe you should stay with the boat,” I suggest. “I can give you the shotgun, just in case.”

  “I don’t want to be alone,” she says.

  “It might be better than what’s out there,” I say. “Speaking of ‘out there’ we should probably get topside. Don’t want Quentin thinking we’re down here making babies.”

  She laughs, but it’s a hollow, joyless sound.

  Grabbing the shotgun, I toss it at her, then say, “If people try to take the boat, can you shoot them?”

  “I told you, “ she says, tossing the rifle back at me, “I don’t want to stay here alone.”

  “They will be people like us, people trying to survive, but if push comes to shove, when you have one of these of your own, can you aim it at someone’s chest and squeeze the trigger?”

  “Are you not hearing me?” she says.

  “Answer the question.”

  “No!” she says. “I don’t just kill people.”

  Looking at the shotgun, turning it in my hands, I say, “Yeah, me neither.”

  “So you’re saying we’re screwed?” she asks, uncertainty drifting through her eyes, a sort of pleading with no hope of staying her more troubling thoughts.

  “Only if people try to harm us.”

  “You think they will?”

  I stop and think about this for a second, then: “What will a beaten down, cornered dog do if it’s attacked?”

  “Fight back?”

  “We just have to fight back before we’re beaten down, cornered and worrying about our life,” I tell her, trying to muster up my courage.

  “I’m already worried.”

  “I know,” I say, choosing a moment of honesty over the chance for bravado. Standing up, I say, “Me too.”

  She stands, pauses, then pulls me into a hug, holding me tight, her body against mine so much that I can feel all her subtle curves. It’s been a long time since I’ve been this close to a woman. At first I’m repelled. I just want to pull away from her, but I don’t. There’s a part of me that misses this sort of intimacy, even if it’s with a stranger, even if it leads to nothing.

  “I never thanked you for saving my life back at the convention center,” she says, her chin on my shoulder, her cheek pressed to mine. “And at the hotel.”

  I slowly hug her back. I’m feeling her body against mine, but I can’t help thinking of Margot. This is how we first met, how we first fell in love. I was a pro-skater back then, fresh on the circuit. She was a groupie and was on the top of a half pipe when one of the skaters went down, his board launching out from under him. It flew up the ramp, launched about fifteen feet in the air and started coming down right at her.

  I pulled her out of the way and the board torpedoed into the deck where she was standing. Breathless, rattled, Margot looked up at me with such wonder in her eyes.

  “That would have hit me in the head,” she said, breathless.

  “That’s why I pulled you out of the way,” I replied. “You okay?”

  “I am, thanks to you.”

  She gave me a hug, then I asked her out for coffee and she said yes. Nine months later, Indigo was born. With Bailey, though, I won’t be asking her to coffee. And I won’t be making any babies. More than anything, I’ll be hoping that if push comes to shove, she won’t get us all killed.

  Bailey pulls back, lets go of me and looks right up into my eyes. “You have a thing or something?”

  “A thing?” I ask, still holding myself back.

  “Yeah. A thing. Like a condition or something.”

  “No,” I say.

  “You gay? I mean, after having your daughter?”

  “No, I didn’t turn gay after having my daughter. It’s just, I was thinking about my ex-wife, about how we met—”

  “Why were you thinking that?”

  A knock on the door startles us and we’re able to step away from each other quickly as Quentin opens the door, but not quick enough.

  He looks at me, then at Bailey, then back at me.

  “I interrupt something?”

  “No,” we both say at the same time.

  “Two no’s make a yes, lovers,” he teases. “Marcus says we’re about here, that you guys should get ready.” He looks at me, in my boat shorts and polo shirt and now I’m really beginning to regret wearing these stupid clothes. “You look like a fruit loop,” he says.

  “I was thinking the same thing about you,” I say, not crass, but not filled with humor either. He was also in boat shoes, shorts and a polo.

  “All we need is a couple of cocktails and we can start the end-of-the-world party now,” he says with a laugh that’s not contagious.

  Bailey and I exchange looks. Neither of us can believe the things he’s saying. “This isn’t a party, Quentin,” Bailey says.

  “Not yet,” he replies.

  “Not at all,” I say. “This is the end of an era and you’re cracking jokes, which is worse than inappropriate. It’s just a bit…tactless.”

  “Whatever snowflake, I’ll see you and your unborn babies up top.”

  When he’s gone, I look at Bailey and she looks at me and I say, “If the situation warrants it, shoot him first.”

  “He did save us,” she says, although now she isn’t looking so happy about it.
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  “Okay, pause first, then shoot.”

  Chapter Seventeen

  Marcus eases the yacht toward the shoreline, a nightmarish scene that’s endemic destruction. Bailey’s eyes are wrapped in unshed tears as we clear the jetty and enter the channel leading into the Newport Harbor. Even Quentin falls still. I can’t believe what I’m seeing.

  A city in ruin.

  Damn.

  Where we’re able to clear the San Diego Bay without incident, it appears dozens of other boats weren’t so lucky. Some are in tact, some are burning and it’s pretty clear others have been sunk.

  The docks were hit, too.

  A long stretch of shoreline condos have been reduced to piles of rubble, and many of the homes we’re seeing are nothing but smoking ash and the most resilient parts of the framing.

  I can’t breathe.

  Seeing this devastation in broad daylight, knowing this was one of California’s most sought after communities, makes me physically sick.

  “It’s all gone,” Bailey says in a dreamy, wounded voice.

  “Not all of it,” Marcus chimes in. We round the Corona Del Mar Bend, head deeper into the harbor. There are places to dock, but the homes are uninhabitable, not places that look fit for robbery.

  The harbor opens to a graveyard of overturned sailboats and burning yachts. We all fall silent. Marcus cuts his speed in half. The waters are littered with the detritus of a wealthy world fallen. We troll beneath a low hanging smog that’s floating over the water, hazy with a slight burnt taste to it.

  “Get to the front of the bow,” Marcus suddenly calls out, seeing something that causes him to cut the engines to the slowest crawl.

  Bailey looks up at him, startled, then sees him waving his hands, telling her to get to the front of the yacht so she can see what’s ahead.

  She hurries to the front of the boat, then turns and starts pointing left really fast. Marcus reverses the engines, kicking the stern around, then eases forward like an expert. We still bump into something big, just below the water’s surface. The yacht leans hard, the hull scraping over whatever half sunken boat we’re riding on, everything tilting sideways.

 

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