by Erin Trejo
I smile and nod like I always do before finding another customer to wait on. I can’t talk about this with her. I don’t want to. The music blasts through the speakers causing my head to pound. I should be used to the noise by now but I’m not.
“Holy shit,” Maria gasps loud enough to catch my attention, as well as a few others standing around.
We all turn in unison to follow her gaze. A bunch of men come strolling toward the bar wearing their cuts, and right at the front? Neo himself. I lick my suddenly dry lips as I look around the room at anything but him. Not that you could ignore his looming presence even if you wanted to.
“Shit,” I mumble under my breath when they keep coming.
“Girl, why are you hiding? Get over there and talk to that man.” Maria shoves me in the general direction.
I try to keep my feet planted on the ground but it doesn’t do me any good. I stumble and fall practically onto the bar, my tits nearly spilling out over the top my shirt. Neo chuckles and leans down, getting close to my ear.
“I’d like to see them on full display again, just not in front of my brothers.”
I stand up quickly and plaster on a smile. “I don’t think we have to worry about that anymore. What can I get you?”
“You.”
“I mean it, Neo. This is my job. You can’t sit at the bar and not order a drink,” I snap, knowing my boss is somewhere lurking and watching. That’s all I need is for him to start his shit tonight.
“Beers. For all of us,” he says, nodding toward the other guys.
I nod and start popping the tops off the beers and setting them on the bar one by one. Each one comes and grabs one but none of them make a move to walk away. I roll my eyes and go back to work like usual when something extremely strange happens. A ton of phones begin to beep all at once. Even with the deafening music blasting through the speakers I can hear them. People start pulling their phones out as I narrow my eyes in confusion when all of the sudden eyes start turning toward me. Men smirk, people nod and point. I’m confused but it doesn’t take long before I hear Neo howling orders. I’m still confused as to what’s happening when laughter and screams erupt through the club. It feels like everyone is looking at me. My cheeks begin to heat when Neo jumps over the bar. He grabs me around the waist and ushers me toward the end.
“What the hell are you doing? I’m working.”
“You’re done. Let’s go,” his voice harsh.
“Neo! Stop! I have work to do!” I cry but this time he doesn’t let me stop. He lifts me in his arms and carries me toward the back door. I kick and hit the best I can but he keeps walking even while I’m yelling.
“Stop hittin’ me!”
“Then put me the fuck down, you fool!”
“Stop callin’ me names, Leesa. I’m pissed off right now,” he growls. My mouth drops open not knowing how to respond to that load of shit.
“Get off me!” Just as I’m about to struggle some more, he drops me to my feet next to the clubhouse. I look up at him with confusion in my eyes. I don’t know what that was all about but when I raise my eyebrow and wait, he hesitates.
“Neo? What the hell was that all about?” I ask, this time needing to understand what’s happening.
“Where’s your phone?”
“What?”
“Your phone, Leesa. Where is it?” I reach into my pocket and pull it out. Holding it in my hand I wait for an explanation. “See if you have a video on there.”
Still confused, I look down and slide my phone to life. There is a message from an anonymous number. I look up at Neo but he just nods toward the phone, a sick look in his eyes. Looking back down, I click the link. It only takes one second before I know what it is. Bending over, I throw up everything I ate before coming in to work. I heave until nothing else comes out. Neo rests his hand on my back before I stand and wipe my mouth with the back of my hand.
“Everyone got that?” He nods his head. I try to turn to run but he grabs my arm stopping me. Tears fill my eyes before slowly falling down my cheeks. I can’t believe he did this. I can’t believe that even after all that money, he would do this to me.
“A sex video. What the fuck were you thinkin’, Leesa?” Neo’s tone is pissed but when I turn to face him, he can see the truth. “Goddamn it! Don’t you fuckin’ tell me that. Don’t you say you didn’t know?” Anger dances in his eyes as I nod my head slowly.
“I…I didn’t know there was a camera in there,” I admit through the sniffles.
“You had no idea? None? This motherfucker videoed you without your consent?” His teeth grind, his jaw ticking.
“It was stupid. It was my first time…” I begin but he stops me.
“Are you fuckin’ kiddin’ me?” he roars louder, drowning out even the music from inside. He looks angry but at who? Me?
“I was a virgin.”
“Stop. Just fuckin’ stop, Leesa. Fuck!” He roars once more tugging at his hair. I turn to walk away again and this time he doesn’t move to stop me. Instead he follows behind me.
“I just want to go home. Leave me alone, Neo.”
“Like fuck I will,” he growls. Slapping me roughly on the ass, he ushers me toward the door.
“I don’t want to go in there, Neo. Fuck, all your friends have seen it!”
He doesn’t care. He grabs me around the waist and picks me up, carrying me into the clubhouse whether I like it or not. I don’t try to fight him because frankly I don’t have the energy right now. I can’t believe that Ray actually did it. Neo storms through the building until we’re back in his room. He slams the door shut behind us before setting me on my feet.
“Who the fuck is he?” he growls, flipping the light on.
“My ex.”
“Why the fuck would he do that to you? Why send that out to everyone?”
“I don’t know! He’s been blackmailing me for a long time. He has connections in the porn industry. He always said he wanted to make a sex tape but I refused. He knew I was a—”
“Virgin,” he fills in the blanks.
“Yeah. When I was with him, I didn’t know he had the connections he did. I didn’t find out until after. God, I swear to you I didn’t know that he recorded it until after. I didn’t know!” My chest aches from the crying and throwing up, but it aches more when I look at Neo. The look in his eyes is as feral and raw as I’ve ever seen them.
“Where is he?” he asks, trying to calm his tone.
“I don’t know. I paid him to keep quiet.”
“You what?” His voice thunders through the room.
“I left him weekly payments. We had a drop location at the library. He would leave me alone and not share it if I left the money.”
“Goddamn it!” Neo roars before spinning and slamming his fists into the wall. Over and over, he keeps punching until blood splatters the walls. I don’t dare step in front of him. I let him go until he walks to the dresser and pulls out the last thing I thought I’d see.
“What the hell?”
“I had you followed. I knew you were hidin’ somethin’ and I wanted to know what.”
Sobs shake my body as I look at the envelope in his hands. Tears blur my vision as Neo throws the envelope at the wall. Money flutters through the room as he breathes heavily trying to control himself.
“You did this,” I whisper softly.
“I didn’t know, Leesa.”
“It’s all your fault. He didn’t get the money because you did!” I scream until my throat feels raw. I storm toward him, hitting and punching. “How could you do that? What the hell kind of person are you?”
“I didn’t fuckin’ know! Goddamn it, Leesa!”
“You did this to me. You ruined my life,” I cry.
Neo doesn’t say anything further, just tucks me into his chest and holds me. I want to fight him. I want to demand he let me go, but I can’t do any of that. I’m numb. I’m nothing. He did what he said he would, and now how can I face this town at all? I can’t go ba
ck to work. Over two hundred people in that club got that video. They all saw me. They know it was me. I’ve never felt this embarrassed, this level of humiliation in my life.
“I hate him. I hate him so much.”
“I’ll fix this, baby. I’ll fix it.”
“You can’t. No one can now.”
Chapter 13
Neo
“How she doin’?” Triton asks when he spots me coming into the main room.
“She’s a fuckin’ mess. She’s cried for hours. Her voice is fuckin’ hoarse. She said she was a virgin when that motherfucker made that video. She didn’t even know he did it.”
“Motherfucker!” Rebel yells next to me. I knew that would piss them off, too. Ransom might be a little off but he isn’t into that kind of shit.
“She say who it was?”
“Her ex. Didn’t give me a name. You guys findin’ anything?” Triton shakes his head no, which further pisses me off. I can’t fucking believe that someone could do that to her. Leesa has to be the most caring person I’ve ever met in my life.
“Blade has a few leads that he’s talkin’ to. He said if you need anything call him.”
I nod my head but I wouldn’t involve Blade in this shit. He has a life now and this isn’t it. I stalk past the guys and straight behind the bar. Grabbing a few bottles, I start back toward the room when Triton stops me.
“You don’t think you should let her cool down?”
“She just had her goddamn body plastered all over half the screens in Daytona. What the fuck would you do?” I ask him humorlessly.
Triton gets it. He nods his head and slaps a hand on my shoulder as I walk back toward the room. I don’t even get all the way there when I hear her sobs. It rips my fucking heart out of my chest. When I go in the room, her eyes raise to meet mine. I hold up the bottles and she giggles through her tears.
“Think you got enough?”
“You want more? That can be arranged.”
“I don’t know what to say, Neo. This is a fucking mess.”
“It is but we can deal with it.”
“Who is we?”
I caught that too. I can’t believe I said we. I don’t know what I’m doing with this girl aside from fucking up her life. But I still want to try to help.
“Me. Let me help you, Leesa,” I almost beg her as I open the first bottle. I bring it to my lips and take a long pull before sitting on the edge of the bed and passing it to her. She takes it and downs a big gulp herself.
“He has a lot of power.”
“I don’t give a fuck.”
“What do you want from me, Neo?” she cries once more. I shift on the bed and reach for her, forcing her to look at me.
“I don’t fuckin’ know. I keep thinkin’ that I want to fuck you. That I want to hold you and make things right for you. I want to thank you for helpin’ with my mom, but more than anything? I want you. I want that spunky attitude that you always have. I want the smiles that you give others when you don’t think they notice. I want the beat of your heart, Leesa.”
She watches me intently, unsure of how to respond. I can’t say that I blame her because after the shit that just fell out of my mouth, I’m not sure what to say either. We both stare silently at the other not knowing what this is between the two of us. Leesa takes another long pull before shifting and reaching past me to set the bottle on the table. When she moves back, she lifts her hands and grabs my face. I don’t move, I don’t even want to breathe in this moment, because feeling her touching me, being so close to me, it’s hard.
“I don’t do quick fucks, Neo. I don’t feel like this about every guy I meet,” she whispers, leaning closer to me.
Now it’s my turn to move. I reach up and wrap my hand around the back of her neck, pulling her the rest of the way into me. I peck a quick kiss to her lips before I rest my forehead against hers.
“What is it you want, Leesa? Tell me what you want?”
“I just told you,” she replies softly.
I shake my head slowly. “No, you didn’t.”
“If I’m with you, I only want you to be with me. I can’t handle a man who has other girls. I’m not that kind of person, Neo.”
Her words are sweet and I find that I like her telling me what she wants. Any other woman and I might have told her to fuck off, but Leesa is different and has been since I met her.
“I know that. You’re not like other girls, Leesa. If you want this, you want me, I will give you that. I won’t touch another woman as long as I’m with you.”
Her eyes dance between mine before she leans in closer.
“Are you sure? Even after that video?”
Her hesitation pisses me off. I just smirk at her. “I can make you scream ten times louder than he ever did.”
Leesa giggles right before I claim her mouth. My tongue snakes into her mouth, toying with hers. Leesa moans into my mouth and I nearly explode from the sound. She pushes me back, surprising me, but I let her do her thing. She climbs up and straddles my hips running her hands under my shirt. Each stroke of her fingers across my skin ignites a fire that burns hotter by the second. Leesa seems to feel it too. I watch her as she leans down and presses her lips to my neck. I shiver and jerk my hips up, hitting her where she likes it the most. She grinds back against me and I nearly lose control. I want to flip her on her back and take her, but I know she needs this right now. And I let her have it.
“Are you sure you want this?” she questions me softly. I chuckle.
“Are you kiddin’ me?” She looks me in the eye and I know she’s on the edge about this. She’s nervous and probably lumping me in the same group as the asshole who videoed her. “I’m sure, Leesa. If you’re not, then you need to stop now. I can’t promise you shit once I have you naked,” I warn her.
She climbs off me and I blow out a breath. I wasn’t sure if she was ready or not but this clearly sums it up. I shove myself up to sit on the edge of the bed when she tugs her shirt over her head. Shit. She didn’t change her mind. She slowly drops her shirt to the floor before unclasping her bra. She turns to face me and my mouth waters. I take in her toned frame when the bra slides down her arms. Her tits are perfect sized for me to wrap my lips around. She looks me in the eyes seeming a little nervous but doesn’t stop. I shrug my cut off as I watch her strip from her jeans. I move quickly to strip out of my clothes, reaching for the condom in the drawer.
“Goddamn, Leesa.” I rip the condom open and roll it on as she watches me licking her lips.
“I’m not usually the one in control but-”
“Do what you want to me,” I tell her. She smiles softly before moving toward me. Climbing up the bed, I groan once more.
Chapter 14
Leesa
I’m nervous as hell. I don’t know why since this isn’t the first time I’ve had sex, but I certainly have the first-time jitters. The way Neo looks at me causes my chest to tighten. Ray never looked at me like that. He wanted what he wanted and that was it. I was never the one in charge and I sure as hell didn’t initiate it. The fact that Neo is letting me have control sends me higher than I thought it would. My insides are on fire. I straddle his hips, looking down at his hooded eyes. He doesn’t move, just watches me.
“Is this okay?”
“Be confident. Don’t doubt what you’re doin’, sweetheart. You can’t do this wrong.”
I’m usually confident. I have never doubted myself as a person, but this is different for me. I grab his cock in my hand and he hisses. Lowering myself down, I take him inside of me. Neo’s hands move quickly, clamping onto my waist. His eyes are clenched shut as I take the length of him. When I’m fully seated on him, he slowly opens his eyes to look up at me.
“It’s all you, baby.” His hands move from my hips, up my sides until he’s gripping my tits. He tugs on my nipples, causing my pussy to clench around him. He groans and rotates his hips slightly.
“Neo,” I whisper his name as his fingers continue their move
ments. How does everything feel so perfect right now? How is it all right in this moment?
Sliding his hands back down to my hips, he guides me slowly. Back and forth, my body slides over him. Neo keeps moving me and heat begins to rise inside of me. I’ve never felt anything as perfect as him. I rest my hands on his chest and slowly begin to rise up and lower myself back down. Each time I move, I can feel him pulse inside of me. My nails drag along his skin, Neo’s eyes close as his head tips back. His lips slowly part and I can’t resist the urge to lean down and lick his mouth. Neo parts his lips farther when he feels my tongue touch him. I sweep my tongue over his lips, down his jaw before sucking on his neck. His body is tense but I don’t stop. Not until he stops me.
“I need to fuck you, Leesa,” he groans, making me giggle.
“Then do it,” I whisper.
He moves quickly, flipping me onto my back but never pulling out of me. I almost laugh at his movements until he thrusts into me. That laugh turns into a moan. Neo lifts up and grabs my legs spreading them wide. He pumps into me as I watch him. Most of the time with Ray I would close my eyes but not with Neo. I find that I want to watch him. I want to see the way he moves when he’s inside of me. I want to see the muscles move, and damn, do they move. Sweat trickles over his abs as he rocks into me.
“You keep lookin’ at me like that and I’m gonna fuckin’ blow, Leesa.”
His warning does little more than cause my pussy to clench. His hips begin to pick up speed, pounding into me. I grab his forearms and hold on as the heat spiraling inside of me rises. A few more thrusts and we both lose control. I come hard, screaming his name as he grunts and groans his own release. He keeps his cock deep inside of me as his body jerks. Looking up at him, his eyes are closed, his lips parted as he pants.
When he looks down at me slowly, his eyes flutter open. We stare at each other for a long time before he pulls out and climbs off the bed. He doesn’t say a word, just walks to the bathroom. I hear the water turn on and off before he comes back out. He doesn’t bother to cover himself, just walks confidently toward the bed. Climbing in, he grabs the blankets and pulls them over us before grabbing me and pulling me against him. I snuggle into his side and listen to his heart beating against my ear.
