The Forgotten (Echoes from the Past Book 2)

by Irina Shapiro

  “It scares me how much I love you,” he whispered. “I’m lost.”

  And I am found, Quinn thought as she allowed the last of her protective barriers to crumble.

  Chapter 26

  When Quinn and Gabe presented themselves at the Lennoxes an hour later, there was no trace of their earlier conflict. They were united as a couple, excited and apprehensive about the journey they were about to embark on. In a few minutes, they would become full-time parents, and it was both daunting and exhilarating. Gabe knocked on the door and squeezed Quinn’s hand in silent support.

  “Everything is packed and ready to go, except for young miss here,” Mari said, leading them into the front room. Emma was stretched out on the sofa, lying perfectly still with her eyes closed. She was wearing a pink princess dress, and a plastic tiara was askew on her head.

  Gabe looked at Mari in panic. “Is she sick?” He was prepared for tears, and a possible temper-tantrum, but not this unnatural silence from his daughter, who still hadn’t so much as opened her eyes despite their presence in the room.

  “It’s nothing that a kiss from a prince won’t cure. We are playing Sleeping Beauty. Alastair offered his services, but was rejected on the grounds of being too old. Gabe, you’re up.”

  Gabe looked a bit bemused, but walked over to Emma and sat down on the side of the sofa, leaning toward her to kiss her.

  “Kneel, Prince Gabe,” Emma whispered out of the side of her mouth.

  Gabe complied, kneeling on one knee and taking her hand in his as he bent over Emma and kissed her gently on the cheek. Emma’s eyes fluttered open, and she proceeded to reenact the scene from the Disney movie, smiling at Gabe serenely and blushing.

  “Shall we away to my father’s castle?” Gabe asked, still acting princely, to the delight of Emma.

  Emma considered this for a moment. In the movie, she was already in the castle, but this was an interesting development, and she wasn’t about to pass up an opportunity to be spirited away.

  “Do you have a horse waiting?” she asked.

  “No, but my carriage is at your disposal, Princess,” Gabe improvised.

  “My shoes,” Emma said regally. Gabe accepted a pair of pink trainers from Mari and solemnly put them on Emma’s feet, as if she were Cinderella.

  “The glass slippers fit,” he proclaimed, making Emma laugh.

  “That’s a different story,” she chided him. “I’m Aurora.”

  “Sorry, Your Highness. I got my princesses mixed up. Are you ready to go?” Gabe asked. Quinn could hear the worry in his voice. If Emma refused to leave, they would have to cajole her somehow, but Emma was ready.

  “Take me to your castle, Gabe,” she said dramatically as she allowed Mari to help her on with her coat.

  “Sweetheart, could you possibly call me Dad?” Gabe asked. His voice caught a little as he made this request, but Emma was oblivious to his fragile feelings.

  “No,” she said simply. “I like calling you Gabe.”

  Gabe looked crestfallen, and both Quinn and Mari gave him sympathetic looks. Emma didn’t recognize Gabe as her father. To her, he was just a nice man with whom she’d stay for a while in England. Being only four, she couldn’t really imagine any kind of long-term future, which was probably for the best, given that neither her mother or grandmother would be a part of it, a fact she hadn’t quite accepted yet. She liked Gabe, but felt more comfortable with Quinn, since she was used to being around women. Emma jumped off the couch and walked over to Quinn, taking her hand shyly.

  “There’s time yet,” Mari said to Gabe as she handed him Emma’s cases.

  “I know. Thank you for everything, Mari,” Gabe said and kissed the older woman on the cheek.

  “Call me if you need anything, or even if you just want to talk. The first few weeks won’t be easy. Alastair wanted to be here, but he had a client waiting,” she said as she walked them to the door.

  “Give him our regards,” Gabe said, his mind already on the journey ahead.

  “Bye, Mari,” Emma called out over her shoulder. She didn’t feel sentimental about leaving Mr. and Mrs. Lennox, which was probably a blessing. Losing her mother and grandmother was enough of a blow without feeling as if she was being torn from the Lennoxes as well.

  Quinn buckled Emma into the child seat they’d installed and sat next to her in the back while Gabe stowed her cases in the boot. Quinn had prepared several books and games for the trip, and Emma was already holding her favorite stuffed rabbit, appropriated named Mr. Rabbit. She smiled at Quinn, but her smile was a bit wobbly. She was as nervous about her new life as her four-year-old self could be and craved reassurance. Quinn patted her hand.

  “Don’t worry. Everything is going to be wonderful. Gabe’s mum and dad are really nice, and they can’t wait to meet you.”

  “But I don’t even know them,” Emma protested. “Mum never said I had other grandparents.”

  “No, I don’t suppose she did, but I think you are going to really like them. And did I tell you that they have a puppy?”

  “They do?” Emma asked, her fears forgotten.

  “Yes. His name is Buster, and he’s really sweet.”

  “What does he look like?”

  “Well, he’s kind of yellow, I suppose, with big, kind, brown eyes. He loves to play, but Gabe’s dad is getting too old to run around with him, so it will be up to you to keep him entertained. I hear he loves playing fetch. Will you play with him?”

  “Yes,” Emma replied happily.

  Gabe finally got into the driver’s seat and turned to smile at Emma and Quinn. “Are you two ready?”

  “Yes,” Emma said again. She waved to Mari, who was standing on the stoop with Alastair.

  “And off we go, Princess Emma,” Gabe said as the car slid away from the curb.

  “Off we go,” Emma cried regally, Mari and Alastair already forgotten.

  Chapter 27

  January 1347

  Dunwich, Suffolk

  Avery woke up with a start, unsure of what woke him. His cell at the priory was as dark as a tomb, and just as cold. An icy draft seeped through the shutters, and the wind outside sounded like the howling of a wolf. Avery shifted on his narrow cot, suddenly aware of what it was that jolted him out of sleep. He was aroused. The feeling was so unexpected that he nearly laughed out loud at the irony of it. He’d spent the past twelve years learning to deny every desire. It had been hard at first, especially since he thought of Petra often and couldn’t help remembering the weight of her breast in his hand or the silky skin of her inner thighs. Those first two years had been torture, but eventually, the physical memories faded, and Avery applied himself to suppressing his every physical need. He fasted for days, spent hours on his knees, and looked at every comely woman as if she was nothing more than God’s vessel and not an object of desire. He thought he’d won his battle against emotion and lust, but one hour with Petra, and he was undone. His body throbbed with need, and his mind whirled with thoughts, images of Peta as bright and beguiling as a stained-glass window depicting the Virgin Mary herself.

  Avery flipped onto his stomach with a groan. He was in agony. His body had betrayed him, and so had his mind. All he wanted was to go to Petra, tell her how much he still loved her, and take her in his arms. He wanted to remove the barbet that hid her hair and run his fingers through the golden tresses that had been like a field of ripe wheat the last time he’d seen it. He wanted to cup her breasts and slip his hands beneath her skirts. He wanted to feel her arousal and know that he was in a position to satisfy it.

  Petra had changed since he’d last seen her. How could she not have? Her figure was fuller after carrying three children. It was no longer the coltish body of her girlhood, and her breasts looked larger than the pale, firm globes he’d suckled so long ago. But to him, she was even more beautiful. She was no longer a willowy girl, but a grown woman ripe for the picking. He could smell her scent when they’d dined together. She had that intoxicating womanly smell th
at drew him in like a moth to a flame. He wanted her so badly it hurt, and he groaned with frustrated desire, knowing he wouldn’t be able to get back to sleep.

  Avery got out of bed and sank to his knees. The stone floor was icy and hard, and his knees cried out in protest as he put all his weight on them and began to pray for forgiveness, guidance, and strength. Avery prayed for nearly an hour, but God in his wisdom did not see fit to hear him. Instead of devotion and purity of thought, all he felt was molten desire coursing through his veins. It would not abate, and he couldn’t get the image of Petra out of his mind.

  Avery finally gave up and lay back down. He hadn’t touched himself in twelve years, not even when bathing. He avoided any physical contact which would remind him what it felt like to feel pleasure. He thought he’d won, his body becoming nothing more than a hollow husk belonging to God, but at this moment it belonged to Petra, even if she didn’t know it. Avery trembled as his hand slid downward, his fingers closing around his shaft. The feeling was exquisite, and he went to work, exploding in a storm of sensation, his body going limp with release, his mind blessedly empty of remorse.

  Chapter 28

  February 1347

  Dunwich, Suffolk

  Petra smiled to herself before she even opened her eyes to the new day. She felt wickedly decadent for staying abed for an extra hour, but it was Candlemas, and her employer had given her the day off. Petra hadn’t had a full day off since she started working for Lady Blythe, and she relished the prospect of spending it with her family. Candlemas had always been her favorite feast day, not only for religious reasons, but because it came at a time of year that was dark, cold, and barren. Candlemas, or the Purification of the Virgin, was a time of rebirth, a turning point between the waning of winter and the approach of spring and the start of the new planting. Petra didn’t give much thought to planting, but she did associate Candlemas with the coming of spring. Ever since she was a little girl, her mother always said,

  If Candlemas be fair and bright,

  Winter has another flight,

  If Candlemas brings clouds and rain,

  Winter will not come again.

  Petra couldn’t see what type of day dawned for Candlemas, since there was no window in her loft, but she hoped it was a cloudy one. She would gladly sacrifice this feast day to rain if spring made an early appearance this year. The children would be bitterly disappointed though. They had been looking forward to this day since their bleak Christmas celebration and hoped to enjoy all that Candlemas had to offer. They’d been chattering and making plans for the past week, and Petra encouraged them in their planning, glad to see them happy and animated after several months of subdued acceptance.

  Even Cyril had enjoyed Candlemas when he was alive. He didn’t much care about the candle-blessing at the church or the procession afterwards, but he did enjoy the games on the green and the performances by the mummers and minstrels. Cyril was a powerful man, and always eagerly participated in hammer-throwing contests and wrestling, proud to show off his brute strength. For the past two years, he’d even felt benevolent enough on Candlemas to allow Edwin to try his hand at throwing the hammer, despite the fact that Edwin was still too young to officially enter the contest. The hammer didn’t fly far, but Cyril was so pleased with his own results that he almost praised Edwin for his efforts and promised that he’d help him practice so that he could enter the competition once he was of age. Edwin had been desperate to win Cyril’s approval, and Petra was pleasantly surprised when he didn’t mention the competition at all this time, no longer worried about making Cyril proud.

  Petra slid out of bed with a sigh of resignation, dressed hastily, and made her way downstairs. Maude already had the fire going, and it was pleasantly warm and snug. Fragrant broth bubbled over the open flame, and yesterday’s pot of porridge stood off to the side, the pot heating without the contents burning or overcooking. Maude poured Petra a cup of broth and busied herself with setting out the bowls and spoons on the table in preparation for breakfast.

  “Get the children up,” Maude said as she hefted the pot of porridge out of the hearth and set it on the table. “We have much to do this day.”

  Petra didn’t argue. Her mother had her own set routine for most feast days, and Petra allowed her to take the lead. Maude had so few things she enjoyed and looked forward to. Petra knew exactly why Maude was in a rush for the children to rise. She already had the cooking stone warming by the hearth and would begin to mix the batter for the pancakes as soon as they’d eaten, eager to have them finished before they left for Mass. Using flour for Candlemas pancakes was an extravagance this year, but Petra didn’t object. The flat, round pancakes represented the sun because of their shape and golden color, and she couldn’t bear to deny the children this special treat. Perhaps they wouldn’t make as many this year, just enough to mark the occasion. They’d eat a pancake each as they came off the stone, still hot and fresh, and then have one more after they came back in the evening, having spent the day outdoors enjoying all the entertainment that Dunwich had to offer.

  When the children were small, they all went to the green together, but now that the children were older, they’d been hatching their own plans, so Petra and Maude would most likely be on their own, at least until supper. Petra gulped down the last of her broth and went to wake the children.

  Ora jumped straight out of bed, eager for the day to begin, and hopped from foot to foot on the cold floor as she pulled on her hose and stuck her feet into her shoes before stepping into her skirt and lacing her bodice. Elia, always the last to wake up, pulled the blanket over her head, hoping for a few more minutes of sleep. Edwin rubbed his eyes and ran a hand through his hair as he sat up in bed, his eyes going straight to his grandmother as he reached beneath his pillow.

  “Don’t even think of putting that on,” Maude growled at Edwin, who was studying a bear mask with ill-hidden glee. “Tis a Pagan rite, and you won’t be participating in it. Not now, not ever.”

  “Oh, come now, Grandmother. Tis nothing Pagan about it,” Edwin protested as he set aside the mask. “All the lads have one. And it’s just to mark the awakening of the bears, nothing more. Alfric made this for me. Just look how lifelike it is.” Edwin held up the mask, showing off to all proudly.

  Maude frowned and was about to say something when Petra cut in. “There’s no harm in it, Mother. What’s Pagan about bears leaving their dens? Let the lads have their fun this day. They’ve earned it.”

  Maude clearly didn’t agree, but said no more about it. There were those who lit bonfires and prayed to the goddess Brigid to purify and bless the land before planting in celebration of Imbolc, but wearing a bear mask was hardly the same thing. Petra knew that what her mother was really worried about was Edwin drawing attention to himself in any way. She feared for him, and wished to keep him by her side where she could look after him.

  “Let him go,” Petra insisted, earning a look of gratitude from Edwin.

  “I’ll stay out of harm’s way, Grandmother,” Edwin promised as he set aside the mask. “We’ll only wear the masks for a short time anyway. Alfric and I wish to see the contests and watch the mummers. I hope they have the same mummers as last year,” Edwin said as she pulled on his breeches. “I nearly split my sides laughing.”

  “Me too,” Elia put in as she finally consented to rise. “And there was that old man with the dog who did tricks. Remember?”

  “The dog danced while he played his lute,” Ora chimed in. “I felt sorry for it.”

  “Why, you silly goose? The dog got his reward in the end,” Elia said, always eager to annoy her sister.

  “Yes, I suppose he did, but it looked so skinny and sad,” Ora replied.

  “Much like its master,” Edwin said. “It can’t be an easy life, always traveling from place to place and living off people’s charity. Imagine never having a place to lay your head or anyone waiting for you at the end of the day.”

  Petra smiled at Edwin as she spoone
d porridge into the bowls. Of the three children, he was the most sensitive to people’s suffering, and felt a kinship with anyone who was different. Neither Ora nor Elia would give much thought to the old man who’d likely been on the road for years, depending on his aging dog for his bread.

  “Come have your breakfast, then see to your chores. Ora, collect the candles to take to church for the blessing. And Elia, help your grandmother mix the batter for the pancakes once you’re finished. Edwin, bring more wood for the fire and fetch some water.”

  “Yes, Mother,” the children answered in unison.

  Petra climbed back up to the loft and applied herself to braiding her hair and pinning it up beneath her headpiece. She had two spare veils which she would lend to the girls for the day since it was customary to wear white on Candlemas. They didn’t have white gowns, but white linen veils would do. They could wear them for the procession.

  Petra sat down on the bed and folded her hands in her lap. The friars usually joined the townspeople for the celebration after conducting their own Mass at the priory. Petra couldn’t help wondering if she would see Avery this day. He used to love feast days when he was a boy, always opting for the mummers and minstrels instead of contests of strength. He loved the music and plays, especially if they were bawdy in nature. Would he be there today to enjoy the performances or would he avoid the revelry as most of the friars did since it was unseemly for a priest to indulge in such entertainments?

  Petra sprang to her feet when she heard church bells. It was almost time to go. Mass would begin shortly. She grabbed the veils for the girls and climbed down, her mouth-watering as the aroma of sizzling dough enveloped her. Petra accepted a warm, golden pancake from Elia and inhaled the heavenly smell. The pancake was lightly spread with butter, and it melted on the tongue as Petra took her first bite. The children had already had theirs and were looking at her with envy, but the pancake wasn’t enough to share four ways, so they would just have to wait to have the rest later.