John D MacDonald - Travis McGee 01 - The Deep Blue Good-By

by The Deep Blue Good-By(L

  In her fine long hands, delicacy of wrists, floating texture of dark hair, and in the mobility of the long narrow sensitive structuring of her face there was the look of something almost too well made, too highly bred, too finely drawn for all the natural crudities of human existence. Her eyes were large and very dark and tilted and set widely. She wore dark Bermuda shorts and sandals and a crisp blue and white blouse, no jewelry of any kind, a sparing touch of lipstick.

  "Who are you? What do you want? Who are you?" Her voice was light and fast and intense and her mouth trembled. She seemed to be on the narrow edge of emotional disaster, holding herself in check with the greatest effort. And about her was a rich and heavy scent of brandy, and an unsteadiness, the eyes too swift and not exactly in focus.

  "Mrs. Atkinson, my name is Travis McGee."

  "Yes? Yes? What do you want?"

  I tried to look disarming. I am pretty good at that. I have one of those useful faces. Tanned American. Bright eyes and white teeth shining amid a broad brown reliable bony visage. The proper folk-hero crinkle at the corners of the eyes, and the bashful appealing smile, when needed. I have been told that when I have been aroused in violent directions I can look like something from an unused corner of hell, but I wouldn't know about that. My mirror consistently reflects that folksy image of the young project engineer who flung the bridge across the river in spite of overwhelming odds, up to and including the poisoned arrow in his heroic shoulder.

  So I looked disarming. When they give you something to use, you use it. Many bank robbers look extraordinarily reliable. So you use your face to make faces with, play parts, pick up cues. In every contact with every other human in every day of your life, you become what you sense they want of you or, if you are motivated the other way, exactly what they do not want. Were this not so, there would be no place left to hide.

  "I just wanted to talk to you about

  "I won't show the house without an appointment. That was the arrangement. I'm sorry."

  They learn that voice and that diction in those little schools they go to before they go on to Smith and Vassar and Wellesley.

  "I want to talk to you about Junior Allen."

  I could have listed maybe fifty possible reactions without coming close to the one I got.

  Her eyes dulled and her narrow nostrils flared wide and her mouth fell into sickness. She lost her posture and stood in an ugly way. 'That's it, I suppose,' she said in a dragging tone. "Certainly. Am I a gift? or was there a fee?" She whirled and hurried away. She skidded and nearly fell when she turned left at the end of the foyer. I heard an unseen door bang. I stood there in the silence. Then I heard a muffled sound of retching, tiny and far off and agonizing. The noon sun blasted down upon whiteness. I stepped into the relative darkness of the house, into the cool breath of air conditioning.

  I closed the formal door.

  She was still being sick. I went swiftly and quietly through the house. It was as littered as Christine's house, but a different sort of litter.

  Glasses, dirty ashtrays, food untouched, clothing, things broken in violence. But you could not mark that cold house. In thirty seconds with a fire hose you could have it dripping and absolutely clean. There was no one else there.

  She was living in this big house like a sick frail animal in a cave.

  I could hear water running. I rapped on the closed door.

  "Are you all right?"

  I heard a murmur I could not interpret. it had a vague sound of reassurance. I roamed around. The place offended me. There was a giant dishwasher in the kitchen. I found a big tray and went through the house collecting the glasses and plates and cups. It took three trips.

  I scraped stale food into the disposer. Housewife McGee. After I set the dishwasher to churning, I felt a little better.

  I went back and listened at the door. There was no sound.

  "Are you all right in there?"

  The door opened and she came out and leaned against the wall just outside the bathroom door. She had a ghastly poor and the rings around her eyes looked more smudged.

  "Are you moving in?" she asked tonelessly.

  EEL

  "I just came here to. -."

  "This morning I looked at myself, and I thought maybe the process had to start somewhere, so I got terribly clean. I washed my hair and scrubbed and scrubbed, and stripped the bed and even found a drawer with clean clothing in it, for a wonder. So you're in luck, aren't you? Excellent timing, provided you wish to start clean."

  "Mrs. Atkinson, I don't think you She looked at me with a horrid parody of sensuality, a sick bright leer. 'I suppose you know all of my specialties, dear."

  "Will you listen to me?"

  "I'm sure you don't mind if I have a drink first. I'm really much better after I have some drinks."

  "I've never seen Junior Allen in my life!' 'I hope he told you I've gotten terribly scrawny and..." She stopped the hideous parody of enticement and stared at me. 'What did you say?"

  "I've never seen Junior Allen in my life."

  She rubbed her mouth with the back of her hand. 'Why did you come to me?"

  "I want to help YOU."

  "Help me what?"

  "You said it yourself. The process has to start somewhere."

  She stared at me without comprehension, and then with a savage doubt, and finally, slowly, with belief. She turned, sagging, and, before I could catch her, she fell to her knees, bare knees making a painful sound of bone against terrazzo. She hunched down against the baseboard and rubbed her face back and forth and began her howling, whooping sobs and coughings. I gathered her up. She shuddered violently at my touch. She was far too light. I took her to her bedroom. When I stretched her out on her freshly made bed, the sobbing stopped abruptly. She became as rigid as dry sticks, her eyes staring at me with glassy enormity, her bloodless lips sucked in. I took her sandals off and covered her with the spread. I fixed the blinds to darken the room, as those helpless eyes followed me. I brought a stool over and put it beside her bed and sat down and took her long frail cold hand and said, 'I meant it. What's your name?

  "Lois."

  "All right, Lois. Cry. Cry the hell out of it. Rip it all open. Let it go."

  "I can't,' she whispered. And suddenly she began to cry again. She yanked her hand free, rolled over, rolled her face into the pillow and began the harsh sobbing.

  I had to make a guess about what would be right and what would be wrong for her. I had to take a risk. I based the risk on what I know of loneliness, of the need of closeness in loneliness. I stroked her, totally impersonal, the way you soothe a terrified animal. At first she would leap and buck at the slightest touch. After a while there was only a tremor when I touched her, and finally that too was gone. She hiccuped and at last fell down into sleep, curled and spent.

  I searched the house until I found her keys.

  I locked up and left her in the darkened room.

  I checked the bus schedules and went and got Cathy and took her to where she could catch the bus which would get her home in time. I told her a little of it. There was no question in her mind about my obligation to stay.

  THE DOCTOR's name was Ramirez. He looked like a Swede. He spent a long time with her.

  Then he came out and sat at the breakfast bar to drink some of the bad coffee I'd made.

  "How is she?"

  "Where do you fit in this, McGee?*

  "I just stopped to ask her some questions and she fell apart." He stirred his coffee. "Samaritan, eh?"

  "I suppose so."

  "Her family should be notified."

  "Suppose there isn't any?"

  "Then she should be institutionalized.

  What's the financial situation?"

  "I haven't any idea."

  "Nice house. Nice car."

  "Doctor, what's her condition?"

  "Several things. Malnutrition. That plus a degree of saturation with alcohol so she's been having auditory hallucinations. But severe emotional shoc
k is the background for both the other manifestations."

  "Prognosis?"

  He gave me a shrewd glance. "Fair. A little bit of nerve, a tiny bit of pride, that's all she has left. Keep her tranquilized. Build her up with foods as rich as she can take. Lots of sleep.

  And keep her away from whomever got her into such a condition."

  "A man could do that to a woman?"

  "Given a certain type of man and that type of woman, yes. A man like the man who was living with her."

  "Did you know him?"

  "No. I heard about him. First he was with Catherine Kerr, then with this one. A different social level, eh?"

  "Should she talk about Allen?"

  "If she's willing to. If she can trust anybody enough, it might be good for her."

  "I wonder what happened."

  "Things she could not accept. Things she could not live with."

  "Not live with?"

  "McGee, I do not think it is too dramatic to say you saved her life."

  "But she might not trust me."

  "Or anyone, ever. That too is a mental disorder. I don't think it's good for her to stay here."

  "When can she leave?"

  "I will stop by the same time tomorrow. I can tell you then. Give her one of these every four hours. You can stay here?"

  "Yes.")

  "Eggnogs, rich soups, a little at a time, as much as she can hold down. if she gets very agitated, give her one of these. Encourage her to sleep. And talk. Tomorrow we will talk about a nurse. I think she has been physically abused, but I think she has a good constitution."

  "Will anybody make any trouble about my staying here?"

  "You are adults. You don't look like a fool, McGee. You don't have the look of the kind of murderous fool who'd try to make love to her in her condition. I take you on faith. it saves time. And if anybody does not like this temporary arrangement, I recommended it."

  "I'll be too busy with the housework."

  "She is exhausted. I think she will sleep a long time now. But it would be nice to be there when she wakes up."

  While she was in deep sleep, I collected all the soiled clothing and bedding. I took it into town and dropped it off. I bought supplies, When I got back she was still in almost the same position, making small snores, evenly spaced, barely audible. It took me until dusk to polish the big house. I kept looking in at her.

  Then I went in and she made a sound like a whispered scream. She was sitting up. I turned the 4ghts on. Her eyes were huge and vague.

  I stayed a cautious ten feet from her and said, 'I am Trav McGee. You've been sick. Dr. Ramirez was here. He'll be back tomorrow. I'll stay in the house, so you'll be completely safe."

  "I feel so far away. I didn't have any dreams.

  Unless... unless this is one."

  "I'm going to go fix you some soup. And bring you a pill."

  "I don't want anything."

  I arranged more agreeable lighting. She watched me. I had checked where things were kept. I found a sedate nightgown, a robe of Hong Kong silk, tossed them on the foot of the bed.

  "If you're strong enough, Lois, get ready for bed while I fix the soup. The bathroom is clean now."

  "What is going on? Who are you?"

  "Mother McGee. Don't ask questions. Just accept."

  I heated the canned soup, strengthened it with cream, fixed her one slice of toast with butter. When I came back she was propped up in bed. She was wearing the nightgown and a bed jacket. She had tied her tousled dark hair back, rubbed away the last trace of lipstick.

  I'm wobbly," she said in a small shy voice.

  "Can I have a drink?"

  "That depends on how you do with the soup and toast."

  "Soup maybe. Toast no."

  "Can you feed yourself?"

  "of course."

  "Take the pill."

  "what is it?"

  "Dr. Ramirez called it a mild tranquilizer."

  I sat nearby, She spooned the soup up. Her hand trembled. Her nails were clean and broken. There was an old bruise, saffroned, on the side of her slender throat. She was too aware of my watching her and so I tried some mild chatter. Abstract theory by McGee. My tourist theory. Any Ohioan crossing the state line into Florida should be fitted with a metal box that rests against the small of the back. Every ninety seconds a bell rings and a dollar bill emerges part way from a slot in the top of the box. The nearest native removes it. That would take care of the tipping problem. At places where hundreds of them flock together, the ringing of bells would be continuous.

  It was difficult to amuse her. She was too close to being broken. The best I could achieve was a very small quick smile. She managed two thirds of the soup and two bites of toast. I set them aside. She slid down a little and yawned.

  "My drink?"

  "In a little while."

  She started to speak. Her eyes blurred and closed. in a few moments her mouth sagged open and she slept. In sleep the intense strain was gone and she looked younger. I turned the bedroom lights out. An hour later the phone rang. Someone wanted to sell us an attractive building lot at Marathon Heights.

  As she slept I searched for the personal data.

  I finally found the traditional steel box behind books in the living room. It opened readily with a bent paper clip. Birth certificate, marriage license, divorce decree, keys to a safedeposit box, miscellany of family materials income statements. I spread it out and pieQ together her current status. She had accepted a settlement at the time of divorce three years ago. The house was a part of it. Her income Was from a trust account in a bank in Hartford, Connecticut, a family trust setup whereby she received a little over seven hundred dollars a month and could not touch the principal amount. Her maiden name was Fairlea.

  There was an elder brother in New Haven.

  D. Harper Fairlea. On her hall table was a great stack of unopened mail. I checked it over and found that people were clamoring to have their bills paid, and in the stack I found her trust income checks, unopened, for May, June and July. Her personal checkbook was in the top drawer of the living-room desk, a built-in affair. She had not balanced it in some time, and I estimated she had a couple of hundred dollars in her account.

  At nine-thirty I called D. Harper Fairlea in New Haven. They said he was ill and could not come to the phone. I asked to talk to his wife.

  She had a soft, pleasant voice.

  "Mr. McGee, surely Lois could tell you that Harp had a severe heart attack some months ago. He's been home a few weeks now, and it is going to be a long haul. Really, I thought the very least she could do was come up here. He is her only blood relative, you know. And I have been wondering why we haven't heard from her. If she is in some sort of trouble and needs help, about all we can say is that we hope things will work out for her. We really can't give her any kind of assistance right now.

  We have three children in school, Mr. McGee.

  I don't even want to tell Harp about this. I don't want to give him something else to fret about. I've been inventing imaginary phone calls from Lois, inventing concern and telling him she is fine."

  "I'll know better in a few days, how she is and what will have to be done."

  "I understood she has some nice friends down there."

  "Not lately."

  "What is that supposed to mean?"

  .,I think she gave, up her nice friends."

  "Please have her phone me when she's able.

  I'm going to worry about her. But there's just nothing I can do. I can't leave Harp now, and I just don't see how I could take her in."

  No help there. She hadn't seemed very concerned about who I might be. I sensed that the two sisters-in-law had not got-ten along too well. So it was no longer a case of waiting for somebody to come and take over. I was stuck, temporarily.

  I made up a bed in the bedroom next to hers. I left my door and her door open. In the middle of the night I was awakened by the sound of glass breaking. I pulled my pants on and went looking. H
er bed was empty. The nightgown and bed jacket were on the floor beside the bed. The nightgown was ripped.

  I found her in the kitchen alcove, fumbling with the bottles. I turned on the white blaze of fluorescence and she squinted toward me, standing naked in spilled liquor and broken glass. She looked at me but I do not think she knew me. 'Where is Fancha?" she yelled.