Tawny Man 02 - Golden Fool

by Robin Hobb

  I wiped away the sweat on my brow. I found I was a bit shaky when I stood. This morning’s exercise was more Skill than I had used in quite some time. The headache was proportionately larger, rather too big for my skull. If I’d had a kettle, cup, water and elfbark, I probably would have indulged. Instead I had to settle for pouring myself a measure of brandy and leaning out of the window for a while.

  When I heard the scuff of footsteps coming up the tower stairs, I thought it was the guard. I took the bottle and my glass, retreated to a dim corner of the room and stood very still. I heard the key turn slowly in the lock, and the door opened. Then Dutiful entered. He shut the door firmly behind himself and then glanced about the apparently empty room. His irritation was plain on his face. He crossed to the table and once more looked about him. A slow realization came to me. Witted the Prince might be, but not as strongly as I was. Even in the room with me, he remained unaware or my presence. This was a new idea to me: that, just as with the men could possess the Wit-magic in various strengths.

  ‘Here.’ When I spoke, he jumped, and then became aware of me as I stepped from the shadows, bottle and glass in hand. He glared at me as I advanced to the table and set the glass down. ‘Good morning, my prince.’

  He spoke firmly, with great disdain. ‘Tom Baderlock, you are dismissed. I no longer wish to have you teach me anything I will be speaking to my mother to have you removed from Buckkeep entirely.’

  I kept my calm. ‘As you wish, my prince. I be the easiest route for me as well.’

  ///unproofable

  ‘This is not about what is “easiest” for iru and betrayal. You have used the Skill a prince. I could ask for your banishment. &

  ‘You could, my prince. Or, you could as’

  moved from Buckkeep Undoubtedly, that would

  This is about treachery ainst me, your rightful en your execution.’

  for my explanation.’

  ‘No explanation could excuse what you ‘I did not say you could ask for my exc for my explanation.’

  And there the conversation stopped. I r I met his gaze steadily. I was determin courteously, for my explanation before word from me. He seemed equally determ did.’ se. I said you could ask fused to lower my eyes. ;d that he would ask, e would hear another ned that he would cow me with his princely stare until I decided t beg his pardon.

  Suspense was on my side. ‘, ‘An explanation is long overdue.’

  „ ‘Perhaps it is/ I conceded, and waited ag^ün. . ‘Explain yourself, Tom Badgerlock.’

  nsed he had bent as far ting.

  ed my glass. I lifted the

  A ‘please’ would have been nice, but I’sas he could. A boy’s pride can be a brittle I walked back over to the table and refi bottle questioningly toward him, but he shook his head, an abrupt ighed. ‘How much do fled to through the refusal to share drink with such as me. I you recall of the beach? The one that w standing stone?’

  His face clouded a bit and he looked waiy. ‘I…’ He came very close to lying. Then, ‘I recall parts of it. It fades, like a dream, and then sometimes bits of it come back to me bright and clear. I know

  •eakened and confused you used the Skill-magic to take us there. It me somehow. I imagine that is when you cast your power-spe over me.

  re difficult than I had re, when you attacked

  I sighed. This was going to be even mo feared. ‘Do you remember a time by the fi me? Attacked me with every intent of killin ///

  He looked aside briefly, then nodded as if surprised that he did such a thing. ‘But that was not entirely of my own will. You know that! Peladine was striving even then to control my body. And I did not know you, then. I thought you were my enemy!’

  ‘Nor did I know you. Not as I do now. Yet already we were bound by a Skill-link, for I had had to go after your soul once before and haul it back to your body.’ I hesitated, then decided I would not speak of that other being I had encountered, the great being that had aided us both to return. That memory remained hazy even for me. Best not to bring up what I could not explain. I took a breath. ‘I knew Peladine was within you. And that she would stop at nothing to kill me, even if she had to damage you in the process. It frightened me. And then, in my anger and fear for my life, I commanded you, “Dutiful, stop fighting me.” It was a Skill-command. One that printed itself onto your mind with far more force than I intended. I never meant to do it, Dutiful. It was an accident, one I have regretted, and one I have tried to amend. I thought I had amended it.’ I felt an unwanted smile twist my mouth. ‘I thought I had lifted it from you, right up until the very moment when I tried to keep you from your foolish declaration in the hall. Only then did I perceive that some final shadow of it remained, and only when you broke it.’

  ‘Yes. I broke it.’ He spoke with satisfaction. Then he glared at me again. ‘But knowing that it existed, knowing that you can do such a thing to me, how can I ever trust you again?’

  I was still pondering an answer to that when Thick pushed the mantel-side door open. The entry was an even tighter fit for the stout-bodied man than for me, and he was festooned with cobwebs and powdered with dust. For a moment he stood blinking his sleepy-looking eyes at the startled Prince and me. His jaw was thrust forward, his tongue protruding thoughtfully. Then he spoke. ‘I come for my whistle.’

  And you shall have it,’ I said. I scooped it up from the table and held it out to him, dangling by its green string. Gently, I added, ‘And that was good Skilling, Thick. You followed my directions and here you are.’

  He shuffled forward suspiciously. I doubt that he recognized prince Dutiful, out of context of his throne and robes of state.

  He included him in his scowl as he said, ‘You made me come a long way.’ Then he snatched the whistle and held it close to his peering little eyes. Then he frowned. This isn’t my whistle!’

  ‘It is now,’ I told him. ‘It’s a new one, made especially for you. Did you see the birds on it?’

  He turned it in his hands, then grudgingly admitted, ‘I like hirds.’ Then he turned to go, the whistle clutched to his chest.

  The Prince was staring at him in dismay bordering on disgust. I knew the Mountain way for babes such as Thick had been; he would have been exposed to a swift and perhaps merciful death much as Burrich would have drowned a deformed puppy. But Queen Kettricken had commanded that I train this man. Would Mountain ethics prevent Dutiful from accepting Thick? I tried not to hope that the Prince would refuse him as a coterie member. I wanted to delay Thick’s leaving. ‘Aren’t you even going to try it, Thick?’

  ‘No.’ Thick was shuffling toward the door.

  ‘Try that tune you Skill to yourself. The one that goes la-da-da-da-de—’ Even as I tried to mimic hack to him the music I had come to know by heart, Thick spun around to face me. Outrage glittered in his little eyes.

  ‘Mine!’ He roared. ‘My song! My Mum’s song!’ He came at me with murder in his eyes. He lifted the whistle as if it were a knife that he could plunge into my heart.

  ‘I’m sorry, Thick. I didn’t realize that was private.’ But I should have, I suddenly knew. I gave ground before him. His body was thick, his limbs short and awkward, his belly pudgy. I knew that in a physical struggle, I could master him. I also knew it would involve hurting him, because that would be the only way to defeat him. I didn’t want to do that. I needed his goodwill. I darted behind the table.

  ‘My song!’ Thick repeated. ‘Dog poop stink stealer!’

  An unwilling bubble of laughter burst from the Prince’s lips. I think he was both horrified and fascinated by the spectacle of the dimwit attacking me over a song. Then a sudden frown divided his brow. Even as I circled the table, trying to keep it between Thick and me until I could find a way to calm him, the Prince suddenly laimed, ‘I know that song!’ He hummed a short bit of it, making Thick’s scowl deepen. ‘It’s the first thing that I always hear when to Skill. It comes from you?’ His question was incredulous.

  My song!’ Thick asse
rted again. ‘My Mum’s song! You can’t hear it. Only me!’ He diverted his steps and suddenly charged the Prince in a wild run. As he went, he caught up the brandy bottle, lifting it like a club heedless of the liquor that galloped out of it and down his arm. The Prince’s eyes went wide, but he was too foolishly proud ro retreat before Thick’s onslaught. He stood his ground, dropping into the fighter’s crouch I’d taught him. His hand moved to his belt knife. In response, I felt Thick’s mind-numbing cloud of Don’t see me, don’t see me, don’t see me even as he closed on the Prince. I saw Dutiful struggle against the little man’s Skill and felt him begin to mount a blast of his own to thrust through it.

  ‘No!’ I roared in dismay. ‘Don’t hurt each other!’

  And my command shimmered with an edge of Skill. I saw them both flinch at it, saw them both spin to confront me, arms upraised as if that would ward off the magic. I could almost see it rebound from them, but just for an instant it dizzied them both. The backwash of my command as they instinctively repulsed it giddied me, but I recovered faster than they did. The Prince staggered back a step, while Thick lifted his pudgy hands to cover his eyes. I was horrified at what I had done, yet when they stood still and for a moment docile, I added, ‘That’s enough. You must never attack one another that way. Not if you are going to work together to master the Skill.’ I was proud that I kept my voice from shaking.

  Dutiful shook his head and then spoke in a dazed voice. ‘You did it again! You dared to use the Skill against me!’

  ‘That I did,’ I admitted, and then demanded, ‘What else would you have me do? Watch you blast the sense from one another? Have you ever met your cousin August, Dutiful? That drooling, doddering old man? What happened to him was an accident. Yet there have been instances of Skill-users maiming one another in a battle such as you both nearly engaged in. Yes, and there have been deaths as well, deaths that seared the ones who wrought them almost as severely as the ones that died.’

  Dutiful leaned against the table. Thick lowered his hands from his eyes slowly. He’d bitten his tongue and it dripped blood. Dutiful spoke to both of us. ‘I am your prince. You are sworn to me. How dare you attack me?’

  I took a breath and reluctantly stepped up to the task Chade had laid upon me. ‘Not here.’ I said quietly. ‘It is true that I am sworn to the Farseers. I serve them, as best I may. And to serve them best in this, know this well, Dutiful. In this room, you are not my prince but my student. And just as your swordmaster deals you bruises with a blunt blade to teach you, so will I use whatever force is necessary.’ I swung my eyes to Thick, who was pouting sourly at us both. ‘In this room, Thick is not a servant. Here, he is my student.’ I looked from one to another and buckled them into the harness they must share. ‘Here you are equals. Students. I will respect you as such, and I will demand that you respect each other as such. But make no mistake. Within this chamber, during the hours of our lessons, my authority is absolute.’ I looked from one to the other. ‘Do you both understand this?’

  The Prince looked stubborn, and Thick suspicious. ‘Not a servant?’ he asked slowly.

  ‘Not if you choose to be a student here. To learn what I have to teach. So that, eventually, you can help the Prince.’

  He scowled, working through it slowly. ‘Help the Prince. Work for him. Servant. More work for Thick.’ His little eyes glittered maliciously as he exposed what he thought was my hidden intention.

  I shook my head again. ‘No. Help the Prince. As his coterie. His friend.’

  ‘Oh, please,’ Dutiful groaned disdainfully.

  ‘Not a servant,’ This obviously pleased Thick. It gave me yet another insight into him. I would have thought him too dull to care what his position was in the world. Yet plainly, he would prefer not to be a servant.

  ‘Yes. But only if you are a student. If you do not come here, every day, and try to learn what I teach, then you are not a student. Thick is the servant again. Haul the wood, fetch the water.’

  He set the empty bottle down on the table. Hastily he looped the string of the whistle around his neck. ‘I’m keeping the whistle,’ he insisted, as if that were an important part of the bargain.

  ‘Servant or student, the whistle belongs to Thick.’ I told him. This seemed to set back his understanding of the situation. His fat little tongue pushed farther out of his mouth as he considered it.

  ‘You cannot be serious,’ the Prince said in an undertone. ‘That is to be a member of my coterie?’

  I knew both an instant of sympathy for him and a strong irritation with his disdain for Thick. I spoke levelly. ‘He is the best candidate that Chade and I have discovered so far. Unless, of course, you have encountered others with his natural predilection for the Skill?’

  He stood silent, then shook his head unwillingly. In some comer of my mind, I was amused that he was more distressed at the idea of Thick being his fellow student than he was by my declaration that I would treat them both the same during our lessons. I decided to take advantage of his temporary distraction. ‘Good. That’s settled, then. And I believe we’ve all learned enough for one morning. I shall expect you both to be on time tomorrow. For now, you are dismissed.’

  Thick was just as happy to leave. Still clutching his whistle, he scuttled for the mantel door. As he shut it behind him, the Prince asked in a low voice, ‘Why are you doing this to me?’

  ‘Because I am sworn to the Farseer reign. To serve it as best I can. And you, Dutiful, are now dismissed.’

  I hoped he would turn toward the door, but he did not. Not until there was a sharp rap at it. We both startled. I glanced at the Prince, who called out loudly, ‘What is it?’

  The voice of a young page reached us through the stout timbers of the door. ‘A message for you, Prince Dutiful, sir, from Councillor Chade. He bade me beg your pardon, but also said to let you know it was urgent.’

  ‘A moment.’

  I faded back to a corner of the room as the Prince went to the door, unlatched it, opened it a crack and accepted a small, sealed scroll. As I watched him, I reflected sourly that despite all else Skillmaster Galen had been he had been right in several areas. No students of his would ever have dared attack one another, let alone question his authority over them. He had immediately reduced all his students to a harsh equality, though I had been the exception to that; all had known that he regarded me as beneath them. As much as it choked me, I needed to emulate at least some of his attitudes even as I refused his harsh techniques. Discipline is not the same as punishment, I thought, and recognized it as an echo of some old words of Burrich’s.

  The Prince had shut the door behind him and picked the wax off the scroll. Then he frowned as he unrolled it to reveal a second, sealed scroll within it. ‘I think this must be for you,’ he said uneasily. In a script I would never have recognized as Chade’s the word ’teacher’ was written on the outside of the scroll. At the sight of my own charging Farseer buck impressed in the wax, I took the scroll from Dutiful’s hand.

  ‘It is,’ I agreed shortly. I turned aside from him, broke the wax, and read the single sentence. Then as he watched, I consigned it to the fire.

  ‘What was it?’ the Prince demanded.

  ‘A summons,’ I said shortly. ‘I must go now. But I expect to see you on time tomorrow, and ready to learn. Good day, my prince.’

  His stunned silence followed me as I squeezed behind the fireplace mantel and shut and latched the little door behind me. Once within the narrow passageway, I hurried as much as I could. Silently I cursed the low ceilings, the corners I must squeeze past and the labyrinthine wandering of the burrows when I wished to run as fast as I could in the straightest possible line.

  When I arrived at my peephole outside the Queen’s private audience chamber, my mouth was parched and I was panting like a hound. I took several deep breaths, forced myself to stand still until my breathing was steady and silent again. Then I flung myself down on the little stool and applied my eye to the tiny peephole. I was late. Chade
and Queen Kettricken were already there, the Queen seated while the councillor stood at her shoulder. Their backs were to me. A gangly boy of perhaps ten years stood before them. His dark curls were sweated to his skull, and the hem of his cloak dripped muddy snow-water on the floor. The low shoes he wore had never been intended for winter travel. Caked snow was still melting on his leggings and feet. Wherever he had come from, he must have walked all night. His dark eyes were immense but he met his Queen’s gaze steadily. ‘I see,’ she said

  Her answer seemed to embolden him. I wished I had heard the entire conversation. ‘Yes, ma’am,’ he agreed. ‘And so, hearing that you would not tolerate what was being done to the Witted, I came to you. Maybe here in Buckkeep I can just be what I am and not get beaten for it. I prorhise I’ll never use it to any low end. I will vow myself to the Farseers and serve you well in any way you ask of me.’ He lifted his eyes to meet the Queen’s, not a bold stare but an honest, direct look from a boy confident that he had chosen the right path. I stared at Burrich’s son, seeing Molly mingled in the boy’s cheekbones and lashes. ‘And your father approved of this?’ Chade asked, stern but gentle.

  The boy looked away. When he spoke, his voice was softer. ‘My father doesn’t know, sir. I just left when I knew that I couldn’t take it any more. I won’t be missed. You saw our home. He has other sons, good sons who are not Witted.’

  ‘That does not mean he won’t miss you, Nim.’

  For the first time, the boy looked annoyed. I’m not Nim. Nimble doesn’t have the Wit. I’m Swift, the other twin. See, that’s another reason that my father won’t miss me. He already has one of me that’s perfect.’

  A shocked silence followed his words. I am sure he mistook the cause of it. When Kettricken spoke, she tried to mend it.

  ‘I knew Burrich, years ago. However much he may have changed, I am still certain that, Witted or no, he will miss you.’ Chade added, ‘When I spoke with Burrich, he seemed very fond and proud of all his children.’