The Album: Book One

by Pullo, Ashley

“Skynyrd!” Natalie shouts, returning to our table.

  Pete cups his mouth and yells, “Pearl Jam.”

  Sitting in the front row, Dennis suggests, “Stevie Nicks.”

  The audience shouts random things at her and she nods with each request. I wonder if she would perform Rainbow—

  “Chloe, I love you!” The voice echoes across the noisy bar and hits Chloe directly in the heart. She squints at something behind me and smiles – my smile. “Olive you,” the voice shouts again.

  Clenching my jaw, I look over my shoulder to find a guy standing with his arms crossed and his eyes raking lustfully over her body. This isn’t a stranger . . . this guy isn’t just a drunk hanging out in a bar . . . this guy is—

  “Jamie!” Natalie shrieks.

  Jamie. The artist. Holy shit.

  I don’t check out guys, ever – but this Jamie asshole is standing over me with his tattooed arms and only one thing on his mind – Chloe. He smiles at Natalie, glances at Pete and then returns his focus to the stage. I follow his gaze to find Chloe reciprocating the flirtation – like they’re the only people in the room.

  “Olive you,” Chloe whispers into the mic. She removes a rainbow-colored pick from the neck of her guitar and brings it to her lips, kissing it while winking at him. She strums a slow melody and the bastard actually sings along with her . . . to her. Oh, this is bullshit.

  “You’re the Falls to my Niagara,

  The quantum to my leap,

  The pimento to my olive,

  And the dreams to my sleep.”

  Holy shit, this is agonizing crap.

  “Shawn and Spike were star-crossed lovers,

  Wheels loved Zit Remedy,

  But you are my green olive,

  And I’m your winery.”

  Unbelievable. Chloe and this asshole are in some sort of sentimental wormhole. This is bullshit, and everyone is watching.

  “So let’s run away together,

  Like Michelle and BLT,

  We can live on the Niagara,

  Come and sail the Mist with me.

  Yes, you’re my green olive,

  And I’m your winery,

  You’re the Falls to my Niagara,

  and the dreams to my sleep.”

  Fucking shit. Who the fuck sings a song to each other in a bar?

  The stupid song finally comes to an end, but that only prompts the asshole to whistle and chant olives or some shit. God, I want to kick the crap out of that smug bastard. I fucking hate olives and Niagara Falls sucks.

  I stand abruptly to put on my jacket, distracting Chloe from her hypnotic trance with that Jamie fucker. I’m furious and she knows it . . . and I can only assume she watches me as I shove past him and walk out the door.

  Good for her – a childhood sweetheart and an idiot like me to screw on the side. Fuck this shit. I don’t need it and for fuck’s sake, I don’t need her.

  I walk five blocks south and then fumble for my Blackberry. Fiona’s name will always be on my contact list, she’s my lifeline, my fuck-a-friend.

  “Hey, it’s me. Twenty minutes?”

  Natalie

  September 13, 2003

  CHLOE’S GOING TO kill me. Unless . . . she never finds out.

  I quietly roll out of the king-sized bed and look on the floor for my underwear, but after last night’s fuckfest they could be anywhere.

  I had this stupid friend in Toronto who dropped her panties in the backseat of a cab and she actually went stomping into the taxi depot to retrieve them. Gross! I mean really, panties are replaceable, dignity is not.

  Casual sex has a motto: can’t find ’em, replace ’em. I digress.

  About last night . . .

  Last night was all kinds of fucked up.

  When Adam and his friend Pete sat down at the table I immediately felt uneasy. I never forget a face and I never forget a chest, and Adam was definitely familiar. The recollection was mutual and I know, underneath his charming Cary Grant smile, he was cringing in awkward discomfort. We’ll save that conversation for a later date.

  Then there was Pete – the face of a Von Trapp and the body of a Greek god. He spent the entire night flirting with me. I hated it. I hated it because I liked it and I shouldn’t have liked it because my heart belongs to Zach. Basically, the bar was a clusterfuck of twenty-something drama . . . me staring at Adam, Adam mesmerized by Chloe, and Pete sliding his hand all the way up my thigh underneath the table.

  And then Jamie arrived.

  Sometime around the fourth bottle of beer and the sudden departure of the mysterious Adam Ford, Pete and I decided that we both needed to get laid. For whatever his reason, mine was the simple fact that I was extremely lonely and slightly horny. Jamie encouraged me to get some while he stayed behind to watch Chloe finish her set. For the record, I basically let my panties do the talking.

  And for the record, they are now lost.

  Pete shifts in the bed, his deliciously lean body distracting my concentration. Wow – I slept with that! His tan torso is enough to make me dizzy, but the sexy way his stomach muscles contract and relax, begging to be licked . . . I’m doing it, I’m actually licking the air. And his Adonis upper half is nothing compared to his powerful, muscular, tense, strong, defined . . . oh yeah, his powerful, muscular, beastly legs. Pete mentioned he still plays soccer, and holy shit, does it show.

  My hand trails along the curve of my neck, thinking about Pete’s soft lips assaulting my body. Maybe one more time? Just to get it all out of my system—

  Fuck. Where’s my necklace?

  Opening his eyes like a baby animal for the first time, Pete asks, “Hey, what time is it?” Maybe he sensed me licking the empty space between us.

  I ignore his sexy bed head and rake my hands over the comforter. “What? I don’t know! Have you seen my gold necklace? The one with the star.”

  He sits up in the bed, the sheet barely covering his playful pecker, and yawns adorably. “Natalie, come back to bed and we’ll look for it after I make you breakfast.” Jesus, stop it.

  I spot my black panties on his dresser and leap over a pile of dirty clothes to grab them. “We can’t have breakfast, Pete. Ever.” I drop to the floor again and find my crepe top crumpled under his bed, but I only see one shoe and no pants. I stand up to find my bra hanging on the window’s curtain rod – holy crap, how’d that happen?

  Pete picks up his watch and squints to read the time. “Natalie, it’s four-thirty!”

  “Pete, you agree that this was a bad idea, right? My cousin was pretty much dumped by your jackass of a friend and I ditched her! You were supposed to take me home – look where that got us.” I frantically search for shorts or pants but settle on a pair of his Penn State sweatpants. If I don’t get back to the apartment before Chloe wakes up this is going to be bad.

  “First of all, you suggested that I take you home. And I know Adam – he was the one that was hurt.” Pete scratches his head beneath his blond cherub curls and smiles. “Let me call him. I can find out what happened.”

  “Are you fucking crazy? Seriously, stop smiling! I’ve spent months being sexually repressed and your dimples are making me hard – uh, wet – weak!” I quickly put on his sweatpants and roll them up to my knees. I don’t care what I look like, I need to get home to comfort Chloe and purge my mounting shame in a letter to Zach.

  Pete stands from the bed and grabs his boxers from a nearby chair. My other heel is under his briefs, exactly where I left it when we were fornicating like porn stars on that innocent little chair. I gather the rest of my things while he approaches me with a boner and a sheepish smile.

  “Natalie, please stay. We can talk about Adam and Chloe while we look for your necklace.” Pete places his hands on my shoulders and kisses my forehead. And even though it feels warm and friendly, it’s all wrong.

  He’s not Zach.

  I creep into our apartment a little after five a.m. and find Jamie, snoring on the sofa. His arm is dangling off the side and hi
s butt is in the air. Guys all sleep the same way, like wherever they fall, that’s where they stay. Find me one frat house on a Saturday morning that doesn’t have twenty guys sleeping on the floor.

  “Jamie!” I move closer and flick his back. “Jamie! Wake up.” He doesn’t move. Fuck it.

  Holding my breath, I quietly open the door to our bedroom. Chloe is sound asleep, so I crawl into bed and pull the comforter over my head. Shit, the sweatpants!

  “Nat?” Crap.

  I pop my head out from the comforter and smile. “Hey C, what’s up?”

  “Did you just get home – what time is it?”

  My plan is to be as honest as possible without revealing all the details. “I didn’t want to wake you.” Underneath the sheets, I slide off my sweatpants and then join Chloe in her bed.

  “Shit Nat, you stink.”

  “Subtle Chloe.” My smoking has increased over the past year and I forget that most people hate the smell. We face each other on the twin size bed and hold hands. “Are you okay?” I ask. Chloe’s eyes are bloodshot and she’s definitely been crying, but she’s the strongest person I know and things always work out for her.

  “I’m fine. Well, no – I’m pissed that the record representative didn’t even give me his business card.”

  “That sucks. They’re missing out.” I move a piece of hair from her face and smile sweetly. She’s been exceptionally private about her relationship with Adam, which can only mean that she considers it special. “And Adam?” I ask cautiously. I can’t help but think that it’s my fault. Maybe he did recognize me and maybe . . . oh shit – maybe I’ve slept with him!

  “Nat.” Chloe lowers her head and sighs. “He left.”

  I nervously bite the inside of my lip. “What if he’s a spy and was called on a mission or maybe he really hates your guitar!” Or maybe he decided the cousin-thing was too weird.

  Chloe smiles politely but my stupid jokes aren’t helping. “Chloe, did you see Adam when you were singing? The guy was practically masturbating.”

  Chloe lifts her head and rubs her eyes. “I did. But I also saw his anger right before he walked out the door. I could feel it, too. The heat, I mean.”

  “I don’t know what happened sweetie, but I’m sure you can talk to him.”

  “Why? There’s no point.”

  I don’t want to push the subject and I actually have a little of my own P.I. work to do before I feel comfortable discussing Adam Ford. How can I give her advice if I’m the reason it fell apart?

  Chloe motions to the door and giggles. I turn my head to find Jamie, in tiny leopard-print briefs, skipping toward us. He jumps on the bed and tousles my hair.

  “Nat, you look like shit.” Jamie pulls Chloe into his arms and smirks.

  “I know! I’m a hot mess – get over it!” I lunge forward and whack his shoulder.

  “Where did you go anyway?” Chloe asks.

  I’m so ashamed and I really don’t want this to become a backstabbing episode of Melrose Place – so I lie. “I fell asleep in a cab. The bastard drove me to Midtown.”

  They both look at me oddly, but I’m such lunatic that they shrug it off.

  “Hey Jamie, don’t you have something to tell Nat?” Chloe nudges Jamie in the ribs.

  “Fine. You know Brett the bartender? The one with spiky blond hair and huge fucking biceps?”

  “Yes, I’ve been flirting with Bartender Brett for weeks.” As soon as I finish my sentence, Jamie and Chloe burst with fits of laughter. Holy crap. He can’t be! “Oh shit, Jamie, is he gay?”

  “Mmm, very,” he says while making kissing noises.

  My dearest Zacharie,

  I can only pray that when you read this letter you will still love me. I’ve done something horrible. I lost my necklace. My star is gone.

  Please forgive me.

  XOnat

  “Whatcha doing Natster?” Jamie asks.

  I crumple the letter and toss it in the wastebasket – it’s only my sixth attempt. “My diary. What’s up?”

  “Let’s go for a run. Or shopping. Yes, let’s go shopping! I’m going home tomorrow and I need some ankle boots.” Jamie rummages through my clothes and frowns disapprovingly. “Chloe, doll, we’re going shopping,” he yells toward the kitchen.

  “Ankle boots – like Fonzi?” I ask, putting on a sweater.

  Jamie’s eyes expand in excitement. “Yes, perfect. Where can I get some?”

  “You’re such a dork, Jamie.”

  This will be good. The Canadian Triplets together again – three friends doing what we do best . . . making each other laugh and avoiding real conversation at all costs.

  Chloe and Jamie walk ahead of me, laughing and commenting on everything around them. They can finish each other’s sentences, start each other’s thoughts, and inspire each other’s creativity. She writes, he paints, and the end result is always artistic gold. When they’re together, the world is their stage, and I’m perfectly fine with being in the audience . . . because it’s always a good show.

  We’ve been a threesome since junior high, and during one pot-fueled night in 1995, we almost had a threesome. Jamie was confused with his sexuality, Chloe wanted to change him, and I was basically just invited to the party. Luckily, it got weird really fast and it never happened, but the following week, Jamie and Chloe broke the barrier of virginity in a seedy motel outside Ottawa.

  Jamie was definitely gay. And Chloe was definitely in love with him. And it would make sense that our dynamic would completely change, but friendship always beats out uncomfortable sexual pretense sprinkled with teenage angst. Always.

  September 22, 2003

  MONDAYS SUCK. EVERY socialite in the tri-state area calls at exactly 10:15 a.m. Monday morning to schedule an appointment for their upcoming big event. And every client thinks their event is the Vogue party of the year. Currently, I’m planning a Roarin’ Twenties Bat Mitzvah, a Halloween party in Sleepy Hollow, and my favorite, a White Trash engagement party.

  Molly and I have two clients coming by today to finalize their details and bitch about the price – the richer they are, the less money they want to spend. And then I have to haul ass to Queens to meet with an authentic Greek caterer that also serves kosher and halal – um? But first, I check my emails.

  Rien.

  I haven’t received a letter or email from Zach in two weeks. He mentioned in his last letter that prior to his furlough, he might be isolated and he may not have access to anything. But I guess I expect Zach to find a way.

  “Natalie, you have a visitor.” Molly floats through the door in a leopard cape hugging a tangerine dress that probably cost twice my weekly salary. Damn, I want her wardrobe. She hands me a latte and smiles excitedly. “I told him to come in, but he insisted on staying in the waiting room. Natalie, he looks like an angel!”

  “Are you sure he asked for me?” Jamie left a week ago and most of the guys I know look like metrosexual-bisexual-druggie-stockbroker-hockey players – no angels.

  “Yes, you silly goose,” Molly says as she proceeds to her desk.

  I minimize my computer screen, smooth out my shirt and take a quick peek at my reflection in the mirror above my desk. Is it normal to have bags this dark at my age? But my bags won’t stop my enthusiasm to meet an admirer, unless it’s that crazy hobo that shakes his boot at me or an officer of the court serving me pap—

  Oh, it’s Pete.

  Cherub Pete with the amazing body and inappropriate timing. Cupid Pete, smiling adorably and holding a tiny bag in his large, capable hands. The Pete that was to remain a sexual fantasy in my head for solo nights. Damn.

  “Hey Natalie,” he says cautiously. “Before you yell and scream or do that thing with your nose, just listen.”

  I grab his arm and lead him to the hall. “How do you know where I work? And why – why are you here, Pete?”

  “You told me where you work. We had an actual conversation at the bar, Natalie.” Pete shakes his head and crosses his arms. “I
’m a chef and you wanted to know if I’d consider catering – for your events – you gave me your card. God, please tell me you remember something.” Irritated, he takes a step back and frowns.

  “Yes, of course. I’m sorry, I just thought we agreed to sort of . . . not do this.”

  “Right. Anyway, I found your necklace and wanted to return it to you.” He hands me the bag and I pull out my little gold star. Pete helps me clasp it around my neck. “I’m not your enemy, Natalie. In fact, I was hoping we could be friends.”

  “I don’t know. Look, without sounding overly dramatic, I have a lot of confusing shit going on right now and your friendship will only complicate things. Can you just give me some time to think about it?” I really like Pete. He’s sweet and funny and very creative in bed, but I don’t need any added guilt on top of the dirty thoughts I’m thinking right now.

  “Sure. Oh, and I talked to Adam – well actually, we’re not in a habit of talking about our feelings, but he did say he had to leave the bar because it was uncomfortable. That’s all I got from him.”

  Holy shit. Things got real. “Wow, okay, well – um, tell him to fuck off. No! I didn’t mean that. Tell him he’s only hurting Chloe and he’s a big hairy pussy for being so weak. Wait – tell . . .”

  “Natalie, it’s best to drop it. And just because I like you, a guy doesn’t give another guy relationship advice.”

  “You’re right.” I sigh. “Pete, thank you for returning my necklace. I have to get back to a meeting.” I reach up to hug him and he sweetly rubs my back – it’s like he knows that I’m conflicted and confused. “Thank you for everything,” I say into his neck.

  “No problem. Take care, Natalie – maybe we’ll cross paths again someday,” he says hopefully.

  “Maybe.” After a few seconds of awkward silence, I walk back to the waiting room. I pause, turn back to look at him, but he’s gone. This will be easier than I thought.

  “Details, please!” Molly exclaims.

  I close the large door that leads into our office and wave her off. “Molly, it was just a guy that found something of mine. Where are we on the Metcalf Barn Dance?” I ask, quickly changing the subject.