Till Death Us Do Part

by V, Krissy

  We go up to the honeymoon suite in the lift and I can't keep my hands off Felix, he looks so gorgeous in his suit, he is so handsome, how was I so lucky?

  We reach our suite and he lifts me up across his body and carries me into the room and lays me gently on the bed. He then says "Stand up babe, you look so gorgeous today I could just eat you. Actually wait you're my wife I can eat you anytime I want to." He has a big grin on his face.

  I stand at the bottom of the bed while he undoes the small buttons on the back of my dress, halfway down he gets impatient and just rips the rest of the buttons and they fly across the room. I turn around and glare at him. "What the hell Felix? The dress is too nice to do that to." I'm really mad at him.

  "What's the fuss for Tasha? You're not going to wear it again" he says ripping the rest of the dress off me.

  "That's not the point" I say looking him in the eye. “It’s my wedding dress Felix, it’s special!”

  "Come on Tasha let's get you out of it, I want to take what's mine" he says staring into my eyes with that gorgeous smile he has. I never could resist that smile.

  I smile back at him and say "Come and get it then hubby!" I don't need to say anything else, he comes up to me and removes all my clothes and underwear in one swift move, I don't know how he does it, but right now I don't care!

  Chapter 2

  THE MORNING AFTER THE wedding we have booked an early alarm call because we have to be on a flight at 8am, luckily the hotel isn't far from the airport and we can eat breakfast there. When we arrive at the airport, we find the check in line and stand in the queue. Felix holds my hand and periodically leans down and kisses me.

  "I'm so happy we’re married Tasha. I can't believe it" he smiles. Anyone looking at us would realise we were newly weds because we can’t stop touching each other or kissing. When we’ve checked our bags in we go through security and then to the restaurant to have breakfast, we have two hours to kill before we board the plane.

  We talk about yesterday and how well it all went, who was there, what everyone was doing. I'm exhausted and can't wait to sleep on the plane, the flight is just over thirteen hours. We have to take a forty five minute flight to Heathrow and then we fly to Dubai where we have a few hours before the flight to the Seychelles. It’s a lot of travelling, but it will be worth it to spend some quality time with Felix: no wedding to organize; no work to discuss; just the two of us together, twenty four hours a day for the two weeks. My idea of heaven!

  When we land in the Seychelles there is a town car waiting to collect us. Felix booked the Honeymoon, I didn’t have any idea where we were going until the day before the Wedding. He told me “We are going to The Seychelles - pack accordingly.” I don’t think I had a clear idea of what I wanted for a Honeymoon, but Felix knew from the moment he asked me to marry him where he wanted to take me. It was easier to just let him organize it. It was busy enough organizing the dress and flowers as it was.

  When we arrive at the Four Seasons Hotel, I am in awe! It is so beautiful here, the hotel overlooks the Indian Ocean and also a rainforest. We go into reception to check in and the Bell Boy brings our bags in and takes them to our room. Our room – wow! We must have the best view of the whole island, I can see for miles out on the balcony. The Indian Ocean is almost turquoise in colour and it’s surrounded by lush green rainforest. The two colours complement each other so well it’s like they belong together, just like me and Felix.

  When we have finished looking around our room – it’s called the Serenity Villa and I can see why, we make good use of the emperor sized bed and the start to our Honeymoon. There are many bars and restaurants in the hotel so we don’t even need to go outside our resort, it’s a very relaxed atmosphere and we just take it easy. There is a spa and I make sure I take the time to take some treatments.

  The two weeks we spend here are wonderful, just the two of us and Felix has been so happy, and that ultimately makes me happy too. Although, one night we had quite a few drinks and there was another couple sat at the bar when we got down there. We had noticed them on a few occasions sat in the bar together, drinking and arguing very loudly. Anyway, this particular night, the guy was on his own and he had drunk a lot, he started leering at me and trying to chat me up. Felix was not amused and started to get in the guy’s face, I had to pull him away and take him back to our room. He was going mad, shouting and then I caught him trying to smash one of the vases in the room.

  “Felix, stop! You’re scaring me! The guy was drunk and he’d obviously fallen out with his girlfriend!” I grab his arm and try to pull him down onto the couch. “Felix” I say when I get him on the couch, I then climb onto his lap and straddle him so that he is sitting in place. In this position I can grab both sides of his face in my hands so that he has to look at me and then I kiss him. This helps to calm him down and he kisses me back roughly, then he puts his arms around me and pulls me close to him.

  “Sorry Tasha” he says when he calms down. “That guy was really annoying me, he was close to touching you and I didn’t like that.” He pulls me in even tighter. We made love again that night but it didn’t feel the same as usual, it felt more emotional, rushed and slightly rough.

  The rest of the Honeymoon went without a hitch and we had a fabulous time. He is so attentive and can’t do enough for me, I realise that I'm so lucky to have him in my life. We talk about children and wonder whether I am pregnant already. That would be fantastic, but I don't think I am, I don’t feel like I am.

  We start planning our life now that we are married. I know that when I go home, and back to reality, I have to start looking for a new job. The one I have now involves travelling around the country and I know that I don't want to be away from Felix for too long anymore. I talk to him about this and he feels the same, he hates it when I have to travel and stay overnight without him. I do, however, feel he is a little hesitant in me working somewhere else, I can’t quite put my finger on it, but I get the impression I’m more excited about the prospect than he is.

  Soon enough we are on our way back home and, again, we stop in Dubai, but we stay the night this time. It is an amazing place and I can’t believe what a fabulous time we have both had over the last two weeks. It was definitely the best way to start our married life together. We lived together before we were married so it's not new to us. We’ve always had our own friends and had time apart to do things with our friends, even though we did live together. I'm sure that will continue, there’s no reason why that should change and anyway we don't want to crowd each other. Working together and living together can be difficult sometimes, we are just lucky that we don’t argue or fight so we don’t take any bad moods into the workplace.

  Chapter 3

  WE WERE HOME FOR a few days when we had to go back to work, life is looking good! As soon as I got home I started looking for a job, I'm an Administration Manager and look after paperwork and facilities. It's a “catch all” kind of a job. It’s because we have three sites situated around the country that I have to travel and I don't want to anymore, I want to be at home with my husband of an evening not sitting in a hotel room on my own.

  I find a couple of jobs I'm interested in and apply for them. I'm excited because I've been in my job for five years and I love the work that I do. It will be really nerve wracking to start somewhere new, but it will be challenging too.

  I hear back from two jobs and I've arranged interviews with them. One is for a Marketing Company, Blue Eye, doing an Administration Manager’s role. The second job is for a Facilities Company, Clifton Associates, looking after their premises. It’s similar to what I do now, but they only have offices in the Bristol area where I live. I'm very lucky that both interviews are arranged for early mornings so I don't have to have time off work, this makes it a lot easier for me.

  The first interview goes very well and I really like Helen, the HR Manager for Blue Eye. I like their approach to work, they are relaxed but you can see they work hard. There is a second interview
stage with the Operations Director and then if that is successful there is a meeting with their CEO. Wow, that's a lot of interviews, but they are a prestigious company and want the right candidate. I finish the interview, shake Helen’s hand and tell her that I look forward to hearing from them.

  I leave the company with a smile on my face and I realize that I really want this job. I ring Felix to tell him the interview went well but he's not as enthusiastic about it as I am. I don't understand why. I thought he would be happy that it went well. I go to work and don’t get time to think about it because today I have some new procedures to implement in each department and I know I will see Felix shortly because he works in the Sales Department.

  I remember the day that I first met Felix, he started working at the company and, as I look after the Facilities Management, he was introduced to me on his first day. I had to help him with his office and his requirements for his computers and his furniture. When I saw him that first day I couldn’t breathe, he was so beautiful standing there in the middle of an empty office and he just stared at me. It was at that moment I hoped he felt the same about me.

  He is dark haired, with a style that is longer on top and shorter at the back and sides. He has blue eyes that are like a pool you can dive into. He had a small bit of stubble, like a five o’clock shadow even though it was only ten in the morning. He was dressed like he had just finished filming an advertisement for Armani. Wow he was stunning, a very handsome and striking man.

  We chatted for a couple of hours and as well as organising his office we had arranged our first date. Felix was the catch of the office, he was funny, he always knew what to say to cheer me up and he could always make me smile. The other girls in the office were always jealous of me when I first started dating Felix, they would always make jokes about trying to steal him away, but luckily, Felix only had eyes for me.

  It's a bit strange working with him but we don't normally bump into each other during the day. When I go down to his department, he comes to meet me and says "I'm not happy about you looking for a job somewhere else Tasha." He seems angry. "I won't be able to keep an e...I won't be able to help you with jobs. I enjoy that babe!"

  "I know you do, but I'm not stretched enough, I need more of a challenge. Anyway, it won't be good for our marriage to work together, share the same work colleagues and live together." I smile at him, but I heard what he was going to say, why would he want to keep an eye on me? He is starting to act really strange and I can't quite put my finger on it. "I'd rather you didn't mention it in the office darling, I don't want anyone to know I'm looking for another job just yet" I say rubbing his arm.

  He grumbles something then walks off with a backward glance he says "We'll talk about it later Tasha" and he stomps off. Wow, what is going on with him? He was never like this before we got married, it's like he's changing in front of my eyes. I do the presentation to his department showing the new procedures we will be implementing and all the time I can feel Felix staring at me. I don't like the feeling at all. I shrug it off and go back to my department.

  The rest of the day passes quickly and then I'm on my way home, when I get in I start preparing dinner so that when Felix comes home his dinner is ready. He likes his dinner to be ready on the table, he doesn't like to wait. We sit down to dinner and there is a silence between us, I decide to say something. "Felix are you ok? You’re very quiet tonight."

  He stops eating, puts his knife and fork down and looks me in the eye and says "You looked like a tart today when you were giving the presentation, all the lads were staring, your top was too low!" He sneers at me.

  "What? I don't believe you just said that to me, that is so hurtful." I start sobbing. I can't believe he would speak to me that way, he never has before.

  "I can't believe you went to an interview dressed like that, of course they’ll give you the job dressed like that, they probably think they can look down your top everyday." He looks so angry.

  "It was a lady that interviewed me." I say during sobs. "There is nothing wrong with my top and what gives you the right to say that to me anyway?" Obviously that was the wrong thing to say as he gets up from his chair and strides over to my side of the table, grabs my ponytail and pulls it so hard that I have to look up at him. "YOU are my wife and no one else will look at you with lust in their eyes, only I'm allowed to do that." He lets go of my hair, walks back to his chair, sits down and resumes eating his dinner. I'm sitting there with my mouth open staring at him with tears running down my face. I don't know what to say, so I just sit there. He looks at me then says "Go and wipe your face you look a mess."

  I get up from the table, go out of the room to the downstairs toilet and sob silently. What the hell just happened out there? I clean my face, then go and sit back at the table. I'm not hungry now so I just sit there with my head bowed down. I don't want to look at him!

  "So babe, tell me about the interview, how did it go?" he says still eating his dinner. Is he serious? "Come on tell me!" he’s starting to shout!

  So I tell him about Blue Eye and Helen, the HR Manager and about the three stages of interviews. I tell him I'm really excited about this job and that I loved the company. He sits there nodding his head at me and asking a few questions. "I have another interview with Clifton Associates, a Facilities Company tomorrow, the job looks good too, but I think today's job would be better all round" I say waiting for him to say something.

  "Sounds good, let's see what happens, good luck tomorrow" he says. He stands up, puts his plate in the sink and says "I'm going to watch TV" and walks out the room. He's being so weird, normally the two of us would do the dishes and chat about the day and what's ahead for the week.

  I try to ignore it and just do the dishes, then I walk into the lounge. "Don't forget it's Luca's birthday this weekend, we are going to Jesters for a party on Saturday night" I say, I'm really looking forward to going out and spending some time with our friends.

  "I don't think we’ll be going" he says and I look at him with my mouth open.

  "What?!" I shout. "He's your best friend Felix, you have to go!"

  "I know who he is Tasha. I don't think it's our scene anymore, we don't need to go out and party every weekend" he says still watching the TV and not looking at me at all.

  "It's not every weekend! It's this weekend and this is not a night you can back out of." I'm astounded that he wants to back out, he likes his drink as much as the rest of the lads.

  "I DON’T want to go! I want to stay in" he shouts. "Don't you listen to me". He's getting really angry now, I don't understand it. He never shouts and especially not at me. Obviously he had a bad day.

  "Ok if that's what you want. I'm tired and I'm going to bed" I tell him and go up the stairs. I don't even know whether he said goodnight or not. I get undressed, put my nightdress on and slip under the covers. My mind is racing, what could be wrong with him? He’s acting so weird, I can’t believe he doesn’t want to go out for Luca’s birthday, Felix always wants to go out when Luca is going out. I fall asleep but know I'm in for a restless night.

  Chapter 4

  I'M HAVING A DREAM about Felix where he is being really romantic; he’s bought me flowers to apologise for his behaviour. I smile, then he looks at me with lust in his eyes and starts touching my breasts through my nightdress, this dream feels so real. He lifts my nightdress and then he takes one of my nipples in his mouth, he's flicking it with his tongue. I moan and then his other hand moves down between my legs and he starts rubbing my clit. I'm really enjoying this dream. All of a sudden he bites down on my nipple and I scream, it hurts. I sit up in the bed, my heart racing and Felix is sat there with no clothes on, smirking.

  It was obviously not a dream and he was touching me while I was sleeping. "Felix Oh My God! What are you doing? Why did you bite me?" I ask because I'm so confused.

  "I wanted you to wake up, I didn't want to have to masturbate. I wanted you to do it for me, you are my WIFE after all" he says looking up and down my
body.

  "Felix, what is going on? You're not yourself at all today" I ask wrapping my arms around myself. I feel like he is looking at me like a piece of meat or a piece of arse.

  “Nothing's wrong with me babe I just want you. I want my wife" he says licking his lips, he looks like a hungry fox. He starts to push me back down on the bed. I struggle a little bit because I'm really not in the mood, he treated me badly earlier and now he wants to have sex with me. Who does he think he is.

  "Felix get off me, I was asleep, leave me alone. You've been horrible to me all night and now you want to have sex with me. No! It's not happening."

  He looks so angry as he pins my hands above my head and laughs "You think that just because you say no - it means I'm not going to take what belongs to me. You really don't know me if that's the case." He starts ripping my nightdress with his free hand and scratching me at the same time.

  "Felix please stop" I'm sobbing now and shouting. "Please stop!”

  "I'm not going to stop until I’M ready to stop" he spits at me as he's ripping my panties. He seems to be enjoying me struggling against him, so I decide that it will be easier not to struggle. I just go limp and let him do what he wants to do. He finally cums and pulls out. "Now that was the best sex we've ever had" he says as he gets off me and walks into the bathroom.

  I get up and go out to the other bathroom and lock the door. I run the bath and when it's ready I get in it and sob. I can't believe what he just did to me, and I can’t believe the way he is treating me at the moment. I lay in the bath for about an hour, I don't know what I'm going to do, who can I talk to? No one will believe me. I don’t know if I can believe what just happened myself, how can I convince someone else to believe me? I lift the plug out and let the water drain out around me, it feels like I’m being pulled down through the plug hole, like all my worries draining away, but I know that's just not true. I dry myself off and go into the bedroom, Felix is fast asleep sprawled out on the bed. I want to go into the spare room and sleep, but I don't know how he would react to that and I don't want to annoy him just in case he does something else to me. So, I slip into bed beside him and roll onto my side as far away as I can get. I eventually fall asleep.