My Lost and Found Life

by Melodie Bowsher

  For Mia and Luca

  And especially for my mother

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  Contents

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  Chapter Twenty-Four

  Chapter Twenty-Five

  Chapter Twenty-Six

  Chapter Twenty-Seven

  Chapter Twenty-Eight

  Chapter Twenty-Nine

  Chapter Thirty

  Chapter Thirty-One

  Epilogue

  Acknowledgments

  By the Same Author

  Praise for My Lost and Found Life

  Chapter One

  Five days before I graduated from high school, my mother embezzled a million dollars and disappeared.

  Thinking back, I can’t recall anything unusual about that day. No “funny feelings” tickled the back of my neck; no suspicions nagged my subconscious. Some time later, when I looked up my horoscope for that day, I found the stars provided no hint that I would never again feel safe or confident about the future. I would have laughed in scorn if anyone had predicted that I, the homecoming queen, the most popular girl in my high school, would soon be homeless and alone, bedding down in an unheated camper with a knife under my pillow.

  Even now, five years later, I still wonder—if I had known, could I have somehow changed the outcome?

  That morning began in the usual way. I ignored both my alarm and the sunlight streaming through my bedroom window and stayed burrowed in my warm bed. I was often late and sometimes skipped first and second periods entirely. I was an expert at imitating my mother’s handwriting and always wrote a plausible excuse for myself: Please excuse Ashley’s tardiness, as she wasn’t feeling well, blah, blah, blah. I wasn’t fooling the school’s attendance secretary, but she was obviously sick of dealing with me. The administration was pretty lax with the graduating seniors spring semester, no doubt in happy anticipation of our imminent departure.

  That particular morning I managed to throw off my comforter at the last minute and rushed around, showering, applying makeup, wriggling into my jeans and favorite red tank top, pulling on my wedge sandals, and stuffing my gear into my backpack. A generous squirt of Obsession on my neck and I was ready.

  As I dashed for the front door, my hair still damp, I saw that my mother was on the telephone. That, too, was ordinary—she was always on the telephone, speaking in a low, intense tone to someone. I assumed she was talking to her best friend, Gloria, or her loser boyfriend, Phil. I assumed that nothing my mother was talking about would be of interest to me. I was wrong about a lot of things back then.

  Even if she hadn’t been on the telephone, I didn’t want to talk to my mother that morning. We’d had a screaming match the night before. To tell the truth, I didn’t want to remember what I’d said or how my mother had looked, standing on the lawn with the rain pouring down, her nightgown soggy and clinging to her torso, her face twisted, tears running down her cheeks and melting into the rain. I was determined not to think about that. Pretending was a skill we both had perfected over the years.

  School ended at noon all that week, and when the final bell rang, I lingered to gossip about graduation and the senior trip to Hawaii, only five days away. That made shopping for the trip a priority. Mara was showing off her new bag, which she bragged was a Gucci, like mine. I gave her a scornful smile and whispered in my best friend Nicole’s ear, “Oh, puh-leez. Who is she kidding? I can spot a knockoff a mile away.”

  My boyfriend, Scott, tried to persuade me to go surfing with him and his buddies at Granada Beach. But I didn’t feel like watching and cheering while he played jock all afternoon, especially since the coast is usually foggy in May. Instead, I told Nicole I’d go shopping with her at four, then steered my little red Jetta toward home.

  Now that last night’s storm clouds had cleared, it was one of those picture-perfect spring days. I put the sunroof down and felt a warm glow on my neck and shoulders. Every garden I passed seemed to be bursting with flowers. I could almost smell the blossoms.

  As I drove, I sang along with Sheryl Crow on the radio.

  Twenty minutes later I was stretched out on our redwood lounge chair, clad in my size 2 bikini and tropical suntan oil, with a diet soda by my right hand and cell phone at my left. My cat, Stella, was lying beneath my chair, lazily licking her orange fur while remaining alert for any stray butterflies or bumblebees that might need chasing. Thumbing through the latest issue of Lucky magazine, I began planning all the clothes I would buy to wear in Hawaii. I wanted to find a really hot red dress. I considered red my signature color, and not just because it looks fabulous with my shoulder-length dark hair. Red is center stage and that’s always where I like to be.

  I had the volume on my boom box cranked up. I guess that’s why I didn’t hear the doorbell. What got my attention was a head appearing over the back gate—a male head, a cop’s head.

  The cop barked, “If you turned down that damn music, you’d know I was ringing your bell.”

  I glared at him and reached over to turn down the volume. I recognized him immediately and my defenses went up. He was the jerk who had given me a long lecture and a speeding ticket two weeks earlier. Anyway, there aren’t that many cops in Burlingame, one of the many suburban communities strung along the bay between San Francisco and San Jose. Burlingame’s finest regularly patrolled the neighborhood around the high school, so they were recognizable to all of us.

  “My mother isn’t home,” I said, hoping to deflect him.

  Ignoring my comment, he opened the gate and strode into the backyard. Behind him the gate swung shut with a loud clang. He stomped over to my chair and stood there, giving me the usual badass cop stare as if I had just robbed a liquor store or something. He was thirty or so and sort of cute, but he had that burly body and accusatory attitude they all have.

  “Now, how could you know I want your mother?” he asked.

  “Why would you want me?” I said, putting on my impassive face, the one I’d learned to use when dealing with my father or jerks like him. “You’re blocking my sun.”

  He didn’t move, just continued to stare at me. Why is it that cops always make you feel guilty even if you haven’t done anything wrong? I sighed and reached for a shirt to pull over my bikini top. His chilly gaze made me uncomfortable. It definitely wasn’t the admiring stare I was used to getting from guys. Stella came out from under the chair and rubbed up against his ankles, and he knelt down to stroke the soft fur under her chin. Cats have no loyalty.

  “Well, it just so happens you’re right,” he said. “If your mother is Diane Mitchell. Remind me what your name is again.”

  “Ashley,” I said. “Ashley Marie Mitchell. Why are you looking for my mother?”

  He ignored my question, the way cops do.

  “I’m Officer Strobel, Ashley, and I need to talk to your mother right away. Where is she?”

  “At her office, I suppose. Look, I’ve turned down the music. That should satisfy the old busybody next door.”

  I picked up Stella and tried to stroke her, but she struggled to get
free, so I let her go. She stalked away and arranged herself on a sunny patch of grass just out of reach, her whiskers twitching as she actively ignored us both.

  “I’m not here about a noise complaint. I need to see your mother. Is she here?”

  “She’s at her office,” I repeated slowly as if speaking to a half-wit. “That’s where she always is. The Simmons Company in Redwood City.”

  “She’s not there, and they’re looking for her. Any other ideas?”

  “Has something happened to her? Are you trying to say she’s been in an accident?” He was making me uneasy, though I didn’t want to show it.

  “There have been no accidents reported.”

  I waited for him to say something more, but he didn’t. What was he after?

  “Maybe she had a doctor’s appointment or something. It’s not a big deal. Call her cell phone. She always has it on.”

  “We did. She didn’t answer.” His tone was flat, yet challenging. “It is a big deal because we need to find her now.”

  With an elaborate sigh I reached for my cell phone and dialed her number. After six rings, I heard, “This is Diane. I’m not available at the moment. Leave a message at the tone and I’ll call you back just as soon as I’m able.”

  “This is Ashley. Call me the minute you get this message,” I said, and hung up. “Okay, now are you satisfied? When she calls me back, I’ll tell her to call you, officer.”

  “When did you see her last?”

  “This morning, before I went to school. Why?”

  “When you saw her, did she tell you her plans for the day?”

  “No.”

  He kept looking at me, so I added, “I was late for school and left in a hurry.”

  “Well, how about last night? What did she say last night about her plans for today?”

  I was starting to get uneasy in the face of his persistence. “Nothing.”

  “Your mother didn’t say one word to you last night about her plans for today. What did the two of you talk about?”

  I wanted to say, None of your business, but his stony look intimidated me.

  “Nothing much. Just the usual stuff about school.” I was determined not to tell this bully about the ugly fight we had. “Look, why are you trying to find Diane?”

  “You call your mother ‘Diane’?”

  “That’s her name,” I snapped.

  “Most of us call our mothers ‘Mom’ or ‘Mother,’ ” he snapped right back. “Why don’t you stop giving me attitude and tell me exactly what your mother did and said last night?”

  “We didn’t talk,” I lied. “I was at a friend’s house and came home late. If you want to know what my mother did, try asking her best friend, Gloria, or Phil, her boyfriend.”

  “I will. You can give me their numbers in a minute. When does your mother usually get home and start cooking dinner?”

  I snickered. “Diane doesn’t exactly rush home to fry a chicken or bake a cake. We both have frozen dinners or maybe pizza and not always at the same time.”

  “Home, sweet home,” he said.

  “She’s busy,” I defended her. “She works long hours.”

  “Maybe too long.”

  “What does that mean?” I said, scowling at him.

  “You’ll find out soon enough. How old are you?”

  “Eighteen. Why?”

  “Old enough.”

  “Old enough? For what?” I said, not even trying to keep the sarcasm out of my voice. “Are you coming on to me?”

  He snorted. “Don’t flatter yourself. Old enough means, legally, you’re an adult. How about acting like an adult and letting me look around inside?”

  I was flabbergasted. “Are you crazy? Do you think she’s hiding under the bed or tied up in the closet? She’s. Not. Here.” My voice rose on the word here and turned it into a shriek.

  “Look, either you let me look around or I’ll be back with a search warrant.”

  “What! You are crazy! What could you possibly want with my mother that would involve a search warrant? If you think she’s some kind of drug dealer, you’re delusional.”

  “Why would you mention drugs?” He gave me a menacing look. “Are you afraid I might find some inside?”

  “No, I’m not,” I said. Suddenly I was tired of answering his weird questions while he avoided answering any of mine. “Okay, fine. Go ahead and look all you want. You won’t arrest me for not making my bed, will you?”

  Without replying, he crossed the deck and walked in the back door. I took a swig from my Diet Coke can and followed.

  Officer Strobel gave the kitchen a cursory look.

  “Oh, look, there’s her favorite coffee cup,” I said, pointing to a mug on the gleaming granite countertop. “Maybe you should have the contents analyzed.”

  Mr. Cool Cop ignored me and walked through the dining room and into the living room. We had redecorated just a few months ago, and I was proud of our elegant new furniture, silk drapes, and Oriental rugs.

  “Very nice,” he said. “You live well.”

  “Naturally,” I said, with the nonchalant air of a duchess speaking to a dog.

  He was impervious to my scorn. Glancing around, he pointed to the side door. “Where does that lead?”

  “We hide our washer and dryer out there.”

  He continued down the hall, glancing into the guest bathroom and then the family room, where we kept our computer and new flat-screen television. At the doorway of my bedroom, he stopped and stared at the chaos of clothes, papers, and books strewn across the bed and floor.

  “Looks like someone already tossed this room.” He smirked.

  I pushed past him and closed the door in his face.

  “She’s not in my room.”

  When he reached my mother’s room, he surprised me by walking across it, opening the door to her walk-in closet, and stepping inside. I perched on the edge of the bed, pretending to study the red polish on my toes, and called after him, “You forgot to check under her bed.”

  “Where does she keep her suitcases?” he asked.

  “On the floor on the left side of the closet.”

  “There aren’t any here,” he said.

  “Of course, there are,” I said impatiently, and pushed past him to stare at the place where her matched set of dark green luggage should have been. The suitcases were gone! I stood there, my mouth gaping. My mother wouldn’t go on a trip without telling me, would she? No, she wouldn’t, I told myself, trying to erase the memory of last night’s hysteria from my head. Suddenly, I didn’t feel like being a smart-ass anymore.

  “She must have put them in the garage,” I muttered, more to myself than to him.

  “Is there anything else missing—any clothes or shoes or toiletries?” he asked.

  “How would I know?” I responded, gesturing toward the bulging clothes racks.

  He studied my face for a moment, then asked, “Can I use your phone?”

  Without waiting for an answer, he picked up the receiver next to my mother’s bed and dialed. “Hey, Donahoe. I’m at the Mitchell house. No, she’s not around. Uh-huh, just the daughter. She says she doesn’t know her mother’s whereabouts. Looks like she might have skipped.”

  “Skipped!” I repeated, staring at him in shock.

  Glancing at my horrified face, he turned his back to me and added, “Uh-huh. I’m going to talk to the boyfriend and then I’ll come back to the station. It’s early yet.”

  The minute he put down the receiver, I screeched, “Why did you say ‘skipped’? What the hell is going on?”

  “There’s some money missing from your mother’s office, a lot of money, and we want to find out what she knows about it.”

  “You mean you think she stole it,” I hissed. “Well, you’re out of your mind. My mother wouldn’t do something like that.”

  “Maybe so.” Strobel nodded without conviction. “In the meantime, I need those phone numbers you mentioned. By the way, what does your mother drive?”<
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  “A Mercedes. Blue.”

  “Do you know the tag number?”

  I looked at him, confused at the question.

  “The number on her car’s license plate,” he added.

  “No, I don’t know it.”

  “That’s okay, I can get it from DMV,” he said, snapping open his notebook.

  I gave him both Gloria’s and Phil’s phone numbers and protested once again that he was crazy for even suspecting my mother of wrongdoing.

  Strobel closed the notebook. “That’s all for now. If your mother comes back, tell her to call the police department right away. She should ask for me. Tell her it will be a lot better for her if she calls us.”

  He gave me another badass cop stare and left, pausing only to give the driveway a searching look as if he expected to see armed thugs hiding behind the rhododendrons.

  “Asshole!” I mumbled as I watched him walk away.

  The minute I shut the door, I bolted for the telephone and called Gloria myself.

  Chapter Two

  “Nope, no idea where she is,” Gloria wheezed into the phone, sounding as if she had just run a marathon. “Actually, I haven’t spoken to her in a few days.”

  I didn’t bother to ask why she was panting. Nor did I tell her about the police.

  “I thought you two talked every single day,” I tweaked her.

  “You must be thinking of you and your girlfriends. Your mom and I have lives,” she retorted with a right-back-at-ya attitude.

  “This is really important,” I insisted. “I have to find her right away. Help me out here, Gloria.”

  “I would if I could. Look, I’m kind of busy right now.”

  Gloria was always in a crisis—for heaven’s sake, it can’t be that hard to handle a couple of preschoolers. My mother and Gloria had been friends since high school, even though they weren’t much alike. Diane had hatched me at a young age, while Gloria was one of those career women, a bank vice president to be exact. Six years ago, though, she had finally married another banker and started popping out kids. Now she had two little boys when, at her age, she should have been having grandchildren practically.

  Even though she and my mother were tight, I wasn’t so crazy about Gloria. I overheard her once telling my mother she shouldn’t give in to me so much and that I was turning into a spoiled brat.