The Silverback's Christmas Bride (Holiday Mail Order Mates Book 6)

by Lola Kidd

  “Of course.”

  “Why didn’t you want to live with me?”

  “I had my own place.”

  “But you would have saved so much money.”

  “But I liked living alone.” She studied him. “Wyatt, it wasn’t anything personal. I liked living alone, and even though I was happy to move in with Nate, I wanted to enjoy having my own space until then.”

  “No one wants to live with me,” he said quietly. “What’s wrong with me? You can tell me. It won’t hurt my feelings. I’m already sad. I can’t feel any worse.”

  Blair came over and hugged him tight. “There is nothing wrong with you, Wy.”

  “Then why does everyone leave me?”

  She pulled back. “The only people who leave you are idiots. I’m not going anywhere. Nate isn’t going anywhere. We may live away from you, but you’ll always be our best friend. A lot of people love you. Just because one girl hurt you doesn’t mean you’re unlovable.”

  He shook his head. “I don’t know. It feels that way.”

  “Do you love her, Wy?”

  He thought for a moment. “I do. I really do. How do I make myself stop?”

  “I don’t think you should. What about your animal? Does he love her?”

  “Yes. Wow. It hurts to say that.” Wy cleared his throat as tears blurred his vision. “I love her, and I still think she’s my mate. Even if she doesn’t think so.”

  “Then, go after her!”

  “I can’t. She doesn’t love me.”

  “Did you ask her?”

  “We talked. She says that I’m not her mate. Her feelings have changed, and she doesn’t like me anymore.”

  “Okay. But what if she just got scared? What if she likes you so much that she got afraid? Maybe she only said all that because her feelings were too much for her.”

  He shook his head. “That wasn’t it. Maybe you like me, Blair, but other people don’t.”

  “Stop saying that!” she yelled. “People do like you. A lot of people. Maybe your parents ran out on you, but they were idiots. You’re a great guy, Wy. I’m not lying to you. I am not lying to try to make you feel good about yourself. I’m telling the truth.”

  Wy looked at her. He wanted to believe her, but it didn’t make much sense. People were always getting sick of him and leaving. That was what happened. It didn’t matter if she liked him. She wasn’t everyone.

  “What about Jen?” Blair asked. “Do you think Jen is the kind of woman who likes everyone?”

  “No.” Jen had even said so herself.

  “But she likes you. She’s your friend. And what about Kira and Lizzy?”

  “They like me, I guess,” he admitted.

  “And Macy? And Jill?”

  “Jill is only a kid.” Wy laughed. “She likes anyone who’s nice to her.”

  “She does not. She doesn’t like Cade that much, or Nate.”

  “Yeah. Actually, yeah, you’re right. She doesn’t like them as much as she likes me.”

  “Okay. So, hear me out. What if Dottie got scared, and then you ran off because you think you’re unlikable? What if, instead of running off and leaving it be, you went and tried to talk to her again? Tell her how you really feel, and ask her to reconsider.”

  Wy snorted. “That would be a miracle. You didn’t see her face when she told me she didn’t want to see me anymore. She was serious.”

  “Seriously scared, maybe. I saw how she looks at you. Even at the bar, when she left in a hurry, there was a connection. She loves you too, Wyatt. I can feel it. LK Brides doesn’t make many mistakes, and this isn’t one of them. They got it right.”

  “I don’t know. The last time I went to see her, it didn’t go well. I don’t think I should just show up again.”

  “What do you have to lose?”

  “My dignity?”

  Blair laughed. “But you have a mate to gain. I think this is worth taking a chance on.”

  Wy considered that. “Maybe. I’ll try tomorrow. If she wants to talk to me, I’ll tell her everything. If she brushes me off again, that’s it. I’m done for good.”

  Blair nodded. “Deal. I think she loves you. If I’m wrong, I’ll let you name my baby.”

  Wy laughed. “Deal.”

  “You know I’m not wrong often, Wy.” She punched him on the arm playfully. “Good luck.”

  “Thanks.”

  He was going to need it. He didn’t know how he was going to do it, but he had to try one last time to convince Dottie. If Blair believed in him, maybe he wasn’t a lost cause just yet. He didn’t quite believe that he was likeable, but maybe he wasn’t as bad as he had thought.

  Blair was right. He did have some friends who were women.

  And this wasn’t anyone he was just going to win over. It was his mate.

  Chapter 17

  Dottie checked her makeup one last time before heading out the door.

  “You look so great,” Jen said enthusiastically when Dottie got into her car. She turned up the heater. “Sorry, it’s freezing in here. I’m so glad you decided to come with me.”

  “I wasn’t doing anything better,” Dottie said, trying to sound cheery.

  Her parents were going to be delayed at their home in Indianapolis for another day. One of the pipes had burst, and there was no way they could get that worked on if they came back to Maple Creek. Even though it sucked to have a broken pipe, they had been lucky to find someone willing to come and fix it so close to Christmas. She was kind of hoping they were getting her a big surprise for Christmas, though. She could really use the cheering up right now. She hadn’t told them that she had officially broken it off with Wy, but they had known she was going to do it before Christmas.

  “So, what are you doing for Christmas?” Jen asked.

  “Nothing, if my parents don’t get back in time.” Dottie sighed. “I think maybe I’ll get myself some McDonald’s, or maybe Chinese food.”

  “Why wouldn’t they get back? You said it was only a quick trip.”

  “But there’s so much snow. What if they can’t get here? I have to prepare myself. There’s nothing wrong with getting fast food on Christmas. That’s why they’re open. I bet a ton of people hit the drive-through.”

  Jen gasped, horrified. “I don’t care how many people do it. Nobody should be eating fast food alone on Christmas. If your parents don’t get back, you should come to my house. I’m having a misfits’ Christmas. My parents decided they were going to take a vacation again this year, so I’m alone too. I invited a bunch of people over, and we’re going to have a big dinner and do a white elephant party. That’s one of the things I need to pick up today.”

  “That actually does sound fun,” Dottie admitted. “Not as much fun as being with my parents, but way better than my fast food idea. I’ll grab something for the white elephant, just in case.”

  “How are you doing?” Jen asked.

  Dottie shrugged. “I’m not crying, so I guess I’m doing fine.”

  She hadn’t told Jen that she and Wyatt had broken up. She’d said that they’d had a big fight. She didn’t want to go into too much detail. It made her feel so bad.

  “You want to talk about it?” Jen asked. “I’ve been told I’m a great listener and I give good advice.”

  Dottie shook her head. “I don’t think so. I don’t really need any advice.”

  Jen smiled. “It’s okay, girl. We’ll keep it positive today, if that’s what you want.”

  She turned up the music, and Dottie relaxed as the car filled with cheery Christmas music.

  “I really wish you got to dress like that while we were at work,” Jen said as they drove toward the mall. “I really loved your costume, but Wy was right. You look great in street clothes. I am so jealous of your style. I can’t pull anything like that off. My clothes are so boring.”

  Dottie looked down. She had pulled together her outfit quickly, without any thought. She was wearing a mint-colored sweater with a penguin on it and a pair o
f black leggings with snowflakes. She didn’t even think her clothes looked that good. The only thing she’d taken time with was her makeup. Doing her makeup always made her feel better.

  “Thanks. I didn’t think I looked that great. And you can pull off anything. Your clothes aren’t boring at all. You have a great body. You can wear anything and make it look like a million bucks.”

  “I have a great body because I work for it,” Jen laughed. “I didn’t always look like this.”

  “Really?”

  “Oh, yeah. In middle school, I was so overweight. Okay, who am I kidding? I was a fat kid. I was fat until I learned to drive.”

  “What happened then?”

  “I got a job and a gym membership. After I learned how to work out, I never looked back. Do you work out?”

  “Does dancing alone in my room count?”

  Jen laughed. “Of course! Not everyone has to be crazy about it like me. And, honestly, I only work out so much so I can eat like a pig. If I ate better, I wouldn’t need to work out so hard.”

  Dottie looked at Jen. There was no way she ate like a pig, ever. They had had lunch together, and Jen was always very careful about what she ate. Maybe she ate more when she was alone, but Dottie doubted it.

  “Maybe I should start working out.”

  “You could use my guest pass. Or, I guess you’d probably want to use Wyatt’s. He doesn’t come often, but I’m sure you’d rather work out with him.”

  There it was again. His name made Dottie bristle now. She hadn’t seen him since what had turned out to be their last day of work before Christmas. Because the snowstorm, the people in charge had canceled the last two days. It was easier this way. It made Dottie sad, but she was glad she wouldn’t have to see Wy before the holidays again.

  As painful as the whole thing was, she was glad it had happened. And at least she was making one new friend out of it. Jen was so nice. Dottie was glad that at the very least, one good thing had come out of the whole ordeal.

  “I don’t think so,” she said. “But I would like to work out with you. I bet you can give me tips on how to get a great butt.”

  “I can do that! I have so many tips and tricks. The gym is going to be packed at this time of year, but it’ll still be really cool.”

  “Sounds fun,” Dottie said. “So, what else are we shopping for today?”

  “I need a new dress for the party. Something really sexy,” Jen said. “Everything I have just isn’t right.”

  “Oh, yeah, the party.”

  “What are you wearing for it?”

  “I don’t know.”

  Dottie didn’t want to tell Jen that she wasn’t going to the work Christmas party that night. She had forgotten about it, really, but even if she hadn’t, she wouldn’t go. She couldn’t risk seeing Wyatt right now. She didn’t want to cry in front of all her coworkers.

  “Are you and Wyatt going to do some kind of matching outfits?” Jen joked. “If you convince him to do that, I’m going to die. Seeing him in his elf costume is funny enough, but I know you’ll come up with something much better.”

  “We aren’t,” Dottie said carefully. “But I’m sure we can find you something great.”

  Jen shook her head. “It can’t be just anything, and it has to be better than great. I’m trying to get Tim to notice me.”

  “I’m sure he notices you already. You guys are friends, right?”

  “You would think he does,” Jen said. “But he only seems to see me as a friend. He won’t ask me out. I’ve been dropping hints about it all the time, but nothing has happened.”

  “Why don’t you ask him out?”

  “I tried, but it didn’t go right.” Jen sighed. “I asked him to go to the bar, and he brought a friend. I don’t even know if he thinks of me as anything more than a friend. I had hoped that working together would make it better, but nope. I’m hoping that this party will be when he realizes that I could be more than a buddy. I want him to see me as something more. Hence, the need for the perfect sexy dress.”

  “You know, maybe the work thing backfired. He is so professional. I don’t think he would ever date someone who worked for him.”

  Jen’s mouth dropped open, and she smacked herself in the forehead. “I am so stupid! Of course he wouldn’t date someone who works for him. God, this is why you and I need to be friends. You’re so smart about these kinds of things. I can see why Wy fell for you so fast. He is so lucky to have you.”

  Dottie stared out the window. She was going to have to come clean. “I was lucky to have him. But we aren’t together anymore. We didn’t just have a big fight. We aren’t together or anything.”

  “What do you mean? I thought you two were dating.”

  “We kind of were, but now we’re not.”

  “Oh.” Jen looked at her. “Do you want to talk about it?”

  “Not really.” Dottie kept looking out the window. If she looked at Jen right now, she knew she would start crying.

  They drove in silence for a while, listening to the music. Then Jen changed the subject, and they spent the rest of the drive talking about the latest reality TV news. Dottie was so grateful to talk about something besides Wyatt.

  When they got to the mall, they made a beeline for the nearest store. Jen tried on a whole armful of dresses. She insisted that Dottie try on some too.

  “You should come to the party with me. There’s no way Wy will be there,” Jen said from the dressing room next to Dottie’s. “I can call him to be sure, but he doesn’t like parties like this. You can just come and have fun with me.”

  Dottie slowly pulled the dress over her head. It was much sexier than anything she had ever worn.

  “Did you hear me?” Jen called.

  “I heard you,” Dottie said.

  She came out of her dressing room to look in the big mirror. Jen came out too and surveyed her.

  “You should buy that dress. It’s perfect for tonight.”

  “I just don’t think I can go. It won’t be good. I’m going to be sad.”

  “Why would you be sad?”

  “Because I really miss Wy. If I’m where we met, I’m going to break down.”

  “If you’re so sad, you could try to get back with him. Get him to change his mind.”

  “I’m the one who broke up with him,” Dottie said.

  She went back to her dressing room to try to be alone, but Jen followed her in.

  “Hey, talk to me.”

  Dottie shook her head as tears flowed down her cheeks. “I can’t.”

  “Dottie, do you still love him?”

  “I don’t know. No?”

  “You don’t sound so sure about that.”

  Dottie hung her head. “I don’t know what I feel anymore. I thought I liked him, but I can’t trust my feelings anymore. I make so many bad decisions. My parents don’t even think he’s right for me.”

  “So?”

  “So, my parents are usually right. They know what’s best for me. If he was really my mate, I would be sure. But I’m not.”

  Jen put her hands on her hips. “Do your parents even know him?”

  “They met him. And they looked him up on the internet. Something didn’t sit right with them. They think he’s nice, but to them, something is off about him.”

  “How many times did they meet him?”

  “Once.”

  “Once? Seriously, Dottie. They don’t even know him. I’ve known Wy for years. There is nothing ‘off’ about him. He’s a really great guy. Maybe a little rough around the edges, but really great.”

  “He is a great guy.”

  “Okay, and you’re really sad you broke up with him. So what if your parents are unsure? How do you feel? Because to me, you look heartbroken right now. If a breakup is right, you should feel a little bit happy and relieved. Even if it’s only a teeny tiny bit.”

  “I don’t feel relieved at all. I feel really, really bad. But there’s nothing I can do about it now. I’ve already broken
up with him.”

  “Nonsense. You still love him, and I would bet anything that Wy still loves you. You two belong together. I’ve never seen him like he is around you. He loves you, Dottie. This isn’t something you should take lightly.”

  “How can you be so sure? You barely even know me.”

  “I know enough. You two belong together, and you shouldn’t let anything stand in your way. Do you want to be back with him?”

  “Yes. I think I do.”

  Jen nodded. “Okay. I have an idea.”

  Chapter 18

  Wy was so uncomfortable. He was sure he was sweating though his suit coat. He shouldn’t have come to this stupid party. He was only there to make Blair happy. He had promised he would try to get back with Dottie, and this was the only place he could do it.

  He had tried to go to her house, but she wasn’t home, and neither were her parents. He was sure they had gone back home for Christmas, but then Jen had texted him. She and Dottie were going to be at the work party, and she was hoping he would be there too. At first he thought she was trying to make sure he and Dottie wouldn’t cross paths, but that was wrong. When he said he was thinking about it, Jen told him that for sure he had to be there.

  It was so hard to keep his nerves in check. He was going to feel so stupid if Dottie didn’t want to see him. But it didn’t matter. He had to do this. He had to be sure she knew how he felt. Even if she turned him down, it would be better than never trying. Blair was right about that. He would never be able to stop thinking about Dottie unless he tried to do this.

  He looked himself over in the mirror to be sure he didn’t have pit stains. He took a few deep breaths to steady himself and then left the bathroom.

  There weren’t many people in the pavilion. Most people had probably skipped the party to be with their families or travel. It was easy to spot Jen.

  She hugged him. “I’m so glad you decided to come.”

  “Thanks. I’m glad I’m here, too.” He looked around. He couldn’t see Dottie. “Is this it?”

  “I think more people are coming. Want to get a drink or some food?”

  Wy nodded. “I guess I could use some water or something.”

  They went to the snack table, but there was no water or drinks of any kind. Wy saw that other people were holding red cups or cans of pop.