Ten Below Zero

by Whitney Barbetti

  “What is purgatory to you?”

  Everett studied me a minute, opened his mouth to say something but closed it again. Something was working its way behind his eyes. “A place to cleanse your soul before being admitted to Heaven.”

  My heart leapt. “Yes,” I said animatedly. “One last stop before forever.”

  Everett was staring at me. I couldn’t read him, but I wanted to continue. “Come,” I said, pulling him up to the arch. Everett jumped up on the ledge below the arch first and reached his hands for me, helping me up.

  “Hey,” I called to a person that was taking photos of the view. “Can you take a photo of us?”

  The older woman in her khaki hat nodded and took the camera I tossed down to her. I blew out a breath and turned my head to Everett. I wrapped an arm around him and took his hand and pulled it on my lap, clasping it firmly in mine. My blood roared in my ears. My heart thudded painfully in my chest. I put my lips to his ear. “Everett, look out. Over the canyon, at the river. Look at all of it. Look at this view as this woman takes a photo of us.” I squeezed his hand. “Everyone who sees this photo will see us, underneath this arch. But when you look at the photo,” I swallowed emotion. “When you look at this photo, remember the canyon, the water, and all the beauty in front of us.” I blew out a breath. “When you look at this photo, remember looking out at purgatory with me. While everyone else was looking at the arch, we were looking at that.” And then I closed my eyes. A tear slipped, reminding me of how I’d felt when Everett had said those words to me. The fact that I’d felt at all. One year ago, we’d sat on this ledge together and I’d fallen in love with Everett. I ached for that moment.

  The hand in mine on my lap squeezed once. Then again. Then once more. Three times. I opened my eyes and saw Everett staring at me. His eyes were red, but soft. And his brow was furrowed. “Parker,” he said, with recognition. With feeling.

  “Everett,” I said back. My words were strangled with fresh tears. Tears on top of tears. He touched my hair, slid a hand down my face, looking at me as if seeing me for the first time in forever, and then he cradled my face and kissed me.

  I pulled back first and put my hands on his face. “You remember?” I asked, hardly able to see him through the tears.

  He nodded, his thumbs on my chin. “Parker,” he said again.

  I brought my hands up to his wrists and squeezed. “I’m so happy,” I said, laughing from relief.

  “You’re laughing,” he said, tilting his head to the side. “It sounds so weird.”

  I laughed and squeezed his wrists again. “You’re still an asshole.”

  “I am,” he confirmed. He blew out a breath. “It’s coming back to me so quickly. I can hardly keep up.”

  “It’s okay,” I said, wrapping my arms around his upper back. His arms wrapped around me and he hugged me, tightly.

  “I’m so sorry,” he muffled against my hair. He ran a hand down my hair, a move that was as familiar as it was deeply comforting.

  “Don’t be. Oh, Everett.” I couldn’t stop crying. “I’m so glad you’re back. I’ve missed you.” Understatement of the year.

  His hand touched my ribs, where my Purgatoire tattoo was. “Why did you wait so long to bring me here?” he asked.

  “I wanted you to be well enough to come.”

  He shook his head. “Did you get the box?”

  My mind went to the box, the one still sitting in the corner of my bedroom, unopened. “Yes,” I said, “but I didn’t open it.”

  “Why?” he asked. “No wait,” he said, holding up a hand. “I get it. But in the box are the Picketwire Canyon pages from my journal. And the photos.”

  “Photos, as in plural?”

  “I took a lot of photos of you, when you weren’t looking. I asked Bridget to send that box to you. I hoped you’d understand the reason, and bring me here in case it would trigger my memory.”

  “Huh,” I said. “I feel kind of bad I never opened it.”

  “You could have saved yourself all this heartache, all this pain.” He brushed my hair from my face.

  “I don’t mind the pain so much,” I said. “I’ve found pleasure in the pain.”

  Everett smiled at me. “Good. It’s good to feel.” His fingers tugged on my hair. I smiled, a real smile.

  “Smiles suit you. You should wear them more often.”

  “You suit me.”

  Everett hopped down from the ledge and put his hands up to catch me, as he had the first time. He pulled me to him for a hug. I clung tightly to him, thankful for the gift. Thankful for the Purgatoire River. Thankful for a text message that was sent to the wrong number. Thankful to feel, to be healed and broken at the same time by Everett.

  “You’re cold,” he murmured. It was early June and early in the day, so I did have a slight chill.

  “Ten below zero?” I asked.

  “Nah,” he said, pulling back and kissing my forehead. “Colder than that.”

  I laughed, pressing into him, into this kiss. Relishing this connection.

  Everett pulled back and stared into my eyes, the way he had before. His hands clasped mine.

  “Are you in love with me yet?”

  I smiled. “Unfortunately. Are you in love with me?”

  In answer, his hands squeezed mine. Three times. With each squeeze, he mouthed three words. “I. Love. You.”

  THE END.

  Sona Babani, my best friend for fifteen years, if you haven’t figured it out yet, I based a lot of Parker on you. You wanted to be Mira, the bad ass, and you are. But you’re also Parker. Kind, observant, thinks-she’s-cold-hearted Parker. Parker whose soul is beautiful, like yours. Remember what I told you, when couldn’t decide between the sunflower seeds that had shells and the ones without. You’ve wasted a lot of your life on people who don’t deserve you. Fuck those shells. They don’t deserve your effort. Eat the seeds, straight up. You deserve them.

  It wouldn’t be my acknowledgements if I didn’t thank my husband for being awesome. Also, thanks for disappearing for three weeks so I could channel all the missing you I did into this book. Two my beautiful sons, I love you so much. Please sleep more than four hours a night so I can write my next book much faster.

  Thank you to my family for your support. You all know who you are. There’s too many of you, and too many miles separating us. I can’t wait to hug you all.

  To Wilma and Jessie Bristol, and Tracie Ingram, for all your support. You three are like family to me. I am so thankful to have you in my life.

  To Angie VanLeuven, Rebekka Sampson, Ashlee Grimmett, Candi Rash, Kelly Hoover, Hilda, Salgado – my fellow Army wives and soldiers. I love you all so much. Thank you for your support, for reading my drafts, for sharing the crap out of my books, for your votes on my cover options, and for being excited with me. You humble me with your love. Thank you.

  To Debbie, another fellow Army wife and one of my closest friends. Thank you for pimping out He Found Me so much. Thank you for all your support during AT, when I was going out of mind trying to finish this book and also get sleep. I love you!

  Christine Janes! I miss buddy reading with you. Thank you for telling me over and over how much you loved this story, and how you thought this novel would do so well. Everything you said propelled me to finish this novel in thirty-four days. I wouldn’t have done that without you.

  Karla Sorensen, you are an angel. I feel like I’ve know you much longer than I actually have. Thank you so much for your chapter by chapter feedback of Ten Below Zero, and your guidance and tips. I would have missed out on a lot of good stuff if it were not for your ‘grain of salt’ advice. You, my dear, are BASEBALLS.

  To all my friends, I so appreciate every share, every email, every word you’ve spread about my novel. Cindy, Megan, Joni, Samantha, Jennifer, Karen, Hailey, Ashley, Ashley, Cecilia, Mila, Jessica, Heather, and Jamie. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

  To my NAAU group – you all kick so much ass. Seriously. I’ve made som
e amazing friendships in that group. And I’ve learned so much. Thanks for listening to me and giving me feedback or support or telling me I’m wrong. Sometimes I need to hear that. Ha!

  Thank you to Jade Eby, for humbling me. You are so sweet and kind. I wish nothing but good things for you in your success as an author. You’ve already excelled as a human.

  Thank you to Lex Martin. You have no idea how far-reaching your post was, the one you shared about my novel. Thanks to you, I found a beta reader who sent me the most amazing email after reading the copy of my novel you advertised. Thank you for being so supportive and offering to share about He Found Me in your group. I’ve made some really great friendships already thanks to you.

  To Najla for another amazing cover. I would never go to anyone else. You are a beautiful human being.

  To Jovana for another spectacular formatting job. Thank you for making my boring-looking manuscript look like a legitimate novel!

  Thank you to the reader reading this. Ten Below Zero is an emotional read, but there’s a reason for that. If this book moved you, I’m happy. I don’t rejoice in other’s tears for the reasons you may think. Everett wanted Parker to feel. I firmly believe in reading books that make you feel. You should never read books that are easy to put down, mine included. Read books that make you think, that make you feel. Read books that impassion you, that enlighten you. Don’t be afraid to hurt. You’ll be stronger for it. Loving and healing are entwined, and with both comes pain. You can’t love without pain. You can’t heal without pain. Don’t be afraid to love, to hurt, to heal. Embrace it. Be stronger for it. Be a compassionate human because you’ve hurt before.

  The whole entire point of Ten Below Zero is to allow yourself to feel. In feeling, there’s healing. There’s love. And that love is within you.

  THAT IS WHY, FOR CHRIST’S SAKE, I DELIGHT IN WEAKNESSES, IN INSULTS, IN HARDSHIPS, IN PERSECUTIONS, IN DIFFICULTIES. FOR WHEN I AM WEAK, THEN I AM STRONG.

  ~2 CORINTHIANS 12:10

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