No Regrets (Live Today #2)

by Savana Jade

  “I think you’ve successfully dodged the question Jenna. Don’t do that.” Fuck. I need to know if she thinks this is a mistake or not.

  “Well, I don’t know.” She finally admits.

  “Okay.” I think for a minute. “Let’s do this.” Turning her around in my arms and sitting pulling her down between my legs. “Since you won’t give me the ring back.” She shakes her head vigorously leaning back onto my chest in content. My arms wrap around her waist and I rest my chin on her shoulder. “And by your own admittance, you’re not sure if it’s too soon. So, let’s ask ourselves a few questions. Okay?” She takes a deep breath and nods so I decide to continue.

  “You love me correct?” She nods. “And you want to spend the rest of your life with me?” Another nod followed by a dazzling smile. “And you think I’m the best guitarist around and you can’t imagine anyone else using their fingers on you the way I do?” She laughs before smacking me on my thigh. “What?” I ask innocently. “Okay, okay, I take back the guitar thing.”

  “But not the finger thing?” She turns to me with a raised eyebrow.

  “Nope. The finger thing stays.” I kiss her swiftly on her cheek. Her smile brightens up the sky. “Now hush. I’m not done with my interrogating.” She signals with a ten four before relaxing in my arms again. “Now, where were we?” I hold her tighter. “Right. So, how long have we known each other?”

  “Just over seven years.”

  “And for just over seven years, you’ve been madly infatuated with me correct?” She smacks my leg again. I can’t help but chuckle. “I refrain my question.”

  “You should, because for just over seven years, you’ve been the one infatuated with me.”

  “And you’re point is?” I kiss her cheek again. “I’ve never thought of anyone else the way I do you.”

  “Can I ask a question? For your interrogation purposes of course.”

  “Of course.”

  “When did you buy it?” With her hand stretched out so it can shimmer under the dimming sky.

  “Remember when we were in New York?” She stiffens and turns toward me immediately.

  Yes.” I shrug. “But… Wait, that’s the night you came back to the after party with a black eye?” I nod. “Brennan said he turned the corner with a box and got your eye on accident.”

  “That will be the only lie he probably has ever told you. Because if you remember, I refused to give you a reason. Remember?” She huffs. “That night was the night I asked for his blessing.”

  “You’ve had this ring for almost three years?” She asks.

  “I’ve had that ring for two years, eight months and um, thirteen days.” I admit. “But if I must be honest. I was planning on marrying you the day we met.” She takes my face in her hands and kisses me deeply, but not before I notice the tear that’s fallen.

  “Where did you come from?” She pulls away to look me straight in the eyes.

  “I’ve always been right here Jenna. You’ve just been keeping me away.” Her lips land on mine once again, but it’s me that pulls away this time. “What am I going to do with you?”

  Jenna looks down at her hand that’s resting on my chest and smiles. Then when her eyes meet mine, she says. “You are going to marry me Mr. Gonzales.”

  “Am I?”

  “Mhmm. You are.” She runs her hands around my neck again. “And you are going to fulfill every promise you made to me this morning, every day, for the rest of our lives.”

  “Hmmmm. I think I can do that.” I agree kissing her softly. “Let’s make a deal.” She sulks. “Oh stop that.” I smack her ass before standing her up and standing behind her. Once we’ve brushed the sand off of us, I pull her back into my arms. “You want to marry me.”

  “Didn’t we just go through this?” She sighs.

  “Yes, but just humor me here. You also, deep down, even though you won’t admit it, think it’s too soon since we’ve officially been together for a couple of weeks.” She drops her head and rests it on my chest. “It’s okay Angel. I know how it feels. But listen to me for a minute.”

  “Listening.” She mumbles. I run my fingers through her hair.

  “I can’t say I disagree with you about the timing. Even though I’ve known you were going to be mine a lot longer than you have. But what I’m trying to say is this.” I taking her face in my hands, I bring it to mine so I can see her eyes. “Why don’t we take this slow? No one said we need to have a set date. Right? I mean. Brennan said the other day that we act like an old married couple anyways.” She giggles.

  “I was nothing until I met you. You made me…” I try to think of the right word, “whole. You are my best friend Jenna. There’s not one person in this world that knows me better than you do. And I wouldn’t have it any other way.” A tear falls from her eye, I brush it away with my thumb.

  “You are my best friend too. Even though I denied it all these years, you’ve been the reason I wake up in the morning. I look forward to seeing you with your hair all messed up from sleeping. It’s your reaction I look for whenever I want to do something stupid. You were the first person I wanted to see when I woke up…” Her face drops with sorrow. I know she’s meaning at the hospital. “You are the one person who knows me better than anyone else does. You know when I’m having a bad day, and you go out of your way to cheer me up.” She wipes a tear that I didn’t even know fell. She makes my heart swell. “Not a day goes by that I thank God for you Gabriel.”

  “I love you Angel.”

  “I love you too.”

  ~~~

  Jenna’s hand rests on my stomach as she sleeps soundly by my side. I’ve been watching her sleep for a few hours. Knowing she’s probably not slept more than I have, I can’t bring it upon myself to wake her up. Especially after last night. She tossed and turned all night. That’s when I decided to sneak out and have a little chat with Drew in the middle of the night once she finally settled into a deep sleep.

  I insisted on knowing everything that happened on their way here. He explained the first few days were rough. She refused to eat, but that was from the drugs. She spent most of the first few days and nights in his arms curled around the toilet. As jealous as I am of him for being there for her, and not me, I can’t help but be grateful at the same time. He’s the only one that truly understood what she was going through. And as much as I tried to get it, I couldn’t. Drew said Jenna was too weak to travel at first, so they stopped at a hotel about a few hours away from mom’s house. That didn’t settle with me well knowing they were so close and I couldn’t get to her.

  He admitted that he helped her shower, but in the same breath he swears that he kept his eyes away from her as much as possible. He confessed that he was afraid of how I would react. I have to admit, fire flared through me when he first told me. But after he explained that her body was so weak, that a few times, she almost slipped and fell, that he felt like he was obligated to make sure she didn’t get hurt any further. He also reassured me that he didn’t actually get in the shower with her, but he stayed outside the curtain and would check on her every few minutes. I promised him that I wouldn’t bring it up to her, only because it would probably upset her if I knew. Apparently she cried when he was helping her dry off, worried that I would kill them both if I found out.

  Most nights Jenna would write in a journal he had bought for her after her first nightmare. He encouraged her to write down anything she could remember from them so she could begin healing. If she wasn’t writing or having a nightmare, she would toss and turn and mumble my name in her sleep. I tried to hide my smile when he mentioned that. She stayed quiet most of the time. He would catch her staring out the window when they were driving. She said she was thinking about everything that’s happened recently. He confesses she felt more at ease after she received the last text I had sent her, but she was also worried that I wasn’t getting enough sleep. After a few hours, I thanked him before crawling back into bed with her.

  Unconsciously, I
found myself running my finger over the ring on her finger. I still can’t believe after all these years of holding on to it and everything we’ve gone through, that she’s agreed to be mine. I never in my wildest dreams thought Brennan would have given us his blessing. Even with everything that happened in these past few weeks, yesterday has got to have been one of the happiest days of my life.

  Jenna stirs. Her eyes flutter open and she interlocks her fingers with mine. “Good morning.”

  Chuckling, bringing her ring finger to my lips. “It’s a little later than that Angel. But good morning.” She cranes her neck to the clock and groans.

  “Why did you let me sleep so long?”

  “I was admiring the view.” She rolls on her back and stretches. I take advantage of this opportunity and keep her hands above her head and shift my body over hers. “Which got a whole lot better about five seconds ago.” I say kissing her neck before releasing her hands and rolling her back onto me. “I thought it would be best to let you sleep.” Her head rests on my chest. “You wouldn’t stop tossing and turning last night, so I decided to let you sleep in.”

  She smiles, crossing her arms on my chest resting her chin to look at me. “And how does my hair look?” I chuckle and run my fingers through the strands.

  “As beautiful as ever.” Remembering the promise I made to her. “Even though it’s a little ratty.” She smacks my chest giggling before climbing off me. “Where do you think going.” She makes her way toward the oversized bathroom.

  “I need to freshen up.” She turns quickly toward the door.

  “What you need to do is get back over here.” She shakes her head and continues. I decide to get up and follow her. While she does her thing in the toilet, I make good use of the oversized bathtub that’s made for a king and begin to fill it. I brush my teeth quickly before filling the tub with bubble bath.

  “What’s this?” She asks. I make my way to her and take her hands in mine before pulling her toward the tub. “Is this for me?” Her eyes glare past me to the tub.

  “This is.” Leaning down and kissing her tenderly, I bring her hands over her head. Gliding my hands down, I take hold of the tiny tank top she has on and begin to lift it above her head. As soon as it’s fallen on the floor, she runs her fingers through my hair, pulling me into a deeper kiss. Her mouth is as greedy as mine. Her breath hitches when my hands make their way from her hips to her breasts. “Do you have any clue what you do to me?” I ask greedily, making a trail of kisses to her breast.

  “I think I might have an idea.” She gasps when I take her puckered nipple into my mouth. My hand makes good use of her other breast. “Gabe.” She whimpers when begin with the other. Her body shivers as I find her lips against mine once again. I trail my hands down her body, resting them on her hips. Carefully moving her closer to the edge of the tub, I trail tongue down her body, between her breasts and down toward her stomach, carefully tucking my fingers beneath her panties and taking them down with me.

  “You are so beautiful.” Once I find myself on my knees before her. I gently guide her so she sits on the edge of the tub and I’m settling myself between her legs. Sitting back on my heels, I memorize her body. “I lied when I said I was admiring the view.” I confess resting my hands on her knees, spreading them a little further causing her petite body to shiver. “This view is much better.” Leaning in and kissing her inner thigh just before making my way between her legs.

  “Ahh Gabe.” Jenna moans when I run my tongue between her folds. I begin pulling back, but when I do, her hands grasp my head. “Don’t you dare move.” She cries so I pick up where I left off. As I begin to flick her clit with my tongue, my finger makes it’s way inside her. With my hand in place, assaulting her body, I kiss my way back up her body groaning when I meet her eager kiss.

  My tongue attacks hers in the same motion my finger works her over. Her heavy breathing and whimpering beneath me tells me she’s close. “Let go Angel.” I say when she hides her face in the crook of my neck. “Just let go baby.” She drops her head back with a scream of pleasure as her sheath squeezes my fingers inside her. When I’m sure she’s done, I release her hold on me, removing my shorts quickly and lifting her off the ground before stepping into the bath water.

  Talk to Me

  Jenna

  “Can we stay here forever?” My head rests on Gabe’s chest. His fingers make their own trail down my arms and back up again.

  “Angel, we can do whatever you want today.” His lips caress my earlobe. “Today, you’re ordered to relax.”

  “Ordered?” I question him.

  “Mhmm. Dr. Gonzales’ orders.” He insists.

  I turn in his arms and straddle him in the water. “Okay. Where is my Gabriel and who the hell are you?” My hands rest on his shoulders. His eyes which were originally resting on my chest shift up to meet mine.

  “I’m right here baby.” He takes my face in his hands and kisses me passionately. “These past few days, let alone weeks have been really stressful for both of us. I want you to have one stress free day.” His lips meet mine again. I deepen the kiss and my body comes alive. Shifting closer, pressing my body against his wanting more. “Er, Jenna.” His body stiffens. “Angel, what are you doing?”

  “I think you know what I’m doing.” My voice is husky, feeling him stiffen under me, I begin to slowly rub myself against him.

  “I… I know what you’re doing. I…” He moans when I press my lips against his shutting him up. He allows my tongue access, but quickly, he backs away. “I mean…”

  “I know what you mean.” I kiss him again. Shifting my body hovering myself over his erection. “I want this Gabriel.”

  “But you’re supposed to relax today.”

  “Gabe.” I warn. “If you don’t give me what I want,” I slowly slide myself over him. He drops his head and moans. “I will hate you forever.”

  He rests his hands on my hips when he fills me completely. Then he holds me still. “Well, how can I refuse what you want?” I can feel him throbbing inside me.

  “You can’t.” My breath hitches when he shifts under me.

  “Gabe?”

  “Yeah Angel?” His voice is husky and his eyes are full of lust mixed with love.

  “Make love to me.” I try to shift, but he holds me still over him. “Now.” I demand. His hands grip my waist firmly when he tries to hide a smile. I lean in and bite his earlobe. “Move. Now.”

  “Shh baby.” His teeth nip my shoulder. Slowly, he allows me to move. “I just needed to feel you.” He whispers. The water begins to slosh.

  His hands guide me up and down his shaft. I take a handful of his hair when my mouth attacks his. Once we find our rhythm, our breaths quicken. I rest my forehead on his. I try to keep eye contact with him but this sensation is too much. He closes his eyes as if he’s holding himself back. “Gabe.” I beg.

  “Let go Jenna.” He kisses the corner of my mouth, breathing heavily. I know he’s holding himself back waiting for me. A few moments later, I find my release in a form of a scream at the same time he finds his, groaning in my neck.

  We sit still for a few minutes, letting the water settle along with our breathing. I’m lying on his chest, he’s still firmly inside me. “Do you think it will always be like this?” He asks. I can’t find the energy to speak so I shrug.

  “Can I admit something?” I nod while nestled in his arms. “I kind of wish we would have hooked up before now.” I crane my head up to look at his face, I’m confused. He takes his fingers and rubs a spot between my eyebrows. “Did you know that I could always tell when you don’t get me?” Chuckling he continues. “Your forehead scrunches up right here.”

  “Why do you wish we would have hooked up before?”

  “Because if I knew how good this felt, I would definitely have wanted this before. But still,” He kisses me softly. “I would have waited a lifetime for this… I would still wait forever for you, Jenna.” His words melt my insides.

 
“What did I do to deserve you?” His honey brown eyes begin to gloss over.

  “Exist.” He says softly. “I honestly don’t know what I would be without you.” He pulls me into his arms where I begin to sob. “Hey.” I bury my face in the crook of his neck. “Jenna, talk to me. Why are you crying Angel?”

  “I’m afraid.” Keeping my arms around his neck.

  “Of what?” He caresses me while I hold him tightly. “Jenna?”

  “That… That I won’t be enough.” I confess. “That I’m doing this wrong. Or that I’m going to do this wrong” How can I tell him I’m scared as hell that I’m not performing well enouth? He remains quiet which causes me to worry more.

  “Are you kidding me?” He asks. Pulling me away from his arms, he looks into my eyes. His face is torn. “Are you talking about the sex?” I bite my bottom lip and blink my answer with a tear. He huffs. “Jenna, I’ve been scared shitless that I’ve been screwing this up.” He admits like he’s taken the words from me. “I guess this is what happens when we both are unexperienced.” He caresses my face with his hands and wipes the tears away with his thumb.

  “Jenna, the boat, last night, what we did just now, I wasn’t lying when I said that I wish we had gotten together a long time ago. God baby, I wish you knew how much I was worried that I wouldn’t make you happy.”

  “Gabriel, you have no idea how happy you’ve made me. Last night was amazing. I think knowing that you’ve not been with anyone helps ease my fears. But that’s not what makes me happy. Knowing that I will forever belong to you means more to me than you know.”

  “I’ve always been yours Jenna. I have been since the first day we met. And whatever we’re doing, I think we’re doing it right. I’ve never been happier.”

  “I love you Gabriel.” My eyes stay locked on his. “I’ve loved you for so long now. I was just too afraid to let go.”

  “I know.” He admits running a finger over my bottom lip. “When you woke up from the accident and you wouldn’t settle until you saw me, I knew then. But I knew before that… I was so scared that I wouldn’t have gotten the chance to tell you how much I loved you. But I also respected Brennan enough to stay quiet. Will knew, he told me to be patient, but when I saw you in Justin’s arms at the club, I knew for sure that I had to do something and quick.”