Women and Men

by Joseph McElroy

  Could weather precipitate from the ground upward? The two colleagues agreed it could—"At least once in a Double Moon," chafed the gaunt New-yorkondo. But the semi-retired medicine man, whose way of seeing things the Anglo did not pretend to see as an insider, and who looked too fragile to smile, much less shake his head, blew a polite negative upon the rosy sand map on the cell floor before him. Double Moon was Double Moon. Ground-upward clouds were something else; likewise, hail growing in the great planted fields like the old black-and-white "bullet" melons, then to be sucked upward by passing "chimneys" of thunder so the Anglos could have harnessed this downside-up hail against one another. The Hermit-Inventor of New York asked if the Double Moon that had fallen upon the pistol Mena had brought to this cell had turned it into two pistols or only roused rumors of two origins for one. The Anasazi recommended he stick to the subject. The Hermit said that his great-great uncle, the only short man of all that singular line, had once in London stood upon a sunny hill Christmas morning to see hundreds of feet of ground-upward weather. He had taken a photograph upon a large oblong of card treated with a layer of fresh bodies of the tiny marine carnivore the comb jelly plus a film of glassy "shite" from the French marbled newt. It showed a sulfur-gray gulf of ground-cloud packing the city with an effluent known a century earlier to put a fur and crust upon silver plate. But the Anasazi and his eastern visitor saw weather-from-the-ground-up differently. The old one had never seen a city but could imagine it sunk two hundred feet deep in its own poisonous fog; and he knew that the sole source, the earth itself, had turned the temperature upside down so that ground-level stays cold even after sun-up and the sun cannot lure the ground-level airs upward. The Hermit felt this upcoming weather derived from circulations within the Earth that upon reaching the cool pre-dawn surface mixed with airs already too well breathed by men and women and chemically redestined by the feelings and leftover dreams their bodies impregnated those airs with. The Anasazi blew upon the sand-patterns and simultaneously laughed: he saw no real difference between these views, unless he and his guest should wish to have a wrestling bout over it.

  Jim’s grandmother was avidly reading a love-story book about a whaler one day he came back from football practice. She hadn’t seen him in a week, and he asked why she had never returned to the West. "I had responsibilities here," she said. She went on reading but stopped, and she looked right at him in her way. But he left her and went over to Marie’s house where for some reason she was neither peeling carrots and turnips for her mother nor reading Sinclair Lewis upstairs, she was sitting on the porch staring ahead irritated, and some absence of halo round her up there on the porch where he joined her made him think upon a strange potential fact, and this was hard so he thought instead of her breathing body and the friendly scent of her under her sweater like a whole air even more than a smell and coming from her when she breathed in as well. He sat down next to her and was glad to think a thing or two through, which was the last time on this score, which might have seemed unsettled between him and his grandma, while he now made a discovery. But when, in the midst of it, the familiar girl in her plaid skirt and short-sleeved angora and bobby sox testily rocking said, "Looks like rain," he knew it wasn’t really him she was mad at, if him at all. Anyway he had seen that between the steamily upgoing weathers and the resolute downcoming weathers, between that observed and that created, between the weathers of presence and of absence, and of leaving and arriving and most strangely of inside and outside, and all these always divided up so you could practically see them out of that time when people really cared why a luminous night cloud came widely low to the continent in subtle motion each day as if the continent were turning westward and the cloud hung waiting for places to come under it, the grandmother had always been out to entertain him at a fairly high level but had been led into history she herself cared to keep if not create; likewise she had told some pretty fair horse and cactus tales to pass their time as if there would have been nothing otherwise, but in doing so she had covered up things that had happened so the coverings became queer to the eye approaching, say, that mother with a hole in the head or a tornado that rumbled off like the made-up pterodactyl bird it really was, that is when Margaret turned into a Princess, which was really another person in her that he didn’t ask about, but she was two persons, both the young woman who saw slaughterhouses in Nebraska and dry farming among the Indians—

  —what’s dry farming?

  —It’s get-right-out-there-while-you-can farming just during the brief period of the rains—

  —who read the 1892 commissioner’s report and knew that medicine men were adjudged to be barbarous conjurers and got ten to thirty days in jail for a first offense; she had studied provisions for "field matrons" who would help Indian women learn hygiene, crafts, and in the "Lend a Hand" clubs proper observance of the Sabbath, and she had looked forward to visiting the Indian exhibit at the Chicago World’s Fair which was confined for lack of funds to an industrial boarding school, thus demonstrating Washington’s commitment to educational progress for the Indians who were not to be called Red Men but the People, not Injuns but the Five Civilized Tribes—Cherokee, Seminoles, Creeks—we’ve got a couple of Creeks right here, your teammate Ira’s half Creek—

  —he’s crazy, Gramma—

  —which Indians was she referring to?—the industrial Indians, the boarding Indians—

  —they would go home for the weekend testing themselves with often a round trip on foot of eight hundred miles between Friday night and Sunday night—

  —the Five Civilized Tribes recognized by treaties of 1866 and later—

  —and on the other hand, the Princess who sought nothing by experience and felt in her wrists and heart, amidst the smoke of the Night Chants which her host the Prince demanded she be allowed to watch, the high juggling of live objects by ritual clowns who ran so exactly out of step that they were simultaneous reincarnate priests branding the night with its own outlines shifted into question—but when she grew sick she could go on sitting on the floor of a still unbewitched hogan in a beam of light from the hole in the roof, upon a beautiful blanket whose design she knew had no more urgent meaning than the designs on other blankets (or the way the light from above siphoned her into some space of the future in which she would remain here forever) and be glad that the practicing medicine men would not come to heal her—for she did not miss doctors, the doctors of Choor, the more gentle island healers hidden among the lakes of the Long White Mountain.

  Grandfather Alexander, whom the boy talked to more since his mother had died, and who must have been one of those responsibilities that had kept Margaret from returning to the West, said Margaret was going to Muskogee for the Sequoyan Convention in 1905 but she had a couple of small children by then. The boy asked what that was, and Alexander told him they had had the idea of a state of the union drawn from the Indian territories and organized by the Five Civilized Tribes. Quite a big thing at the time. Creeks, Cherokees, forget the others; became Christians, owned slaves, real civilized. Made a dictionary, started a newspaper; built regular houses—not those six-sided hogans of the Navajos or underground houses like the Salish out near the Pacific (because it don’t get very cold below ground level).

  Only one state? said Jim, and his grandfather laughed, which put into the boy’s secure memory his own remark.

  That was what got him into the newspaper business, a reasonable memory for and a respect for fact, y’know—plus a way of removing some facts from his head to an ink imprint on paper, and it came to cupric sulfide and pen-taerythritol, supercooled cloud-seeding agents that proved to be much less convenient than lead iodide or dry ice (though Nature wasn’t to be sniffed at even when it evaporates a cauliflower cumulus and disappoints a farmer): how to remove intact from his mind a fact so that it might never lose its authoritative meaninglessness, even (he bet) for chemists who nodded with matter-of-fact intensity at names of yet other cloud-seeding agents phloroglucinol and me-taldehyde:
and throw in the more earthly meteorologist contacts Jim ran into, who had a trick of telling you how the gas law explains a good half of weather—that is, that a gas adjusts its state moving from one environment to another—and in a trim surveillance craft gliding not at all silently (because of the density of conversation) just below a growing cumulus at its flat, football-field-long base, where the cooling air turns rainy, he could be shown one afternoon how the base’s center was higher than the surrounding edges; yet confronted with a restless atmosphere—the air rising; the pressure on it hence decreasing so that the air answers by expanding, which in turn takes effort on the part of our "only human" air which as a result must spend some of its energy which is measured (we are reminded by a child or young person in the next room) in temperature (check it out) the air gets cooler ten degrees Centigrade for each kilometer upward—Mayn’s contacts (friendly as relations he phoned once a year) could also speak to him of this rate as the "dry adiabatic lapse rate" (it will never desert you and in a pinch will tell you how high or low a cloud will form). And these clouds were what you put into them too, it came to him years after he had committed to some memory morgue the sometimes furiously, yes, furiously made-up spiral winds, whose attempt to return only to their source in the breathing of certain vegetarian reptiles and the needle-shooting cactus those reptiles woke up once a month to feed on, the Hermit-Inventor would explain to the Anasazi as an effect of a shearing or squall line between the reptile’s moist breath moving to meet its nutriment and the cactus’s oppositely targeted dry—thus stirring at widespread joint-feed times spiral breaths that on rare days joined energies and went away, uniquely dustless but of a discernible green hue due, the Hermit said, not only to the cactal skin but to the fall sun’s blueness elusive to the naked eye mixed with yellow, bile-like blood which these vegetarian reptiles tried to purify each day from their prior carnal form of the minute Pressure Snake of the South that preyed on mountaineers who one moment would see a sky-blue worm accost a boot toe and the next would be sucked all but their bones into this (we almost felt "human") compacter, which, to those few who had lived to see it, then proved to have rooted itself to the mountain and while maintaining its wormful size digested what it needed of the object-human whose flesh it had separated all but instantly from the bone cage, and shot the rest into the mountain. This caused a general tremor since the mountain understood that the flesh so dazzlingly compacted into that blue snake could hold, in some riddle of energy, this reduction only for a moment, which buttressed the Hermit’s theory that mountains dreamt. But the Anasazi would not be drawn back into this issue; he explained spiral winds his way.

  With his breath he drew upon the sands of his rock floor. These early weather maps coiled shape inside shape, the abiding forms present in the weather places at rest and restless and always ready to open out so that we saw a wind had been potentially a bird, a bending tree some moment clothing a wind; a flash flood rivering down the sky ocean high above it had once in the desert’s territorial memory been a reverse waterspout. The sands in which these maps were drawn were rose and green and blue sands, sands orange and nearly black, sand sand-colored (as the Anasazi’s colleague from New York put in); and more unusual was the live violet of that western chinook wind the Anasazi once had seen from far above it in this specialist eyrie of his, a wind that warms and dries and avalanches down a mountain so not even the desperate trees could detain it, speeding to eighty, ninety, a hundred miles an hour across the flatlands to remove, incidentally, moisture from the ground so swiftly some of it was never seen except in unexpected memories; long, shallow islands of volcanic dew; salt arms of some departed sea become rivers without issue or source that stood almost unnoticeable, dead as the dense Anglo rivers of the later East that have learned to store even the most bright-veined wastes against a time when we will know how to use them. So all the above colors dropped from the Anasazi’s ceiling as if dye-separated from the sands subtly crumbling thence down in order then to remix with them: but no, said the uniquely non-reincarnable elder to his much younger hermit-co-thinker who advanced this theory of separation and reunion; no, the colors could not have left the sand even as they filtered through the ceiling, because in that event they could never come back; so they must have created, in the precipitation from ceiling to floor, a shade in the color skins of our snake-like eyes, an obstacle or message that had the appearance of an illusion, so we saw only sand falling (and when it all caves in someday there will be no cave!).

  But no, said the Hermit in his turn, when the ceiling falls in—and the Hermit had acquaintance with different ceilings where he came from and had invented some to fill a need—we will get the landlord to repair it!—and while they laughed, and the Anasazi muttered absently who is this Landlord of the East? they both admired what the four winds, or the four generally heroic brothers the name of one of whom the Anasazi bore, had created on the floor—a scheme of avenues and parallelograms and squares and anvil shapes, outer ovals and apparent cols and crags within, in turn hexagonally windowed by forthright trenches tempting a marriage of lights just as the irrigation ditch reaches out to the water if people let it. For like the weather patterns windblown into the map—that is, by breath not solely owned by the breather— the colors in the sand came from ages of high-handed flow especially at sundown or sunup when the blood of the mountains stirs about toward the thoughts of its own horizon light and this red passing to and from the Sun through that upper land of filaments and nation-sized curls and rippled sand ("Mackerel," put in the eastern Hermit, always inclined to give the precise, if eastern, term) becomes all the halo colors, all auras mapped on this floor cooled by one of the silver moons that come near, and in the night told the Anasazi again that these maps radiant as a musk thistle or serious as a city were not the four-cornered history of his early adulthood when his devotion to healings so curious they got to be ends in themselves took him away from his children whom he loved more painfully from a distance and his sometime loved wife from whom distance had too seldom been possible until one day he found that they had contrived distance between them and were lost to each other. And he would see her face looking up to him from a mountain he would pass when death had turned him into, as he predicted, an unprecedented cloud, or looking up to him from the shaken grass-grains of an earthen winnowing tray or straight into his eyes once when she told him she would not use the age-old wooden pillow for the head of their new baby in her cradle board. Until with, thus, the moon’s cool help, he saw again these weather maps for what they were, a history and prediction weatherwise as sure as that when you stand with your back to the wind stream you will feel its absence in your left shoulder and intensified presence in your right inviting you to turn, though when you do and find you have risen slightly onto your accepting toes, you find not the same pressure of hands upon you, for in the circles are always motions upward or away and thus we would feel deserted by these spirals of wind if we did not sense through the twining spirals originating inside us in our internalized four corners and always breathed outward if we only recall how from endless sources in us that it is always the same wind. It is always a different wind, groused the Hermit-Philosopher but saw in the sometimes angular neighborhoods in the map, which became another map before his hugely color-sensitive eyes, that winds did not follow only the curves of valleys and the ovals of bird flight but turned sharp enough and often enough to frame the very territories about which he and the Anasazi once quarreled.

  This was not to be compared to the long-distance, sight-unseen, though ear-to-ear exchange of opinion between the Anasazi and Marcus Jones who heard upon an angle of the counter-twilight breeze, though they had never met, the (to him unmistakable) voice of the old healer identify the musk thistle as radiant, and Marcus found himself on instinct responding out of his ear, of all likely responders among his bodily parts, that the musk thistle’s flower-head system was in fact without rays, and while the Anasazi might have replied that the color over the haired and con
vex reddish-lavender head was radiant, he contented himself, and Marcus Jones, with praise of Jones’s love of the coyote thistle as witness his discovery that in look it obviously was some distant pineapple though he knew pineapples only in the descriptions of his visitor the Hermit-Inventor of New York.