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by Robert Lax


  and the communists are no good.

  In Czechoslovakia they have a big factory

  (it goes on for blocks) making automobiles,

  but in it they have people spying;

  if anyone does a good job, he gets a promotion.

  “That’s better. It’s an American idea.”

  “That’s not bad.

  But what is needed is to have bosses and workers

  working together,

  not against each other;

  just working together.”

  “How’s it ever going to happen?”

  “I don’t know.

  Everybody’s against everybody;

  French against Italians against Germans,

  and bosses against workers.”

  “What can you do about it?”

  “You can see the situation.”

  “But what can you do about it?”

  “Nothing.

  I don’t know.

  Oh yes

  I know.

  But nobody will ever do it.”

  “What’s that?”

  “It takes one man

  who knows all the languages

  very well

  to go from country to country,

  from factory to factory,

  and talk to the workers

  and talk to the bosses,

  and make them see the situation.

  And then get them to work together,

  main à main pour la paix.

  Not anticapitalist (we need capitalists).

  Teach the workers to work with the capitalists

  and teach the capitalists to work with the workers.

  Marxism is a good idea,

  but the people who believe it are not all good.

  Christianity is a good idea, but nobody practices it.

  We don’t need any more marxists or christians,

  what we need is men of goodwill.

  But even if somebody did that,

  went around from one place to another,

  and the idea was taking hold,

  someone would come up to him and say,

  Yes that’s a good idea,

  main à main pour la paix,

  we’d like to buy it

  for a large sum of money.

  (so they could use it their own way!)

  And don’t you think the guy would sell it?”

  “I don’t know.”

  “Ah!” said Fritz, “He would just as sure

  as you’re standing there.”

  THE DEVILS

  A busy

  mischievous

  music

  begins

  which has in it

  a thin

  vibration

  of the

  nether-

  world,

  and the

  two

  young

  devils

  rush

  into

  the ring

  (red tights

  horned hoods

  raised eyebrows

  and black capes).

  They scramble

  up the rope ladder

  onto their

  white diabolic

  seesaw;

  standing

  together a

  moment on

  the trapeze bar

  before they

  step

  carefully

  to

  opposite ends

  of the

  delicate

  teeter-totter

  high

  above the ring.

  Now

  the music begins,

  a waltz

  a plaintive

  song

  of an alto

  sax

  rising,

  rising,

  and pleading.

  They unclasp their capes

  and drop them

  to the ring.

  Jean is

  heavier

  and sits

  at his end

  adjusting the

  weight,

  while Jacques

  at the other end

  stands up

  raising his

  hands above his

  head.

  (The audience

  applauds

  while Jacques is

  standing)

  Jean gets

  up

  slowly

  slowly

  adjusting

  the balance

  at every move

  slowly

  slowly

  until

  he is standing.

  He raises his arms

  one to his side

  the other

  is slanting downward

  toward the center of

  the seesaw.

  Moving slightly,

  seeming to

  hold the balance

  only

  with the movement

  of his hand,

  while Jacques

  starts down

  leaning

  out

  to add weight

  bending his knees

  spreading his arms

  arcing

  his arms out

  slowly

  slowly

  until he is

  moored in a

  sitting position

  while Jean

  stands

  his

  hand

  held gently

  toward the

  center,

  playing

  (slightly)

  with his fingers

  strings

  of balance.

  Then Jacques

  descends

  farther,

  climbing carefully

  over the edge

  at his

  end;

  at first

  hanging

  on,

  then taking a

  bit

  in his

  mouth

  he

  hangs,

  extending his arms

  and pointing his toes

  to the ground.

  And Jean,

  still

  standing,

  moves

  his weight

  from foot

  to foot

  and holds his

  hand

  toward

  the center.

  The crowd

  is silent;

  rapt.

  Women look

  up;

  their hands

  clasped;

  their

  eyes are

  held

  as

  by some

  living

  glow;

  for all

  of us are

  on

  that

  moment’s

  balance.

  Then

  Jean

  cries out,

  drops

  to

  his

  end

  and

  both

  begin

  to swing

  head over

  heels

  head over

  heels;

  Jean

  over

  Jacques

  over

  Jean

  over

  Jacques;

  red

  devils

  flying

  as the white

  seesaw

  pivots

  on the trapeze

  bar;

  Jean over Jacques over

  Jean over Jacques

  to rollicking music.

  Then

  Jacques

  arrests

  the swing,

  stands on the

  trapeze bar,

  grasps a

  long rope,

  and slides

  down

  to the ring.


  Jean

  follows

  him.

  Both

  lift their arms,

  smile,

  then

  duck

  from the

  ring

  to a strain

  of their

  nether-

  world music.

  (Jacques told me

  that the most

  important thing

  in circus life is

  “Qu’on veut arriver!”)

  CHILDREN

  Three children

  sat on a trunk

  that William Randal

  keeps his

  dancing

  puppet in.

  The oldest was a boy,

  the wisest was a girl,

  the youngest was another little boy.

  The girl was sitting on the trunk,

  the boys were leaning over

  it and talking.

  All three of them wore new straw hats.

  The girl had a little

  paddle-like

  paper fan.

  She had large,

  wondering eyes;

  very serious and

  wise.

  And they were comfortable

  and well dressed

  and knew a great deal

  about the ropes

  and canvas

  and the show.

  They were talking over

  the things they knew.

  Earlier I had seen her

  climbing a rope ladder

  in her great straw hat,

  and the little boys

  were following.

  Now,

  on the trunk

  with her legs like a young

  deer’s resting,

  she sat and listened

  with gravity

  and amusement

  to the gay or

  solemn

  piping

  of their

  discoveries.

  CIRCUS AT TWILIGHT

  Sitting

  on the fence

  between

  the street

  and the circus,

  I watched the sun

  going down

  between the tent

  and the row of caravans and cages;

  watched the last of

  daylight

  die

  far off

  across the field

  across the city

  behind

  St. Peter’s

  dome.

  Here was the darkness,

  the slightly

  reddened

  twilight,

  the food wagon,

  sleeping wagons

  (dark and low)

  the eating tent,

  and then the new

  pond in the field

  (and their reflections

  walking in it

  toward the tent

  of tables)

  and the pump

  (and their figures

  bending to it humbly).

  Some sat near it

  and eating,

  spoonless,

  from tin plates,

  scooping up beans,

  drinking wine

  from deep

  long-handled

  canisters;

  and beyond the lake

  and the water hose,

  the avenue of lions

  (dark cage-wagons

  whence rose

  a plaintive

  roar).

  In lines

  as weary,

  graceful

  as the sky,

  as much at home

  as mountains,

  rose the tent.

  Above it were two lights

  and letters

  before.

  Below it

  were the midway lights;

  long pointed stars

  and gently

  looping

  vines of light,

  cascading

  as an arch

  above the

  midway.

  But in this lake

  this pond

  this pregnant sea,

  all is reflected here,

  all shadows pass

  as circus

  from the field;

  and light

  falls on it

  gently

  as a star.

  With the last 500 lire I bought marsala and eggs and sugar, and brought them to Fritz just after supper. He put them away in the electric wagon, saying thank you. At midnight I walked home, through the Roman ruins in tennis shoes, wondering sadly why I had not been asked for zabaglione.

  The day before they left Jean Le Fort said,

  “Surely you are coming with us.”

  I said, “Do you think so?”

  He said, “Surely.”

  I packed a canvas bag with a few things and

  returned to the field. All that night I

  watched the demontage while Fritz and

  Randal talked to each other about the

  circus life and laughed about me.

  When his work was done Fritz wrapped

  himself in blankets, stretched out his

  sleeping bag, and slept on the field while

  the heavy trucks rolled and backed

  around him (a dark cocoon on the

  black field with the dark night standing

  over him).

  I watched Raymond and George

  packing the last of the wire cables.

  I helped Harry stack the sections

  of iron fence.

  I watched the monteurs, mute as

  rain clouds rolling the tent

  in four huge bundles and

  loading them onto the truck;

  and bringing down the great

  central light and lowering

  the masts.

  I slept for a minute in one of

  the berths in a workers’ caravan

  hung with red coats and gold-striped

  pants.

  In the morning, dewy and cold

  with the air like ground glass

  we stood on the fields while

  the trucks lined up and

  waited.

  Fritz was up now, calling hoarsely,

  wearing his cap and jacket and checked

  green shirt. His truck was the

  first in line. He kept gunning

  it and waiting.

  On the way out of Rome in the early morning, on the long road, white-fenced and lined with flowering trees, we were guided by three municipal cops on motorcycles, friendly, turning back to signal the directions, glowering involuntarily beneath their black helmets.

  I rode in a big cab with Robert the chauffeur and two brothers from Savoy who did the perch-pole act.

  At one roadside place where we stopped for coffee, Fritz came stamping in, jacket off but wearing the windy green shirt, “Has anyone got a cigarette?” I had one and threw it to him. “Thanks!” he shouted, lighting and seeming to eat it.

  After the stop, Robert’s truck got ahead of the others and led the way out of the villages in the valley up the mountain roads in the clear morning. The motor heated. So did the day. We took off our sweaters, unbuttoned our shirts, leaned out of the windows. The red trucks followed up the winding roads like caterpillars.

  “Where’s Fritz?”

  “See, there below.”

  “Where are the Le Forts?”

  “Way down there. Just coming around. See the little white trailer?”

  Robert’s truck made all the hills with no trouble. But we could see the others pulling off to the side, stopping, rolling back. On one hill the Le Forts honked past us, pulling the light white trailer. They had put down the top of the roadster, two were sitting up front, two were outside on the back ledge of the rumble seat, waving as they went by.

  “What is the name of the next town?”r />
  “Rieti.”

  “Is it far?”

  “Another two hours.”

  At about two o’clock we pulled into Rieti. A few cars were there ahead of us and Banane had begun to stake out the ground.

  We were in a field a little outside town, near a big closed building (a theater or market) but still in an area of public drinking fountains, bars, and a watermelon stand. The villagers stood around watching us quietly. Fritz’s truck did not arrive till late. When it did he swung it into the lot. A cheer went up from the rest of us when he hopped out heavily and threw his cap to the ground. The monteurs (roustabouts), the roughest-looking crew to arrive, rolled off the trailer where they traveled, lying in the folds of the rolled green tent, sleeping or talking, making jokes, passing cigarette butts between them. Hats askew, hair uncut and full of dust, chins unshaven, grimed and sweaty from their travel, they leapt from the weather-beaten canvas, landing on the field like a rain of rockets.

  Frtiz went directly across the field to where a pipe coming out of the earth issued in a stream of water. He leaned down and drank from it, washed his face in it, looked up, drew breath, and smiled.

  I threw him a cigarette. He laughed. “Merci, Robert!” He reached in his pocket for matches; struck, and brought fire to it. Then he walked back across the lot where the other workers were eating lunch from tin army plates and drinking wine from field canisters.

  The generator truck was still on the road, turned off to the side, unable to move. The tent could be put up, but until the generator truck arrived, there was nothing real for us to do. The roustabouts, having eaten quickly, began to hammer at the iron stakes.

  “Now,” I said to Fritz, “shall we see the town a little?”

  “No,” he said, astonished, “I have to work. Tomorrow we will take a walk through the town.”

  “Good.”

  Toward 7 in the evening Jacques Le Fort and I stood in the grey light near the electric wagon, looking into the blackness of the tent, regarding absently a flap of tent and rope tied to a stake.

  “Do you like it?”

  “Yes, it is a good place for me. I’m glad I came along.”

  The crowds were beginning to gather, but there was no saying whether they would see a spectacle tonight. Fritz came and sat beside us on the steps of the wagon.

  “Where will you sleep tonight?”

  “Here on the ground.”

  “No, I’ll give you my mattress,” said Fritz.

  “And I’ll bring you a blanket. Jean has one in the car,” said Jacques.

  “And Randal will bring him a blanket; he told me he would,” said Fritz.

 

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