Surviving Until The End

by Vera Quinn

  “Brody, I do not have a lot of experience with men, but I am no virgin. I want you for tonight. No commitment and tomorrow things can go back the way they are now. I know I am messing this up, but I want just this one night to be with you. You and me enjoying the pleasure we can give each other and forgetting everyone and everything else outside this room.” I hear the pleading in Charity’s voice and it is destroying any resistance I have left. I turn around and Charity takes the chance to get closer to me. I feel the heat off her body.

  “Charity, this is not a great idea. I don’t have a good record when it comes to relationships. I have had a woman in my life for many years that keeps me from moving on to a healthy relationship.” I know this is not the time to tell Charity about the whole Jilly thing. Charity takes my hand in her hand and brings it up to her mouth. She kisses my hand and then does something that surprises me. She sucks my finger into her mouth and I can feel the precum leaking from the head of my cock. I pull my hand out of her mouth and before I know it Charity whips the t-shirt she is wearing over her head. “Babe, you need to put that shirt back on.” I know I should move and leave the room and get some air, but she reaches for my hand again and moves it to her breast. The weight of it feels so good in my hand. I cup it harder and then move my fingers to her nipple and roll it between my fingers. Charity’s head rolls back and she lets out a moan. Oh shit, I know my soul is going to be cursed. I bend down and suck her nipple in my mouth. I suck, lick and nip at the hardened nipple. I take my mouth away from the nipple and Charity lets out a sound of impatience. I look at Charity and she looks at me. Charity tries to bring me in for a kiss, but I stop her this time. “Charity, if we do this you need to understand it is a one-time thing. I can’t give anything more than tonight. I do not want there to be any misunderstanding this is more than what it is. One night of two people needing the comfort of each other and then tomorrow, we are beginning a friendship and I would like to continue doing that, but nothing more. Is all that clear with you?”

  “Yes, Brody, I understand it all and it is what I am asking for and nothing else. Is this how you act every time a woman throws herself at you? I want you for tonight with no strings attached.” I don’t know how I got so lucky, but I am not turning down what Charity is offering even though I should. I just hope we both can live with it tomorrow. I pull Charity closer to me and take her mouth and taste her the way I have wanted to since I met the woman. I taste the mint of the tooth paste she must have used after her shower. I want to devour Charity in this kiss. Her taste is like honey on my tongue. Charity’s first experience was not a good one, so I want to give her more this time even if it is only one night. I slow the kiss down and take it deeper. It is sweet and slow even though I am not accustomed to such sweetness, I want it now for Charity. I want Charity to remember this kiss and compare every kiss she gets in the future to it. She may have other lovers, but I want her to remember this one kiss. I break away from the kiss filled with want and breathless.

  “I want you and I need you, but not standing here. I want you on the bed.” I start pushing her slowly back towards the bed as I kiss down her neck.

  “Your kiss is opening up parts of myself I thought would be locked up forever. I feel desire and warmth that I have never felt before. I have never trusted someone with my body the way I do you.” Charity’s knees hit the bed. “I want to see your body Brody. I want to see and feel all of you.” Charity lies back on the bed and I take the sight of her in. I pull my shirt up over my head and then throw it in the corner. I snap the button on my jeans and push them and my boxers to the floor and then step out of them. My cock is throbbing with precum leaking and I see the minute that Charity sees me in full view. I am not shy about my body. This time it is different, I want Charity to remember every inch of me. Charity sits up and reaches up and moves her hand up my hard stomach and to my chest. “I love the feel of your skin. It is warm, hard, but still so inviting.” Charity leans farther and takes my cock in her hand. I feel weak in the knees from just her touch. I can’t take it anymore. I fall on top of Charity and cover her body with mine. With a few adjustments I am between her legs, right where I want to be. Nothing before has ever felt so right. “This is perfect, Brody. You smell so good that it makes my mouth water,” Charity is running her hands all over my back and my ass and I feel my body quiver. I have been shutting my body off to all sensations ever since Gracie and I split up. I haven’t had a woman since Gracie, but I want to savor every touch from Charity. I knew this is how it would be between us. I am looking at Charity’s face, but she has her eyes closed like she is trying to remember every inch of me by touch. Then her eyes open and I see the bliss she is in right now. “I need you inside me Brody. I need all of you.”

  “Charity, I don’t want to rush this. You deserve more than a quick fuck in a dusty old hunting camp. I want to cherish your body. This is a memory I want implanted in my head. I don’t want to forget a minute.” I tell Charity.

  “Brody, one day you are going to find a woman that deserves you, and she is never going to let you go. Just so you know, I will remember every second and memory I have of you and me together. Just don’t make me beg.” Charity tells me breathlessly.

  “I want to take you, touch you, taste your essence, kiss you until you are mindless with need and only then will I give you mindless pleasure.” I take Charity’s mouth with a hunger that will never be satisfied. Just the thought scares me. This is for one night and one night only. I need to keep reminding myself. I come up for a breath and move to Charity’s neck, kissing and licking. Then nipping and more kissing. I kiss Charity’s ear and make sure she can feel my hot breath in her ear and then move down to her ear lobe and nip and then suck it into my mouth. I feel Charity wrap her legs behind mine and try to bring my cock to her, so she can grind her wet pussy against me, but not yet. I would like nothing better than to bury myself inside her, but I know once I feel her pussy surround my cock I will be done for. It has been too long. I release her ear lobe and kiss my way down her collar bone, taking my time and enjoying every taste. I want to burn my touch into Charity’s memory. I kiss my way back to Charity’s breast and suckle one and then the other, giving each the attention it needs.

  “Brody, please. I need to feel you inside me. I can’t wait any longer, please.” Charity’s pleading has my cock as hard as nails. Charity moves her hand between us and she reaches down and grabs my cock and the shock of the feel of her hand is almost my undoing. I feel an electric current from her hand to my balls and I fucking want more.

  “I want to taste you Charity, everywhere. I want to lick and suck on your clit until you cum on my tongue.” I don’t wait for Charity to answer. I feel her legs fall away from me and I kiss my way the rest of the way down her belly and then further still. Charity has a nicely trimmed patch of hair on her. I kiss her pelvic bone and I part her folds opening her to me. The most beautiful pussy I have ever seen. I rub my finger over her clit and massage it further until it is erect and then I move myself, so I can suck it into my mouth and suck lightly and flick my tongue over it. Charity’s back comes off the bed and I slowly enter a finger inside her and curl it, so I can feel that spongey spot I know will have her on the edge of a climax. I hear Charity cry out and I know she is close. I take my tongue away from Charity’s clit and move it down to her entrance and move my tongue back and forth at a fast pace and then put my tongue inside of her and then I move back to her clit. I feel her quiver and my patience is gone. I need to feel her pussy around me. I move back up her body and when I am between her legs she grabs the back of my head and brings me down for a searing kiss and I know she can taste herself on my tongue. I move my hand between us and grab my cock and line it up and plunge deep inside her hot tight pussy. I feel like I am home, right where I should be, but I wipe that thought away quickly. Charity wraps her legs around the back of mine and she squeeze, and I almost blow inside her. I start moving at a slow pace, but Charity is having none of it. She’s topp
ing me from the bottom, but I am loving every second of it. My thrust become faster and deeper. I feel Charity’s pussy walls begin to quiver and I stop. “On your knees sweetheart. I want in deeper.” I back up, so Charity can get on her knees and the sight of her ass makes me surge into her pussy with an urgency that is taking over my whole body. I go in deep and hard and set an unrelenting pace. I know this is going to end way too fast, but I cannot slow myself down. I have lost all control and my body has taken over. Charity has grabbed the sheet in her hand and digging into the mattress. She is bringing her ass back to me and we have a rhythm going chasing our releases. I reach around her and place my finger on her clit. I rub down and get my finger slick and rub back to her clit. I feel the walls of her cunt sucking my cock in further. She has a greedy pussy. I feel when Charity has reached her orgasm and her pussy sucks the cum out of me. The burn shooting up my back and my balls shrinking up and I feel the first burst of cum streaming into Charity. I keep pumping and feel like my orgasm is never going to stop and I am in a nirvana that has never felt so fucking good. I feel when Charity collapses onto the bed and I go with her covering her body. I try to keep some of my weight off her and then I roll over to my side and pull Charity to me.

  “We forgot something, and I am a mess.” Not what I thought Charity would say, but she is right. I don’t even have a condom with me. I didn’t think. I have only been with two women without a condom in my life, Selena and Gracie. What was I thinking? I wasn’t. Charity makes me not use my brain.

  “I’m sorry. I didn’t even think of a condom. I don’t have one with me, but I am clean. I have only been with two women in my life without a condom. I get a test twice a year.” I try to explain. “Are you on birth control?”

  “The doctor that was in our community gave all the girls older then sixteen the shot, but I am not sure if it is still good. I don’t know exactly how long I was held but I have only been with one person beside you. We didn’t get tested for anything, but the guy has babies with other women and they are fine.” Charity just let something else about the people she calls family. I know she realizes she has said something she didn’t want known. I need to ask questions, but I am dead tired, and I know morning is going to come early. I still need to discuss a few things with Charity tonight. I look down at the top of her head and she doesn’t look up at me. She is going to clam up. Best thing to do is change the subject until she is ready to talk. We will have plenty of time to hash the rest out when we get back to town.

  “In the morning when I leave, I am taking the twelve gauge with me and I will leave the twenty for you. Stay in the cabin and be aware what is going on around the cabin. I think I will hit the highway about midday. We will get some four-wheelers and come and pick you up. When we get back to town then we will go to the Demented Revengers clubhouse and have a sit down with everyone, so maybe we can get answers, and Charity, I know you are somewhat of a private person, but you need to share everything from the beginning and that includes your home life. There must be a reason your pop traded a daughter to the Hell Keeperz MC and we need to know the why, so we can help you and get those other women that are being held to safety. No one will judge your life and maybe while I am gone you can come to terms with that. When I get back to town, I will also get you one of those morning after pills. I don’t know what I was thinking having unprotected sex with you.” Charity is staying quiet the whole time I am talking to her, but her body goes completely still when I say the part about the morning after pill, so I go on. “We are not in a happy healthy relationship. A pregnancy is not something either of us needs. I should have thought before we had sex, but I don’t regret one second of our time together. Having a child from a one- night stand, should not be the way a child is brought into the world, so please, for everyone’s sake consider taking it when I get back here with it or when we can get it. It is your body and your choice, but you need to do the responsible thing. It’s what mature adults do. I am going to get up and lock everything up and turn all the lights out. I’ll be right back, so go clean up so you can sleep better.” I am not trying to be mean or cruel. I am trying to be the responsible adult that I was not an hour ago. Charity rolls out of the bed on her side, and without looking at me or saying anything, she goes to the bathroom. I know I hurt her feelings, but I was just being honest. I get up and put my boxers back on and head into the living room and lock everything up and turn all the lights off. I make my way back to the back room and when I look in there, Charity has moved over to the single set of bunk beds and she is covered up and her face is to the wall. I don’t know what I should do to make Charity feel better. I decide to do nothing. I feel a pull to this woman and for me to be able to walk away from her I know I need to make a clean break and this is the way I choose to do it. I turn the light off and climb back in the bed that Charity and I just made love in. No, had sex. We had sex. We did not make love. I do not love Charity. I can’t. I finally drift off knowing tomorrow will be another challenging day, but at least I will get the distance I need from Charity.

  Chapter 10

  Charity

  It seems like I just fell asleep when I feel Brody put his knee on the bottom bunk that I am sleeping in. I try not to jump but I do it out of reflex. Brody brings his lips to the back of my head. It’s seems almost sweet if I didn’t remember his words from last night. “I’m leaving Charity. I’ll lock up when I leave. The shot gun is by the end of the bed. It is loaded. Remember everything I told you last night.” How could I possibly forget? “I’ll see you in a few hours.” I never respond to him, but I feel when he gets off the bed and I hear the door close. I stay still even though I need to go relief myself. I wait and when I finally hear Brody shut the front door and then hear his boots going down the front steps. I give it a few minutes and then get up and go to the bathroom without turning on any lights. I finish my business and then wash my hands.

  I make it through the small cabin without turning on any lights. I get me some water and find me a can of fruit to eat for breakfast. I eat it straight out of the can. I have no way of knowing the time, but when I think I have given Brody enough time to be out of sight of the cabin. I turn some lights on and look around for a bag or backpack to put some things in. I don’t want to take from Brody and his family, but I will leave a note guaranteeing I will return every single item or something new like it. I will make a list of everything I take. I think of what I am going to do and what I will need. I know exactly where I can get some help, even if it isn’t voluntary. Uncle Hem won’t mind. He’s always told me anytime I need help he would be there. Uncle Hem is a man that did business with my Pop and I always tried to help him load the crops that he bought from us. I know he would help me, so I have a plan. Uncle Hem said he would always help me and that he cared for me like a daughter. His family is all gone.

  His wife and brother passed, and his sons and nephew moved away. I find a big duffel bag in one of the many storage tubs in the house. I fold two of the thin blankets off the bunkbeds and then grab two towels from the cabinet in the bathroom. While I am in there I brush my teeth. I check my panties and bra that I washed out in the sink and hung over the shower to dry. Panties dried, and the bra is almost dried. They will be wearable by the time I am ready to leave. I take the toothbrush and tooth paste and put them in the duffle bag. I walk back in the bedroom and dig through some of the tubs and finally come up with a pair of sweats that will be too short, but they will protect my legs from thorns and bug bites today in the woods. I find a pair of boy basketball shorts and a thicker t-shirt than the one I am wearing. I am going to look a sight, but it will have to work. I don’t care what people think of the way I look. I find a few more things that will work and even some boxers. I can’t be picky. They will work. I stuff them in the bottom of the duffel. I walk back in the kitchen and find a small first aid kit and stick it in there. I find a sharp knife and some scissors. I also stick a few bottles of water in there. I put some dish rags in there and some trash bags. I
go in the closet where the breakers for the lights are. I look around in there and then find the light switch and flip it on. I look closely at the shelves in the room and I am seeing nothing I could use.