My Addiction

by Cassie Ryan

  She returned her gaze to his. “I have a few preferences, but to be honest, I haven’t told quite a few of the Doms I play with exactly what they are, because most of them withhold a sub’s preferences. I think more for the appearance of them controlling their subs than any type of tactic to heighten the sub’s pleasure.” Her brows bunched, and she frowned. “I mostly emphasize my limits.”

  A flicker of some dark emotion in Dex’s gorgeous dark brown eyes was gone before she could be sure she’d seen it. He was a very different kind of Dom than the ones who had abused her trust, and she wanted to be able to trust him.

  He laid his hand on the table between them, his palm facing up. He glanced down at her hand still lying on her lap, and then met her gaze.

  Without thinking, she raised her arm and laid her palm against his much larger one, enjoying the heat from his skin as it pulsed against hers.

  He threaded their fingers together and turned his body so he shielded her from view of the few other booths that were filled. “Thank you for trusting me with that information, Kate. I promise you I won’t misuse it. My job as your Dom will be to show you how much pleasure your body is capable of, protecting you during scenes, and letting you experience the true beauty of the power exchange.”

  She swallowed hard. “I’ve never played at any other dungeon. I’ve done sub training here, but from what a couple of other subs have told me, it’s not what it should be.” She pursed her lips. “That’s why I recently started looking around at other options. But with work and dealing with my father, I felt a bit overwhelmed at the thought of going to another club and starting all over again.”

  Dex stroked his thumb along the side of her hand, sending zinging sensations over her skin. “Not a problem. I’ll keep that in mind as we play, and instruct you along the way. We can start light so you learn what I expect. Now, what about those preferences, or limits, if it’s easier for you to start there. I can assure you I’ve never used a cricket bat during play, although it might have possibilities.” He winked, making her laugh.

  “All right.” She nodded, accepting that she already trusted Master Dex and was going to give him a chance to prove to her he was worthy of it.

  “It’s sometimes difficult for me to orgasm, but a good flogging can get me there without any other stimulation. And by good, I mean done right.”

  Her pussy clenched just thinking about the wonderful stinging sensations that turned into fiery pleasure against her skin. “I’ve only had two Doms do it well. Two different actors who I didn’t tell my preference, and who didn’t bother to ask about limits beyond my safe word. They are both in town only a few times a year, so it’s been a while since I’ve played scenes with either of them.”

  Dex squeezed her hand lightly, their fingers still twined. “I promise you, I’m very good with a flogger, and if you’re that sensitive to it, I guarantee you’ll walk out on rubbery legs after having your dozen orgasms.”

  A tremor ran through her, starting at her aching core and traveling to every part of her body. She sucked in a shaky breath.

  Dex’s expression was intense, as if he was ready to memorize every word she spoke. “Let’s talk limits.”

  She blinked several times to try to break away from the vision of herself spent and boneless that Master Dex had described. “I have hard limits of no choking, no canes, and no nipple or clit clamps, although I’m okay with the adjustable nipple nooses. No scarring or body modifications, which includes not cutting my hair.”

  His confused expression made her cringe, as memories flooded back. “One of the Doms during my first year here decided I would look better with short hair, so while I was blindfolded and restrained, he chopped off my ponytail. It took me two years to grow it back out.”

  Dex took a slow breath as if holding his reaction until he let her finish. She still noticed the displeasure he tried to hide, but she’d always been good at reading people.

  “Master Ralston did fine the Dom, who eventually left on his own after several more complaints from other subs. But since that hadn’t been on my limits list, I was told I really couldn’t complain.”

  The muscle in Master Dex’s jaw worked like he was grinding his teeth. Apparently, Master Ralston’s explanation might not have been accepted in the larger BDSM community. She had heard the same thing from other subs, who were horrified by the incident, but she had still been fairly new, so had just set about regrowing her hair while meticulously adding that to her hard limits list for anyone she agreed to play scenes with.

  “Any other limits?” Dex gently prompted her.

  She licked her dry lips as she pushed the hair-cutting incident out of her mind before it made her angry again. “I won’t budge on any of the non-allowed items on The Dungeon’s membership contract, and a review of all limits should take place before any play session. Also, intercourse needs to be agreed to before the start of each scene, and I never agree to it on the first scene I play with a Dom.” She met his gaze squarely, in almost a dare for him to argue. “And condom use is nonnegotiable.”

  “Good.” He watched her carefully, but showed no trace of disagreement or surprise at those additions to her list. Yet another thing that set him apart from the rest. Both of those were usually points she had to defend, threatening to walk away if they weren’t agreed to and adhered to during play.

  He remained silent, his warm hand still engulfing hers.

  She swallowed and met his gaze, biting back the automatic spiel she had started to add before agreeing to play with any new Dom. She wasn’t sure she wanted to put those barriers in place with Master Dex.

  His smile turned decadent and he kept her gaze as he asked, “What were you about to say, Kate?”

  The rush of heat into her cheeks told her a blush had just given her away. Master Dex knew she had left something out, and now she couldn’t wave it off.

  Damn.

  He captured her gaze and held it. “There needs to be total honesty between us if we are going to play together. It’s only fair and safe for both of us to be on the same page before we move forward.”

  He was right; this was new territory for her. “This is where I usually remind each Dom that just because I have agreed to sub for them at the club, it doesn’t mean they can show up at my home or anywhere else and expect to play Dom without my prior consent, or think I’m their on-demand booty call. A couple of the Doms mistakenly had those ideas, and I disabused them of that thinking very quickly.”

  This time the low growl in the back of Master Dex’s throat was unmistakable, and he didn’t bother to hide his expression from her. “Agreed. All play is, and should be, limited to inside The Dungeon unless we negotiate a wider possibility going forward.”

  His expression softened as he watched her. “Anything else you need to add?”

  She thought about it for a long moment, but couldn’t think of anything she had left out that could cause problems later. She shook her head, and then added almost as an afterthought, “Don’t think that’s getting you out of that agreement to buy me dinner.” She couldn’t keep a straight face or the stern tone she had tried for.

  Master Dex laughed, his amusement and sexy smile making her want to jump him right here. “I would never dream of going back on any promise to one of my subs.”

  A strong stab of irrational jealousy flared through Kate, and she wondered how many other subs Master Dex had out there somewhere.

  She inwardly cringed. She didn’t really want to know, anyway.

  He pushed the table out an inch or two from the booth and then pulled her firmly against him, surprising her. It was as if he had only been waiting for their final mutual agreement to let down his control. The fingers of his free hand speared into her hair, dislodging her ponytail and tightening in the hair at her nape.

  The blatant domination in those actions excited her more than she had thought possible. Many men had played at being her Dom, but Master Dex embodied that role. He seemed as if he wanted to devour he
r, and she had never wanted to be devoured as much as she did at that very moment.

  She wasn’t sure exactly what it was about this man—his size, his confidence, or the entire “walking wet dream, Dom of her fantasies” package—but she felt petite, attractive, and incredibly desired, a heady combination.

  Her breathing was choppy as arousal surged through her. She met his intense gaze and was instantly snared as he slowly lowered his mouth to hers. His warm breath feathered against her lips, the sensation skittering across her skin as if it touched every intimate part of her.

  He smelled of the rich coffee he had drunk and the spicy scent of sexy male. He took his time closing the minute distance between their mouths. Each second only ratcheted her desire and raging lust higher.

  The first brush of his lips over hers made her jump as if the electric contact had been against her clit. She had never been so aroused by a man before they had even finished their first kiss.

  His lips were smooth and firm as he expertly invaded her mouth, exploring every inch with his lips and teeth and tongue. He probed deep, and her pussy clenched as she drowned in desire. She was so keyed up and needed to come so badly, all she could do was balance on the precipice of bliss and allow Master Dex to guide her.

  One firm pinch against her nipple made her whimper, but it definitely wasn’t from any type of pain. In fact, she leaned into the hand that now cupped her breast, silently begging for more.

  Her right hand, her fingers still threaded with his, was captured between them, her left wrapped around the back of his neck, holding him close. She had a fleeting moment to wonder when that had happened, since she didn’t remember doing it.

  “Your nipples are sensitive,” Dex said against her mouth, sounding pleased. She could only nod and thrust her chest harder against his hand. “No wonder you have a limit about clamps. We can work with that to see what you like best.”

  With his firm grip at her nape he pulled back slightly, sending disappointment curling inside her stomach.

  “You’re close to exploding, aren’t you?” he asked her in that decadent voice of his.

  “Yes, sir,” she managed in a raspy whisper. “I have to come soon.”

  Amusement danced in his dark gaze. “Let me explore you a little more, Kate, and then I promise you, you’ll have your dozen orgasms before the night is done.”

  He hadn’t told her not to come, but with his tantalizing promise still ringing inside her head, she vowed to wait until he told her to let go, to silently dare him to make good on his claims.

  She fell into a haze of sensations as Master Dex tweaked her nipple, ripping a gasp from her throat before he plunged his tongue inside her mouth again, kissing her more thoroughly and erotically than she had ever been kissed in her life.

  Surprise slapped her at the fiery sensation of his warm hand as it slipped under her shirt, feathering against her sensitive skin with his slightly callused fingertips and palm. When he reached her thin bra, he traced the skin just under the lacy band, and with one quick flick, released the front hook, loosening her breasts from their confinement.

  The guttural sound of male satisfaction thrilled her. He was claiming her, moment by moment, and she reveled in it. He made her feel irresistible, and yes, owned, in a way she’d never known she wanted until now.

  His hand closed over her heated flesh, and a tsunami of pleasure threatened to drown her. He swallowed her gasp and kept her on the edge as he alternately rolled her nipple between his roughened fingertips and plucked it just hard enough to send a jolt of lightning between her nipple and her clit. She forced open her heavy eyelids to see Opal peeking out of the window in the large silver door that led to the kitchen. The woman’s eyes were glassy with longing, and Kate felt no shame at being on display this way. In fact, until this moment, she had forgotten all about the wider world around her. Everything had zeroed in on her, Master Dex, and the incredible sensations he elicited from her body.

  Master Dex must have noticed her attention had wavered, because he stopped kissing her long enough to follow her line of sight.

  When he turned back, he leaned his forehead against hers. “Are you all right, Kate? Are you embarrassed to have me play with you like this in a public setting?”

  He must have read the answer in her eyes because he smiled and then leaned forward to nip her bottom lip firmly between his teeth. The tiny point of pain dissipated as he ran his tongue over it and then kissed her again. “I think you’re something of a budding exhibitionist, Kate.”

  She sucked in a breath as she realized he might be right. Tonight excited her, and even knowing that Opal, as well as those in the other booths, watched them only excited her more.

  “Why don’t we go start our first full scene together on the dungeon floor?” Dex’s deep voice made her insides quake with nearly painful anticipation. He had promised a dozen orgasms, and after her time with him here in the VIP room, she needed every single one.

  She glanced down at her jeans and V-necked top. “I need to change,” she managed to push out through trembling lips. “Do you have any preferences as to what I wear for our scene?”

  Dex’s features took on a feral look, and he pulled in a deep breath as if in an attempt to hide his true reaction from her.

  She studied him. “Not fair. You told me we both needed to be honest and straightforward. I know I agreed to be your sub for the evening, but I’m assuming you meant what you said and were being honest with me.”

  The edges of Master Dex’s sinfully sensual lips curved. “Has anyone ever told you you’re a damned perceptive woman?”

  It wasn’t said as any type of admonishment, but more as a teasing statement. Kate gave him a small smile. “Most don’t put it that nicely, but, yes, I’ve been made aware of that fact my entire life.”

  Dex nodded as if conceding her point. “You asked what I would prefer you wear for our scene.” He captured her gaze and held her in place with it. “After seeing how much even a slight bit of exhibitionism turned you on, my first reaction to that question was for you to wear absolutely nothing.”

  Arousal zinged inside her as the thought both scared her and turned her on. But then Master Dex continued, saving her from exploring which of those two reactions was stronger.

  Dex brushed her hair back from her face where his rough kisses had dislodged her ponytail. “My preference for tonight would be whatever you can move around best in. Anything that is too constricting or gets in the way of play will have to come off.”

  Kate stopped herself before she could roll her eyes, but Master Dex picked up on even that small hesitation. He raised one expressive brow and kept her pinned in place with his deep gaze while he waited for her to come clean.

  She shrugged, trying to play off her reaction, even as she knew she would never get away with it. Not with Master Dex. “I’ve started buying duplicate sets of lingerie, because it has become the vogue around here to rip off panties or teddies during scenes, rather than it happening as a pure heat-of-the-moment, intensity-of-play thing.” She waited for Master Dex’s swift reaction, but received only a calm nod.

  “Fair enough. When I mentioned anything that got in the way of play had to come off, that didn’t mean I would be indiscriminately ripping off your clothes every time we play a scene.” His expression softened as he reached out to cup her face in his palm. “Trust me, Kate, if a scene ever gets intense enough where I rip off a piece of your lingerie, I will make sure it is well worth it.”

  Heat flooded her pelvis as if to tell her to get on with things, so she could explore all of Master Dex’s promises.

  “Why don’t you show me where the locker rooms are? Master Ralston had my things taken to my locker, and gave me the key, but we didn’t have time for a tour before we found you and Balkins.”

  Kate smiled, warmth spilling through her at the thought of getting to spend more time with Master Dex. “Yes, sir.” She slowly pulled away from him, immediately missing the close connection and th
e heat of his hard body. As she slid out of the booth, he lightly slapped her ass.

  Surprise burned through her, along with a wave of both pleasure and anticipation. Kate didn’t think of herself as a full masochist, but she did admit that she enjoyed certain types of pain, which she had learned turned into searing pleasure after the initial shock.

  A thrill zinged through her like a lightning strike at the thought of how much of that type of pleasure awaited her tonight. She took a deep breath and glanced back at Master Dex, who now stood just behind her.

  “You’re breathtaking, Kate. You look like the cat who just caught the canary.” He ran a warm hand down her cheek in a heady caress as he gestured for her to precede him out of the lounge.

  Chapter 5

  Dex stood outside the locker rooms waiting for Kate, annoyed at the thumping rock soundtrack playing louder than was the practice at Club Desire, since it made it more difficult to hear safe words and instructions.

  But he had to fit into this environment, and he was adept at reading a sub’s body language, so he could work with this. He prided himself on keeping play to levels that didn’t push a sub to the point where she felt she needed to use her safe word. Not to say none of his subs had ever used one during their play, but he had learned from every instance what to do better the next time.

  He probably shouldn’t have started kissing Kate in the VIP room, but her body had screamed for attention. His Dom side demanded he recognize how neglected her needs had been and take care of her.

  He adjusted the strap on the tool bag slung over his shoulder, glad after their discussion about her preferences that he had brought a few of his favorite floggers from Phoenix. He didn’t like using supplies that weren’t his, so he always tried to bring a good cross section of his own in case they were needed. And tonight, he was looking forward to using them more than he ever had before.

  Playing a scene with Kate, and making sure she was well satisfied, would not only give them both great pleasure from a D/s power exchange perspective, it would also help cement his cover as a new and competent Dom in The Dungeon. More importantly for the case, it would reinforce everyone’s perception of him as one of Kate’s Doms.