Forbidden Kisses with the Boss

by Penny Jordan

  Children. Her heart leapt, something raw and elemental twisting inside her. Her hand touched her stomach, almost as though she could already feel Silas’s child growing there.

  ‘I want you as my true partner in life, Hannah. As my wife…in my business…with our children. I’ve spoken to your mother,’ he added quietly. ‘I went to see her, hoping that you might have gone home. She told me how you feel about marriage…about your career. We both know that I could make love to you now, and for a space of time nothing would be more important than the private world we can create together, but we can’t inhabit that world for the rest of our lives. The decision must be yours, Hannah.’

  She wanted to protest that what he was doing wasn’t fair. That she didn’t want the burden of making such a decision, especially not in her present weakened state. Marriage and a career…Silas and his children… To work with him as his wife and as his partner… She had seen the strains those kind of claims put on her sex, and now for the first time she could see why they endured them, why they willingly took on the double burden of marriage and a career, why they claimed that despite the hardships and the sacrifices they still considered themselves doubly blessed and fulfilled.

  Without Silas, her life would be hollow and empty. With him, it would be fraught with the inevitable tensions of living and working together…of two highly intelligent people, each with their own and sometimes opposing views…of juggling different roles and needs.

  For the first time since she could remember, the thought of living her life alone held no appeal. Tears stung her eyes as she reflected how often she had seen her mother reach out and touch her father, or vice versa. How often she had witnessed tenderness and caring between couples and deliberately turned her back on it, not wanting to see it.

  It wouldn’t be easy, but then nothing worth having ever was. If she denied him, turned him away, it would be impossible to wipe him out of her life as though he had never been. She could not simply go on as she had intended, this last week had shown her that.

  ‘Don’t be afraid,’ he whispered lovingly. ‘We can do it together, Hannah.’

  Afraid? Suddenly, illuminatingly, she knew that he was right, that she had been afraid…afraid of giving herself, of committing herself, of sharing herself with another human being, and most of all afraid of failing, of loving and then losing, of pain and loneliness.

  She had tasted all of those this last week, and now she was being offered a chance to put them behind her, to reach out and embrace life fully.

  She took a deep breath and then said unsteadily and warningly, ‘We’ll have to be married in my father’s church. The whole village will be there and…’

  ‘And you’ll have roses in your hair,’ Silas told her, kissing her fiercely. ‘And you’ll wear a cream silk dress and not a white one, because no matter what else our lives together hold…they’re going to hold this night and our memories of it.’

  She put her hand over his heart and felt it give a fierce leap, and then he pushed her down into the warmth of the sofa, covering her face and throat and then her breasts with fierce, stinging kisses. Then, when her blood was at delirium heat, his mouth slid over her nipple and she felt the hard pulse of his body against her own.

  Her skirt followed his suit on to the floor; her tights and silk briefs joining his discarded socks and shorts.

  He let her study him and then touch him until his self-control broke and he started to touch her with his hands and then his mouth, so that there wasn’t a centimetre of her silky flesh that he hadn’t explored.

  When she tried to reciprocate, he wouldn’t let her, muttering thickly in her ear, ‘Next time… It’s too late.’ And then he moved, taking her with him, spreading the tremulous softness of her thighs, touching her with his body where he had already touched her with his hands and mouth, so that her flesh melted instantly, eagerly anticipating his penetration.

  It was unique and special to them alone, and yet at the same time it was the beat of the whole universe, the pulse of its tides, the movements of its planets, the strength of its storms and the spiritual ecstasy of all its gods, so that she felt elevated beyond anything she had ever known; privileged and humbled; knowing that if this one night was the sum total of her life’s pleasures then it was more than worthwhile, and equally knowing that it would not be. This sweet, immortal pleasure was something they would have all their lives. She looked drowsily at Silas and saw that he was looking back at her with love and pleasure.

  ‘You didn’t mind…that there hadn’t been anyone else?’

  ‘No…and neither would I have minded if there had, just so long as he hadn’t been given the rapturous joy you’ve just given me. I’ve been lucky. My previous sexual relationships have all been good—and all ended by mutual agreement—but their pleasure was physical and fleeting. Nothing like this.’

  He touched her bare arm while he spoke, running his forefinger along her flesh and laughing softly as the tiny hairs stood on end.

  Hannah knew quite well that, against the moist heat of his chest, her breasts were already hardening—and swelling, that inside her body she was already growing soft and moist.

  Silas bent his head and lazily licked her skin—like a lion grooming its mate, Hannah thought sensually, abandoning herself to the delicious movement of his tongue as she reached out to caress him in turn.

  ‘It won’t always be like this,’ Silas warned her seriously. ‘There’ll be times when you will hate me, when you will resent our lives together.’

  ‘When I’m frightened of the depth of my emotional dependence on you,’ Hannah agreed slowly.

  ‘Don’t ever be frightened of that. I’m just as dependent on you. When you handed in your notice, I felt as though the bottom had fallen out of my world. I tried to tell myself that I was glad, that your going solved a problem I hadn’t wanted to face. I knew damn well there was a mutual danger there, but I hadn’t wanted to acknowledge it.

  ‘I fought against what I felt for you, just as you fought against what you feel for me. And I’m glad we both lost.’

  ‘So am I,’ Hannah agreed in a heartfelt voice. ‘So am I.’

  * * * * *

  Now, read on for a tantalizing excerpt of Caitlin Crews’ new release,

  IMPRISONED BY THE GREEK’S RING

  After ten years in prison for a crime he didn’t commit, ruthless Greek Atlas Chariton is back to take revenge on Lexi Haring—the woman who put him there. He’ll meet her at the altar and bind her to him—for life! But once they’re married the bliss of her sensual surrender threatens to unravel his hard-won vengeance…

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  IMPRISONED BY THE GREEK’S RING

  CHAPTER ONE

  THE WORST FINALLY happened on an otherwise unremarkable Tuesday afternoon in the middle of a gray and sullen British spring.

  It wasn’t as if Lexi Haring hadn’t been expecting it. They’d all been on tenterhooks since the news had come in. After all these years—and all the appeals that the Worth family solicitors had assured everyone were nothing but noise right up until the very end—Atlas Chariton was a free man.

  Not just free. Innocent.

  Lexi had watched the press conference he’d given, right there in front of the American prison where he’d been serving a life sentence with no possibility of parole for the murder that DNA evidence at his last appeal trial had conclusively proved he didn’t commit. He’d been released the same day.

  She hadn’t been able to turn away from a single moment of the breathless coverage, if she was honest, and not only because every channel was showing the press conference live.

  “I’ve maintained my innocence from the start,” Atlas had said in that dark, powerful voice of his that had seemed to come straight through the screen, the English he spoke with both a British accent and that hint of his native Greek as richly mysterious to her ears as ever. He’d had the same effect on her he always had. He filled the small bedsit Lexi counted hers
elf lucky to have in her shabby West London neighborhood. It was a long bus ride plus ten minutes’ brisk walk to the Worth estate where she worked, thanks to her uncle’s continuing kindness to her. And even if she sometimes felt her uncle wasn’t all that kind, she kept it to herself and tried to remind herself of that luck. “I am delighted to be proved so beyond any possible remaining doubt.”

  Atlas looked older, which was only to be expected, though no gray had dared yet invade that thick black hair of his that threatened to curl at any moment. The stark ferocity that had always been there on his face and stamped into the long, lean lines of his body was more evident now, eleven years after he’d first been arrested. It made his black eyes gleam. It made his cruel mouth seem even harsher and more brutal.

  He made Lexi shiver the way he always had done, though he was all the way on the other side of the Atlantic Ocean. Her heart kicked at her the way it always had when he was near. And it was as if he was aiming that pitiless midnight stare directly at her, straight through the television cameras.

  She thought he was. Of course he was.

  She had no doubt that he knew perfectly well that she was watching.

  It reminded her of the way he’d glared at her a decade ago, when she’d been eighteen and overwhelmed and had stuttered every time her gaze had clashed with his across that overheated, airless courtroom on Martha’s Vineyard. And yet she’d still somehow managed to choke out the testimony that had damned him.

  She could still remember every word she’d said. She could taste each one on her tongue, bitter and thick.

  She remembered too much of that time. The intense pressure her uncle and cousins had put on her to testify when she hadn’t wanted to—when she’d been desperate to believe there was another explanation. That there had to be another explanation.

  And the way Atlas had watched her in that stony, furious silence when she’d broken down on the stand and admitted she couldn’t think of one.

  “What will you do now?” a reporter had asked him outside the prison.

  Atlas’s mouth had curved, lethal and cold, more dangerous than the sharpest knife. Lexi had felt it deep in her belly as if he’d thrust it into her, steel edge to hard hilt. No one could possibly mistake it for a smile, surely. No one could miss the fact it was a weapon.

  It was her curse that even now, even after everything that had happened, he was the only man alive who made her heart skip a beat, then pound, long and low.

  “I will live my life,” Atlas had said, dark and sure, a terrible promise. “At last.”

  Lexi had known what that meant. What was coming as surely as night followed day. Her uncle Richard had hemmed and hawed and blustered rather than face the subject head-on, but she thought he’d known, too. Her cousins Gerard and Harry, meanwhile, had acted as if it wasn’t happening. The same way they’d acted eleven years ago when Philippa had been found dead in the pool at Oyster House, the family’s summer estate in Martha’s Vineyard. The way they’d behaved through the trial and the appeals process all this time, as if they weren’t involved. As if it would all go away and revert to normal if they pretended nothing had happened in the first place.

  And as if there had ever been any possibility that a man like Atlas would simply fade away into the ether, in jail or out.

  Lexi had always known better. When she’d wanted desperately to believe in his innocence and when she’d reluctantly believed in his guilt. Because to her, no matter what, Atlas Chariton had always been the only man in all the world.

  “The last thing he’s going to want to do is take up where he left off,” irascible Harry told anyone who would listen in the Worth family home and offices peppered throughout the grand old stately house and estate that had been in the family for hundreds of years, spread across the acreage that had been gloriously maintained in West London since the seventeenth century. Harry was always that confident, about everything. “I’m sure he’s got as little interest in us as we do in him.”

  But Lexi knew better. She’d been the one up in that witness box. She’d been the one who’d watched Atlas’s face as she’d testified against him. So harsh and terrible. All judgment and the promise of retribution.

  At the time she’d convinced herself it was a measure of the man himself. The signs he was a killer, right there in his grim gaze and that set to his proud jaw—and that despite the more tender, secret things she’d felt about him then.

  A schoolgirl’s crush, she’d told herself then, to excuse herself. That was all.

  Today it felt like an indictment. That she’d had a desperate, endless crush on a man like Atlas and had testified against him the way she had—had she really been telling the truth to the best of her ability? Had she bowed to her uncle’s whim the way she always did? Or had she simply wanted to get Atlas’s attention however she could, linking herself to him forevermore?

  She didn’t know how to answer that.

  Or to be more truthful, she didn’t want to know the answer to that.

  Whatever her emotions, the science told the truth. There was no getting around it, much as she might have wanted to, in some desperate attempt to feel better about what she’d done. She’d thought she’d been standing up for Philippa, doing the right thing even if it had torn her up inside, and she’d hated herself for the part of her that had ached for the Atlas she’d thought she’d known, but now…

  Now she would pay. Of that she had no doubt.

  She’d had the weeks between his release and his arrival in London to reconsider every thought she’d ever had about Atlas, and to cast herself in the light he most assuredly saw her, which was in no way flattering to either the teenager she’d been or the woman she was these days.

  And now he was here.

  Lexi forced a smile and nodded at the wide-eyed secretary who’d brought her the news.

  “Thank you for coming all the way out here to tell me,” she said, and was proud of how calm she sounded. How serene and capable, as if this disaster was happening to someone else.

  “Mr. Worth wanted me to tell you especially,” the secretary told her, her northern vowels sounding extra pronounced, as if the heightened tension around the estate over these past weeks was getting to her and bringing out her Yorkshire.

  Lexi could sympathize. She kept her smile steady as she looked past the other woman, out toward the great, green sweep of the lower lawn and the straight march of the famous drive that led to the grand sprawl of Worth Manor in all its ancient splendor. It had once been the pride of a very rich merchant and the impoverished noblewoman he’d married and tried to win with the things his money could do, and sometimes Lexi liked to imagine that the estate itself was ripe with all that old longing time had not assuaged. Today was another gray, wet day in a long run of the same, with only the desperately cheerful flowers along the borders of the winding drive to suggest that spring was limping along.

  There were two vehicles parked outside. One was the little sedan that the secretary had driven down from the manor house, small and nondescript. The other was a gleaming black, classic Jaguar convertible that looked like it deserved its own Bond film. If not a franchise.

  Her stomach lurched, then knotted, and she felt pale all the way through. But it wouldn’t do to show any of that.

  Nor would it help.

  “If you hurry back,” Lexi said in the same deliberately, preternaturally calm voice, because she had nothing else to work with today except the appearance of serenity, “you might beat the rain.”

  The secretary nodded her thanks, pulling her serviceable mackintosh tighter around her sturdy torso and letting herself out of Lexi’s small office. Lexi stayed where she was. Frozen solid, in fact. Lexi could hear the secretary’s heels click loudly against the uneven floorboards as she moved down the hall toward the front door.

  Lexi’s office, such as it was, was far away from the main part of the estate and the manor house itself. She spent her days out in what had once been a carriage house, separated from t
he family and the estate’s hundreds of daily visitors as much as it was possible to be while still on the same property. Her cousins lived on the estate, of course—Gerard and his family ensconced in the residential wing of Worth Manor as befit the heir to everything, and Harry in one of the cottages where he could come and go and drink as he pleased. Neither one of them had ever shown the slightest interest in leaving home or exploring the world outside of a few years at university.

  Philippa had been the only member of the family who’d wanted something—anything—different. She’d been nineteen when she’d died, filled with plans and dreams and a wild, unmanageable and overwhelming certainty about how beautiful her life was going to be if she could just start living it. She’d found her father tyrannical and the expectations placed on her as the only Worth daughter enervating.

  More than that, she’d been kind and silly and fiercely loyal, and Lexi missed her. Every day.

  Lexi reminded herself of Philippa when she was tempted to harbor dark thoughts about her uncle and cousins—something she tried to talk herself out of almost as soon as they occurred, because she thought it made her a very small person indeed if she allowed herself to be as ungrateful as she felt sometimes. Too often, in fact. Uncle Richard had been unduly kind to her when she was nothing to him but a niece he hardly knew, who he could easily have written off the way he had her mother.

  Richard had never approved of his challenging and problematic sister Yvonne’s marriage to unreliable partier Scott Haring. Much less the desperate, squalid life his sister went on to lead with a man so weak and fatally flawed. And yet there he’d been the day Lexi’s parents had finally succumbed to their addictions, ready to scoop her up and give her a life.

  Of course she was grateful for that. She would always be grateful for that.

  And on the days it was hard to feel grateful while she did the work her cousins and uncle blew off, again, and then repaired to her grotty little flat while they lounged about in luxury, it was helpful to remind herself that Philippa would have viewed everything about Lexi’s life as a grand adventure. Literally everything. The bedsit in a neighborhood where Lexi could come and go anonymously and as she pleased. The commute to work on buses and along streets filled with regular Londoners going about their regular lives. These were things Philippa, raised in a very specific sort of high society bubble, catered to and sheltered in turn, would have found nothing short of magical.