Wired

by Robin Wasserman

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  Ani had been there with the two of them in the hospital, before the download. Ani had known Riley before --she was the only person who could share that with Jude, the only person who'd known that part of him, the boy from the city, the boy from the past. Whatever promises they'd made to each other back then, whatever bonds they'd forged, Ani was all he had left. He needed her. Which meant she could use him, and he wouldn't even notice. Or if he did, he wouldn't care.

  Since when is it my job to protect him? I thought, surprised by the impulse.

  Except that I needed him for the same reason he needed her. We were all fragments; we were the pieces left behind, a shard of Riley in each of us. Losing Jude would mean losing a piece of Riley all over again.

  "I can't tell you like this," she said. "We have to talk in person."

  So he told her where to find us.

  An expensive-looking Stylus pulled up to the apartment a few hours later, its windows too tinted to see inside. Ani slipped out of the driver's door, leaned back in for a moment as if she'd forgotten something, then shut it quickly. She leaned against the passenger side of the car, staring up at the building.

  I watched it all from the window.

  What was she waiting for?

  What was I?

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  Twenty minutes passed. "Is she here yet?" Jude finally asked. I'd been staring out the window for more than an hour.

  I nodded.

  "So are you going to let her in?" he said, too eager. I was reminded of Riley's puppy-dog glee when we'd first tracked down Jude.

  "Doesn't seem like she wants to come in."

  So Jude went out. I watched them greet each other: Jude's awkward half attempt at a hug, Ani's imperceptible step backward, sign enough that he should drop his arms. The silence between the two of them, failed small talk, strained smiles. Then Jude gestured to the house and Ani gestured to the car, and as they seemed to start arguing, I realized why the windows were tinted and what she'd left behind when she got out of the car. She hadn't come alone. And there was only one person she could have brought with her, at least under these cloak-and-dagger terms.

  I threw open the door and ran toward the car, because if Jude got there first, someone was going to get hurt. Or killed.

  "It wasn't me," Auden said, while I held Jude's arm, tightly, just in case he decided to pounce. "I swear, Lia. I didn't have anything to do with this. Savona needed a scapegoat. I didn't know about any of it until I saw it on the network, and by then--"

  "It was too late," I finished with him, fresh out of sympathy.

  Ani stood by his side. After everything, she stood by his side.

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  I let go of Jude. It was strange--when Auden's face had been a picture on a screen, being blamed for horrible things he never could have done, I'd wanted to defend him, even protect him. But now, his face in front of me, real and three-dimensional, all I wanted to do was jump in the car and run him over. Ani, too, while I was at it. I couldn't stand the two of them, Ani and Auden, a matched pair of pathetic apologists, half guilty and half self-righteous, secure in the knowledge that they could never be held accountable for whatever had happened, they couldn't be blamed, there was nothing they could have done. They were alive and safe, and Riley was dead.

  "Tell me you believe me," Auden said.

  "What's the difference? What would it change?"

  "Please," he said. "I have to know."

  "You don't really get to make requests," Jude said. "Not now. Definitely not here."

  "He needs a safe place to stay," Ani said.

  Jude laughed. "So you brought him here? Brilliant."

  Here to us. Here to Riley's home.

  "You said--"

  "I said if you ever needed anything. That was you singular, not you plus one, especially this one."

  "Fine." Ani glared at him. "I should have known. We'll go."

  "Go where?" Jude and Auden said it together, disdain in one voice, despair in the other.

  "I can help," Auden said. "I have information."

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  "Try us," Jude said, sounding as bored as Auden did desperate.

  "Savona acted like I could take the lead." Auden spoke quickly. "He was going to be a consultant. He said he'd had a change of heart, that he understood what he'd done was wrong--"

  "Yeah, we saw the vids," Jude cut in. "What else?"

  "He was working behind my back," Auden said. "Gathering loyalists, continuing research into the way skinner brains work--even though the lab was destroyed, his scientists all survived."

  And all of us knew why: Because I'd insisted on saving them.

  "He was setting me up the whole time," Auden continued. "He let me have the spotlight so that I'd be the one to take the blame. And now ..."

  Maybe it was because he had no right to sound so pathetic; maybe it was because the self-pity in his voice sounded too much like my own. But I couldn't take it anymore.

  "People are dead!" I shouted. "Not skinners, not machines, people. Do you get that? Dead and never coming back. And we're supposed to feel sorry for you?"

  "I told you, I didn't--"

  "Right, you didn't do anything," I spit out. "Savona did it. The Brotherhood did it. But who made the Brotherhood? What would it have been without your face and your story? Congratulations, you made all this possible."

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  "Lia, that's not fair," Ani said.

  "You want to talk about fair? How about the fact that Riley's dead and you're standing here with him like he's your best friend. None of this is your fault, right?" I said, turning back to Auden. "It's Savona's fault for shoving you into the spotlight. It's Savona's fault for somehow making you shoot all those vids and throw all those rallies about how evil the skinners were, how we were monsters, we were threats, how I tried to kill you. It's Savona's fault that when he disappeared, you chose to take over the Brotherhood instead of disbanding it. I guess you accidentally kept preaching all that crap. A kinder, gentler way of hating people. Brilliant. And it must have been a total accident the way you got hundreds of people to feel sorry for you, and to cheer for you when you told them we needed to die. Oops, right?"

  "Lia, keep it together," Jude said. "We should listen--"

  "Don't you dare defend him. All this time he's been the ultimate evil, and now you decide he's on our side? What, you think we should help him? Now you think we should feel sorry for him?"

  "I think we should listen to him."

  "I think we should let the secops catch up with him and blame him for whatever they want. Let him suffer."

  I didn't know if I meant it or not. But it was hard to feel sorry, especially with Auden staring at me with those watery, puppy-dog eyes like I'd kicked him in the stomach,

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  like after everything that had happened we were suddenly back where we'd started and I was supposed to be his friend, afraid to hurt his feelings. Like it hadn't hurt mine when he'd told the whole world what I'd done to him, making them believe--making me believe--that I'd wanted to destroy him. He hadn't hesitated, because my feelings weren't relevant--they weren't real. A machine programmed to act human couldn't feel anything. So what made him think I would feel guilt now, or sympathy? What made him believe I could feel anything?

  "We're wasting time," Jude said. "It doesn't matter who's to blame--"

  I laughed. "Did you get a personality transplant when I wasn't looking? Maybe a lobotomy? Since when do you think blaming people is a waste of time?"

  "Blame him later," Jude said. Then, under his breath, "I will."

  "Can we go inside?" Ani asked. "People are looking for him... ."

  Jude shook his head. "You say you can help," he told Auden. "Help."

  Despite his claims, Auden didn't know much, and most of it we'd already figured out on our own. But there was one thing we hadn't expected--and it was big enough for us to invite him into the house.

  "I believed it at first," Auden said, settling ont
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  Riley's couch, and walking us through it. "Savona hates BioMax even more than he hates the skinners; that's what he always said. You can't blame the abomination--you blame its maker."

  Jude frowned. "Charming."

  "But if they weren't working together from the start, they are now," Auden continued. "There are Brotherhood people working in Safe Haven--people loyal to Savona. And they wouldn't be there unless BioMax wanted them to be."

  "How do you know?" I asked. "Have you been there?"

  Auden shook his head. "They've got that place locked down. No one gets in without BioMax's permission; no one gets out. Not just skinners--"

  "Mechs," Jude corrected him.

  "--but staff, too. It's almost impossible to get any information out either."

  "But this information somehow made its way to you," Jude said, sounding skeptical.

  "There are people still loyal to me. I know I'm right about this. BioMax brought the Brotherhood into Safe Haven. I don't know what it means, but ..."

  If nothing else, it meant Safe Haven was anything but safe. It wasn't news, but it was confirmation. BioMax and the Brotherhood were working together--working to get rid of the mechs. Presumably starting with the ones they had gathered in one convenient location "for their own protection." There was

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  no point in arguing anymore, since it was obvious what we needed to do, and if Jude didn't agree, I'd go alone. I'd see for myself what BioMax was up to, and--whether by persuasion or force--I'd get the mechs out.

  "We have to go in," Jude said.

  And when he did, much as I hated to admit it, I was relieved.

  Auden promised to try to get someone in on the staff side, someone loyal to him who could help us all break out, if it proved as hard as he suspected it would be. I could tell Jude didn't believe he'd follow through. I believed he would try.

  We left him in the only safe place we could think of: Riley's apartment.

  He's dead, I kept telling myself. He doesn't need it anymore. That didn't stop it from feeling like a betrayal. Whether Auden wanted to admit it or not, there'd been a time when he wanted us all dead, or at least was convinced we didn't have the right to live. And now we were using Riley's home to keep him safe.

  Maybe this would finally make us even.

  "You sure about this?" Auden asked, as we parted ways. He wasn't talking to me.

  "I have to," Ani said. "You going to be okay here?"

  Jude rolled his eyes. "He'll be fine."

  "Yes, he will," Auden agreed. "And if you need me, any of you--"

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  "Don't hold your breath," Jude said. "Or do, if that's what gets you off. Your call."

  "Before you go ..." Auden hesitated, watching me, as if measuring whether or not he should continue.

  Apparently, I didn't pass the test.

  "Be safe," he said, but he said it to Ani, and she was the one he put his arms around and hugged tightly. It was the happy ending to a modern parable: Skinner and org bond in the face of adversity, each learning a valuable lesson about the other's humanity. And yet there was a time when Auden had known me better than anyone in the world. So why did he need Ani to teach him that mechs were more than heartless machines?

  Why did I still care?

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  SAFE HAVEN

  "It's for your own protection."

  Like the machines BioMax designed, the operation was a well-oiled one. The corp had distributed a set of rendezvous coordinates to all mechs. From there we would be taken to the secure resettlement facility, its location and access well protected from the inquiring public. And from there ... well, from these things got a bit hazy. Without knowing exactly what was going on inside Safe Haven, it was impossible to know how hard it would be to get everyone out, much less figure out exactly what BioMax and the Brotherhood intended to do if we failed. But even if we didn't know what we were walking into, it felt good to be moving again. It felt right.

  The coordinates took us to a vast concrete lot lined with rows of trucks and buses, each bearing a freshly painted BioMax logo. A thin trickle of cars pulled up to the registration point, disgorging their mech cargo, then driving away. Some were filled with concerned orgs who hesitated on the curb, drawing out the moment with embraces and farewells. But

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  most mechs came alone and sent their cars away on autopilot. As we did, joining the procession of mechs, letting the BioMax reps take our names, scan our pupils, check the registration data embedded in our spinal columns. We shuffled down a line of intake staff, finally reaching a man with a white smock and a stiff smile. He had doctor written all over him, a game many of the techs liked to play, as if their machinations on our conduits and circuitry made them healers, when in fact they were nothing but plumbers, mechanics, engineers. "Welcome," he said. Cue the mirthless grin. "I'm so pleased you've decided to take the prudent route and join us until this crisis is resolved."

  His hand flashed through the air, and then there was a sharp prick at the back of my neck, like something had sunk its fangs into my skin.

  I slapped a hand over my neck. There was a rough patch at the tip of my spine, and a hard-edged lump that hadn't been there before. "What the--"

  Jude caught the doctor's wrist as it swooped in his direction. "Not unless you tell me what the hell this is," Jude said, glaring at the slim, silver injector that had been aimed at his neck.

  "He's nervous," I said quickly. "You can understand that, right?" I tried to sound innocent and unsuspecting, a scared little girl who just wanted to be told what to do. "There are people trying to kill us! Maybe if you just explained ... ?"

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  I doubt either of us expected him to. But after a pause he shrugged. "Just a precaution--it helps us keep track of your location," he said. "If you don't get one, we can't let you into Safe Haven."

  Jude let go of the man's wrist. "Just a precaution," he repeated, bending his head forward.

  "We're not taking any chances," the man said, jabbing the injector into Jude's neck. I flinched, watching the tracking chip slide under his skin. Jude didn't move.

  The man slapped him on the back, then patted me on the shoulder. "All set."

  I tried to look grateful. Even though I felt like he'd stripped off my clothes and left me bare and helpless on the cement for any and all to see.

  Jude looked blank. "I feel better already."

  They shoved twelve of us in the back of a truck. BioMax's first step in keeping us safe involved an unpleasantly bumpy ride, the kind of lurching and slamming that in another life would have left me concussed and puking, but in this one just left me with a peculiar ringing in my ears after the sixth or seventh time my head slammed, hard, into the truck's steel wall.

  There were no windows.

  There was, however, a projector that played a looped vid against the back wall. A familiar face with a soothing voice, telling us all how happy we would be once we arrived at our

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  new home. ( Temporary home, she was careful to say. Ours until the world was perfectly safe for us again. Like perfect safety was just within reach.) Kiri Napoor--who must have decided her principles weren't worth her job--extolled the virtues of our secluded paradise as images of happy mechs frolicking in a bucolic pasture flickered across the screen.

  "Looks better than where I live," one of the other mechs mumbled. He was tall, with brown hair, broad shoulders, and a familiar face that made me suspect his body, like mine, was a generic model. The two girls with him, on the other hand, were strictly custom-made--the elaborate patterns of freckles on one and the deep dimples on the other were a dead giveaway, subtle org touches that BioMax never bothered with unless asked.

  "Yeah, I'm sure it's a nonstop party," Ani said. Jude shot her a look. Riling up the crowd would be fine--mandatory, even--once we got inside. But first we had to get in. Which meant playing nice.

  "I don't care what it is," the dimpled
girl said, "as long as it's safe."

  The mech next to her, who'd spent most of the ride with her head lowered, long blond hair covering her face, suddenly looked up. "Did you know anyone who ... ?"

  "Couple friends. You?"

  "Yeah," the girl said, and dropped her head again. "I knew someone."

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  She didn't say anything else. I wondered if she was regretting that she'd boarded the truck at all, instead of following in the footsteps of her someone, uploading with him, virus or not. Her confession got everyone else going, and soon the truck was buzzing with questions and details, the whos, whats, hows, where-were-you-whens of natural disaster.

  "I said, what about you?" the guy next to me repeated, poking me like I hadn't heard him the first two times.

  Before I could answer, Jude's hand was at his throat. "Don't touch her."

  The guy looked alarmingly unintimidated. He grabbed Jude's wrist and jerked it away, then began to rise unsteadily to his feet, lurching toward us.

  "Please stop," I said, though part of me wanted to push Jude away and knock this guy out myself.

  You're not invincible anymore, I reminded myself. None of us was.

  "It's fine," I said, louder. "Please."

  "You should teach your boyfriend how to keep his mouth shut," the lurcher grunted, but at least he sat down.

  "I don't need you protecting me," Jude hissed.

  "And I don't need to watch you get the crap kicked out of you again."

  He opened his mouth, then shut it again, and I knew we were both thinking about the last time he'd gotten the crap kicked out of him.

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  I didn't understand how Riley could be everywhere and nowhere at once.

  It was quiet after that, for one hour, then two, the twelve of us scrabbling for purchase as the truck lurched over bumps and veered around corners. There was a long, straight coasting that seemed to go on forever, then a string of mini-quakes as the tires ground over a gravel road. The truck jerked to a stop, flinging me into Jude's lap. We were there.

  Safe Haven was a corp-town. It made sense. Parnassus and BioMax were sister corps, subsidiaries of the same bureaucratic overlords, which meant the Parnassus residence facility would be up for grabs. I hadn't been back to a corp-town since the Synapsis attack, and I would have been happy enough to keep it that way.