Far from the Madding Crowd

by Pan Zador

  Oak went homeward, alone and pensive. In front of him against the wet glazed surface of the lane he saw a person walking yet more slowly than himself under an umbrella. The man turned and plainly started; he was Boldwood.

  “How are you this morning, sir?” said Oak.

  “Yes, it is a wet day. — Oh, I am well, very well, I thank you; quite well.”

  “I am glad to hear it, sir.”

  Boldwood seemed to awake to the present by degrees. “You look tired and ill, Oak,” he said then, desultorily regarding his companion.

  “I am tired. You look strangely altered, sir.”

  “I? Not a bit of it: I am well enough. What put that into your head?”

  “I thought you didn’t look quite so topping as you used to, that was all.”

  “Indeed, then you are mistaken,” said Boldwood, shortly. “Nothing hurts me. My constitution is an iron one.”

  “I’ve been working hard to get our ricks covered, and was barely in time. Never had such a struggle in my life … Yours of course are safe, sir.”

  “Oh yes,” Boldwood added, after an interval of silence: “What did you ask, Oak?”

  “Your ricks are all covered before this time?”

  “No.”

  “At any rate, the large ones upon the stone staddles?”

  “They are not.”

  “Them under the hedge?”

  “No. I forgot to tell the thatcher to set about it.”

  “Nor the little one by the stile?”

  “Nor the little one by the stile. I overlooked the ricks this year.”

  “Then not a tenth of your corn will come to measure, sir.”

  “Possibly not.”

  “Overlooked them,” repeated Gabriel slowly to himself.

  It is difficult to describe the intensely dramatic effect that announcement had upon Oak at such a moment. All the night he had been feeling that the neglect he was labouring to repair was abnormal and isolated — the only instance of the kind within the circuit of the county. Yet at this very time, within the same parish, a greater waste had been going on, uncomplained of and disregarded. A few months earlier Boldwood’s forgetting his husbandry would have been as preposterous an idea as a sailor forgetting he was in a ship. Oak was just thinking that whatever he himself might have suffered from Bathsheba’s marriage, here was a man who had suffered more, when Boldwood spoke in a changed voice — that of one who yearned to make a confidence and relieve his heart by an outpouring.

  “Oak, you know as well as I that things have gone wrong with me lately. I may as well own it. I was going to get a little settled in life; but in some way my plan has come to nothing.”

  “I thought my mistress would have married you,” said Gabriel, not knowing enough of the full depths of Boldwood’s love to keep silence on the farmer’s account, and determined not to evade discipline by doing so on his own. “However, it is so sometimes, and nothing happens that we expect,” he added, with the repose of a man whom misfortune had inured rather than subdued.

  “I daresay I am a joke about the parish,” said Boldwood, as if the subject came irresistibly to his tongue, and with a miserable lightness meant to express his indifference.

  “Oh no — I don’t think that.”

  “ — But the real truth of the matter is that there was not, as some fancy, any jilting on — her part. No engagement ever existed between me and Miss Everdene. People say so, but it is untrue: she never promised me!” Boldwood stood still now and turned his wild face to Oak. “Oh, Gabriel,” he continued, “I am weak and foolish, and I don’t know what, and I can’t fend off my miserable grief! … I had some faint belief in the mercy of God till I lost that woman. Yes, He prepared a gourd to shade me, and like the prophet I thanked Him and was glad. But the next day He prepared a worm to smite the gourd and wither it; and I feel it is better to die than to live!”

  A silence followed. Boldwood aroused himself from the momentary mood of confidence into which he had drifted, and walked on again, resuming his usual reserve.

  “No, Gabriel,” he resumed, with a carelessness which was like the smile on the countenance of a skull: “it was made more of by other people than ever it was by us. I do feel a little regret occasionally, but no woman ever had power over me for any length of time. Well, good morning; I can trust you not to mention to others what has passed between us two here.”

  CHAPTER XXXIX

  COMING HOME — A CRY

  On the turnpike road, between Casterbridge and Weatherbury, and about three miles from the former place, is Yalbury Hill, one of those steep long ascents which pervade the highways of this undulating part of South Wessex. In returning from market it is usual for the farmers and other gig-gentry to alight at the bottom and walk up.

  One Saturday evening in the month of October Bathsheba’s vehicle was duly creeping up this incline. She was sitting listlessly in the second seat of the gig, whilst walking beside her in a farmer’s marketing suit of unusually fashionable cut was an erect, well-made young man. Though on foot, he held the reins and whip, and occasionally aimed light cuts at the horse’s ear with the end of the lash, as a recreation. This man was her husband, formerly Sergeant Troy, who, having bought his discharge with Bathsheba’s money, was gradually transforming himself into a farmer of a spirited and very modern school. People of unalterable ideas still insisted upon calling him “Sergeant” when they met him, which was in some degree owing to his having still retained the well-shaped moustache of his military days, and the soldierly bearing inseparable from his form and training.

  “Yes, if it hadn’t been for that wretched rain I should have cleared two hundred as easy as looking, my love,” he was saying. “Don’t you see, it altered all the chances? To speak like a book I once read, wet weather is the narrative, and fine days are the episodes, of our country’s history; now, isn’t that true?”

  “But the time of year is come for changeable weather.”

  “Well, yes. The fact is, these autumn races are the ruin of everybody. Never did I see such a day as ‘twas! ‘Tis a wild open place, just out of Budmouth, and a drab sea rolled in towards us like liquid misery. Wind and rain — good Lord! Dark? Why, ‘twas as black as my hat before the last race was run. ‘Twas five o’clock, and you couldn’t see the horses till they were almost in, leave alone colours. The ground was as heavy as lead, and all judgment from a fellow’s experience went for nothing. Horses, riders, people, were all blown about like ships at sea. Three booths were blown over, and the wretched folk inside crawled out upon their hands and knees; and in the next field were as many as a dozen hats at one time. Ay, Pimpernel regularly stuck fast, when about sixty yards off, and when I saw Policy stepping on, it did knock my heart against the lining of my ribs, I assure you, my love!”

  “And you mean, Frank,” said Bathsheba, sadly — her voice was painfully lowered from the fullness and vivacity of the previous summer — “that you have lost more than a hundred pounds in a month by this dreadful horse-racing? O, Frank, it is cruel; it is foolish of you to take away my money so. We shall have to leave the farm; that will be the end of it!”

  “Humbug about cruel. Now, there ‘tis again — turn on the waterworks; that’s just like you.”

  “But you’ll promise me not to go to Budmouth second meeting, won’t you?” she implored. Bathsheba was at the full depth for tears, but she maintained a dry eye.

  “I don’t see why I should; in fact, if it turns out to be a fine day, I was thinking of taking you.”

  “Never, never! I’ll go a hundred miles the other way first. I hate the sound of the very word!”

  “But the question of going to see the race or staying at home has very little to do with the matter. Bets are all booked safely enough before the race begins, you may depend. Whether it is a bad race for me or a good one, will hav
e very little to do with our going there next Monday.”

  “But you don’t mean to say that you have risked anything on this one too!” she exclaimed, with an agonized look.

  “There now, don’t you be a little fool. Wait till you are told. Why, Bathsheba, you have lost all the pluck and sauciness you formerly had, and upon my life if I had known what a chicken-hearted creature you were under all your boldness, I’d never have — I know what.”

  A flash of indignation might have been seen in Bathsheba’s dark eyes as she looked resolutely ahead after this reply. They moved on without further speech, some early-withered leaves from the trees which hooded the road at this spot occasionally spinning downward across their path to the earth.

  A woman appeared on the brow of the hill. The ridge was in a cutting, so that she was very near the husband and wife before she became visible. Troy had turned towards the gig to remount, and whilst putting his foot on the step the woman passed behind him.

  Though the overshadowing trees and the approach of eventide enveloped them in gloom, Bathsheba could see plainly enough to discern the extreme poverty of the woman’s garb, and the sadness of her face.

  “Please, sir, do you know at what time Casterbridge Union-house closes at night?”

  The woman said these words to Troy over his shoulder.

  Troy started visibly at the sound of the voice; yet he seemed to recover presence of mind sufficient to prevent himself from giving way to his impulse to suddenly turn and face her. He said, slowly —

  “I don’t know.”

  The woman, on hearing him speak, quickly looked up, examined the side of his face, and recognized the soldier under the yeoman’s garb. Her face was drawn into an expression which had gladness and agony both among its elements. She uttered an hysterical cry, and fell down.

  “Oh, poor thing!” exclaimed Bathsheba, instantly preparing to alight.

  “Stay where you are, and attend to the horse!” said Troy, peremptorily throwing her the reins and the whip. “Walk the horse to the top: I’ll see to the woman.”

  “But I — ”

  “Do you hear? Clk — Poppet!”

  The horse, gig, and Bathsheba moved on.

  “How on earth did you come here? I thought you were miles away, or dead! Why didn’t you write to me?” said Troy to the woman, in a strangely gentle, yet hurried voice, as he lifted her up.

  “I feared to.”

  “Have you any money?”

  “None.”

  “Good Heaven — I wish I had more to give you! Here’s — wretched — the merest trifle. It is every farthing I have left. I have none but what my wife gives me, you know, and I can’t ask her now.”

  The woman made no answer.

  “I have only another moment,” continued Troy; “and now listen. Where are you going to-night? Casterbridge Union?”

  “Yes; I thought to go there.”

  “You shan’t go there; yet, wait. Yes, perhaps for to-night; I can do nothing better — worse luck! Sleep there to-night, and stay there to-morrow. Monday is the first free day I have; and on Monday morning, at ten exactly, meet me on Grey’s Bridge just out of the town. I’ll bring all the money I can muster. You shan’t want — I’ll see that, Fanny; then I’ll get you a lodging somewhere. Good-bye till then. I am a brute — but good-bye!”

  After advancing the distance which completed the ascent of the hill, Bathsheba turned her head. The woman was upon her feet, and Bathsheba saw her withdrawing from Troy, and going feebly down the hill by the third milestone from Casterbridge. Troy then came on towards his wife, stepped into the gig, took the reins from her hand, and without making any observation whipped the horse into a trot. He was rather agitated.

  “Do you know who that woman was?” said Bathsheba, looking searchingly into his face.

  “I do,” he said, looking boldly back into hers.

  “I thought you did,” said she, with angry hauteur, and still regarding him. “Who is she?”

  He suddenly seemed to think that frankness would benefit neither of the women.

  “Nothing to either of us,” he said. “I know her by sight.”

  “What is her name?”

  “How should I know her name?”

  “I think you do.”

  “Think if you will, and be — ” The sentence was completed by a smart cut of the whip round Poppet’s flank, which caused the animal to start forward at a wild pace. No more was said.

  CHAPTER XL

  ON CASTERBRIDGE HIGHWAY

  For a considerable time the woman walked on. Her steps became feebler, and she strained her eyes to look afar upon the naked road, now indistinct amid the penumbræ of night. At length her onward walk dwindled to the merest totter, and she opened a gate within which was a haystack. Underneath this she sat down and presently slept.

  When in extremis, the mind is all the more inclined to extravagancies, and embroiders its dreams with detail so rich and vivid the wealthiest man in Wessex could not but envy them. Thus it was that night for this poor creature. She dreamed of a little room, the walls painted pink, cosy with warm firelight, and a man in scarlet coat kneeling, blowing on the wood, which glowed ardently.

  “See there, my sweetheart,” he said, leaning back, “as I blow on this fire, and bring it to a flame, so will I tonight blow your desire into a flame of passion you have never before known. And I promise you, that together we shall enter that blissful fire and be purged of everything save our pure love in its fierce heat, until we melt entirely with the pleasure. Love is the flame. Our bodies are the fuel. Our hearts are already joined forever. Let us worship each other with our bodies, tonight and every night, for all time, dearest love.”

  He had undressed her then, slowly and with kisses on every part of her slight and girlish body. Her heart was thudding, her breaths were shallow and fast, and her pale cheeks grew rosy. He laid her on the bed, and took off his breeches and shirt, and she saw how his stiffening manhood sprang alert, and took courage to stroke it till he bid her desist, for he wished to hold off from his pleasure. Then he knelt at her feet, and bent his head to her belly, kissing her so softly she thought she must die with bliss, then lower his head went, his lips upon her mound, then — o heavens! His soft tongue was probing, exploring, finding with delicious moisture that part she had never touched herself, making it tremble, then stiffen at his gentle insistence; he played her body like an instrument of music, and as the rhythm increased, her modesty left her, so that when he briefly ceased his efforts, and asked, “will I go on? do you want more?” she had whispered, “please, Frank, please! do not stop now, go on, go further, go faster, I cannot hold back, it is coming, it is coming … ”

  When the woman awoke it was to find herself in the depths of a moonless and starless night. A heavy unbroken crust of cloud stretched across the sky, shutting out every speck of heaven; and a distant halo which hung over the town of Casterbridge was visible against the black concave, the luminosity appearing the brighter by its great contrast with the circumscribing darkness. Towards this weak, soft glow the woman turned her eyes.

  “If I could only get there!” she said. “Meet him the day after to-morrow: God help me! Perhaps I shall be in my grave before then.”

  A manor-house clock from the far depths of shadow struck the hour, one, in a small, attenuated tone. After midnight the voice of a clock seems to lose in breadth as much as in length, and to diminish its sonorousness to a thin falsetto.

  Afterwards a light — two lights — arose from the remote shade, and grew larger. A carriage rolled along the toad, and passed the gate. It probably contained some late diners-out. The beams from one lamp shone for a moment upon the crouching woman, and threw her face into vivid relief. The face was young in the groundwork, old in the finish; the general contours were flexuous and childlike, but the fin
er lineaments had begun to be sharp and thin.

  The pedestrian stood up, apparently with revived determination, and looked around. The road appeared to be familiar to her, and she carefully scanned the fence as she slowly walked along. Presently there became visible a dim white shape; it was another milestone. She drew her fingers across its face to feel the marks.

  “Two more!” she said.

  She leant against the stone as a means of rest for a short interval, then bestirred herself, and again pursued her way. For a slight distance she bore up bravely, afterwards flagging as before. This was beside a lone copsewood, wherein heaps of white chips strewn upon the leafy ground showed that woodmen had been faggoting and making hurdles during the day. Now there was not a rustle, not a breeze, not the faintest clash of twigs to keep her company. The woman looked over the gate, opened it, and went in. Close to the entrance stood a row of faggots, bound and un-bound, together with stakes of all sizes.

  For a few seconds the wayfarer stood with that tense stillness which signifies itself to be not the end, but merely the suspension, of a previous motion. Her attitude was that of a person who listens, either to the external world of sound, or to the imagined discourse of thought. A close criticism might have detected signs proving that she was intent on the latter alternative. Moreover, as was shown by what followed, she was oddly exercising the faculty of invention upon the speciality of the clever Jacquet Droz, the designer of automatic substitutes for human limbs.

  By the aid of the Casterbridge aurora, and by feeling with her hands, the woman selected two sticks from the heaps. These sticks were nearly straight to the height of three or four feet, where each branched into a fork like the letter Y. She sat down, snapped off the small upper twigs, and carried the remainder with her into the road. She placed one of these forks under each arm as a crutch, tested them, timidly threw her whole weight upon them — so little that it was — and swung herself forward. The girl had made for herself a material aid.

  The crutches answered well. The pat of her feet, and the tap of her sticks upon the highway, were all the sounds that came from the traveller now. She had passed the last milestone by a good long distance, and began to look wistfully towards the bank as if calculating upon another milestone soon. The crutches, though so very useful, had their limits of power. Mechanism only transfers labour, being powerless to supersede it, and the original amount of exertion was not cleared away; it was thrown into the body and arms. She was exhausted, and each swing forward became fainter. At last she swayed sideways, and fell.