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The Annotated Collected Poems

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by Edna Longley


  While the sweet last-left damsons from the bough

  With spangles of the morning’s storm drop down

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  Because the starling shakes it, whistling what

  Once swallows sang. But I have not forgot

  That there is nothing, too, like March’s sun,

  Like April’s, or July’s, or June’s, or May’s,

  Or January’s, or February’s, great days:

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  And August, September, October, and December

  Have equal days, all different from November.

  No day of any month but I have said –

  Or, if I could live long enough, should say –

  ‘There’s nothing like the sun that shines today.’

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  There’s nothing like the sun till we are dead.

  The Thrush

  When Winter’s ahead,

  What can you read in November

  That you read in April

  When Winter’s dead?

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  I hear the thrush, and I see

  Him alone at the end of the lane

  Near the bare poplar’s tip,

  Singing continuously.

  Is it more that you know

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  Than that, even as in April,

  So in November,

  Winter is gone that must go?

  Or is all your lore

  Not to call November November,

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  And April April,

  And Winter Winter – no more?

  But I know the months all,

  And their sweet names, April,

  May and June and October,

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  As you call and call

  I must remember

  What died in April

  And consider what will be born

  Of a fair November;

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  And April I love for what

  It was born of, and November

  For what it will die in,

  What they are and what they are not,

  While you love what is kind,

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  What you can sing in

  And love and forget in

  All that’s ahead and behind.

  Liberty

  The last light has gone out of the world, except

  This moonlight lying on the grass like frost

  Beyond the brink of the tall elm’s shadow.

  It is as if everything else had slept

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  Many an age, unforgotten and lost

  The men that were, the things done, long ago,

  All I have thought; and but the moon and I

  Live yet and here stand idle over the grave

  Where all is buried. Both have liberty

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  To dream what we could do if we were free

  To do some thing we had desired long,

  The moon and I. There’s none less free than who

  Does nothing and has nothing else to do,

  Being free only for what is not to his mind,

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  And nothing is to his mind. If every hour

  Like this one passing that I have spent among

  The wiser others when I have forgot

  To wonder whether I was free or not,

  Were piled before me, and not lost behind,

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  And I could take and carry them away

  I should be rich; or if I had the power

  To wipe out every one and not again

  Regret, I should be rich to be so poor.

  And yet I still am half in love with pain,

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  With what is imperfect, with both tears and mirth,

  With things that have an end, with life and earth,

  And this moon that leaves me dark within the door.

  This is no case of petty right or wrong

  This is no case of petty right or wrong

  That politicians or philosophers

  Can judge. I hate not Germans, nor grow hot

  With love of Englishmen, to please newspapers.

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  Beside my hate for one fat patriot

  My hatred of the Kaiser is love true: –

  A kind of god he is, banging a gong.

  But I have not to choose between the two,

  Or between justice and injustice. Dinned

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  With war and argument I read no more

  Than in the storm smoking along the wind

  Athwart the wood. Two witches’ cauldrons roar.

  From one the weather shall rise clear and gay;

  Out of the other an England beautiful

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  And like her mother that died yesterday.

  Little I know or care if, being dull,

  I shall miss something that historians

  Can rake out of the ashes when perchance

  The phoenix broods serene above their ken.

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  But with the best and meanest Englishmen

  I am one in crying, God save England, lest

  We lose what never slaves and cattle blessed.

  The ages made her that made us from the dust:

  She is all we know and live by, and we trust

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  She is good and must endure, loving her so:

  And as we love ourselves we hate her foe.

  Rain

  Rain, midnight rain, nothing but the wild rain

  On this bleak hut, and solitude, and me

  Remembering again that I shall die

  And neither hear the rain nor give it thanks

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  For washing me cleaner than I have been

  Since I was born into this solitude.

  Blessed are the dead that the rain rains upon:

  But here I pray that none whom once I loved

  Is dying tonight or lying still awake

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  Solitary, listening to the rain,

  Either in pain or thus in sympathy

  Helpless among the living and the dead,

  Like a cold water among broken reeds,

  Myriads of broken reeds all still and stiff,

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  Like me who have no love which this wild rain

  Has not dissolved except the love of death,

  If love it be towards what is perfect and

  Cannot, the tempest tells me, disappoint.

  The clouds that are so light

  The clouds that are so light,

  Beautiful, swift and bright,

  Cast shadows on field and park

  Of the earth that is so dark,

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  And even so now, light one!

  Beautiful, swift and bright one!

  You let fall on a heart that was dark,

  Unillumined, a deeper mark.

  But clouds would have, without earth

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  To shadow, far less worth:

  Away from your shadow on me

  Your beauty less would be,

  And if it still be treasured

  An age hence, it shall be measured

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  By this small dark spot

  Without which it were not.

  Roads

  I love roads:

  The goddesses that dwell

  Far along invisible

  Are my favourite gods.

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  Roads go on

  While we forget, and are

  Forgotten like a star

  That shoots and is gone.

  On this earth ’tis sure

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  We men have not made

  Anything that doth fade

  So soon, so long endure:

  The hill road wet with rain

  In the sun would not gleam

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  Like a winding stream

  If we trod it not again.

  They are lonely

  While we sleep, lonelier

  For lack
of the traveller

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  Who is now a dream only.

  From dawn’s twilight

  And all the clouds like sheep

  On the mountains of sleep

  They wind into the night.

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  The next turn may reveal

  Heaven: upon the crest

  The close pine clump, at rest

  And black, may Hell conceal.

  Often footsore, never

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  Yet of the road I weary,

  Though long and steep and dreary

  As it winds on for ever.

  Helen of the roads,

  The mountain ways of Wales

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  And the Mabinogion tales,

  Is one of the true gods,

  Abiding in the trees,

  The threes and fours so wise,

  The larger companies,

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  That by the roadside be,

  And beneath the rafter

  Else uninhabited

  Excepting by the dead;

  And it is her laughter

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  At morn and night I hear

  When the thrush cock sings

  Bright irrelevant things,

  And when the chanticleer

  Calls back to their own night

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  Troops that make loneliness

  With their light footsteps’ press,

  As Helen’s own are light.

  Now all roads lead to France

  And heavy is the tread

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  Of the living; but the dead

  Returning lightly dance:

  Whatever the road bring

  To me or take from me,

  They keep me company

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  With their pattering,

  Crowding the solitude

  Of the loops over the downs,

  Hushing the roar of towns

  And their brief multitude.

  The Ash Grove

  Half of the grove stood dead, and those that yet lived made

  Little more than the dead ones made of shade.

  If they led to a house, long before they had seen its fall:

  But they welcomed me; I was glad without cause and delayed.

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  Scarce a hundred paces under the trees was the interval –

  Paces each sweeter than sweetest miles – but nothing at all,

  Not even the spirits of memory and fear with restless wing,

  Could climb down in to molest me over the wall

  That I passed through at either end without noticing.

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  And now an ash grove far from those hills can bring

  The same tranquillity in which I wander a ghost

  With a ghostly gladness, as if I heard a girl sing

  The song of the Ash Grove soft as love uncrossed,

  And then in a crowd or in distance it were lost,

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  But the moment unveiled something unwilling to die

  And I had what most I desired, without search or desert or cost.

  February Afternoon

  Men heard this roar of parleying starlings, saw,

  A thousand years ago even as now,

  Black rooks with white gulls following the plough

  So that the first are last until a caw

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  Commands that last are first again, – a law

  Which was of old when one, like me, dreamed how

  A thousand years might dust lie on his brow

  Yet thus would birds do between hedge and shaw.

  Time swims before me, making as a day

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  A thousand years, while the broad ploughland oak

  Roars mill-like and men strike and bear the stroke

  Of war as ever, audacious or resigned,

  And God still sits aloft in the array

  That we have wrought him, stone-deaf and stone-blind.

  I may come near loving you

  I may come near loving you

  When you are dead

  And there is nothing to do

  And much to be said.

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  To repent that day will be

  Impossible

  For you and vain for me

  The truth to tell.

  I shall be sorry for

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  Your impotence:

  You can do and undo no more

  When you go hence,

  Cannot even forgive

  The funeral.

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  But not so long as you live

  Can I love you at all.

  Those things that poets said

  Those things that poets said

  Of love seemed true to me

  When I loved and I fed

  On love and poetry equally.

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  But now I wish I knew

  If theirs were love indeed,

  Or if mine were the true

  And theirs some other lovely weed:

  For certainly not thus,

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  Then or thereafter, I

  Loved ever. Between us

  Decide, good Love, before I die.

  Only, that once I loved

  By this one argument

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  Is very plainly proved:

  I, loving not, am different.

  No one so much as you

  No one so much as you

  Loves this my clay,

  Or would lament as you

  Its dying day.

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  You know me through and through

  Though I have not told,

  And though with what you know

  You are not bold.

  None ever was so fair

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  As I thought you:

  Not a word can I bear

  Spoken against you.

  All that I ever did

  For you seemed coarse

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  Compared with what I hid

  Nor put in force.

  My eyes scarce dare meet you

  Lest they should prove

  I but respond to you

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  And do not love.

  We look and understand,

  We cannot speak

  Except in trifles and

  Words the most weak.

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  For I at most accept

  Your love, regretting

  That is all: I have kept

  Only a fretting

  That I could not return

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  All that you gave

  And could not ever burn

  With the love you have,

  Till sometimes it did seem

  Better it were

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  Never to see you more

  Than linger here

  With only gratitude

  Instead of love –

  A pine in solitude

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  Cradling a dove.

  The Unknown

  She is most fair,

  And when they see her pass

  The poets’ ladies

  Look no more in the glass

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  But after her.

  On a bleak moor

  Running under the moon

  She lures a poet,

  Once proud or happy, soon

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  Far from his door.

  Beside a train,

  Because they saw her go,

  Or failed to see her,

  Travellers and watchers know

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  Another pain.

  The simple lack

  Of her is more to me

  Than others’ presence,

  Whether life splendid be

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  Or utter black.

  I have not seen,

  I have no news of her;

  I can tell only

  She is not here, but there

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  She might have been.

  She is to be kissed

  Only perhaps by me;

  She may be seeking

  Me and no other: she

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  May not exist.

  Celandine

  Thinking of her had saddened me at first,

  Until I saw the sun on the celandines lie

  Redoubled, and she stood up like a flame,

  A living thing, not what before I nursed,

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  The shadow I was growing to love almost,

  The phantom, not the creature with bright eye

  That I had thought never to see, once lost.

  She found the celandines of February

  Always before us all. Her nature and name

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  Were like those flowers, and now immediately

  For a short swift eternity back she came,

  Beautiful, happy, simply as when she wore

  Her brightest bloom among the winter hues

  Of all the world; and I was happy too,

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  Seeing the blossoms and the maiden who

  Had seen them with me Februarys before,

  Bending to them as in and out she trod

  And laughed, with locks sweeping the mossy sod.

  But this was a dream: the flowers were not true,

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  Until I stooped to pluck from the grass there

  One of five petals and I smelt its juice

  Which made me sigh, remembering she was no more,

  Gone like a never perfectly recalled air.

  ‘Home’

  Fair was the morning, fair our tempers, and

  We had seen nothing fairer than that land,

  Though strange, and the untrodden snow that made

  Wild of the tame, casting out all that was

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  Not wild and rustic and old; and we were glad.

 

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