Sword and Citadel

by Gene Wolfe

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  The cucurbit in which it floated was about seven spans in height and half as wide; the homuncule itself no more than two spans tall. When I tapped the glass, it turned eyes like clouded beads toward me, eyes blinder far in appearance than Master Palaemons. I heard no sound when its lips twitched, yet I knew at once what words they shaped - and in some inexplicable sense I felt the pale fluid in which the mandragora was immersed had become my own bloodtinged urine.

  " Why have you called me, Autarch, from the contemplation of your world?"

  I asked, "Is it truly mine? I know now that there are seven continents, and none but a part of this are obedient to the hallowed phrases. "

  " You are the heir," the wizened thing said and turned, I could not tell if by accident or design, until it no longer faced me. I tapped the cucurbit again. "And who are you?"

  " A being without parents, whose life is passed immersed in blood. "

  "Why, such have I been! We should be friends then, you and I, as two of similar background usually are. "

  " You jest. "

  "Not at all. I feel a real sympathy for you, and I think we are more alike than you believe. "

  The tiny figure turned again until its little face looked up into my own. " I wish that I might credit you, Autarch. "

  "I mean it. No one has ever accused me of being an honest man, and Ive told lies enough when I thought they would serve my turn, but Im quite sincere. If I can do anything for you, tell me what it is. "

  " Break the glass. "

  I hesitated. "Wont you die?"

  " I have never lived. I will cease thinking. Break the glass. "

  "You do live. "

  " I neither grow, nor move, nor respond to any stimulus save thought, which is counted no response. I am incapable of propagating my kind, or any other. Break the glass. "

  "If you are indeed unliving, I would rather find some way to stir you to life. "

  " So much for brotherhood. When you were imprisoned here, Thecla, and that boy brought you the knife, why did not you look for more life then?"

  The blood burned in my cheek, and I lifted the ebony baculus, but I did not strike. "Alive or dead, you have a penetrating intelligence. Thecla is that part of me most prone to anger. "

  " If you had inherited her glands with her memories, I would have succeeded. "

  "And you know that. How can you know so much, who are blind?"

  " The acts of coarse minds create minute vibrations that stir the waters of this bottle. I hear your thoughts. "

  "I notice that I hear yours. How is it that I can hear them, and not others?"

  Looking now directly into the pinched face, which was lit by the suns last shaft penetrating a dusty port, I could not be sure the lips moved at all. " You hear yourself, as ever. You cannot hear others because your mind shrieks always, like an infant crying in a basket. Ah, I see you remember that. "

  "I remember a time very long ago when I was cold and hungry. I lay upon my back, encircled by brown walls, and heard the sound of my own screams. Yes, I must have been an infant. Not old enough to crawl, I think. You are very clever. What am I thinking now?"

  " That I am but an unconscious exercise of your own power, as the Claw was. It is true, of course. I was deformed, and died before birth, and have been kept here since in white brandy. Break the glass. "

  "I would question you first," I said.

  " Brother, there is an old man with a letter at your door. " I listened. It was strange, after having listened only to his words in my mind, to hear real noises again - the calling of the sleepy blackbirds among the towers and the tapping at the door. The messenger was old Rudesind, who had guided me to the pictureroom of the House Absolute. I motioned him in (to the surprise, I think, of the sentries) because I wanted to talk to him and knew that with him I had no need to stand upon my dignity.

  "Never been in here in all my years," he said. "How can I help you, Autarch?"

  "Were served already, just by the sight of you. You know who we are, dont you? You recognized us when we met before. "

  "If I didnt know your face, Autarch, Id know a couple dozen times over anyhow. Ive been told that often. Nobody here talks about anything else, seems like. How you was licked to shape right here. How they seen you this time and that time. How you looked, and what you said to them. There aint one cook that didnt treat you to a pastry often. All them soldiers told you stories. Been a while now since I met a woman didnt kiss you and sew up a hole in your pants. You had a dog - "

  "Thats true enough," I said. "We did. "

  "And a cat and a bird and a coti that stole apples. And you climbed every wall in this place. And jumped off after, or else swung on a rope, or else hid and pretended youd jumped. Youre every boy thats ever been here, and Ive heard stories put on you that belong to men that was old when I was just a boy, and Ive heard about things I did myself, seventy years ago. "

  "Weve already learned that the Autarchs face is always concealed behind the mask the people weave for him. No doubt its a good thing; you cant become too proud once you understand how different you really are from the thing they bow to. But we want to hear about you. The old Autarch told us you were his sentinel in the House Absolute, and now we know youre a servant of Father Inires. "

  "I am," the old man said. "I have that honor, and its his letter I carry. " He held up a small and somewhat smudged envelope.

  "And we are Father Inires master. " He made a countrified bow. "I know so, Autarch. "

  "Then we order you to sit down, and rest yourself. Weve questions to ask you, and we dont want to keep a man your age standing. When we were that boy you say everyones talking of, or at least not much older, you directed us to Master Ultans stacks. Why did you do that?"

  "Not because I knew something others didnt. Not because my master ordered it, either, if thats what youre thinking. Wont you read his letter?"

  "In a moment. After an honest answer, in a few words. " The old man hung his head and pulled at his thin beard. I could see the dry skin of his face rise in hollow-sided, tiny cones as it sought to follow the white hairs. "Autarch, you think I guessed at something back then. Perhaps some did. Perhaps my master did, I dont know. " His rheumy eyes rolled up under his brows to look at me, then fell again. "You were young, and seemed a likely-looking boy, so I wanted you to see. "

  "To see what?"

  "Im an old man. An old man then, and an old man now. Youve grown up since. I see it in your face. Im hardly any older, because that much time isnt anything to me. If you counted all the time Ive spent just going up and down my ladder, itd be longer than that. I wanted you to see there has been a lot come before you. That there was thousands and thousands that lived and died before you was ever thought of, some better than you. I mean, Autarch, the way you was then. Youd think anybody growing up here in the old Citadel would be born knowing all that, but Ive found theyre not. Being around it all the time, they dont see it. But going down there to Master Ultan brings it home to the cleverer ones. "

  "You are the advocate of the dead. "

  The old man nodded. "I am. People talk about being fair to this one and that one, but nobody I ever heard talks about doing right by them. We take everything they had, which is all right. And spit, most often, on their opinions, which I suppose is all right too. But we ought to remember now and then how much of what we have we got from them. I figure while Im still here I ought to put a word in for them. And now, if you dont mind, Autarch, Ill just lay the letter here on this funny table - "

  "Rudesind. . . "

  "Yes, Autarch?"

  "Are you going to clean your paintings?" He nodded again. "Thats one reason Im eager to be gone, Autarch. I was at the House Absolute until my master - " here he paused and seemed to swallow, as men do when they feel they have perhaps said too much " - went away north. Got a Fechin to clean, and Im behind. "

  "Rudesind, we already know the answers to the question you think we are going to ask. We know yo
ur master is what the people call a cacogen, and that for whatever reason, he is one of those few who have chosen to cast their lots entirely with humanity, remaining on Urth as a human being. The Cumaean is another such, though perhaps you did not know that. We even know that your master was with us in the jungles of the north, where he tried until it was too late to rescue my predecessor. We only want to say that if a young man with an errand comes past again while you are on your ladder, you are to send him to Master Ultan. That is our order. " When he had gone, I tore open the envelope. The sheet within was not large, but it was covered with tiny writing, as though a swarm of hatchling spiders had been pressed into its surface. His servant Inire hails the bridegroom of the Urth, Master of Nessus and the House Absolute, Chief of his Race, Gold of his People, Messenger of Dawn, Helios,

  Hyperion, Surya, Sav-itar, and Autarch!

  I hasten, and will reach you within two days.

  It was a day and more ere I learned what had taken place. Much of my information came from the woman Agia,

  who at least by her own account was instrumental in freeing you. She told me also something of your past dealings with her, for I have, as you know, means of extracting information.

  You will have learned from her that the Exultant Vodalus is dead by her act. His paramour, the Chatelaine Thea, at first attempted to gain control of those myrmidons who were about him at his death; but as she is by no means fitted to lead them, and still less to hold in check those in the south, I have contrived to set this woman Agia in her place. From your former mercy toward her, I trust that will meet with your approval. Certainly it is desirable to maintain in being a movement that has proved so useful in the past, and as long as the mirrors of the caller Hethor remain unbroken, she provides it with a plausible commander.

  You will perhaps consider the ship I summoned to aid my master, the autarch of his day, inadequate - as for that matter do I - yet it was the best I could obtain, and I was hard pressed to get it. I myself have been forced to travel south otherwise, and much more slowly; the time may come soon when my cousins are ready to side not just with humankind but with us - but for the present they persist in viewing Urth as somewhat less significant than many of the colonized worlds, and ourselves on a par with the Ascians, and for that matter with the

  Xanthoderms and many others.

  You will perhaps already have gained news both fresher and more precise than mine. On the chance that you have not: The war goes well and ill. Neither point of their envelopment penetrated far, and the southern thrust, particularly, suffered such losses that it may fairly be said to have been destroyed. I know the death of so many miserable slaves of Erebus will bring no joy to you, but at least our armies have a respite.

  That they need badly. There is sedition among the Paralians, which must be rooted out. The Tarentines, your Antrus-tiones, and the city legions - the three groups that bore the brunt of the fighting - having suffered almost as badly as the enemy. There are cohorts among them that could not muster a hundred able soldiers.

  I need not tell you we should obtain more small arms and, particularly, artillery, if my cousins can be persuaded to part with them at a price we can pay. In the meanwhile, what can be done to raise fresh troops must be done, and in time for the recruits to be trained by spring. Light units capable of skirmishing without scattering are the present need; but if the Ascians break out next year, we will require piquenaires and pilani by the hundreds of thousands, and it might be well to bring at least a part of them under arms now.

  Any news you have of Abaias incursions will be fresher than mine; I have had none since I left our lines. Hormisdas has gone into the South, I believe, but Olaguer may be able to inform you.

  In haste and reverence, INIRE

  CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX - OF BAD GOLD AND BURNING

  Not much remains to be told. I knew I would have to leave the city in a few days, so all I hoped to do here would have to be done quickly. I had no friends in the guild I could be sure of beyond Master Palaemon, and he would be of little use in what I planned. I summoned Roche, knowing that he could not deceive me to my face for long. (I expected to see a man older than myself, but the redhaired journeyman who came at my command was hardly more than a boy; when he had gone, I studied my own face in a mirror, something I had not done before. )

  He told me that he and several others who had been friends of mine more or less close had argued against my execution when the will of most of the guild was to kill me, and I believed him. He also admitted quite freely that he had proposed that I be maimed and expelled, though he said he had only done so because he had felt it to be the only way to save my life. I think he expected to be punished in some way - his cheeks and forehead, normally so ruddy, were white enough to make his freckles stand out like splatters of paint. His voice was steady, however, and he said nothing that seemed intended to excuse himself by throwing blame on someone else.

  The fact was, of course, that I did intend to punish him, together with the rest of the guild. Not because I bore him or them any ill will, but because I felt that being locked below the tower for a time would arouse in them a sensitivity to that principle of justice of which Master Palaemon had spoken, and because it would be the best way to assure that the order forbidding torture I intended to issue would be carried out. Those who spend a few months in dread of that art are not likely to resent its being discontinued. However, I said nothing about that to Roche but only asked him to bring me a journymans habit that evening, and to be ready with Drotte and Eata to aid me the next morning.

  He returned with the clothing just after vespers. It was an indescribable pleasure to take off the stiff costume I had been wearing and put on fuligin again. By night, its dark embrace is the nearest approach to invisibility I know, and after I had slipped out of my chambers by one of the secret exits, I moved between tower and tower like a shadow until I reached the fallen section of the curtain wall.