Hitman - the Series: A Bad Boy Mafia Romance Collection (Alexis Abbott's Hitmen #0)

by Alexis Abbott

  There is a solid few inches of clear space between my body and the one next to me, and I realize with a jolt that I have tangled myself up in the entire blanket, leaving my new husband’s shirtless body completely uncovered. He’s obviously made no attempt to steal the sheets from me, letting me sleep comfortably while goosebumps rise along his limbs from sleeping in the cool air without a blanket. And the space between us sends a little vibration of appreciation through me, as it occurs to me that he has been lying perfectly straight and still, nearly on the edge of the bed, just so that he wouldn’t touch my sleeping body and wake me up.

  Or perhaps, a cruel voice in the back of my head suggests, he is just so repulsed by me that he doesn’t want to brush up against me in the night.

  I shake myself internally of that thought. He has married me. He has chosen me. So he must really want me — right? Then the events of last night come rushing back to me in a series of rapid-fire images and sound bytes: his face between my legs, my own cries of astonished pleasure, his words to me, low and possessive.

  I want you.

  I swallow hard, my eyes lingering on the chiseled outline of Andrei’s muscular stomach and chest. Last night I didn’t get to see any of this, the hard abdominals and rock-hard chest, his bulging biceps and solid jawline. The soft, dim light plays along the contours of his handsome face. Even in sleep, his expression is cold and hard. I almost want to reach out and touch his full, sensual lips, run my finger along his straight nose and heavy brow. I want to smooth away the slight worry lines and convince his beautiful mouth to smile.

  But instead, I slowly sit up in bed and look down at myself.

  I have to suppress a gasp at the sight of my totally naked body.

  I cannot believe I have slept next to a man in the same bed without any clothes on! My mother would be so disappointed, my father enraged! But then, I think bitterly, they are the ones who forced me into a smelly basement in only my underwear, surrounded by revolting men.

  Except for one man. The one who saved me.

  Or did he? Perhaps he was just another bidder, surveying me like a customer at the butcher, appraising each pound of flesh with a detached hunger...

  Biting my lip, I feel a lump rising in my throat and tears stinging in my eyes again. It isn’t fair. All the other girls in the congregation have been married off to men we all knew. Upright, conservative, godly men who wore khakis and sweaters and sang in the choir. Men who would surely avert their eyes and condemn the very sort of meat market I was pushed into. I’ve spent my entire life waiting for my Prince Charming, and now I’m stuck with this dark, ominous man I first saw in a dark and terrifying basement. This is not at all how I envisioned my life.

  Getting out of bed carefully so as not to wake Andrei, I quietly pad out of the room, searching for a bathroom. When I walk into the living room, my stomach drops as my eyes land on the huge, floor-to-ceiling window across the room. A flash of last night invades my brain and I recall the cold glass against my spine, my new husband kneeling between my thighs, his tongue eliciting such sensations from my nether parts that I never thought possible.

  I shudder to myself, thinking of how many transgressions against God I have made in this past week alone. Naked in front of men. Impure thoughts. Resentment toward my mother and father. Forgetting to pray. Marrying a man who doesn’t seem to be of my faith…

  One solitary, insistent tear finally escapes to roll down my cheek as I fumble for the bathroom door handle. Pushing inside, I pat at the wall in the darkness until I find the light switch and flip it up. My mouth falls open the second the light illuminates the room.

  This is the biggest, most luxurious bathroom I have ever seen.

  My eyes must be the size of saucers as I walk slowly around the room, my hands roving over every polished edge. This bathroom is bigger than my bedroom back home, with the bricked left and right walls lined by gray stone counters, deep marble sinks, and brushed metal finish, with mirrors perched over the length of the counters. The floor is made up of some kind of dark gray stone, cut irregularly to give it a natural, outdoorsy look. The light fixture above my head, in the center of the ceiling, is a heavy-looking, impressive candle chandelier. At the end of the room is an elaborate stone shower with multiple spigots and a massive, deep bathtub big enough to comfortably fit at least three people.

  Not that three people should ever sit in a bath together.

  With awe, I walk over to the bathtub and, after having to examine it for a couple minutes to figure out how it works, I turn both spigots to start the flow of water. I search under the counters and find a stack of neatly-folded, fresh-smelling black towels. This is the warmest room in the apartment so far, in both temperature and ambiance. I wonder if Andrei ever uses this bathtub, or if he is strictly a showering kind of man. It is difficult to picture him sinking into a bubble bath, that hard body and solemn face sinking in among the floral-scented bubbles.

  A smile twitches at my lips, but fails to follow through.

  To my dismay, I am unable to find any bubble bath, anyway. So I settle for a hot, bubble-less bath, taking a bar of very standard, utilitarian soap from the shower. It looks like the kind of soap one would use to remove excessive gunk, as for someone with a very dirty, grimy job. My mother used to buy soap similar to this for my little brother, as he was a particularly messy child, always jumping into mud puddles and playing with bugs. A twinge of heartbreak hits me then, imagining Isaiah with dirt smeared across his chubby cheek, a mischievous grin on his lips, revealing a gap where his two front baby teeth fell out.

  I sink into the bath and splash my face with hot water, letting it mix with my tears. I miss him more than anything else. I wish so badly I could run to his room and hug him, read him his favorite passages, tickle him and make him burst into those infectious peals of laughter I love so much. Under our roof, there was always an air of sternness, of still and slightly oppressive calm. But Isaiah broke the silence — he was loud, he was rambunctious, and he injected some much-needed joy into our household.

  I miss him dearly. I wonder to myself who will hug him and swing him around now? Who will make him grilled cheese sandwiches and read nursery rhymes in silly voices? I know my mother loves him, and she will keep him properly fed and clothed and cared for, enough to maintain his health and appearance. But she is not particularly affectionate. Isaiah is a difficult child at times, and I worry that she will not be able to tame him on her own, or that my father will step in to beat him into shape.

  The thought almost makes me want to jump out of the bath and run all the way back to upstate New York and scoop Isaiah up in my arms, keep him safe.

  But I know that isn’t an option. I am a married woman now, at eighteen years old, and I cannot play caretaker to my baby brother anymore. I have someone else to care for and attend to — my husband. I only wish I knew how to do that.

  He is so strong and silent that I wonder if he even has needs. Surely he feels lonely sometimes, living all alone in this big, beautiful apartment, in this relentless and anonymous city. But he seems so put-together. How can I possibly contribute to his lifestyle in any meaningful way? He appears, for all intents and purposes, to be doing perfectly well without me. As far as I know, he doesn’t have a maid or a cook or anyone to keep his home for him. I am shocked at the idea of a man taking care of his own home without a woman’s help.

  And the apartment is flawless! All my life I have been trained to cook, clean, and serve. But how can I do any of those things where they aren’t needed or even requested?

  But then, I remind myself darkly, there are other needs a man must satiate.

  Ones that I have not been educated about at all.

  I can clean a house, cook a meal, and wait on a man hand and foot but I don’t know the first thing about pleasing a man… sexually. And last night, I never even got the chance. Or did I? A feeling of shame and regret passes over me. It was our wedding night and I was the only one who had received any pleasure! And my
pleasure is irrelevant! A woman is not meant to feel such ecstasy — it is her duty to serve, not to be serviced! Perhaps I only misread the signals, missed my cue. Maybe Andrei was hoping I would return the favor somehow, instead of lazily letting him do all the work.

  My first night as a wife and I was already drenched in failure!

  I cover my face with my hands and cry, letting the pent-up emotions finally bubble out of me, the tears streaking down my knuckles and into the bath water. I sit that way for quite some time, my shoulders shaking, my knees pulled to my chest, my long blonde hair floating like a massive halo around me in the water.

  “What’s the matter?” asks a deep, throaty voice from the doorway.

  Startled, I let out a gasp and wrap my arms around my knees, trying unsuccessfully to cover my exposed body in the bath. Andrei is standing near the door, even taller and broader than I remember. His black hair is slightly ruffled from sleep and his eyes have the faintest of dark half-moons below them. There’s stubble shadowing his jaw and his muscles ripple as he moves toward me slowly, with some trepidation.

  “I — I hope I didn’t wake you,” I reply weakly, my voice thin and warbling from tears.

  He stops suddenly and cocks his head ever so slightly, surveying me with an expression bordering almost on pity. I can see a flash of something like regret flicker in his eyes. Then he averts his gaze and keeps walking closer.

  “You didn’t,” he answers simply, refusing to look at me even as he sits down on the edge of the bathtub. He passes a large hand back over his hair and lets out a heavy sigh. Then he asks, with genuine concern, “Why are you crying?”

  “It’s nothing,” I assure him, hastily wiping my face. “I’m alright. Just washing off.”

  He starts to turn his eyes toward me again, then stops and shuts them. “May I — may I look at you?” he asks gruffly.

  My heart swells a little at how gentlemanly he is. The rush of sudden affection I feel causes my lips to form the word, “Yes.”

  With that, Andrei turns to fix his eyes on mine, his nearly-black gaze locking on me. To my surprise, I don’t feel ashamed to have him look at my naked body curled up like this. There is no cruelty, no disgust, no admonishment in his expression. He simply looks at me like I am fully-clothed, like I’m a regular person deserving of respect.

  “I guess I’m a little homesick,” I admit finally.

  Andrei nods slowly.

  “I understand that,” he replies after a long pause.

  I tilt my head to the side and, without thinking about it much, I reach for his hand. He doesn’t seem to mind that my hand is wet and pruny as he takes it in his.

  “Where is your home?” I press, truly interested. I wonder what kind of land must produce a man like Andrei, all rugged lines and dark countenance.

  “Siberia,” he answers.

  I can feel my eyes growing large at this answer. I remember seeing the wide expanse of Siberia on world maps in my geography textbooks. It’s always been a total mystery to me, and in fact, I didn’t know that anyone really lived there. I’ve generally assumed it to be inhabited only by the occasional bear or reindeer.

  “Really?” I ask breathlessly, staring up at him expectantly.

  “I come from the coldest region inhabited by mankind,” he says.

  “How cold?” I sit up straighter and move closer.

  Andrei looks at me thoughtfully for a moment before stroking the hair back out of my face and caressing my cheek. Instinctively, I first wince at his touch before leaning into it. I am not used to such tender, intimate gestures. But I think I will probably love getting used to it.

  “In my homeland, it is so cold in the winter that the air will freeze solid in your lungs if you dare draw a breath outside,” he explains, a twinkle of nostalgia in his eyes.

  “How did you survive?”

  He chuckles, a pleasant sound, surprising to hear from him. “Well, I held my breath and wore a lot of layers. Besides, it was all I ever knew back then.”

  “Do you miss it? Do you miss your parents?” I ask, leaning forward to rest my chin on his boxers-clad thigh. He stiffens a little and I worry that it’s because of me.

  But then he explains, “My mother and father died when I was very young.”

  I sit back and hang my head in apology. “I shouldn’t have asked. I’m sorry.”

  Andrei takes my chin to tilt my head up and face him.

  “You are my wife. You don’t have to apologize for asking about my past.”

  At those words — ‘my wife’ — I feel my heartbeat quicken.

  After a couple moments I add, “How do you deal with it? The homesickness, I mean.”

  He gives me a sympathetic look. “I can take you to a place I go to forget my pain.”

  “Where is it?” I ask.

  Andrei gets up and hands me the black towel from the counter. “Dry off and get dressed and I will show you around the city. New York may not be the home I remember, nor is it the one you know, but it is the home we share together now. And it isn’t as bad as it may seem. I promise you that.”

  9

  Andrei

  “I’m not sure it’s the best fit, Cassie…”

  “Oh, it’ll be fine, those big jackets of yours are supposed to cover everything to keep you warm, right?”

  I try not to smile in bemusement as I watch Cassie struggle to pull one of my massive winter coats over her shoulders. It nearly engulfs her entire body, and as she pulls the hood up over her head, it falls over her eyes, and I can’t hold back a laugh.

  It’s mid-morning, and I’m taking Cassie out.

  “Perhaps we should do some clothes shopping while we’re in the city,” I venture. I figure it’s about time for this poor girl to experience a little more style than what her father and mother picked out for her.

  She’s wearing one such ensemble under my jacket, and it’s a bit like looking at a sepia-toned antique photo. A long brown skirt runs down to touch the knees, and a beige sweater covers up most of that. Her shoes are a little clunky, and her socks aren’t nearly long enough to cover her shins. Even that bit of exposed skin manages to make her look modest.

  “Brighton Beach is still NYC, so if you’re going to live down here, you might like to dress the part,” I add on.

  “Well what’s wrong with this?” she cries, pulling the hood down and sticking her lip out at me in protest. “I know it isn’t the most modest thing in the world, but everyone at church seemed okay with it.”

  I raise my eyebrows at her and help her find her way out of my jacket. “Yes, well, I think you might like a little more variety than the one suitcase you brought with you. A husband ought to provide for his wife, don’t you think?”

  I see the hint of a smile play across her lips, and she bats her eyelashes up at me, though I don’t think she realizes she’s doing it. “Alright. One store.”

  The Lower East Side is already bustling with activity at this hour, and Cassie can’t seem to tear her eyes away from the window.

  I can’t help but chuckle, glancing over at her awestruck expression.

  “Don’t laugh,” she chides, though she quickly bites her lip in embarrassment, before adding on more reverentially, “I hardly left my own neighborhood is all.”

  “Well don’t lose all your energy taking in the crowds, we aren’t even at the Orchard Street district yet.”

  She tilts her head at me curiously, and as she opens her mouth, I cut her off before the question escapes her lips.

  “No, it isn’t an apple farm, it’s just a shopping area.”

  A few minutes later, we’ve parked, and even as Cassie walks with both her arms wrapped around one of mine as she shivers in the brisk air, her eyes are wandering all over the scenery around her.

  The Historic Orchard Street district is busy, but the commotion only adds to the powerful heartbeat of the area.

  “Andrei, this place is like something out of a movie! I didn’t even know you could put this m
any clothing stores in one place! Don’t they all just end up selling the same kind of stuff?”

  “You didn’t go on shopping trips with your mother very much, did you?”

  “No, most of it came from church yard sales, why?”

  I laugh and hold her tighter to me, and she gives an adorable little squeak as I half-lift her up off the ground. I can only imagine what a magical experience the sights and sounds of this place must be for her.

  The internationality of the area is what really seems to grab her. I let her gently tug at my arm lead us to just about every window on the stretch of street we walk down, and she indulges nearly every beckoning merchant urging us to come see their wares.

  I find myself smiling a little more with each distraction. She begs me to take her into a little Turkish coffee shop, and a moment later, I’m trying to warn her not to burn herself on the bitter drink she’s never tasted before. I end up drinking most of hers for her, but even the little bit she gets into her system puts an extra spring in her step.

  She seems to have boundless energy, but small as she is, her teeth keep chattering, so I stop at one of the cart vendors and let her pick out a hand-knit scarf to wrap herself in. She chooses a pink and white one with little pom-poms on the tassels, and I show her how to wrap it properly so it fits snug, but not too tight.

  After what feels like hours, I feel her slowing down at my side.

  “What’s the matter, coffee crash hitting you already?”

  “Hm? Oh, oh no, nothing,” she waves off, but I notice that she was looking towards one of the shops, and I follow her gaze. There’s a large clothing boutique on a street corner, and there are elaborate designs adorning the legion of mannequins in the windows.