by Pet TorreS
“He’ll appear.” I was trying to be persuasive again as I was really believing that Christian was ok.
“He’s all I crave!” She confessed gazing to my face.
“It’s strange...” I said softly and glanced away. Something looked wrong with his disappearance.
“I see you didn’t bother about Eros’ disappearance! What happened to Eros and you that night? Did he hurt you? She asked, stepping closer.
“Eros... told me about his trip. He needed to visit his parents and he doesn’t know when he will return,” I said in an unconvincing voice. Eros’s memories always made me miserable. I imagined I was an unhappy creature in the world. The absence of his love constantly made me think like this.
“At least he’s okay,” she said without hope for Christian and wished secretly Eros could have disappeared instead of him.
“You’re right!”
“Do you miss him?” She looked at my face.
“Yes, I miss him so much! But I think it is better all has happened this way.”
“Why? You’re in love with him!” she affirmed and observed my reaction during her words. Mirta noticed I was endeavoring to be strong against my loving frustration.
“I never told I am in love with him.” I shook my head at her.
“You don’t need to tell me that. Who would not have noticed that?” at the end of her words she gave me a shrug.
“I don’t want to talk about it... I don’t want to talk about him,” I said quickly.
“Okay,” she agreed.
~~~
Taking my seat in my class, my eyes ran toward a chair at the end of my classroom. The same chair which Eros had always sat in. I imagined him there, sitting on it and staring at me.
When I just woke out of my day-dream, I saw everyone staring at me in the class. They noticed my black clothes and my obscure face.
They knew I wasn't the same Valkyrie. Something was wrong with me. They didn’t know exactly what was happening to me, however.
I looked down at my books, trying to escape their investigative eyes.
While the students walked out of their classes, two schoolmates approached me. They were enchanted by my cryptic appearance. I was in my black pleated skirt, knee-length, black panty hose, black blouse and black top boots.
“I like your new style!” the black-haired girl said, with a smug smile on her face.
“It is totally dark!” another girl added.
They had the same style like my friend Mirta. They were dressed in their in their pink colored clothes.
“Thanks!” I said grinning.
They had no idea why I had adopted a different style from that which I was accustomed to.
I didn’t wear those dark clothes because I loved them. It was necessary. My view was more sensitive before clear -colored clothes.
CHAPTER 5
I was coming back home, walking into slow motion, observing a landscape totally green, the wind whistled through the vivacious trees. All was different from everything I‘d seen on Neptune, where there were dry trees and darkness.
There appeared in front of me a seven–year old boy. He rode on his red bike toward me. A stone on the way interrupted his route. He fell to the ground after I had moved past it. His bike fell shortly after his body.
He mumbled when he saw his wounded knee. I took five steps forward to help him.
“Are you all right?” I asked him as I grabbed his arm, trying to pick him up.
“My knee aches!” he said, crying.
I was surprised to see his knee was covered with blood....Then I closed my eyes, avoiding an increasing desire inside me.
The sweet soft scent of his blood turned me into a bloodthirsty vampire. I turned around and quickly looked up at the sky thus the little boy could not see my supernatural face. My eyes changed color. They were gray and my teeth became sharp.
My brain imagined a drastic scene. I had penetrated my fangs into his neck flesh.
I fought against my thoughts as much as I could.
Then my muscles compressed and an extensive pain invaded my stomach. It was the symptom in favor of my blood’s dependence.
First, I wanted to save the existence of that innocent child. I didn’t want to interrupt his lifetime to feed myself. It would be such cruelty.
Despite the fact that I had become a vampire, I struggled against it. I didn’t want to adjust myself to their form.
I tried to feed as little as I could to try and preserve lives
“Go away!” I shouted at him. “Go away, now!”
The boy, startled, took his bike, went up on it and was pedaling away. He didn’t understand what was wrong with me, though, he followed my orders.
I put my hands against the ground and looked up into the air. The cloudy sky had witnessed my agony. My gaze and my teeth had come back to normal.
At that moment, I realized I had defeated my wish to drink blood, at least...in that moment.
CHAPTER 6
At one night, I took advantage everyone was asleep in that quiet town. My mother was asleep in herbed. But I refused to stretch my body on my soft mattress as I looked at my single bed and then looked in the direction of the open window in my room.
An owl appeared in my window. My heart raced with disorder.
It had to be him.
Eros was there and came just to visit me in my room as he did many times.
So I approached the open window, while the extremity of my long nightgown dragged on the floor. Before I even approach him, the bird flew back away and reached the darkness outside.
I did not hesitate and went through the window like a flash and went after him. I started jumping from roof to roof, chasing the owl.
The bird did not want to stop anywhere as looked to run away from me. But I wanted to approach him and make sure he was the one who I was thinking it was.
Soon I took another longest jump and stood on the roof of another second floor house. The owl landed on the chimney of a residence and lay still. He looked at me with his yellow eyes.
My steps slowed and I approached him with gentleness. A gentle wind played my long dark hair back and also shook the hem of my long light nightgown.
I raised my arms toward the bird and approached him more.
“Eros ...”
I murmured, believing it was really him.
Happiness invaded my chest as I imagined it. The vampire Eros had returned to Earth just to come after me. Idealizing he'd need to fix his supernatural eyes on my image and maybe put an end at his enthusiastic desire for me.
My pale cold fingers touched his wings and the owl flew into my open palms. He stood between my fingers and I looked at him with intensity. But at that moment, I felt that Eros was not there. That owl was not him. I just had deceived myself.
After that, I looked towards the sky and saw the very distant planet Neptune. Its blue light shone weakly. But Eros should be there and probably he was sleeping upside down like a bat.
My fingers tightened and I let the owl fly away. Back to where it came from. Not leaving me any doubt that that bird was not in fact who I was thinking.
That owl was not my vampire Eros...
Then I closed my eyes and touched my hands on my ears and started listening to the song of the Evanescence band, song called "My immortal '.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish you would just leave que
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And I will not leave me alone
These wounds will not seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much que team can not erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of These years
But you still have all of me
You us
ed to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds will not seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much que team can not erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of These years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself That You're Gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of These years
But you still have all of me
At that second, my thoughts were abandoned in the image of Eros. Just in his eyes as fascinating, in his excessive coldness and also in his protection in favor of me. He was my guardian and I had the knowledge of it.
CHAPTER 7
I slept a lot more. I was late for school.
Then my mother realized I hadn't woken yet. She walked into my room and gazed at my bed.
While I slept on my stomach, my long black hair flowed over my pillow. My nightgown’s loop went down my shoulder. My left-lung was revealed and my mother stopped her gaze on my tattoo.
My mother’s face puckered up in irritation and disappointment at me.
When I woke up, she was not in my room any longer. I walked to my wardrobe and put away my night-dress and remained barefoot as I was thinking of something that was not school.
My mother got up from the couch and started walking through the living room, but the television was on.
“You didn't go to school today,” she said and pressed the ‘Stop’ button on the remote and the screen became black. So in this moment I perceived she desired to have a talk with me.
“Oh... I think I slept too much.” I wiped my hand across my forehead and imagined I should have woken up in time to go to school. That way my mother would not be looking in me that way, as if I had done something terrible that day.
“What tattoo is this on your back?” she asked, discontented.
“How can I tell...?” I shook my head as I was a little dazed and so noticed she was annoyed at me for that motive and not because I had not attended school that morning.
“Valkyrie, I didn’t expect this from you!” she confessed. There was edginess in her voice.
“Me too,” I declared, shaking my head and closing my eyes at all for some instants.
“What's going on, Valkyrie?” She looked down at the ground. “Are you rebelling against me?”
“No... It is nothing to do with you!” I said dissatisfied, after looking at her.
“Why did you do this? You know I don't like tattoos!”
“I didn't!” I confessed as I looked up at her face all over again. Maybe my explications would never make her comprehend that tattoo on my back. So I preferred not to go deep in that subject.
“How?” she asked, disappointed. “What are you talking about?”
“I won’t try to explain it... you wouldn't understand the reason why I have this symbol,” I said, looking around and my hands touched my waist. I also sighed too.
“What symbol is this? Where did you get it?” she insisted.
“Mother, I really can’t explain the details. You must stay out of this,” I advised and wanted to finish that converse. But mother’s voice continued saying.
“I'm your mother and you still owe me an explanation!”
“No!” I said and stepped out of the living room, avoiding a major discussion about it. However, my mother wasn’t satisfied. She came walking after me, searching for answers. Consequently I avoided looking back at her.
“Who’s playing with your mind? Your friends?” she insisted and her voice was elevated.
“They have nothing to do with this!” I contradicted and turned to face her.
“Your friend Eros... He looks to like he would do this kind of thing.”
“What do have against him?” I stared at her, frustrated.
Minutes before, Eros was not part of our converse. Why should his name be mentioned at this instant? He was distant from me and I believed his name should be as well.
“He doesn't seem to be a good boy! You became strange after you met him.”
“You don’t like Eros.”
“I don’t want you to be friends with him!” she ordered.
“Your wish is realized.” I took my hand away and folded my arms across my chest. “He went away from this town,” I muttered, my voice almost inaudible.
“That’s good news!” she exclaimed, happy and fixed her eyes on me.
So I nodded, looking to her too.
“I want to be alone!” I ordered angrily as I knew my mother wished to see Eros stay away from me. That made me hurt.
“If you really like this boy... You need to forget about him! That is because I have never wished to see you together!” she confessed nearly shouting in my direction.
“Okay,” I nodded for the second time and stared down at my feet. Then I quickly closed my bedroom door.
My love for Eros had become a burden in my life.
I realized my mother who had never opposed my feelings for boys, was now doing so. She would want to see Eros stay away from me, even though it would cost my unhappiness.
CHAPTER 8
The strong wind continued to howl....
Some gloomy clouds moved slowly across the dark sky. Stars were adorning the firmament for the duration of that. My eyes always loved to observe them.
I was sitting at the top of a huge mountain. Three bats hovered around me. They flew into the woods with great velocity.
My dress’s black fabric looked to have acquired proper life.
It flew toward the windstorm.
Suddenly, a tenebrous voice sounded in my ears as I didn’t except for that.
“Valkyrie!”
I knew who the owner of that voice was. I heard a familiar voice saying these words, “Come back!”
It was my father’s unmistakable voice. He called my name telling me I should return to his palace. He needed me in Neptune.
Soon I stared toward the sound coming from his voice. I was looking for him and his voice was closer each time as if he was there beside me.
“Father!” I said, looking up at the shady sky. My eyes looked for him. Listing to his voice was not enough.
“Come back, daughter!”
A dark smoke appeared in front of me. My father emerged from it, extending slowly his hand in my direction. He wanted me to him.
I gazed up into his mysterious eyes and saw my mother’s face at the same time while I was confused at everything. I didn't know what to think and what to do but I knew I couldn't abandon my mother again.
In my unconscious, I wished to be with my father at his secure planet. Neptune was my home in fact. I knew I was safe in his castle. There I didn’t need to hide my true origin from anyone. Since then, that was something fine in my life.
But even with all this consideration, I shook my head as I was bewildered. Then I interrupted my daydream. Soon, I looked around my room to a black wall. There was no one there and my father wasn’t in my bedroom either.
I had just dreamed of my father.
Just that.
CHAPTER 9
It was hours of darkness. I was still in school and nobody was in the place.
My instinct designated my procedure that day. There was a need for me to be there at that moment, in the middle of the gym. Nevertheless, I wanted to remain there maybe because of something significant could come up.
Without witnesses, it was inevitable, all that was happening around me. I walked slowly a
nd stopped moving on when four lamps switched on. Then at the same time, they switched off. They seemed to have a life of their own.
All I saw were the flashing lights, intensely, without quitting, like in a nocturnal club. Besides flashing, they also began to shake.
I looked up at the ceiling and also around me and nobody was there.
There was a certainty inside me.
Who might that be?
‘Eros!’
In those seconds, my hope overcame me. It’d been making me wince....
I shuddered at the thought.
“Eros!” I shouted at the four corners of the place and saw nothing.
But the flashing lights flickered more often and its movements added a strange eeriness to the place.
It looked like an answer. Even so, I remained to gaze to the sides. I needed to make myself positive that Eros was there. His presence looked so strong in that place. I could feel him without looking at him. So I insisted for the second time.
“Eros... is it you?”
My thoughts were fed by optimism.
“If it’s you... please become visible!” I said as I thought he would be doing one of his vampire tricks. He was excellent at doing it.
Soon the lights came back to normal. I didn‘t sense anymore of that stunning energy. It wasn’t there any longer.
~~~
That was really right that I did not fall asleep quickly after what happened in the gym. I was imagining Eros could have been there, close to me. It made me realize how much I missed him in my most recent life.
I knew I shouldn’t feel that for him. Not even. But to say this to my stupid heart, that was an almost impossible something to do.
