The Novels of Nora Roberts Volume 1

by Nora Roberts

  “Maybe.”

  She slapped Finn’s hand aside before he could remove the lure. “I’ll do it.”

  With the sun rising higher in the east, they grinned at each other over a five-pound trout.

  They carried four fish back to the cabin with them. Two apiece. Deanna had argued hotly for a tie breaker, but Finn had started the motor. You didn’t catch more than you could eat, he’d told her as he cleaned them.

  “That was great.” Still revved, Deanna spun around the kitchen. “Really great. I feel like a pioneer. Are we going to have fish for lunch?”

  “Sure. We’ll fry some up. Let me beef up the fire in the living room first.”

  “I really thought it would be boring,” she said, following him in. “I mean that in a good way.” Laughing, she combed a hand through her hair. “But it was exciting, too. I don’t know. Satisfying.” She laughed again.

  “You’ve got a knack for it.” Finn added another log, sat back on his heels. “We can go out for a couple hours tomorrow morning before we head back.”

  “I’d like that.” She watched the firelight dance over his forearm as he prodded the quiet flames into a roar. His profile was to her, relaxed, his eyes dark as they stared into the fire. His hair fell over his brow, curled above the collar of his shirt. “I’m glad you brought me here.”

  He looked over his shoulder, smiled. “So am I.”

  “Not just for the fishing lesson.”

  His smile faded, but his eyes stayed on hers. “I know.”

  “You brought me here to get me away from the papers, and the talk, and the ugliness.” She looked past him, into the fire, where the flames were rising. “You haven’t asked me any more questions.”

  He laid down the poker and turned to face her. “Did you want me to?”

  “I don’t know.” She tried for a smile. “What question would you ask?”

  He asked the one that had kept him restless through the night. “Are you afraid of me?”

  She hesitated. “A little,” she heard herself say. “More afraid of what you can make me feel.”

  He glanced back at the fire. “I won’t pressure you, Deanna. Nothing happens between us that you don’t want.” He looked back at her now, his eyes dark, intense. “I promise.”

  Rather than relaxing, the tension coiled in her stomach; his words, and her certainty that he would keep them, balled it tighter. “It’s not that kind of fear, Finn. It’s . . . seductive.”

  The look in his eyes made her body yearn. She turned away quickly so that she could say it all, say it quickly. “Because of what happened, I’ve never been able to get back what I lost. Until you.” She turned back slowly. The nerves were vicious. She could feel her heart pounding strong and hard in her breast. “I think, until you. And I’m afraid of that. And afraid that I might spoil it.”

  Though he stood, he didn’t approach her. “Whatever happens between us happens to and because of both of us. It’ll wait until you’re ready.”

  She looked down at her hands, linked tight in front of her. “I’d like to ask you a question.”

  “All right.”

  “Are you afraid of me?”

  She stood there, lashes concealing her eyes, slim and fragile-looking in the oversized shirt. A log shifted lazily behind him and sent out a short, small burst of sparks.

  “Deanna, I’ve never been so afraid of anything in my life as I am of you, and what you can make me feel.”

  Her lashes lifted then. And she was no longer so fragile, not with her eyes huge and smoky, her lips softly curved. The first step toward him was the hardest. Then it was easy, to walk to him, to slip her arms around him, to rest her head on his shoulder.

  “I couldn’t have asked for a better answer. Finn, I don’t want to lose what I’m feeling right now.” When he didn’t move, she looked up, lifted her hands to his chest. “I don’t think I will if you make love with me.”

  Of all the emotions he’d expected to feel, alarm was the last. Yet it was alarm that came first, swiftly, overpoweringly, as she looked up at him with trust and doubt warring in her eyes. “There’s no pressure here, Deanna.”

  “There is. Not from you. In me.” Was that his heart racing under her palm? she wondered. How could it be beating so fast when he was watching her so calmly, when his hands were so light on her shoulders. “I need you.”

  It wasn’t merely desire that stabbed through him at the words. There was something sharper and hotter fused with it. His hands slid from her shoulders to her face, cupping it as he lowered his mouth to hers.

  “I won’t hurt you.”

  “I know,” she said, but trembled nonetheless. “I’m not afraid of that.”

  “Yes, you are.” And he regretted that, bitterly. “But you won’t be.” He promised that, fiercely. “You only have to tell me to stop.”

  “I won’t.” There was determination in her eyes again. He swore to himself he would change it to pleasure.

  Her mouth went dry when he unbuttoned her shirt. Slowly, his eyes on hers, he peeled away the first layer, cast it aside. Then smiled. “This is going to take a while.”

  Her laugh bubbled out, nervous and shaky. “I’ve got plenty of time.”

  Her eyes closed, her mouth lifted to his. It was right, so simply, so easily right to press her body to his, to lift her arms and take him to her. She shivered again when he tugged the turtleneck away. But it wasn’t from cold. Nor was it from fear. Still her breath caught when he lifted her into his arms and laid her on the thick pelt of the hearthrug.

  “I don’t want you to think of anything but me.” He kissed her again, lingered over it before sitting back to tug off her boots. “No one but me.”

  “No, I’m not. I can’t.”

  Sun and firelight danced over her closed lids. She listened to it hiss and spark, heard the rustle as he removed his own shirt, pried off his boots. Then he was beside her, gently stroking her face until she opened her eyes and looked at him.

  “I wanted you from the first moment I saw you.”

  She smiled, willing herself to relax, to beat back those little frissons of doubt. “Almost a year ago.”

  “Longer.” His lips toyed with hers, warmed them, waited for hers to respond. “You came running into the newsroom. You headed straight for your desk, then you pulled back your hair with this red ribbon and started beating out copy. It was a few days before I left for London.” He skimmed a hand over the insulating silk covering her torso, barely touching her, hinting only of what could be. “I watched you for a while. It was like someone had hit me with a hammer. All those months later, I saw you standing on the tarmac in the rain.”

  “And you kissed me.”

  “I’d saved it up for six months.”

  “Then you stole my story.”

  “Yeah.” He grinned, then lowered his mouth to her curved lips. “And now I’ve got you.”

  She stiffened instinctively when his hand slipped under the silk. But he didn’t grope, didn’t rush. In moments, the easy caress of his fingers on her skin had her muscles loosening. When they slid up to circle her breast, her body curved to welcome them.

  Like warm rain, this pleasure was soft and quiet and soothing. She accepted it, absorbed it, then ached for it, as he slowly undressed her.

  The heat from the fire radiated out, but she felt only his hands, molding gently, exploring, arousing. His touch lingered, then moved on, lighting flames in which those tiny raindrops of pleasure began to sizzle. When she trembled now, she trembled from the heat. And her breath strangled in her throat.

  He no longer felt the beast clawing at him. There was a sweetness here, and a power. He knew as his lips roamed from hers down to the swell of her breasts that she was his, as completely, as absolutely as if they had been lovers for years.

  Her body was like water in his hands, rising and falling with the tide of pleasure they brought to each other. He heard the wind scraping at the windows, the spit of the fire in the hearth. And the s
ound of his name whispering from her lips.

  He knew he could make her float, as she was floating now, her eyes like smoke and her muscles like warmed wax. And he knew he had only to inch her higher, just a bit higher, to watch her break through those clouds into the storm.

  She felt his teeth scrape over her hip, and the hand she was stroking through his hair went taut. Heat coiled hot in her belly as his tongue streaked over her. She shook her head to refuse it, to will away the sudden, uncontrollable quivering. Then the furnace of pressure built so quickly. She writhed, struggling toward it, struggling away. She tried to call out, to tell him to wait, to give her a moment to prepare. But the pleasure geysered through her, spurting molten through her system.

  He watched the instant of frantic denial, the stunned panic, the mindless pleasure. Everything she felt echoed inside him. As breathless as she, he levered himself over her, raining kisses over her glowing face until she was wrapped around him, until her movements grew frantic and his own churning need demanded release.

  “Look at me.” He fought the words out of his burning throat. “Look at me.”

  And when she did, when their eyes met, held, he slipped inside her. Slowly, his hands fisted in the rug as if he could grip control there, he lowered to her, felt her rise to meet him until they moved together silkily.

  When her lips curved, he pressed his face to her throat and took them both over the edge.

  Chapter Sixteen

  Still dreaming, she turned to him, and he was there. Arms moving to enfold her, body ready to possess her. As the warm light of dawn slid lazily into the room, they joined again. Rhythm fluid, flesh warm, passions met. It was so easy, so effortless, to glide together, without hurry, without thought, while the air throbbed as steady as a pulse.

  The ebb and flow of their bodies, the movement of sex as simple as breathing, had her lips curving before they met his in a long, deep, dusky kiss.

  When their needs peaked, as gentle as the morning, she sighed out his name and drifted from dream to reality to find him still pulsing inside her, a second heartbeat.

  “Finn.” She spoke again, smiling into the quiet morning light. The cross he wore pressed against her skin, just below her heart.

  “Hmmm?”

  “This is an even better way to start the day than fishing.”

  He chuckled, nuzzling at her neck. “Yesterday morning all I could think about was crawling into this bed with you.”

  Her smile spread. “Well, you’re here now.”

  “It seems I am.” He lifted his head, studying her as he toyed with the hair at her temple. Her eyes were big and sleepy, her skin glowing with that translucent polish that was the afterflush of good sex. “We overslept.”

  “No.” Delighted with how easy it was, she ran her hands down his back to the taut skin of his buttocks. “We slept perfect. Absolutely perfect.”

  “You know . . .” He cupped her breast, rubbing his thumb over the nipple and watching her lips part on an unsteady breath. “I was going to teach you how to fly-fish this morning.”

  At his gentle tug, fresh arousal settled in her belly. “Were you?”

  “A dry fly-fisherman is the aristocrat of angling. It takes . . . a master’s touch.”

  She turned her head when he lowered his mouth to her throat. “I could learn.”

  “I think you could.” He scraped his teeth over the pulse that fluttered like bird wings. There was nothing, he decided, more erotic than feeling a woman open herself to pleasure. “I believe you have unlimited potential.”

  She sighed, tightening in response as he hardened inside her. “I always want to be the best. It’s probably a flaw.”

  “I don’t think so,” he murmured. She arched to meet him, already shuddering over the first peak. “It’s definitely a virtue.”

  “Deanna, why would a sharp woman like you continue this sentimental attachment to a loser?”

  “It’s not sentimental.” Deanna sniffed as she unlocked the door to her apartment. “It’s a very practical, very logical loyalty. The Cubs are going to surprise everyone this year.”

  “Yeah, right.” After indulging in a snort, Finn followed her inside. “It would be a surprise if they managed to crawl out of the basement. When’s the last time the Cubs came close?”

  That stung. “That’s not the point.” Her voice, despite her best intentions, was very prim. “They have heart.”

  “Too bad they don’t have bats.”

  She stuck her nose in the air and turned to her answering machine. “Excuse me. I have to check my messages.”

  “No problem.” Grinning, he dropped down on the couch. “We can finish this later. I probably didn’t mention that I was captain of the debate team in college. And this is one I can’t lose.”

  To show her disdain, she stabbed the Play button.

  “Deanna, Cassie. Sorry to bother you at home—even if you’re not there. We’ve got a couple of changes in Monday’s schedule. I’ll just fax them to you. If you have any questions, you know where to reach me. And, oh hell, we’ve had a lot of calls on the tabloid article. I’ve screened a lot of them out, but if you want to respond, I have a list of reporters you may want to agree to speak with. I’ll be in most of the weekend. Call if you want me to set something up.”

  “She never asked any questions,” Deanna murmured. “No one at the office asked any questions at all.”

  “They know you.”

  She nodded, switching off the machine for a moment. “You know, Finn, as hard as the job can be, as much energy as it demands, I wake up some mornings with the feeling that I’ve fallen into clover.”

  “If you ask me, making a living out of chatting for an hour a day smells more like gravy.”

  That made her smile a little. “You handle the earthquakes. I’ll handle the heartaches.”

  He tugged off his jacket. “It’s a shame to waste all those brains.”

  “I’m not wasting them,” she began hotly. “I’m—” But she caught the glint in his eye and stopped. He was only trying to draw her in again. “No thanks, captain. I’m not going to debate you.” She turned back to the answering machine, stopped again. “Do you ever worry that someone’s going to take it all away from you? Tell you one day that it’s over, that there’ll be no more cameras?”

  “No.” His confidence, the easy arrogance of it, made her smile widen. “And neither should you.” He tipped her chin up, kissed her. “You’re terrific at fluff.”

  “Shut up, Finn.” She stabbed the Play button again, then scribbled down the brief message from Simon on a potential hitch on tomorrow’s show, another from Fran telling her the hitch had been diverted. She waited through the blank tape on a delayed hang-up, then gritted her teeth over three calls from reporters who’d managed to wangle her unlisted number.

  “You all right?” Finn came up behind her to rub the tension from her shoulders.

  “Yes.” She indulged herself a moment by leaning back against him. “I’m fine. I have to decide whether to refuse to comment or to draft a statement. I guess I don’t want to think about it yet.”

  “Then don’t.”

  “Playing ostrich won’t make it go away.” She straightened, stepped aside to stand on her own. “I want to make the right decision. I hate making mistakes.”

  “Then you’ve got two choices. You react emotionally, or you react like a reporter.”

  Her brow creased as she thought it through. “Or I combine the two,” she said softly. “I’ve been thinking about doing a show on date rape. I kept pulling back because I thought I was too close. But maybe I’m just close enough.”

  “Why would you put yourself through that, Deanna?”

  “Because I’ve been through it. Because men like Jamie walk away from it. And because . . .” She let out a long breath that threatened to catch in her throat. “I’m tired of being ashamed that I didn’t do anything about it. I’ve got a chance to make up for that now.”

  “It’ll hurt y
ou.”

  “Not the way it once did.” She reached for him then. “Not anymore.”

  His grip on her tightened. Damn it, he needed to protect her. And she needed to stand on her own. The one thing he could do was track down Jamie Thomas and have a nice, long . . . chat. “If you decide to do the show, let me know. I want to be there if I can.”

  “Okay.” She tilted her head back to kiss him before drawing away. “Why don’t I open some wine? Let’s forget about all this for a while.”

  She needed to. He could see the tension creeping back, like a thief, into her eyes. “As long as you’re going to let me stay. And this time I won’t fall asleep on the couch.”

  “I won’t give you the chance,” she told him, and walked into the kitchen.

  Out of habit, he moved to the television first, switching it on just as the late news began. He turned toward the couch, intending to take his boots off and put his feet up. He spotted the envelope lying on the rug just inside the door.

  “I’ve got some chips.” Deanna carried out a tray and set it on the coffee table. “The drive gave me an appetite.” Her smile froze when she spotted the envelope in his hand. “Where did you get that?”

  “It was inside the door.” He’d started to hold it out to her, but drew it back now. She’d gone pale. “What’s the problem?”

  “It’s nothing.” Annoyed with herself, she shook off the vague, niggling fear. “It’s silly, that’s all.” Trying to convince them both she was unconcerned, she took the envelope and split it open.

  Deanna,

  nothing they say would ever change my feelings.

  I know it’s all a lie

  I’ll always believe you.

  I’ll always love you.

  “A shy fan,” she said with a shrug that came off as more of a defensive jerk. “Who needs to get a life.”

  Finn took the sheet from her, scanned it. “Response to the tabloids, I’d say.”

  “Looks like.” But the anonymous faith didn’t cheer her.

  “I take it you’ve gotten one of these before.”

  “I’d have a whole collection if I’d kept them.” She picked up her glass of wine. “They’ve been coming on and off for a year.”