The Earl in My Bed: A Forgotten Princesses Valentine Novella

by Sophie Jordan

  “It’s too late to worry for Owen. I must protect you now.” His lips twisted sardonically. “Owen would expect that of me.”

  She shook her head. “You make no sense.”

  “It’s simple. Either I leave you in scandal, utterly and irreparably ruined. Or I save your name and wed you. Neither situation will please my brother, but even he would agree that the former is unacceptable. The latter, a lesser evil, if you will.”

  She blinked. “You just characterized marriage to me as an evil?

  He winced. “That’s not precisely what I meant to say, Paget.”

  She wasn’t too sure about that. Everything about him was dour and disappointed. He clearly did not want to marry her. Obligation drove him and nothing else. Oh, how he would come to resent her if she agreed. And if it cost him a relationship with his brother, he might grow to loathe her. No matter that he had been just as much a participant in that kiss. He would look at her and see only what she had cost him. His freedom. His brother. She could not live with that.

  Shaking her head, she began to turn away. “No. No. This cannot be happening. I won’t do this . . .”

  He followed her and seized her arm, forcing her to turn and face him. “This affects not only you—”

  “Oh. It damages you, does it?” She snorted her skepticism. “I don’t see how. You’re a man. An earl. You can ruin girls up and down the countryside and your reputation shall remain intact.” A bitter truth that only increased her fury at the helpless situation she suddenly found herself in. She twisted her arm free of his grip. “Thank you for the offer to sacrifice yourself, but I shall weather the storm on my own.”

  “I’m not speaking of me.”

  “No? Who then?”

  “Your father,” he bit out. “Do you really think he can survive the scandal?”

  She sucked in a breath. Suddenly she felt both hot and cold.

  He continued, “Think about it, Paget. His flock would desert him.”

  All because of her.

  “Oh,” she expelled the word on a sigh as she visualized the scenario he was describing. Misery filled her heart. He was right. This could destroy Papa.

  How was it possible for wild and exciting sensations to have consumed her only moments before? The euphoria she felt in his arms felt like a distant thing as anguish filled her heart.

  He released her, his stormy blue-green eyes waiting.

  It didn’t matter if she fled anymore. There was no running away from it. He released her.

  Her eyes stung as she gazed up at him. “It’s not supposed to be like this.”

  “What’s not?” he queried, angling his head.

  Her proposal. Marriage. She wasn’t supposed to wed someone out of obligation and necessity. She wanted . . . more.

  She bit back the words from tumbling free. He already knew as much. She felt as fragile as glass at the moment. She could not abide it if he mocked her.

  And that’s when she realized she had been fooling herself. It wasn’t just passion she wanted. She wanted love. That was the elusive more she had been craving.

  Staring into Jamie’s grim face, she was reminded of the stern and humorless boy he had been. She wanted love and she would never have that from this man.

  Swallowing back a choked sob, she turned and fled through the back of the garden. Nothing on earth would have her brave the ballroom now. She’d circle around to the front and have a footman fetch Papa for her.

  Perhaps once she was home she could figure a way out of this mess. Perhaps it wasn’t nearly as bad as Jamie seemed to think it would be. Perhaps she would be able to laugh about this a fortnight from now.

  As she rounded to the front of the house, her father was already waiting outside beside their carriage, her cloak in his hands, his shoulders hunkered in a way she had never seen before. Usually Papa stood tall and proud, his shoulders pulled back. Suddenly he looked older. Frail.

  Her steps slowed as she approached, dread sinking its teeth deep into her heart as she read his expression.

  He held out a hand to her. “Come, daughter. Let us go home.”

  A thick lump formed in her throat. Nodding, she placed her hand in her father’s and allowed him to assist her inside the carriage.

  There would be no future laughter about this night.

  A hushed silence fell once they settled inside the carriage.

  “Daughter,” Papa began.

  Heat filled her cheeks. She blinked stinging eyes, hating that she had shamed her father. He was everything to her since her mother had died. She could not bear the thought that she had disappointed him.

  “I’m sorry, Papa,” she murmured.

  He patted her hand. “Fret not. I was young once. And in love.” His eyes twinkled at her through the lenses of his spectacles, smudged as always from his fingerprints.

  She sniffed and rubbed the cold tip of her nose. “I cannot blame my behavior on that sentiment.”

  “No? You do not love him then?”

  She shook her head. “I—I don’t know.” She knew she felt something for him. Perhaps it was love. It couldn’t simply be lust. Although there was that. In abundance. Her body grew warm, her bones liquefying just thinking about him . . . his mouth . . . his hands. But love? Something lasting and deep?

  Whatever she felt started when he showed her that glimpse of himself . . . the lonely boy he had been, looking with longing after her and Owen. He’d had no one. No friends that she could recall. His brothers preferred the company of each other . . . of her. That must have stung. Even his father seemed quite unaffected by his existence. As if he didn’t care one way or another if Jamie lived or died. Harsh, perhaps, but not untrue.

  She knew the late Earl of Winningham had been exceedingly proud of Brand, his heir, taking him about the countryside and showing him the proper manner in which to oversee his holdings and attend those dependent on him. Owen had been favored as well, the son of his second wife, a Scottish countess whom he had doted upon.

  Only now did she realize Jamie had been overlooked . . . and left alone.

  She understood loneliness. Since Owen left her, she had been lonely. Living, going about her days, but without feeling anything. Bored. Numb. Jamie had changed all that the moment he returned. She was alive again. He’d brought her back to life.

  Papa sighed. “I’m certain the earl will attempt to set matters to rights and offer marriage.”

  She nodded, staring at her hands. “He has.”

  “Paget, listen well . . . you needn’t make any decisions until you do know your heart.”

  Paget snapped her attention back to her father. “I do not think I have that luxury.”

  He patted her hand again. “You take all the time you need. Marriage is not a decision to be made lightly. It is the rest of your life you are deciding.”

  “Papa, this affects you, too.”

  “Don’t fret about me.” He smiled. “Do I look worried?”

  She smiled hesitantly. “No.”

  “Then you shouldn’t give me another thought. Look inside her your heart. Then go from there.” He slid his hand from hers and turned to stare out the window, looking quite at peace.

  She wished she felt half as content.

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  * * *

  Jamie arrived at the vicarage at first light. He’d debated following Paget home the previous evening but thought it best to give her the night to gather her thoughts and adjust to the reality of her situation. Their situation, he amended, his jaw clenching.

  He’d done this to the both of them. No mistake about it. And it had nothing to do with his need to protect his brother. He’d been selfish and greedy for her. Kissing Paget again had been totally self-driven, and the consequences were his to bear. Owen would never forgive him, but there was no way around it. He could not stand aside and watch as Paget fell to ruin. The least he could do was not openly enjoy the notion that she would be his . . . that he could have her in his bed. He could reach fo
r her any time. Touch her. Kiss her. Sink inside her body and spend himself.

  Amazingly, in the span of one night, he had grown to accept the idea. Even anticipate it. Almost like it was always meant to be. Paget and him. Not Paget and Owen.

  The housekeeper led him to Vicar Ellsworth’s office. He waited only moments in the small space before the vicar joined him.

  “Lord Winningham,” he greeted, moving before the crackling fireplace where Jamie stood warming his hands. He motioned for Jamie to seat himself in one of the wingback chairs. “I was hoping you would call.”

  “Of course. I would not be remiss with my duty.”

  The vicar lowered into the chair across from him. Despite his much shorter frame, he managed to look down his spectacles at Jamie. “Duty? Is that what brings you here?”

  “I apologize for putting Paget’s reputation at risk. It was not my intention—”

  “What was your intention, Lord Winningham?”

  Jamie blinked, unsure how to respond to that bald question. How could he admit that he had not thought much beyond getting his hands on Paget? Touching her, kissing her, tasting her? He certainly couldn’t admit such a thing to her father—a bloody vicar, no less.

  “I will not leave Paget to weather this. Naturally. I’ve come to offer marriage.”

  The vicar studied him thoughtfully for several moments. “I appreciate your sense of responsibility, my lord. Very honorable. But I’m afraid that is not enough for my daughter.”

  Jamie jerked slightly, certain he had misunderstood. “Begging your pardon, sir, but you are denying my suit?”

  The vicar nodded. “I’ve always thought my daughter’s heart was bound to your brother.”

  A growl rose up in his throat. For the first time, he felt a surge of violence toward his absent brother. Since the last night, he had grown quite accustomed, even gratified, with the notion that Paget was his now. He squashed the sentiment, disgusted himself for it.

  “Have you asked your daughter? I think she would tell you that her heart is quite unattached when it comes to my brother—”

  “I’ve come to gather that.” He nodded, pushing his slipping spectacles back up his nose. “I’ll grant you that she wouldn’t be so susceptible to your . . . charms if her heart were engaged with your brother.”

  He sighed, relieved he did not have to persuade the vicar that Paget was not bound to Owen.

  “That said, it’s your heart that concerns me.”

  “My heart?”

  “Yes. I’m not convinced your affections for my daughter run deep enough.”

  He stared at the vicar, quite dumbfounded. “You realize I compromised your daughter. You both stand to become social pariahs? Your very livelihood could be threatened. Even with my support, empty pews on Sunday would be harmful to your position here.”

  The vicar nodded. “Yes. That would be a shame, but there are greater tragedies in life.”

  Jamie stared at him blankly. “Such as . . .”

  The vicar continued, “Such as finding yourself married to someone for whom you feel nothing more than a fleeting attraction. The desires of the flesh are ephemeral. Only love lasts.”

  He opened his mouth to object, but could not find the words to persuade the vicar, short of claiming he was in love with Paget. His throat tightened as the very possibility seized him. In love? With Paget? Could it be? The image of her filled his mind and his palms prickled with the overwhelming urge to find her. Hold her close until her father approved of his suit.

  He visualized her perfectly. Heard the echo of her voice in his mind. I want passion. Desire. She had no qualms, no shame, admitting it to him. Like a siren’s call, her request was something he’d been unable to ignore. Even if she had not issued it directly to him. And yet she wanted more than that. She wanted it all. Everything. Passion wrapped up in love. The most alarming thing of all was that he couldn’t help thinking loving her would be the easiest thing in the world to do.

  Perhaps he already did. Clawing panic swept over him. How could he let that happen? He’d never been good enough. Not even for his own family. What made him think she wanted his love?

  Vicar Ellsworth stared at him as if waiting for his admission of love. When it didn’t arrive, the older gentleman stood. “Thank you for calling. I feel much better now that we’ve had this talk.” The vicar smiled as if he had not just denied the earl’s offer of marriage.

  Feeling as though he had failed some sort of test, Jamie allowed himself to be led from the office. Upon departing the house, he stopped in the yard and turned. A flicker of curtains in an upstairs window caught his notice. He thought he saw a flash of pale, moonbeam hair.

  His panic evaporated. The vague, unsettled feeling lifted from his chest. Resolve stole over him. He felt as though he were back in India, with fresh orders in his hands and a mission to complete.

  He had not failed. This was not over.

  He and Paget were not even close to being finished.

  Paget lurched up in bed with a gasp, her eyes searching the gloom. The remnants of a dream clung like shadowy cobwebs. She clutched the counterpane and pulled it high to her chest. The wind howled outside her window, rattling the panes.

  She’d been on a battlefield, searching for Owen. She called his name again and again, pushing through the smoke, walking amid fallen soldiers. At last she’d come to him. Alive! She embraced him, holding tightly. He set her from him, looking at her sternly.

  “Find Jamie, Paget.”

  “Jamie?” She glanced around at the carnage, her heart constricting. “He’s here?”

  Owen nodded. “Of course, he’s here. He’s always been here. Only you can find him.”

  Nodding, she staggered from Owen’s side, calling for Jamie. Holding her skirts to keep from tripping, she hunted for him among the mayhem. Then she spotted him on a distant rise. She rushed to reach him, Owen’s words playing in her mind. Only you can find him. He’s always been here.

  Just as she was about to reach him, a blast of artillery shook the earth, launching her through the air. She landed on her back, gasping for breath. Rolling to her side, she looked to where she’d last seen Jamie. Only burning, smoldering earth remained. Staggering to her feet, she screamed for him, but he was gone.

  Her breath fell in hard pants as if she were still on that battlefield, hunting for Jamie. She rubbed her hands over her face, wondering what it all meant.

  “Just a dream,” she whispered to herself, shaking off the cobwebs of slumber. Still, she couldn’t slow her heartbeat.

  Her window rattled louder. She frowned and shoved back the covers. Swinging her legs over the side, her bare feet dropped down silently. Rising, she moved toward the window. Pulling back the curtains, she almost screamed at the sight of Jamie, perched in a tree, knuckles rapping the glass.

  She quickly unlatched the window and stepped back, watching in astonishment as Jamie dropped inside her bedchamber.

  On the heels of her nightmare, she had to fight the urge to embrace him. She stepped back, hugging herself to stop herself from doing just that.

  “What are you doing here?” she whispered, glancing over her shoulder toward her door—expecting her father to barge inside.

  “I talked to your father. Now I’m talking to you.”

  Her hands chafed her arms. “You shouldn’t be here.”

  He advanced on her. “How else am I to learn if you’re as foolish as your father?”

  She backed away, lifting her chin a notch. “Don’t malign my father.”

  “He’s a good man. Just not very sensible. You’re ruined if we don’t wed, Paget. So is your father.”

  “Papa doesn’t think I should rush to make a decision—”

  He snorted and moved for her armoire.

  She followed after him. “What are you doing?”

  He pulled her valise out from the bottom. “Packing you.”

  “Packing? For what?”

  “Gretna.”

  He
r mouth sagged. It took her a moment to recover her voice. “You want to elope?”

  His eyes gleamed down at her in the gloom. “Do you know a quicker way to wed in haste? Especially since your father’s not very cooperative on the matter.” He started rifling through her clothing. He glanced over his shoulder at her. “You should probably do this.”

  “No.” The single word slipped from her mouth.

  He stopped and turned, his head cocking to the side. “Be sensible, Paget.”

  “No. They only saw us kiss.” She shook her head. “The gossip will fade.”

  He growled and closed the space between them, his hands closing over her arms. “Then I’ll have to thoroughly and truly compromise you so there is no doubt in your mind.”

  His hands flexed on her arms, singeing her through the sleeves of her nightgown. She felt his gaze on her face . . . her lips. A secret thrill skated over her skin. She suppressed her shiver of excitement and gave a hard shake of her head.

  She opened her mouth to deliver a ringing setdown, but the words never made it past her lips. His mouth crushed hers and her protest died in her throat.

  There was no resistance. She tangled her hands in his hair, pulling his head closer, deepening their kiss and parrying her tongue with his. He backed her up until she bumped the bed.

  He broke the kiss and her eyes fluttered open. Her chest rose and fell with each savage breath that shuddered free of her lungs. His eyes glittered at her in the dark. He gathered her nightgown into two fistfuls against her hips.

  In a single, swift move, he pulled the nightgown over her head. The room’s cool air rushed over her body and she shivered.

  “Do you want me?” he said, breathing against her temple, stirring the fine hairs there.

  She managed a strangled sound, a gurgled affirmation. Want him? With every fiber of her being.

  His big hand cupped her bottom and lifted her high against him, nestling her against his prodding erection. He rounded the curve of her bottom, sliding lower, fingers teasing, probing her entrance and tearing a sharp gasp from her throat.