Riding on Instinct

by Burton, Jaci

  “Nice setup,” Spence said.

  “Yeah.”

  The agent asked questions through the interpreter. The guy started talking some more, and the interpreter arched a brow and turned to John. “He says he’s never seen that dead guy before.”

  Spence went cold. “Lance?”

  “Yeah. He said they dealt with the club owner.”

  “That would be Brandon.”

  The guy nodded. “Sí, Brandon.” Then he started talking again, the interpreter listened, and turned to John when he was finished.

  “He also said some tall blond chick was usually around. One of the strippers. She was Brandon’s girlfriend. Cherry or something.”

  “Cheri?” Spence asked. “That’s Lance’s wife.”

  Spence did an about-face, searching the deck. His skin prickled with unease as he looked for Shadoe, but didn’t see her.

  “Have you seen Agent Grayson?”

  The agents around him just shrugged.

  Not good. He spun on his heel and ran the entire deck until he found AJ. “Where did Shadoe go?”

  “She took DeLaud’s car and went back to the club to tell Cheri about Lance and let Brandon know everything that went down.”

  Spence’s heart slammed hard against his chest. “Sonofabitch. Brandon and Cheri are the inside people.”

  AJ’s eyes widened. “What?”

  He jammed his hand in his pocket where he’d shoved his earpiece earlier. He slid it into his ear now.

  He heard heavy breathing. Moaning. Then voices.

  “Let me kill her and get it over with.”

  “Not yet. I want her to wake up first. Then I’m going to have some fun.”

  Brandon’s voice. Cheri’s. Fuck.

  “Grab Pax. She’s at the club with them. Hurt. We’ve gotta go now.”

  FOR SOMEONE TALL AND SLENDER, CHERI WAS SURPRISINGLY strong. Shadoe was no lightweight, but she’d had the wind knocked out of her so Cheri had the advantage landing on top of her like that. And the first punch to her face had knocked her senseless.

  Cheri was obviously a street fighter, and didn’t mind getting her knuckles bruised. Shadoe was still trying to regain her senses when Brandon grabbed her by the shirt and hauled her to her feet. Dizzy, disoriented, she could barely stand upright when Cheri hit her the second time. She went barreling backward through the double doors leading to the dressing room, tumbling end over end and thankful for the thick carpeting when she hit her head.

  Jesus, that hurt.

  She had to focus, had to grab her wits. She was damn lucky Brandon—who now had her gun—hadn’t just shot her.

  “Quit fucking around. Let me just kill her,” he said.

  “Hell no. This bitch has had it coming since the minute she stepped foot in our club. I’m going to beat her until she’s dead.”

  Fine with Shadoe. Fists she could handle. A bullet was a much more permanent solution, so the longer she could put that off, the better. When Cheri came for her this time, Shadoe was a bit more clearheaded—and sufficiently pissed off.

  Shadoe dodged her and Cheri went sprawling facedown on the carpet. Now it was her turn to jump on top of Cheri. She wrenched her arm behind her back and gave a quick jerk.

  Cheri screamed, kicked her feet back, and tried to buck Shadoe off, but Shadoe had her weight on top now and she wasn’t about to budge.

  Until the butt end of a pistol whipped the side of her head. Pain knifed through her skull and she let go of Cheri’s arm, grabbed her head with both hands, and Cheri threw her off. Shadoe crashed against the wall and landed prone.

  “Goddammit, that hurt.” Hot, sticky wetness trickled down her fingers.

  Blood. Shadoe pressed her fingers against the wound. Great. Now she was dizzy, nauseous, and everything was growing fuzzy. She forced herself to stay conscious. She glared up at Brandon, determined to do whatever it took to stay alive for as long as she could. “Don’t think your girlfriend can take care of herself?”

  Brandon, who she’d thought was such a nice guy, leered down at her now. God, she’d gotten that so wrong.

  “Doesn’t really matter what you say. You’re not going to live through the night.” He raised the gun but Cheri scrambled to her feet and grabbed his arm, pushing the barrel away from Shadoe. She’d like to be grateful, but she knew it was only temporary.

  “No, dammit. Not yet. I’m not finished with her.”

  Panting, disoriented, and just plain sick to her stomach, Shadoe dragged herself to a sitting position, refusing to let this skank get the best of her. She had to clear her head, had to think about how she could get Cheri out of the way, then disarm Brandon.

  Not easy with a bleeding head wound and already beaten by the crazy woman. The odds weren’t in her favor. No one knew about Brandon and Cheri’s role in the drug-smuggling operation. Spence would be busy with the Feds on board the ship for a while and would expect her to return there . . . eventually. They weren’t going to come looking for her.

  She was dead and she knew it. But she wasn’t going to let them kill her while she just sat there. She pushed herself up the wall and braced herself against it—no easy feat considering she no doubt had a concussion. Cheri watched her, a smug, victorious smile on her face.

  “Finish this, Cheri,” Brandon said. “Or I will.”

  The room spun, and Cheri did, too, actually. Shadoe knew it was a product of her head wound, but there wasn’t much she could do about it. She thought about pushing off the wall and launching herself at Cheri, but knew that would be pointless as she’d either fall on her face or miss the woman entirely. So she waited, her right hand tucked behind her, fingers curled into a tight fist. She didn’t have a lot left, but she reserved it for Cheri’s attack.

  When Cheri came for her, Shadoe resisted the urge to sink down, to sidestep. Instead, she waited until just the moment when Cheri was in range. Then she pulled her arm out, hauled it back, and used every ounce of strength she possessed to slam her fist right in the middle of Cheri’s face. Bone crunched as her knuckles connected with the cartilage in Cheri’s nose. Blood spurted everywhere, and her hand hurt like a sonofabitch.

  But she’d hit the spot. Cheri’s eyes slid back in her head and she crumpled like an accordion, hitting the floor with a dull thud.

  Shadoe didn’t even look at her. She bent down, grabbed one of her stilettos, and while Brandon was busy gaping down at his girlfriend, she took the heel end of her shoe and slammed it down on top of his head. The action caused him to raise his gun arm, which she reached for with both hands. Weakened, she didn’t have much strength to fight him, but she intended to hold on as long as she could.

  At least she’d wounded him. Blood poured down his face, into his eyes, forcing him to fight her for the gun and drop his forehead onto his upper arm to wipe away the blood.

  Strengthened by Brandon’s weakness, she fought harder, using everything she had at her disposal. She kicked him with her remaining shoe, pounding down on the top of his foot. He groaned out a curse, pushed against her. She elbowed him in the ribs but he was stronger, finally pushing her hard enough that she lost hold of his arm. She went flying to the ground and immediately rolled over, intent on pushing to her feet.

  But it was too late. He had one hand over his face to wipe away the blood, the other pointing the gun at her.

  She braced herself for the bullet, praying it would be quick and painless. The explosion of gunfire deafened her and she jerked.

  But it was Brandon whose eyes widened in shock. His chest spread with crimson. He flew backward and hit the ground, even in death his eyes still bearing that surprised look.

  She was pretty damned shocked herself, had the urge to check her arms and legs and body to determine where the bullet hole was. But other than her throbbing head and bruised body, she hadn’t been shot.

  The gunfire had come from behind her. She craned her neck around to see Spence holding a gun, AJ and Pax flanking him.

  Relief sent her reeli
ng; the tension drained immediately from her body.

  He’d found her. He’d come. How had he known?

  Spence pocketed the gun and ran to her side, dropping to the floor. He scooped her against him and cradled her in his arms.

  “Jesus, you’re a mess.”

  She smiled up at him. “Thanks.”

  He wasn’t smiling. “Are you okay?”

  Now that it was over and she was safe, she felt oblivion coming. She struggled against it. There was so much she wanted to tell him. “I don’t feel so good.”

  That was all she managed before blackness descended.

  SPENCE PACED OUTSIDE THE HOSPITAL ROOM, STOPPING AT THE closed door to glare at it.

  Not that it did much good.

  They’d had her in there for eight hours—minus the time they’d wheeled her out for a CAT scan, and he hadn’t had a second to even see her. He’d sent Pax and AJ back to Dallas. He wasn’t leaving. Not until he knew what was going on.

  Damn doctors never told you anything.

  And the Department of Justice had already informed him that as soon as the doctors cleared it they were moving her back to D.C. to a hospital there.

  Not back to Dallas. Not with him.

  She wasn’t his, after all.

  Goddammit.

  He went to the nurse’s station outside the emergency room for the fiftieth time. The same stern-looking woman glared back at him.

  “No, you still can’t go in. They’re running tests.”

  “That doesn’t tell me anything.”

  “I’m sure they’ll be finished soon.”

  This was such bullshit.

  He’d never felt so powerless in his life.

  He leaned against the counter as one of the guys in the white coats who he’d seen in Shadoe’s room came up bearing a clipboard.

  “They’re releasing Ms. Grayson to the waiting private ambulance, where she’ll be flown by jet to D.C. I’ve signed off.”

  “Thank you, Doctor.”

  Spence stepped up. “How is she?”

  “She’s stable. She has a severe concussion and a lot of bruising.”

  “But she’ll be fine.”

  “She’ll recover, yes. She’s stable enough for transfer.” The doctor handed the chart to the nurse.

  “Can I see her for a minute before she leaves?”

  “A minute. No more.”

  “Thanks.”

  That was all he needed. He tried not to run, but he walked really damn fast and inched the door open.

  The lights were dimmed, but enough that he could see her.

  Christ, she was pale. His heart dropped. Her eyes were closed and her arms against her sides. She was hooked up to an IV and some kind of monitor that beeped stuff on a screen next to her bed. He stepped fully into the room and shut the door, walked as easily as he could and stopped next to the bed.

  Her face was swollen and bruised, didn’t even look like her. She had cuts and bruises on her arms and neck, the only parts of her body he could see.

  This was his fault. He hadn’t paid attention, hadn’t been there for her. They were partners, he was supposed to be at her side, instead of wrapping up the investigation.

  Why had she gone off alone?

  He slid his hand underneath hers. Her fingers were cold.

  Her eyes opened.

  She smiled. “Hey.”

  It didn’t even sound like her.

  “Hey. How are you?”

  “I feel beat up.”

  “You look beat up.”

  “I think the other guy is worse.”

  He laughed. “The other guy is dead.”

  “Thank you for that.” She squeezed his hand. “You saved my life.”

  He didn’t deserve her thanks. If he’d been there with her, this wouldn’t have happened.

  “Cheri?”

  “They’re patching her up and then she’ll be arrested. You broke her nose.”

  She snorted, then winced. “Ow. Shit, that hurts. But good. I dinged Brandon on the head with my stiletto.”

  Now it was his turn to laugh. “You did?”

  “Yeah. I knew those damn shoes had to be good for something. They make excellent weapons.”

  “You did great.”

  “Thanks. I stayed alive long enough for you to find me.” Her eyes shimmered with tears. “Thank you for finding me.”

  There was so much he wanted to say to her. He didn’t know where to start. But the door opened and the nurse came in. “That’s all. Ms. Grayson needs her rest now.”

  He turned back to Shadoe, didn’t know what to say to her. Couldn’t really say anything with the nurse tapping her impatient foot in the doorway.

  Shit.

  What was there left to say anyway?

  Shadoe stared up at him, her brown eyes breaking him. He knew it would come to this. Best to make it clean.

  He leaned over and pressed a light kiss to her lips. “You take care of yourself.”

  She didn’t say anything, so he did.

  “Bye.”

  She blinked, more tears falling. “Bye.”

  The nurse held the door for him while he walked out. He moved down the hall and out the door, climbed on his bike and started it up, then headed out on the interstate, not even sure where he was going.

  Back to Dallas, he supposed. Where else would he go? He had paperwork to do, had to file his report, wrap up this assignment, and give all the details to Grange.

  This case was over. Shadoe was on her way back to Washington. She’d be okay. The doctor said so.

  He goosed the throttle and increased his speed, needing the wind in his face, needing to clear his head, needing something to fill the emptiness inside.

  NINETEEN

  DRIPPING WITH SWEAT, SPENCE CLIMBED OUT OF THE BOXING ring after going a few rounds with Diaz. It had been brutal, left him ringing wet and more than a bit bruised. But it had served its purpose. For a while, he’d been able to forget everything but fighting for his life.

  “Jesus, Spence, are you deliberately looking for a fight?” Diaz, just as sweaty, leaned over the top rope and stared down at him.

  Spence grabbed a towel and a bottle of water and shrugged. “Just staying in shape.”

  “Bullshit, man. Something’s crawled up your ass in a major way. What’s up?”

  He guzzled down the bottle of water and tossed it in the recycle bin. “Nothing.”

  “It’s not nothing,” AJ said, climbing into the ring.

  “It’s the woman we had the assignment with a few weeks ago,” Pax said, entering the ring after AJ. “He’s in love with her.”

  Spence shot a look at Pax. “You want me to come in there and beat the shit out of you, Pax?”

  Pax smirked down at him. “Is going a few rounds with me going to change how you feel about Shadoe?”

  AJ leaned over the ropes. “Call her.”

  Pax finished tying the laces on his gloves. “Fuck that. Get on a plane or on your bike and go see her.”

  Spence turned away and wiped the back of his neck with the towel. “What good would that do? She has her job, and I have mine.”

  “You could call her,” Diaz suggested.

  Spence spun around. “Again. Why?”

  Diaz rolled his eyes. “Because you’re in love with her? Tell her you want to see her.”

  Spence shrugged. “She could have called me if she wanted to see me.”

  “Jesus, Spence. Man up. Get on your goddamn bike, take some time off, and go to her. If there’s something between the two of you, figure out how to make it work. Trust me, it’s worth it.”

  Diaz would know all about that since he’d had to make it work with Jessie. “It’s different. She’s in D.C.”

  “So you keep telling me. Quit looking for the problem and try to find a solution. If you love her, there’ll be one.”

  Did he love her? He supposed he did. He wasn’t sure he really knew what love was all about. He’d never been in love before. If
love meant feeling miserable, then he supposed he was in love.

  Maybe it was time to find out.

  Not that he thought it would work out.

  It never did.

  But he was no coward. And he wanted to see if she was okay. He flung the towel in the basket. “I’m going to talk to Grange.” Diaz smiled at him. “You do that. And have a good trip.”

  SHADOE PACED THE CONFINES OF HER APARTMENT, STOPPED, and stared out the window at the sunny sky, then frowned.

  “This is stupid. You’re stupid, Shadoe.”

  It had been four weeks. She felt fine, but was on six weeks of forced medical leave by the department until she was cleared. And she had nothing to do but sit around here and think.

  Too much time to think.

  About Spence. About how easily he’d just slipped out of her life with a kiss and a good-bye, and then . . . nothing.

  For the first week she’d been too out of it to really notice. She’d had a killer headache and she’d slept a lot. Her body needed to heal.

  But she recovered fast, and once she got home, sleeping and wandering around her apartment only lasted so many hours. She craved work, something . . . anything to occupy the long hours.

  Her father had called her—not dropped by, of course, but called her. He said she’d performed adequately. In other words, she hadn’t embarrassed him or the family name. That was it.

  So much for love. Then again, it was about what she’d expected from him, so he hadn’t hurt her. He’d long ago lost the capacity to hurt her. She was happy he hadn’t come by to see her. It would have been awkward. They had nothing left to say to each other.

  Which meant she was alone.

  She had friends, but she begged off seeing anyone, claimed she was recovering and needed to be alone.

  She didn’t really want to be alone.

  She wanted Spence.

  She must have picked up her cell phone a hundred times, looked at his name in her address book, her finger hovering on the button. Then she’d put the phone down and walked away. If he’d wanted to contact her, he would have.

  He hadn’t.

  She’d gotten his message loud and clear. The mission was over. They were over. She’d known it was coming, but she just hadn’t wanted to face reality.